Part 2
This will be in point of views of both kabir and nisha and a part through a third person that is me... do let me know how is it... đł
Nishas POV -
I woke up to the sound of my phone and as usual i shut my alarm annoyingly covering myself in the blue covers again. But my phone it started ringing again. What the hell is wrong with my phone... today is my off and i have planned to stay in the bed all day without thinking about this marriage stuff... actually about kabir. It's been a week since i have seen his pic as my soon to be and my parents has asked actually ordered to me prepare myself saying soon i will be meeting him. I mean how can i meet him the thought of seeing him only gives me enough butterflies to sick me to death... even that i found good but i don't have courage to meet him in person. I just can't. But no one wants to understand it even isha wants me to meet him. Crazy family and crazy friends what else do i need to stay mad. Oh lord! Here i go again with this stuff.
Stop thinking nisha gangwal... just stop thinkinggg...
I was busy rebuking when my phone rang... again. What is the problem man... whatever i picked it.
"hello..." (god i sound like a gorilla in the morning)
"nishu... u r still sleeping it's 9 in the mng beta... what are u gonna do with urself after marriage (yeah... what a mng... here we go with the lecture)
"ok maa... m sorry... its holiday and i forgot to put an alarm... (hell yeah m so good at lying about it... no one messes with me n my sleep)
"par ese kaise chalega nishu... kal ko teri shadi hogi to bhi tu aise hi karegi... kya kahegi teri saas..." (ab ye saas subah subah kha se aa gyi beech m... papa where r u... save ur lovely daughter)
"ok maa... kal se aap mjhe phone karke utha dena ok?" (i hope it works...)
"phone idhar do laxmi... kya subah 2 meri beti ko pareshan kar rhi ho" (thank u dad... i luv u)
"thanks papa... aap maa ko phone dete kyu ho..." (how i wish maa could understand a lecture about marriage is the last thing i want in the morning that too on a holiday)
"chhod use... tu bta... ticket ho gya na tera... kitte bje train h teri nishu" (hell i forget to pack)
"8 bje h papa..."
"thik h to ab tu packing kar le i know tune kuch nhi kia h..." (he know me so well i tell u)
"ok papa..."
"ur ha aaj kabir aa rha h tjhse milne... 4 bje... tere ghar k paas jo cafe h na usme... ur vo hi tjhe drop kar dega station... ur ha vo specially tere lie aa rha h nishu... to pls behave and i really want ki tum dno ek dusre ko pasand kar lo... baki tmhari marji... (here he dropped the nuclear bomb... and m dead) nishu... nishu..."
"huh... ha... hmmm... ji papa..." (i have lost my voice... somebody pls make me vanish)
"achha beta chal kal milte h... bye"(agar zinda bachi to)
"bye..."
The phone was cut but m still sitting with that damned phone by my ear... holy hell... kabir is coming to meet me... kabir is coming to meet me...
KABIR IS COMING TO MEET ME...
Shut up nisha...
He bhagwan kya karu mai... koi bachalo mjhe... i can't face him.. i can't face him... oh god... m going to faint... what would i do... what will i say... did he even remember me... ha ye thik h agar mai use yaad hi nhi hongi to there will be less awkwardness... par agar use sab yaad h to... oh god what m i suppose to do... m going to have a panic attack...
Stop nisha... breath...
Breath in..
Breath out...
Breath in...
Kabir is coming to meet me...
Here we go again... A mental facepalm...
I'm jumping around my room... and when i say that i ' m literally word by word jumping around my room... due to excitement or anxiety i don't know... it looks like i have lost my mental balance... n m behaving like a freaking crazy... do something nisha... do something... yeah packing... waise bhi i have a lot to do... i m going for 2 weeks u see... a much needed holiday...
So the whole day i threw myself in packing and cleaning and cooking and washing and what not... i m hell tired now... i can't move my finger... i should take a nap... hell yeah i can sleep all day... yes m a lady kumbhakarna any problems... hope not...
-----------------------------------
KABIR'S POV
"chhote... u have to meet nisha today at 4 in some cafe near her house... and then u will drop her to station around 8 as she has a train to board... go get going..." said my bade bhaiya... i so damn love him... he was the one who send my proposal to gangwals and now he is the one who arranged my meeting with her.
