*From To Sathish* - Thread 3 - Page 106

Hi people,


In the last chapter of redemption and towards the end,Dhana meets two people,one a giant dheeran and the other palam swamy.The character dheeran is guardian from the village perumalvaram and he makes his entry in the story " The boy who went into the dark" in chapter 13,page 150,posted on 26th february 2015.

http://www.india-forums.com/forum_posts.asp?TID=3448726&TPN=150


In the following chapters,dhana shekara pandyan makes his entry to save sadashivam and palam swamy on the sacred mountains of perumalvaram and everyone realises that dhana is a descendant of Azhagan and he narrates the story of his legendary ancestors.

The character of palam swamy makes his entry in chapter 10 in the story " The boy who went into the dark" page 146 on 3rd february.

http://www.india-forums.com/forum_posts.asp?TID=3448726&TPN=146

Palam swamy made his entry again in this story of Rudran's redemption in chapter 62,page 65 posted on 11 February 2016

Jannal oram 54

"There's this thing love stories always forget to mention. That love isn't a constant thing. Sometimes it changes, other times it fades completely. Sometimes you have to fall in love twice to truly understand it. R.K. Ryals

Manigandan sat in the cane chair,that had seen better days and yet still held his slender body in its barely holding tendrils and he knew that,he either had to dispose it off and buy a new one or get it repaired.But,the price of cane was not what it was like a generation back and he decided that getting it repaired and painted would be easier on the house expenses and lastly,it was him that sat there from morning to evening and no one else.

Mani slowly stood up and cast his eyes on both sides of the streets and noticed with a sadness that many old and retired men like him sat in front of the house with nothing to do after dinner or for that matter before dinner.Mani hated the news channels that only telecast murders,rapes,fights,terrorist attacks and all the games that politicians and popular film stars got into and screwed themselves.Mani,could not understand why the public were so interested in other people's lives and what they did behind closed doors and he knew that although technology was to be blamed for this opinion's filled world,the advance towards a tech filled future could not be given up or held back.

Mani turned his eyes towards the other end of the street and caught sight of jeeva and raman walking towards him in the distance.Mani smiled gently and his heart filled with happiness for he thought the world of his daughters,especially jeeva and had a soft spot for her and hell of a lot of gratitude for all the sacrifices that she had made.

But,even from this distance,and from just seeing the way she walked and held her shoulders and also the way she kept crumpling and uncrumpling the end of her saree,mani knew that jeeva was upset and slowly walked into the house and entering the kitchen,tapped kamakshi on her shoulder.

" Jeeva looks a bit angry and irritated and so it is better not to pick or probe her and for that matter raman too.Invite him for dinner,but dont press him too much.Understood.Okay,now let me go warn suja too for that clown will throw a spanner in the works and god knows what she might set off " and hurried to his daughters bedroom and informed suja of the situation and then went back to the entrance of the house and acted as if he was just getting up from the chair.

The gate creaked noisily announcing that its rusty limbs and hinges were being awakened to action and motion and the sounds echoed in mani's arthritis riddled knees that were now slowly and surely spreading to his shoulders and hips.

But pushing away the pain,an art that he had perfected over many years,Mani smiled warmly and greeted raman " welcome sir,come,please come inside" and led them both into the house and kamakshi came hurriedly " Hi raman,how are you doing?" and raman with a smile " I am doing okay but i will do better and feel better after you have accepted my apologies for bringing home your daughter so late" and before he could finish his words,jeeva " my parents knew that that you were picking me up and that there was a possibility we might be going to the beach for a walk.so,it is okay raman."

Raman " jeeva,it is okay for you yet it is my duty to inform them of the circumstances and why we are late?" and turning back to her parents " the walk ended with us eating corn cobs and chatting for a long,long time."

Kamakshi and mani did not know how to respond to raman and in the end,mani " It is over now.please,wash your hands and join us for dinner for i don't know about you both but i am really hungry."

" Okay,but i hope you folks don't mind that i might leave after a short while for i have a couple of important meetings tomorrow and need to work on that before going to sleep."

Kamakshi waving his excuse off " No problem,just eat what you can and then you can leave." and began to set the dining table.

Suja wandered with ear phones stuck to her head and everyone knew that she was conversing with mohan and seeing raman,she said a big hello and piling her plate with food,wandered back to the privacy of her room and all four watched her coming and going with a smile and began their dinner.

But the calm was soon broken with jeeva looking at her parents " Raman and me had our first kutty fight,not exactly a fight but a kind of misunderstanding" and looking at raman " what advocate sir? am i right?" and raman shaking his head " wrong for a fight is when two parties are involved and also there was no misunderstanding for i perfectly understood you and your every word."

Jeeva with a smile that hinted sarcasm but barely,a smile which her parents knew very well but poor raman had yet to know the depths of his woman " raman,always right and always with the correct answer."

Raman returning the smile and words " Yes ma'am,always and is there any other way to be other than right and correct."

Jeeva was about to eat,slowly lowered her hand and looked at raman " so you mean you are correct and i am wrong?" and raman " not my words but yours and i just repeated them" and continuing to eat stared back at jeeva.

Mani looked at both of them " I am not sure what you both are talking about but both me and my wife would like to join in this conversation,if we may."

Jeeva was about to say something but thought better of it and began to eat and an uneasy silence prevailed and then she looked at raman who turned to kamakshi " ma'am,you are an excellent cook.My aunt is good but you are in a different league all together."

After dinner,raman wished them good night and was leaving when jeeva followed him and said bye and then holding his hand " Are you upset with me?" and raman " should i be? but to answer your question,no i am not."

" Raman,do you ever get angry?" and he sighed and looked away and then turning back looked at jeeva " yes,i do get angry sometimes but i don't show it for that is the way i am and since that is my nature."

Taking a moment to look at her " But i see that you like to play games and that is something which i am going to have to get used to" and slowly walked away into the night and jeeva knew that her anger had gotten the better of her.

Jannal oram 55

"Raise your words, not your voice. It is rain that grows flowers, not thunder." Rumi, ancient poet

It was more than two hours since he had left and yet his face,the scent of his manliness lay upon her and his kiss still tingled in her lips.For the first time in a very long time,jeeva did not bathe before going to sleep for she was scared that the memory of him would wash away from her body and somehow she would lose him and she did not want to lose anything about him.

Jeeva heard suja's deep and blissful sleep and she lay on her bed looking at the sky,clouds and moon outside her window and waited for sleep to take her into its arms and then she heard the door open and saw her mother walk towards her and seeing her awake,slowly sat by her side.

Mother looked at daughter and daughter looked at mother and kamakshi slowly caressed jeeva's head and using her fingers untangled her long hair and spread it on the pillow and " having trouble sleeping sweetie?" and jeeva nodded and kamakshi smiled " call him for he might be awake and talk to him.Maybe once you hear his voice,you will feel better and sleep better."

jeeva looked at kamakshi and her mother gently " This is your love,jeeva and raman's love and it is your journey and come what may,me and your dad are by your side,always and until and with our last breath."

Jeeva took her mum's hand and kissing it " okay,i will call him.Thank you mom and please kiss dad good night for me."