This was the info i was waiting for a week... i so want to see her in front of me.. i want to apologise to her yet i don't know why she left me like this but i want to thank her for that if she hadn't done that i could never ever have understood her imp... i want to tell her all my feelings over the years... i hope she still remember me... if not it will be hell of a task to make her say yes for this marriage... par agar usne mjhe maaf nhi kia to... ya vo kisi ur se... NO... no... nisha pls... i so damn want u... i will tell u all of it... mai tmhe fir se khona nhi chahta... i would never leave u... ever...
My trance broke as my phone ringed flashing my PA no.
"hello... gd mng... no pls cancel them... no... i won't be able to come... yes... thank u"
I m not going anywhere today... i need to prepare myself to meet her... i know i m doing this for thousandth time... but m still nervous... and don't get me wrong... it happens when u r about to meet ur special someone... i just want today to be perfect...
It's a drive of 2 hours to her place if i don't get traffic and m having this unknown butterfly feeling in me... God m so nervous... my heart seems to be jumping in my rib cage... my stomach is twisting... Help me... m feeling i will pass out any moment... there are hundred of possibilities and ways to ruin it for us today... and all of them has suddenly decided to pop up in my mind... Get a grip on urself kabir... u cant ruin it... u just cant afford it... she is ur perfect match... ur lost part... u cant lose her... dont dare to say something stupid... or don't try to hurt her... u get that...
Oh god see... m lecturing myself... oh nisha what have u done to me... its just half n hour n i can't wait...
-----------------------------------
Nisha was getting ready for the meeting. She had put on her usual jeans and top and sneakers.
"u look awful..." she said to herself.
"so what... m not going on a date understand... and moreover m not interested in this marriage... not yet... and at least not with kabir... m going for the sake of my parents and i will tell him the truth and come clean..." she said to her reflection.
"yeah yeah... i know... such a nice thing to keep u going and not letting u fall apart when he will come in front of u... u suck nisha" her reflection is so snorty.
"i know m pathetic..." she murmured.
"better get going gangwal" she glanced at the clock its 4... she quickly took her purse and phone and ran outside. It is just 10 min walk from her place but her adrenaline level is so high that she covered it in record 4 min.
"i can be a runner..." she thought entering the cafe. This is her usual hangout where she came whenever her body demands some good caffeine. She look for a table for two and sat waiting for him.
Kabir pulled in the parking and took a sharp deep breath "this is it..." he whispered and put on his composure.
Nisha's eyes are on the entrance from last 20 min. "this idiot... still don't understand the value of time..." she hissed and looked out to brush his thoughts away.
Suddenly she thought she saw someone familiar in the corner of her vision... her instinct telling her that he had arrived. Her heart started thumping loudly, her nerves tingling and she was on the edge.
"nisha..." her name rolled deliciously from his mouth and nisha felt herself melting away. She quickly glanced at the handsome man standing at her side. "oh boy... his boyish smile and eager eyes... shining with a spark" nisha thought.
Kabir looked at the naive beauty sitting in front of her. Oh how much he had missed her over these years... yearned to hear from her. He couldn't control more and quickly scooped her in his embrace cuddling her. She was taken aback but his warmth was so soothing that her every emotion came undone in a moment.
Kashish h junoon bhi h
Tapish h sukoon bhi h
Meri har dua ki sada h tu..
Sanson m rava bhi h...
How much she had wanted him with her... her emotions started flowing through her eyes and her hands pulled him more "kabirr.." she whispered
Ashq tu... tu seher ...
tu meri tishnagi 2
He let out a sigh of relief and pleasure as she hugged him. He don't care they were in public putting a show of PDA. This is the moment to savour.
Ishq tu... tu khuda...
Ye meri aashiqui bandagi..
she encircled her arms around his neck. He tightened his grip on her. In that one moment being in his arm told her how much she love him... she loved him before and she loves him now...
Ishq nasheen 5
She felt overwhelmed as realisation struck her. She loves him... over the year she had thought of it as just infatuation but no... she love him with all of her.
Mere dil m tu h ishq nasheen...
meri saanson m tu ishq nasheen...
mere har su tu h ishq nasheen...
Bus tu hi tu h ishq nasheen...
She cried... cried harder than ever... like she got something what was needed to live. Her life was back... all these years she had left a part of herself with him... now that he is back... her self is back too.
tu hi tu...
Tu hi tu...
bus tu hi tu...
Tu hi tu...
Ishq nasheen...
Ishq nasheen...
kabir looked at her shuddering figure and knew she was crying. His heart melted as he make her look into his eyes. "oh nisha..." just this can came out of his mouth before his emotions choked her. He quickly hugged her one more time and stormed out of the cafe in a minute. They walked to her house in complete silence with nisha still in his embrace and he placed an arm around her waist. she opened the door and let him in bolting the door again. He made her sat and looked for something. "kitchen is in the left after this corridor..." she let him knew and he couldn't help but smile knowing how well she know him. He ran inside and fetch a glass of water for her. "u ok...?" he sat on his knees in front of her as she gulped water down her throat. He smiled as some water split out from the corner of her mouth, he cautiously wiped the trace by the back of his finger and moved some strands behind her ear. She glanced up at him
"thank u..."
"u r welcome..."
An uncomfortable silence stretched between them. Nisha patted a spot beside her and he sat there quickly. "m sorry kabir..." she whispered her head hung low. "why..." he whispered back ever so softly turning her in a puddle. "i ruined ur t shirt" she said with such a seriousness that kabir was about to have a heart attack. "what..." he looked at his t- shirt which was tear stained and laugh out loud. "its ok... m bothered the least... but m bothered about u... u r good?" he asked.
"yes i m... i just got carried away..." she said not looking in those hazel brown orbs of his. "havent u forgave me?" he asked out of the blue making her look at him puzzled. "for what..." her eyebrows wrinkled and kabir couldn't help but adore her. "for what i did to u back in school... for the hurt i gave u over there" he pointed at her heart. Her heart fluttered at the thought that he remembered everything. "u remember?" she gasped when he held her small hands in his large ones. "as clear as crystal... i ' m sorry nisha... i was that stupid jerk who hurt u so badly that u decided to leave... leave me back then" he searched her eyes. "it wasn't because of u..." and that was the truth, she didn't left because of him... it was her... her pity self who couldn't bear to see kabir with any other or just be there behaving like his friend... she was scared and tired.
"i know it was me... i was stupid idiot and duffer who ignored our friendship... who never gave u the importance u deserved... u were my bestie nisha and i just ruined everything" she can see the truth lying in his eyes.
"over all these years... i just have wished that u will be my side... that how could we be if i ever get to go back in past and correct everything... the day u left without letting me say u a goodbye... i felt empty... and all these years till to this day i feel the same... there is this place in my heart which u own... i want u to know that no matter how much punishment u wanted to give me i will accept without a word but i want u with me... i have always felt this way and whenever i have tried to get rid of ur thoughts u always come back with a new reason. M tired now nisha... m tired of hiding my feelings... i just couldn't bear a day without u... i..."
He looked up and saw her eyes moistened her lips pursed and head hung low as she shudder... feeling his gaze on her she looked up to meet his eyes and what he saw was the mirror of his heart.
"i love u nisha... i luv u..." he at last succeeded in putting a finger on his feelings and in giving them a name...
"i so love u nisha" he pulled her head to his leaning against her forehead as she sobbed silently. "i have always luved u... but never realised till now when u r here with me..." he whispered.
They sat there savouring the moment... drinking in what they have yearned for... finally realising what was that feeling. Slowly after several minutes nisha pulled away and wiped her tears. He looked up and smiled feeling calm as she smiled back. He wanted to hug her again but wasn't sure of how she gonna react as she hadn't said anything back. He tug her a little pulling her hand... and she never resisted instead she scoot near him and leaned on his chest. He wrapped her in his arms feeling... content. "do u need coffee" she asked. "yeah... u were the one crying but m the one exhausted" he sighed. She yanked his arm and stood up. "dont u think i have gone through too much for a day..." she asked. "u r not alone in it... m in too" he followed her into the kitchen and she started making coffee. "good for us..." she said.
Soon they got engaged in the talks catching up at each other's life... forgetting what they had been through in last hour. The time passed through its pace and they kept talking about their good old days pulling each other's leg and laughing. "i think my best friend is back" she said grinning wide. "yes without a doubt nisha... u can count on me" kabir beamed at her. They were smiling at each other when her phone rang saying it's time to go to catch the train. She glanced at it and stood up to pick her bag from the shelf. Kabir looked at her amused as she tried and tried to take the bag down. "need help?" he asked walking closer to her. "nope m almost... ahhh" the words drifted off as she got disbalanced due to the weight of the bag. He tried to make her steady but failed and they both landed on the bed with a thud with nisha pinned under kabir.