Kamakshi got up and then looking at her eldest child " He is a nice man sweetie.I mean,really a nice man and he will make a great husband to you.Please don't lose him" and then realising that she might have crossed an invisible barrier of privacy,hurriedly " sorry jeeva,it came out wrongly,for what i meant was."

But her words died away for jeeva raised her hand " mother,i know what you meant and no it was not wrong and actually were exactly right in both words and in sense.good night amma,we will talk in the morning."

She lay waiting and pondering and then picking up her mobile dailled raman's cell phone and he picked it up on the fifth ring " Hi beautiful,it is nearly 11.30 p.m and you are still awake.why?"

" I love you raman and i just wanted to hear your voice."

" I love you too baby and i am glad you called for i was just finishing up framing the pros and cons scenario for tomorrows agenda and wondering if i should call you and was hesitating for you might have gone too sleep and didn't want to disturb you."

With the prelims over,the lovers now entered the next phase of the conversation with jeeva slowly voicing the situation " are you angry with me raman for teasing you?" and raman " angry,for what.I am not jeeva and why this obsession with the word angry.From this moment on we will not use the word angry or anger,okay beautiful."

" Raman,can i ask you something of personal nature.Do you always remain so calm and collected and do you always measure your every word in a conversation."

" I will answer that question but before that i need you to tell me what it is you want from me? We are a couple now,lovers and so i ask you frankly and with all the rights as your lover and partner,what do you want jeeva?"

" I want you raman.nothing else matters for all i want is you and to be with you and live out my life with you by my side."

" Then jeeva,why do you ask all these questions for which you already know the answers to.I am what i am and you are what you are and nothing can change that or should change that."

Jeeva remained silent and raman waited for a few moments and then softly " Baby,you mean the world to me and i will do anything for you and all you have to do is just ask and it will be done.So,i ask you again,what is it you want from me."

Jeeva in a very small voice,barely whispered " I want more from you.more love,more passion,more security and more and more."

Raman chuckled " Done.what else."

" what do you want from me raman? what do you want from me and life?"

Raman lowered his cell phone and thought to himself " Baby,if i tell you that i want for nothing and that ia m happy with you as you are and as we are at this moment,you will turn around and accuse yourself for wanting more and more of me and life and then the whole thing will start all over again."

" Jeeva,can i take a raincheck on this question for althought it is complicated,my answer is simple but it is something that i want to say when we are face to face and not over the phone.But i want you to remember this and that is, i love you and will never do anything to hurt you or break your heart.I swear on my soul and that is all i can or have to offer you at his moment."

Jeeva knew that raman had held back most of what he had wanted to say and understanding and accepting it " Okay,i love you too.good night and see you tomorrow morning.bye."


"We take this idea of love with us into adulthood. Grown up, we hope for a re-creation of what it felt like to be ministered to and indulged. In a secret corner of our mind, we picture a lover who will anticipate our needs, read our hearts, act selflessly and make everything better. It sounds romantic'; yet it is a blueprint for disaster. Alain de Botton, The Course of Love

Loose Penne Loose Penne Loose Penne
Loose Paiyan Unmelathan Loosea Sutharan


what men want and women want appear totally different and poles apart from the surface but in the inner dpeths,both are souls looking for love,trust,acceptance,respect and to just to be allowed to breathe.

Both man and woman arrive at the same solution via a different approach and be that as it may be,what they should know and understand is the problem and the answers.

Only very few manage( Eventually) to coexist in mutually beneficial harmony and majority coexist( In name only) and live out their marriages in hidden bitterness and non communication.

Is there a magic mantra for eternal bliss and peace in mmarriage and in love between two and if there is,it is something that they will find for themselves on top of the mountain.

some men think it is wise just to stay quiet and calm and not retaliate and even risk they being called slightly dumb or mildly autistic for the sake of calm.I repeat and stress on the word calm for calm means quiet but not love.

so what is love and what is a perfect relationship and who is right and who is wrong.

In the coming chapters i hope to explore how a man and woman come together and stay together,broken,disjointed and still hold on.

I am sorry if i have disappointed you readers by taking this story of jannal oram into untested and unchartered territories but i hope to erase the disappointment by telling this love story in a truly realistic manner and also add a bit of theatrics to it.

Come on,forgive satish for in the end he is an actor and probably all the tv serials he has acted in figures in the way he writes and thinks.


In Muhurtham,a tv serial that i acted in,telecast in sun tb from 2005 to 2007,my character deepak is married to a woman called sneha who loves him but hates everyone else.She tries to kill everyone around him,but him and also tells him that on to his face.Now,should he kive for her and her love or also live for his family that include his dad,aunt and servant.

Who is right and when do certain behavioural traits need to be judged as evil and corrupt?

I think now you begin to see that life,love,relationships are so damn complicated and if you think you can live it out quietly,then you have to sacrifice a lot,tolerate a lot and in the end,hate that very person or persons for whom we did and gave so much.


OMGOOOD

Appo,ennathaan solla varre.Ithukku oru mudive illiya.Nee solratha paartha intha ulagathula elorum loosunga thaana.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8M3wOQLXsgs

Jannal oram 56

"At the heart of sulk lies a confusing mixture of intense anger and an equally intense desire not to communicate what one is angry about. The sulker both desperately needs the other person to understand and yet remains utterly committed to doing nothing to help them do so. The very need to explain forms the kernel of the insult: if the partner requires an explanation, he or she is clearly not worth of one. We should add that it is a privilege to be the recipient of a sulk: it means the other person respects and trusts us enough to think we should understand their unspoken hurt. It is one of the odder gifts of love. ? Alain de Botton

Baby,where do i end and where do you begin
i look at myself and only see you
and i look into myself and only feel you
like water in a glass,we are one and united
but what if the glass shatters then
i will still hold on to your every
atom and molecule and flow away with you
so i flow into you and you flow into me
and together let us flow as one in
this life as brittle as glass
that might or might not shatter
but it does not matter for we are one


The sun begins its journey across the sky and it is a new dawn and it is funny when you actually stop and think and realise it is the earth,the third child of the sun that revolves around its mother,father and creator.

She did not know when she had drifted away into a deep sleep but she came awake at the usual time that was anywhere between 6.00 and 6.30 am and like she always did,she lay still hearing the familiar sounds of her world that lay among the streets around saidapet.

Like in most lower middle class and middle class neighbourhood,the people who delivered milk were the first to announce their arrival by clanging the gate handles or door handles and with their yells and desperate screams of " amma,paal,paal" which were usually vented out when the recipients overslept and had to be roused out of their deep stupor by these war cries of the milk delivery army which was usually made up of old women and men and very rarely young kids.

The race with the coming morning was usually between the milk delivery army and the paper boys who whizzed around the streets of chennai delivering news in english and tamil along with supplementary magazines and the milk team won for aavin usually delivered by 4.00 am.

Jeeva lay awake and ehr thoughts ran back to veeramma who had delivered milk tho their house for nearly 25 years although she had been doing that for more than 50 years.sadly,she had passed away a few years back at the ripe age of 85 and now her grandsons were delivering the milk.She smiled as she recollected veeramma in her cotton sarees which she wore only in shades or green and compared it to her present grandkids who whizzed around dressed in spandex and cargoes and seated on pulsars and apaches,the two wheelers who were involved in almost all the fatal accidents in tamilnadu.

Veeramma,her cow,buffalo,calf were a constant sight around the streets of saidapet and many a time jeeva and suja had played with the shy calf as it stood under the shadow of its mothers body waiting for its turns at the udder and its milk larder.

Jeeva knew it was friday for the powerful voice of L.R.Easwari slipped through her window bringing with it the tunes of " Maariyamma,engal maariyamma,unnai vanangugindrom karumariyamma" and they came from their neighbour Gauri & co who lived two doors down and who announced to the morning world what day it was,just in case they had forgotten it by playing that day gods music playlist.Jeeva knew kind of approximately that Monday was for lord shiva,tuesday for a mixture of ganesha and hanuman,wednesday was for krishna,thursday was for vishnu,brihaspati and dakshinamurthy,friday was purely for shakti and all her avatars while saturday was reserved totally for shani and hanuman.Although the ganesh,hanuman and shakti mixed and matched their days and were kind of omnipresent throughout all seven days of the week as were their songs and countless names.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L7PmNfsPp8k

L.R.Easwari was a special companion for jeeva as she was present from the time she could remember going to a temple and moreover her parents were both major and ardent followers of amman.Jeeva had been three years old and suja was still a few years away when her family had shifted to saidapet and had began visiting the ancient temple of Karaneeswarar Temple of lord shiva where shakti was called Swarnambika.They also regularly visited Sri Devi Ankgalamman Koil and no guesses for what songs played their,yes songs of L.R.Easwari.

Jeeva lay in bed hearing her childhood companion sing from her soul about karumariamman and then smiled sadly for the same l.r.easwari after a long break had made a comeback at the age of 70 to sing along with simbu for the film " OSTHE" and the words were a long way down from her amman songs and yet the song had ruled the charts and jeeva hummed and tried and lost it after a few failed attempts for the song was unabashedly filled with all kinds of double meanings and innuendos

Kalasala kalasala Kalasala kalasala
Kallaasa kalasala, Kalaasala kalasala


Vadakke ketu paaru enna pathi solluvaan
Zardha beeda pole en perathaan melluvaan
Evanum yeraalama kodambaakam busunu
Ivadhaan rajanagam seeriduvaa hissunu

Mallika nee kadicha nellika pol inipaa
Panjana nee viricha patuthaan padichirupaa
Konjinal konja konja kombu thaen vadichiriupa

Pudichaa vachikaiya manasula thechikaiya
Vedicha vellarikkaa vendaadha aalriukka

My dear darling unna Mallika koopidura

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1SHHZO15TYM




Pushing L.r.easwari out of thoughts,jeeva now filled herself with raman and knew that although they had spoken last night and she had told him sorry for pulling his leg a bit too much,her heart told her that she must be careful not to hurt him with her playful observations.

Slowly,making sure not to wake Suja up,she gently closed the bedroom door and came out and stood in shock for there was Raman seated,chatting with her dad.Raman did not know and yet he sensed her presence and turned towards her direction,caught sight of her and flashed his impossibly,irresistible grin and mani,jeeva's dad slowly stood up " raman,i will go see about the coffee" and left daughter and her visitor to their privacy.

Raman sat watching her and then she caught sight of his eyes as they took in her unbraided hair that fell all over her and covered her face with a few strands and then his all seeing eyes traveled to her breasts as they strained their thin cotton gown and slowly traveled to her knees where the gown she was wearing stopped supporting her with its rather transparent material and revealed her legs from her knees,calves and feet.

She caught sight of his eyes as they took in her naked body under the gown and blushing, slowly brought her hands and covered herself and looked at him and he whispered " Good morning beautiful.Just when i had thought that i had seen the most beautiful part of last evening,here you are,standing before me and even more beautiful than before."

Jeeva hurriedly looked back towards the kitchen to see if her dad or mum were going to come and turning back to him " why are you here at this hour?" and then raman stood up and the tight fitting tee and tracks that covered his body told her that he had been out running and it was now her turn to take in his form and she realised how young he was and just touching thirty although in his advocate clothes and the way he held himself in public, tended to make him not older but very wise and mature beyond his years. She wanted to kiss him deeply but not for now and instead said " i am going for my bath and i will see you as usual at the bus stop.bye and raman,thanks for dropping by for i know my day is going to be a great one."

Raman looked at her with a naughty smile " do you want me to come and scrub your back " and jeeva whispered " god,i am dying here,got to go before my parents hear us" and ran into the bathroom and peeped like a thief before closing the door and she saw raman blow a kiss to her and wink slyly.

Jeeva shut the door and leaned on it smiling and also at the same time feeling deliriously happy at the way his eyes had run all over her,making love to her.She stood brushing her teeth and then slowly unbuttoned her gown and let it drop to the floor while she stood staring into the mirror for raman was there looking at her and enjoying her naked body.

Wearing a bath cap,she slowly turned the knob of the shower and the water that rained down felt like the stinging and delicious kiss and touch of his lips.She imagined raman gently embracing her from behind and his palms ran across her thighs and slowly crept up to cup her breasts and all the while kissing her nape and nibbling her ears and letting his tongue make small circles around her shoulders and then everything came down with a crash as the bathroom door was banged loudly and she heard suja " jeeva,come out quickly for i need to use the loo" and jeeva angrily yelled back " bloody donkey,can't you use the other loo if you are in such a hurry" and suja whined and pleaded " akka please,you know i am not comfortable with an indian style loo.so please hurry up."

jeeva wanted to bang her head in frustration and then thought it would be better to bang sujas head with the soap she held in her hand and since the sexy dream with raman over after being so rudely destroyed,hurriedly finished her bath and came out with a large towel wrapped around her body and found suja holding her tummy and praying to god.

jeeva twisted sujas ear " donkey,lazy donkey,just in her early twenties and not flexible or strong enough to use an indian commode" and suja folding her hands " amma,thaaye,please not right now for i really have to go" and jeeva holding her towel tightly stepped away and let her sister go into the bathroom and turned to see raman still there and now staring at her,unblinking " jeeva,you look stunning when you wake up and you look even more stunning now just after a bath.please tell me as to how a young hotblooded man is supposed to live after seeing you like this."

jeeva was at a loss for words and she looked at him " i love you and i will see you in a short while.bye."

Raman too stunned to answer nodded and went towards the entrance to wear his running shoes that he had removed before entering the house.