-----------------------------------
NISHA POV
thud... i fell on the bed hard with kabir on me and all the air in me knocked out. I opened my eyes which were closed due to the sudden fall and immediately got lost in those hazel brown orbs of his... which has this spell to bound my soul. My body was still relaxed despite his hard body pressing on mine. The proximity was more than close and i was least bother about it. He probed up a little on his elbows giving me a space enough to breath still boring into my soul. I felt my soul being naked in front of his gaze... Like he can read all my emotion and feeling right through me... it's almost scary.
"nisha..." he whispered softly still leaning on me while his gaze flicked to my lips and came back. "hmmm" i answered so meekly i think he wouldnt heard. "can i ask u something..." he was still glancing between me and my lips setting them on fire. "hmmm..." i replied. "will you..." i quickly placed my palm on his lips. "i can't marry u kabir" i whispered back. His eyes grew wide with my answer and a hurt appeared in them. Their colour and light disappeared shooting a sharp pain in my heart. Oh god what have i done... what was i thinking... "kabir vo..." but before i could speak he averted his gaze and lift off from me. He immediately lifted me up from the bed. "i think hme chalna chahie... tmhari train ka time ho gya..." he quickly picked up my bags and left my room leaving me alone.
"oh my god... nishu kya kia ye... kitna hurt kar dia tune use... damn it nisha... how could you" my heart rebuked me.
"SHE DON'T WANT TO MARRY HIM that's why" that is my mind.
"u luv him u idiot... he luv u too... then what is your damn problem"
"what if he just said that and didn't mean it..."
"are u blind... cant u see through him... oh lord... u idiot"
"nisha come downstairs... i bought my car back" his voice seems so lost so broken... m never going to forgive myself.
Drive till station was quiet and slipped in a daze... i don't know when i got out of the car and when he made me sit at my seat in the train... i don't know anything. "bye nisha..." these were the words which brought me back to reality and i looked out to see him but he was nowhere to be seen. "he left..." i heard my own voice. "why wouldn't he... u did that... u hurted him... u deserve this... it wouldn't be wrong if he start hating u becoz that is what u deserve... u punished him all these years and now too u punished him for nothing"
Tears clouded my vision and soon i was nothing but a crying mess. A shoot of pain arises deep down in me and i couldnt figure out whether it was physical or emotional... all i know that i m horrible... i m a horrible of a person... he surely dont deserve someone like me who is a mess of a person... m no good to him... i m... nothing...
-----------------------------------
KABIR'S POV
"i can't marry u kabir..." 5 words that crashed my world in less than 2 sec. I know i deserve that... i know what i did was horrendous... i know i hurted her beyond anything... it was so humble of her to even let me talk to her... she heard me out fully... even let me hold her... i shouldn't have held such high hopes from her... no way she will marry me... why would she... m no good to her... she is such a nice person... actually a gem... and here i m.. i m a duffer an idiot...
But i won't be able to forget her... her perfect body... her luscious lips... those coffee brown eyes... her silky locks... and that small yet intelligent mouth... her soft feel beneath my body... her fruity fragrance which can drive anyone crazy... and the cherry on the top being her humble nature. She is what every guy can dream of... and i gave pain to such an angel... i deserve hell.
The day i realised i luv her is the day when she told me she can't marry me... i can't see anything... never in my life i have cried but today... today no one can stop these damn tears... here i m in my car... crying like a baby...
I couldn't make myself to see her leaving... she left .. she left again... and may be for forever... but she was said too... she didn't said anything whole of the time... was lost somewhere... may be cursing herself for doing this to me... i know her better... she will be hurting herself... she will be crying and blaming herself... she is a selfless girl...but i... i m a jerk... and i don't deserve her... this reality hurts me... it wounds me not only mentally but physically too... my body is aching... this pain is beyond something i have ever experienced... maybe this is what is meant to be mine... this pain... but not SHE...
A/N - OK THE SONG USED IS OF SERIAL GANGA FROM AND TV... AND I JUST LUV IT...
Edited by mansi_as18 - 9 years ago
Shiv Shakti