Both mani and kamakshi stood watching their future son-in-law as he tied his shoe laces and when raman stood up mani reached out and tenderly took raman's hands in his " Raman,please forgive jeeva for stepping out of line last night.She has not been like that for a very long time and it was surprising for both of us to see her so playful and high spirited for that is her actual and true nature.But it all vanished after she began to work and only now are we seeing the old jeeva return back with her smiles,jibes,jokes and extrovert and cheerful nature."

kamakshi looked at raman " if the old jeeva has come back,then it is because you have come bringing and breathing new life into her soul.Thank you for bringing our daughter back to us for we had been living in sadness and darkness all these years.But now,it feels as if a candle has been lit to bring light and spark to all our lives. "

Raman looked at both of them " Jeeva is a very special soul,a great woman and it is my privilege to be by her side.I promise you now and this is a promise i will never break.Jeeva is the only woman for me in this life and the only woman i will ever marry."


Raman walked ran,jogged,jumped as he headed towards his home for the images of jeeva filled his mind and soul and in her bedroom jeeva stood in front of the full length mirror and dropped her towel and waited for him to take her into his arms and the morning was well on its way with the sun lighting the earth and passions in every soul under its embrace and all seeing gaze.

Jaanam, dekh lo, mit gayi dooriyaan
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
Kaisi, sarhadein, kaisi majbooriyaan
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan

Tum chhupa na sakogi main woh raaz hoon
Tum bhoola na sakogi woh andaaz hoon
Goonjta hoon jo dil mein toh hairaan ho kyun
Main tumhaare hi dil ki toh awaaz hoon
Sun sako, toh suno, dhadkanon ki zabaan
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan
Kaisi, sarhadein, kaisi majbooriyaan
Main yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan hoon, yahaan

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m6Y8xEfyXTs
jaanam dekh lo- veer zaara

yesterday evening,i sat and wrote this chapter which i posted just now and the reason i did not post it yesterday was because i accidentally deleted it while adding some song lyrics to the notepad file which i use to do most of my writing work.

Realising my blunder,i sat still fuming and then better sense and more trust in my own writing skills prevailed and i told myself " come now,you can do better than that" and i think i kind of wrote more and better today,right now.

life is about spirituality,family,friends,lover and all kinds of comic situations.Here in jannal oram, i am kind of living out most of our lower and middle class lives,rituals,trials and tribulations.

Anyway,i want to add some information about L.R.easwari.

L. R. Eswari is actually Lourde-Mary Rajeswari Eswari born in Chennai into a Roman Catholic family to Anthony Devraj and Regina Mary Nirmala. Her ancestors were from Paramakudi near Madurai.The 78 RPM vinyl record containing her songs in her debut film Nalla Idathu Sammanthan shows her name as D. L. Rajeswari. Since there was already another established singer with the name of M. S. Rajeswari her name was abbreviated into L.R.Eshwari. She did not have any formal training in singing. Her mother was a chorus singer in films. Eshwari used to accompany her mother to the studios and soon began singing in the chorus herself, but quickly got a break to lend her voice as lead-singer.

Her first song as a playback singer was Inba Naalidhe in the film Manohara as a chorus singer with Jikki. Music was scored by S. V. Venkatraman. Her first break came from Thiru. K.V.Mahadevan in 1958 in the movie Nalla Idaththu Sammandham, her first solo song recorded in this movie was "Ivarey Thaan Avarey".

But major recognition came from the song "Vaarai En Thozhi Vaaraayo" from the movie Paasa Malar (1961) sung under the baton of Viswanathan-Ramamurthy, which composers explored and exploited her vocal abilities to the maximum extent possible over the next 20 years.

After a long break, she made her re-entry through a rocky peppy Tamil Song "Kalasala Kalasala " in the 2011 movie Osthe starring Silambarasan. Within a few days of this song release, it became a super hit and reached music box office top ratings.

She sang the song "Naa Poondamallida" in the film Thadaiyara Thaakka the following year. She has also recently sang a Kannada song for the movie Victory, named "Yakka Nin Magalu Nanage" with Kailash Kher which also become super hit.

In 2013, she sang a duet song called "Thagadu Thagadu" along with T. Rajendar in the movie Arya Surya. In 2014 she sang the song "Jaipuril Jaipuril" in the movie Athithi, music by Bharathwa




https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BiD6xmKQcwg
Muthu kulikka vaareegalaa -anubavi raja anubavi

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lk2B-ABfvg8
Elantha palam panama paasama

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JMoH_zRU0r0

Adi Ennadi Ulagam - Aval Oru Thodarkathai

Redemption 200

"Even after all this time
the Sun never says to the Earth,
"You owe me."
Look what happens
With a love like that,
It lights the whole sky.
Hafiz


Genesis

In the beginning,there was darkness and all matter lay in the womb of the universe,gestating for billions,maybe even trillions of years waiting for the spark,the moment and then it ignited and there was light and there was energy and the light sprang into all directions pushing the darkness away in front of it and banishing it from its presence.

In creation,then as it is now,time is of no essence and only life matters and it will always be thus for it does not matter how long you and me lived,existed but what we did,to better this creation,life and its beings.

Albert Einstein lived for nearly 76 years and yet probably gave only half or even little to science and evolution.But,that was enough and see where a few eureka moments of his brain gave to this world.

In the end,it all boils down to purpose and deliverance.

"Your purpose in life is to find your purpose and give your whole heart and soul to it Gautama Buddha

War council


Dhanashekara pandyan walked slowly up the mountain and stood facing the east,waiting for the sun,the star of this system to rise and with his hands folded on his bare chest stood with a smile.

He was wearing a simple white dhoti and it fluttered like a flag around his long and strong legs along with his thick beard that covered most of his face except his eyes and nose.He had woken up early and had taken a dip in the small stream that still ran through the village as it had done when Azhagan had lived here all those hundreds of years ago.

Malar,the queen and the head of suryavamsam clan stood along with all her people at the foot of the small hill staring up at dhanashekara pandyan.They had just arrived and dheeran and the other warriors of the village had welcomed them and had accompanied the group to the small mountain that stood in the corner of perumalpuram.

Malar looked at dheeran " is it him? is that a warrior of the light who we have been worshiping and following all these years?" and dheeran had nodded " yes,my lady it is him although he does not look anything like what he was when i first met him and got tossed like a leaf and that too with a shrug of his shoulder."



The call for the gathering of all members that stood for the divine light and for the existence of good had gone out a few days earlier with the request of dhanashekara pandyan and all had been informed to be there at first light in perumalpuram.

Dhana looked at the watch on his hand and sensing that the sun was just a few minutes away,looked down at the small group of people that had gathered there and waved them to come up and they all quickly ran up the hill.

With dhana in the front they all stood around him and then the sun burst through the clouds and all of them raised their hands above their heads and chanted loudly

Nama Suryaya Santaya Sarvaroga Nivarine
Ayu rarogya maisvairyam dehi devah jagatpate

Oh! Lord Surya, ruler of the universe, you are the remover of all diseases, the repository of peace
I bow to you. May you bless your devotees with longevity, health and wealth.



Dhana who had stood facing the rising son now turned and face everyone and they all bowed and fell to their knees and dhana hurriedly held palam swamy by his shoulders and raised him and " Rise,please all of you rise and stand with me as one for indeed we are all one in body and soul."

Looking at malar " my lady,greetings to you and your clansmen " and bowing his head " please accept my thanks for all that you and your people have done over these centuries."

Malar overcome with emotion fell to her knees " My lord,please do not thank or praise us for we are just doing our duty and what we were born to do."

Looking up into his eyes,she saw the flares of green flickering in his eyes " We are grateful for seeing you and being near you and we should be the ones to thank you for calling us and meeting us here on this sacred mountain."

Dhana gently lifted malar up and looked slowly at everybody " It is our collective effort that has been a wall,a dam,a fence that has kept evil and its allies at bay.But i think this time it is going to take more than that and we need to be better prepared for what i think has been unleashed."

Dhana slowly walked down the mountain and he kept looking at the ground as if he was searching for something and then suddenly stopped at one particular place and the ground around that spot looked as if it had been scorched by a great and powerful fire.

He looked at dheeran,who handed him a leaf wrapped package and sitting down near that burnt spot,gently rained the flowers on it and folding his hands,sat still and lost in some thought.

Palam swamy,the oldest,the wisest among them and probably the only one who could question or raise a doubt,knelt down by dhana " My lord,what is so significant about this particular spot and why are you placing flowers on it?" and dhana looked at him and also looked searchingly at all of them,as if asking them if they knew the answer to palam swamy's question and slowly stood up and looked at all of them with sadness filling his eyes as if he seemed to recollect some ancient memory " this spot here,this burnt ground is where our legend Azhagan's mother Avini breathed her last and where she bled to death in the arms of the great warrior,the legend by which we are called and addressed as."

A gasp of shock ran through all of them and dhana continued " The blind mother Avini,was murdered along with many other great souls who lived here in this village and back then it was called perumalvaram and just like then,the same evil and darkness threatens once more to unleash all its weapons."

Malar looked at dhana " what do you want us to do my lord?" and dhana replied " strike,a pre-emptive strike and it might just give us a tiny advantage and hopefully that will be enough for now."

Dheeran roaring a war cry " Not just enough my king for we will strike at the very root itself and destroy it once and for all."

Dhanashekara pandyan playfully punching dheeran's shoulder " Ah,my friend,if only it was so easy, for it is not and sadly this snake has a thousand heads and the most important head lies waiting in hiding somewhere far away and out of my reach right now.But that will be taken care or by Rudran i think while we take care of the acting heads that are in our reach."

Looking at dheeran " dheeran,i have not eaten in three days and i hope you don't plan to starve your visitors."

Dheeran " My lord,you only had to whisper and a feast would have been provided.Please come my lord for the food is ready and waiting for all of us."


The darkness has face and it rises


Far away from Madurai,in chennai,Rudran stood on the terrace of Kandaswamy mudaliyar's vast house and stared at the sun that dhana had stared at a few moments ago wondering about the future and what it held in store for all of them and then his cell phone rang and seeing the caller was Sujinder khanna,the chief of RAW,intelligence wing of the nation,answered " Good morning sir" and mr.sujinder answered " Rudy beta,kaise hai aap?" and rudran " sab kuchh theek hai sir."

" Rudy,how quick can you get to a lap top for i have sent you a mail that i want you to see and get back to me as quickly as possible for the alert signs have gone up all over the world.I think time is of vital essence here and we need to move and act before this thing gets out of hand."

Rudran ran down the stairs and caught sight of Kandaswamy mudaliyar,his soon to be father-in-law sipping a cup of coffee in the hall and hurrying towards him " Sir,do you have a computer where i can log in safely without having to worry about security?" and kandaswamy nodded and getting up " My work place and you can understand how important security is for my business.I think it should just about be able to help you."

Kandaswamy mudaliyar led rudran to the corner of the house and entering a small corridor,tapped on the numbers of the security pad and the green light beeped on the door handle and pushing it open,entered a room that was nearly 700 sq feet in space.

For rudran,the air conditioned room and equipment reminded him about many rooms back in delhi in the intelligence wing as many of his colleagues sat day and night shifting through sounds,photos and videos,trying,hoping to catch dreaded terrorists and criminals that tried to enter indian borders using duplicate passports and identities.It was a painful,methodical work but that needed to be done for many a criminal had been caught in that manner and had quietly been eliminated.

Kandaswamy mudaliyar bent over a key board and typed a password and a soft voice welcomed him back and then " Please say your name so that i can verify your voice pattern" and that out of the way,the voice asked him to place his thumb on the scanner and then the monitor blinked and the usual and familiar windows screen appeared and kandaswamy looked at rudran " go ahead rudran and join me after you finish up" and left and the door closed itself with a hiss and rudran had the locks fall in place and it meant only he could open from inside and only kandaswamy could open the door from outside.

He quickly entered a websites name and once in quickly entered his log in id and password and then opened his inbox and tapped on the mail that screamed boldly " Urgent" and the mail opened to show many photos,some closeups,some in different angles and from the photos,he quickly knew that all of them were taken in airports and they were from all over the world.

Rudran tapped on a photo and saw the face of a very handsome man although his features screamed danger,anger and darkness.Something tingled deep in his soul and rudran quickly downloaded all the attachments and opening it began to scan each pic,enlarging it and examining it intently and carefully.

Taking his mobile,he called RAW chief sujinder khanna " rudran,are you seeing the mail i sent you" and rudran answered " yes sir" and waited for sujinder to carry on " rudy beta,this was gathered by our mossad friends and sent to us and we in turn sat and shifted through all our airport videos and this compilations is from all that work.Now,who this man is and what he is doing here needs to be explained and understood."

Rudran kept shifting,enlarging the pics and after nearly two minutes " Sir,what other information have you got going through these pics and what info has Mossad forwarded regarding these pics" and Sujinder taking a breath " Not much rudran and i thought that i could tap that wizard brain of yours for some clues.Take your time beta and call me back later" and Rudran hurriedly " no need sir for i can tell you that we have a clear and present danger situation on our hands and i think it is too late.But what the nature of this danger is something i have no clue about and answers for those questions will have to wait."

Sujinder khanna set upright in his house back in delhi and whispered a prayer for when rudran usually spoke in this vein,it meant danger and at the highest level.

Sighing " Rudy beta,what is it?" and from chennai,rudran's voice spoke deeply through the speakers " Sir,if you notice closely and eaxmine the pictures you can see the watch on the mans hands and that of other passengers standing in front of him and behind him and then in some pics you can see the wall clocks and if you observe the times,it will show the exact time in all of them."

Raw chief,sujinder khanna gulped and shook his head not able to comprehend the words of rudran " Beta,what are you saying?" and Rudran's voice boomed through the mobile phones speakers " sir,it is not one man,but ten men who look the same and they are all boarding their flights at the same time and all their flights were headed to new delhi."

" Rudran,how can that be? how is that even possible?" and rudran softly " sir,this footage was from one week ago and that means all of them are in india right now and where they are right now is something only god knows.But what we can do is begin immediately to pull in video footages from cameras all over india and go through it and maybe,then maybe we can see where this man,sorry,these men are heading to."

Sujinder khanna by now totally tense and panicked " Right,i will get to it and we will talk more later.In case you find something else please call me that very moment.Bye rudy."

The door opened with a hiss and the smell of coffee filled the air and rudran heard kandaswamy mudaliyars voice " is it okay for me to come in" and rudran answered " yes sir.please come in."

Kandaswamy mudaliyar placed the tray that held a flask,cup,beaker holding sugar and a spoon on the space near the key pad and the pics on the monitor catching his eyes,remarked " handsome man.Is he your new target." and rudran looked at him with a grave expression " Men sir,plural and not singular and they are all my targets now.But the billion dollar question is,who are their targets?" and looking directly into the older mans eyes " I think i know who their target is and that is what scares me the most.for i am not worried about me or my life but i do worry a lot for the people who i care and love more than my very life."

Kandaswamy mudaliyar " rudran,you are scaring me and i am someone who does not scare easily and yet the tone in your voice is making my soul tremble.What is going on?what has happened rudran?"

Rudran quietly and calmly " They have unleashed a Brahmastra."

In ancient Sanskrit writings, the Brahmastra was an astra created by Brahma.As described in a number of Purana, it was considered as a very destructive weapon. It is said that when the Brahmastra was discharged, there was neither a counterattack nor a defense that could stop it, except by another Brahmastra, Brahmashirsha astra, or a Brahmanda astra. The Brahmastra never missed its mark and had to be used with very specific intent against an individual enemy or army, as the target would face complete annihilation. It was believed to be obtained by meditating upon the Lord Brahma, or from a Guru who knew the invocations. According to ancient Sanskrit writings, the Brahmastra is invoked by a key phrase or invocation that is bestowed upon the user when given this weapon. The user would have to display immense mental concentration. It could only be used once in a day.

Since Lord Brahma is considered the Creator in Sanatana Dharma, it is believed by Hindus that Brahmastra was created by Him for the purpose of upholding Dharma and Satya, to be used by anyone who wished to destroy an enemy who would also happen to be a part of his (Brahma's) creation. The target, when hit by Brahmastra, would be utterly destroyed.

The weapon was also believed to cause severe collateral damage. The land where the weapon was used became barren, and all life in and around that area ceased to exist. Both men and women became infertile. There was also a severe decrease in rainfall with the land developing cracks, as in a drought. The Brahmastra is mentioned in the epics and Vedas as a weapon of last resort and was never to be used in combat. This can be likened to an atomic bomb and Robert Oppenheimer is said to have believed nuclear weapons were used in the Mahabharata.

The Brahmastra, described in the Mahabharata, is a weapon which is said to be a single projectile charged with all the power of the universe.


Far away in Madurai,dhanashekara pandyan smiled loudly and everyone looked at him and palam swamy with concern " My lord,that laugh is not just a laugh for it comes from sadness and not from happiness." and dhana nodded and looked at all of them " Things that should not be meddled and experimented with have been indeed meddled with and a line has been crossed and it means annihilation for both sides." and looking sadly " and so it begins,the eternal war between dark and light and what i fear and feel most sad about is that the light will turn dark for only then it can consume the enemy."

All of them around him felt the pain and the impact of the warriors words of prophecy and as always he will have go into the dark to come back bearing the light and return as the very light itself.

Now I am become death, the destroyer of worlds.

Jannal oram- a dialogue

A perfect relationship. Two people never giving up on each other.

A relationship is not about having a handsome boyfriend or having a pretty girlfriend.. It's not about trying to make things perfect because there are no perfect relationships... But it's finding someone who matches you and would accept the worst of you and will go through everything without giving up on you.

Men aren't from Mars and women aren't from Venus, but their brains really are wired differently.The research, which involved imaging the brains of nearly 1,000 adolescents, found that male brains had more connections within hemispheres, whereas female brains were more connected between hemispheres. The results, which apply to the population as a whole and not individuals, suggest that male brains may be optimized for motor skills, and female brains may be optimized for combining analytical and intuitive thinking.

Previous studies have found behavioral differences between men and women. For example, women may have better verbal memory and social cognition, whereas men may have better motor and spatial skills, on average. Brain imaging studies have shown that women have a higher percentage of gray matter, the computational tissue of the brain, while men have a higher percentage of white matter, the connective cables of the brain.


A woman thinks better,more and a man moves better and more
rather than dwell on the differences,it would be simpler
if they both came together as one perfect circle
a sign of infinity and with no start and no end
two becomes one and one remains round as the sun.

"Poda satish,chumma dream pannathe" will be your thoughts and the words on your lips but if this does happen then imagine the bliss.

When the two share thoughts and one becomes the other and thought and action become mutually beneficial to each other.

Che,enna koduma saravana! Appo intha lovellam ennathukkau.just for man and woman to come together and make babies and more men and women and damn,the cycle goes on.

Did,mother nature or father god create the sexes just to make babies or something more.Honestly,i have no clue and like a joker just joke about it and voice my thoughts aloud.

Ille,yen solrena,We spend probably on average between 20 to 25 years with our parents and then like the majority,we get hitched,licensed to kill( OOPS,SEX) and then spend the remaining 25,50 and sometimes 70 or more with out partner in life and in marriage.

A few years back,me and my pondatti were watching the film " Lunch box" and i fell head over heels with the lead actress nimrat kaur( I do have a thing for punjabi women) and kept whistling throughout the film and many a time,my hitler wife,reached over and shut close my open and leering gob,probably because i had jollu dripping on my tee and sniggered " yen ippadi alairen.Konjam varushathukku munnadi lisa ray,lisa rayunnu vaya polanthen.Appuram aishwarya rai nennachu pala varushangal ottiten,ippo un moonjikku nimrat kaur thevayya."

I looked at her,with my funny face,twinkled my eyes and whispered softly " Madam,etho irukkara konjam kaalam kanavu kandu ottidalaamunnu paakuren.pls,don't disturb my day dreams and fantasies."

I did not know then,but a year later,nimrat kaur acted in the hit tv series Homeland as a pakistani spy and whenever she appeared on screen,my pondatti kept bitching " Moonja paaru,kezhavi" and i knew that she did feel a bit jealous and naa summa irukkama,narrated with visuals my favourite dream with nimrat kaur.

" I get into the lift and the building is 200 floors and luckily it is empty and then on the third floor,My dream girl,nimrat kaur gets in and whispers sexily,100th floor please" and with my mouth wide open and asadaatam valinchindu press the buttons all excited,me and nimrat kaur travelling in an elevator to the 100th floor and then the power fails and the elevator breaks down and nimrat kaur panics and i take her in my arms and console her and then we kiss."

and a bundled newspaper landed with a thud on my head and my wife " Jollu party,intha scenu erkanave pokiri padauthula vijayum,asinum nadichitaanga.So,pudusa ethavathu dream pannu."


Naa ithan yen solrena,all this physical desires,lust,passion soon run dry after a few years and then it is true and real love that will shine and remain shining throughout the lives of a couple.

I think the real passion,lust and kaadhal comes from genuinely being there with the other person and one cannot fake that for a long,long time.

Govinda,govinda,naduvulla we have to worry about our own emotional baggage that come from our past and from our friends and somehow we have to manage that and our love and marriage and let me tell you juggling all that is a real trick and a miracle.

so,people ithu thaan unmai,balancing act,juggling is all we do in life and like a tightrope walker,like a cat on the fence we have to live constantly stepping into this side and then dip that side.

Enna koduamai saravan.Appo ithu thaan vazhkaiyaan.

Illai,why because intha lifea live panrathu thaan vazhakai.

Poda moodevi,ithu engalukku theriyatha.Edho perusaa solla vanthutaan. naangalum etho gnani pesuraanu porumaiya ketta,endula athe story solraan.UN moonjula en peechaan kayan vekka.

Jannal oram 57

"Don't look for a soul mate.Make one -- out of the complex fabric of the human being already with you.Instructions are never included. They vary with the strength of your ability to see, the measure of your selective blindness, the limits of your mercy, and the intensity of your desire. Vera Nazarian

I could as always add a foreword to the chapter,whereas most writers add one in the beginning and and afterword in the end.But then my reader friends,every chapter like every day is a new beginning and how can i not just sing about it like i do when gazing on every new sunrise.The day before is gone,spent and let us shed our old skins and walk in a new day,in a new light with a renewed love.

Jeeva reached the bus stop and a few moments later,Raman drove up and she hurriedly got in and he catching sight of her " Good morning again jeeva" and she planted a kiss on his shoulder and when he hurriedly looked at the spot where her kiss was burning his skin,Jeeva looked up " Don't worry,no lipstick traces for i have yet to wear it and thought i would do it just before getting out near the office."

Raman smiled and her left eyebrow lifted in a question and " No,i was just thinking about our lives and windows and how you always sat near the window alone and also when we traveled together and yet here we are with our own windows,left and right.

I hope there were no tremors or shocks caused by my sudden arrival.Actually,i should not have done it but since yesterday was a bit of an off day for both of us,i thought i would just surprise you by saying hello and it is really frustrating for i could not find a florist open at that time."

Then with a leery smile " But i am glad that i did drop in for you gave me the most beautiful darishanam before and after bath.My lady,i have to admit that you are really hot and totally sexy and i confess that i am going to have trouble sleeping here on."

Jeeva with a grim look " forget how you feel after seeing me but do you have any idea as to how i feel after your eyes finished caressing me,undressing me and doing all sorts of mad things while i was having a bath.Now,i am going to sit in my office and just think about you next to me while i bathe and burning me with your eyes."

" Listen,jeeva,i have not had my breakfast as yet and would you like to join me.There is a lovely udipi hotel near Egmore and we can eat something quickly and leave before it becomes too late for you."

The moment he said Udipi hotel,Egmore,Jeeva's whole body changed color and before her face could reveal her turmoil,she looked away from Raman and struggling and only barely succeeding" It is okay raman,i have to be in the office at any time between 9.00 and 9.30 am and so i have enough time.But what about you,for you have some kind of important meeting with someone and i don't want you to be late for that."

When you love somebody,you tend to be sensitive to their every expression of both face and body and at some point you come to understand that the outward exhibitions through our eyes,lips,turn of the neck,body posture are all actually the expression and really the state of the mind.

Raman instantly caught on to his woman's change of mood and the stiffening of her shoulders as if she was bracing for an impact and the way she fidgeted with the end of her saree,indicated to him that his choice of hotel was a wrong one for it had brought back some old and painful memories.

Pretending to look at his wrist watch " sorry,jeeva for i think i might get late for this important meeting and maybe it is better to skip breakfast.I am really sorry beautiful and we will do it some other time,if it's okay with you."

These words instantly relaxed jeeva and she seemingly more relaxed she turned to raman " Listen,stop at khadi bhavan for there is parking there and it will be practically empty at this hour.We can walk from there to this new saravana bhavan which has opened opposite chellarams and it is just two minutes from khadi bhavan.So,no diversion and we can eat and leave in about half an hour and be in parrys in 20 minutes."

Raman with a smile " Perfect ma'am.you have not only saved my day but also from starving to death" and jeeva tenderly placed her hand on his hand and smiled in gratitude.

Ten minutes later,they sat comfortably on the air conditioned first floor of the restaurant and after placing orders for a plate of sambhar vadais and two plain dosas and coffees,raman looked around the place and at jeeva " You have eaten here before for it is the first time for me" and jeeva shaking her head " No,and it is just not possible to do that for my bus is point to point and it is from home to office and then back from office to home.And not only that it has been ages since i have walked these pavements of anna salai."

Looking at raman,jeeva's face took on an expression that went many years back into her life " Raman,those days,we used to frequent khadi for kurtas and material and me and my college mates used to then walk from here to mathsya and share two coffees among five of us and probably share two dosas among all of us.We spent most of our time in devi cine complex and sometimes we used to see two films in a row."

The sambhar vadai came and both dived in and ate from the same plate and suddenly raman noticed the stains of tear drops on the table cloth and reaching out,lifted jeeva's chin and gently wiped her tears " Baby,please,don't cry for it breaks my heart to see you like this."

Jeeva taking a napkin and then looking at raman " can i have your handkerchief please?" and she used it to wipe her tears " These are not tears of sadness but tears of happiness and gratitude."

She gently reached across the table and taking both his hands,kissed them " You think i don't know why we did not go to mathsya.I don't want to talk about it but still,thank you for your kindness and for being such a thoughtful gentleman."

The dosas were placed on the table and waiting for the stewards to leave,raman looked at jeeva " Jeeva,i need your permission to say something personal and i will only say it if you say it is okay for me to continue" and a flicker of panic showed in her eyes and raman hurriedly " No,when i said personal it did not mean your past or memories but your current state of mind."

Looking down at his plate as if he the words he wanted to speak were written in invisible ink on the larger dosa,he slowly looked up " Sweetheart,all of us have a past,old and sad memories.But it is in the past and should not rule our present for it will ruin that and the future.I am not going to presume to understand the depths of your feelings for i know what a passionate and emotional person you are.But you need to forgive and forget those who caused you so much pain and live with one foot in the future and one in the present."

Jeeva looked at him " It is not easy ram,for it is not a person but time and life that has caused so much pain and sorrow.I am doing my best to forget it but it just keeps creeping back again and again and i am totally vulnerable to its effects on my heart.That is why i get angry sometimes,mad even for this constant tug between the past and the present makes me very volatile and now i have fallen in love with you all over again and i am scared,really scared that i might kill myself if something happens and we drift apart."

Raman grabbed her hands and held it tightly " I will never let you go.Never.But more importantly,i want you to know that your happiness and safety is my first priority and will always be so until i die.I am here not just as your boy friend,lover and husband but more importantly as your companion.I am here, to wipe your tears,hold you gently,give you my shoulder to lean on and remind you that you are not alone and that i am here to fight for you,live and breathe for you when you cannot.More than anything,i am your friend with whom you can share your dreams and nightmares and whom you can trust with every inch of your soul."

jeeva looked at him " You beautiful man,you beautiful,beautiful soul.That was the most beautiful,sweetest and kindest words a man can tell a woman and which a fellow soul can tell another soul."

Raman shrugging his shoulders " Simple,i am beautiful because of you and your love for me."



"To be alone with yourself is to be alone. To be in the company of others is to be alone together.The only time you are not alone is when you forget yourself and reach out in love -- the lines of self blur, and just for a wild, flickering moment you experience the miracle of other.And now you know the secret. Vera Nazarian,

Jannal oram 58



When the sun is bright with its dazzling light
i will hang my hair over you as an umbrella
when it rains,pour and drenches
i will keep you close to my bosom
and throw my hair over you like an umbrella
when life treats you unkindly
when words stab and hurt you like knives
i will throw my arms and body over you
to heal your pain and shield you from the hate
i will walk in the light in front of you
so that you can walk in the shade of my shadow
when you panic and struggle to breathe
i will breathe into you
placing my lips over yours
you are my love,you are my baby
and i will sing to you
a lullaby to ease your days
and make your nights better
it is enough that i love you
and that i am loved by you
it is enough and it will do


The inside of their car that had been filled with their heartbeats,soul beats and aches of love now fled and were filled with the noises of the busy parrys corner traffic as jeeva opened the door to get down and she gently caressed raman's face " all the best and see you later."

Raman's heart skipped a beat and for a man who prided himself for being in control in all and any circumstances of life and in court,watched as jeeva's legs carried her away from him and a slight panic filled his mind for each time he walked away from her and every time she walked away from him,he felt he would never ever see her again.Then she turned and looked at him and pursed her lips in a kiss and placed her hand over her heart and raman waved and blew a kiss to her and feeling a lot better,headed to the parking lots of the high court.

It was nearly 9.30 am when raman got out of the car and gently pushing jeeva away from his thoughts for the case of Anwaruddin and unicorn steel now filled his mind,walked slowly dissecting,probing and analysing all the questions and answers that might figure in the conversation between him and unicorn steel's boss and then again he might not want to meet me,thought raman and climbing up the stairs to the first floor,slowly walked the red corridors to his chambers,the ones reserved for Rangachari and associates.

Even from the distance,the young man who stood outside the doors of his chambers,talking to muthu,stood out not only for his good looks but also for the quality of clothes that he wore and raman who dressed decently and within his budget knew taste and expensive the moment he saw it.

In todays fashion and brand obsessed world,dressing well and dressing with good taste is exactly the opposite of dressing according to fashion and latest trends.Raman had many a time seen men and women,walking like they had something stuck up in their backsides,for that is how they walked in their skinny and so called skin tight jeans.The jeans were so tight that they traced the outlines of the privates of both man and woman and many a time raman had himself stopped and wondered,how the heck they managed to get in and get out of those jeans.

Raman had heard the saying that " shoes and haircut are the first things noticed by others" and if that was true,then the man stood in shoes which raman knew were anywhere between 10 and 15 thousand and the pants were not ready made and stitched by high quality tailors and that in chennai meant either " Syed Bawkher" or " Pn Rao" and the shirt was the softest and finest quality of cotton and yet casual and that meant either " Indian terrain or allen solly" and then raman saw muthu coming towards him " Sir,breakfast or coffee or both" and raman shook his head " just two coffees,please and thank you."

The young man moved towards raman with his hand outstretched in greeting " Mr.raman,right sir" and raman nodded " Yes,mr.gurumurthy" and the visitor smiled " My soon to be father-in-law told me that you were one of the smartest man he had the pleasure to meet and i guess he is right on the money."

Raman opened the door and looking " Please come in mr.gurumurthy" and the young man with a pained expression " Sir,please just call me guru" and raman looking at him " I will,if you call me raman" and both exchanged smiles and the raman asked guru to sit down and went about opening the windows and switching on the single ceiling fan and tubelight.

Sitting down and facing his visitor,raman politely " tell me guru,how can i help you?" and guru " mr.anwaruddin called me last night and informed me that you might be visiting my dad today and that is the reason i am here today."

Raman unblinking and with a polite expression " Okay" and guru hurriedly leaning forward " Raman,this whole mess is because of me and jameela and us both falling in love with each other.My dad is a cool guy,broad minded and yet all that changed the minute i spoke about love and jameela."

Raman remained silent,waiting for guru to continue and guru looked at raman " can i ask you a personal question raman and i mean no offense" and raman " ask your question guru and if it too personal or offensive i will reply with a no comment."

Gurumurthy's face suddenly became charged with a strange aura and he looked at raman happily " Have you ever been in love? have you ever loved someone so madly that you are willing to die for them,live for them and breathe for them and just exist for them?" and raman struggling for an answer for it was not only jeeva who was present in the answer but his duty as Anwaruddin's advocate that tempered his reply " I think i do guru,but we will talk about my thoughts and feelings on some other day under better circumstances, if that ever happens.But right now it is you and your visit and the reasons for it that are really relevant."

Guru " I broached the subject of our hearts for i love jameela that much but on the other side my dad loves me equally and probably more and here lies the conondrum,the abyss and the unsolvable riddle."

Raman stared into guru's eyes and then dropping his look slowly turned to see his two black visitors sitting on the sill,cawing and begging his attention.

Requesting guru to excuse him,raman got up from his chair and opening the cupboard brought out a small plastic container that held biscuits and taking a handful went towards the sill where the crows who had been watching his every movement,began to caw in happiness.Raman gently placed the pieces of biscuits and the larger,male crow filling his beak flew away and the smaller,female crow waited and raman picking up a small piece gently held it in his palm and she slowly walked on her thin,short,black legs and gently pecked his fingers in affection and then picking up the biscuit flew away towards its nest that they had on the top most branch of the giant tamarind tree.

Raman was using this time to think of what to say for it was a rather difficult question and like life there is never,ever a right or proper answer for questions of the heart and in this situation it was the question " Do the parents live for the children and do the children owe them an obligation in return."

The doors of the chamber sung open and muthu entered their space and conversation and flooded the room with the aroma of the coffees he had brought for them.Placing the tray,he suddenly looked at gurumurthy " Thala,you are very good looking.Are you a film star in hindi or english?" and gurumurthy looked at him for a second and burst out laughing " I am sorry to disappoint you but i am neither.but you and your words are much better than my looks."

" Thank you thala.I too rich but i come from home to be with my love.My parents very rich in salem and big fields and factories but i love one girl and my dad say no.so i come with my girl,marry and work here doing all jobs.But i am happy boss for i am with my love and my life and soon she giving baby girl to me."

Both raman and gurumurthy fell silent in shock,reverence for in just a few casual moments,this young man had put answered all that needed to be answered and guru standing up,took out his wallet and pulling out a bunch of notes offered it to muthu who with a smile,stepped back " Thala,no taking for i no want so much money and i have enough.But boss,when my baby coming,please come for the function" and left the chamber with those words.

Gurumurthy son of mr.krishnaswamy,owner of unicorn steel " I asked you a question and i came here with so many thoughts and just like that,this young soul so bravely and easily answered every damn question and eased away all my fears."

Raman with a smile " Yes guru,muthu often has that effect on me and on most of us here in this high court.Gentle,kind and yet with a heart of a lion and the wisdom of a great thinker.But let us come back to the situation and case on hand and most importantly the reason why you are here."