NiBir OS || Juda hoke bhi ||
A boy in his mid- twenties sat on the beach in Mumbai hugging his knees , he kept looking at the sun disappearing some where in the horizon..
He was none other than Kabir Kumar.. the best dance choreographer of Bollywood in today's time
He took out a letter from his pocket and stared at it... A lone tear slipped from his eye... He sniffed and opened the letter... How many times had he read it .. still he loved to read it...
It was the last letter she wrote for him... He smiled sadly and unfolded the letter ... But before he started reading it again he looked up in the sky...
"Dekh .. aaj bhi padta hun isse teri yaad main... but tujhe usse kya.. tu konsa mujhe miss karti hai ?"
As soon as he said this , it started thundering...
"Haan Haan theek hai.. sorry , jaanta hun tu bhi mujhe utna hi miss karti hai, jab dekho har baat ego pe leti hai... aise mat chila ..."
He said looking at the sky .. anyone who would see him would think that he is mad... and he was mad... Mad in love...But since it was a stormy day no one was there on the beach except him...
He finally started reading the letter...
My K hubby ,
Jaanti hun ki jab tak tujhe yeh letter padega main ja chuki hongi , aur acha hi hai... Main tujhe rota hua nahi dekh sakti ...
He paused and looked at the sky ... " Jab mujhe rota hua nahi dekh sakti to rone ki wajah di hi kyun ?"
He continued reading the letter ...
... Sab se pehle I am sorry... maine itni badi baat tujh se chupai ..
"Hmmm... maafi bhi maang rahi hai.. bas yehi kami thi .. ki abh hum ek dusre se maafi bhi maanenge " He said and continued reading ...
... Kabir aisa nahi hai ki main tujhe kuch batana nahi chahti thi.. bas tujhe dard nahi dena chahti thi , issliye tujhse sab chupaya...
"Acha.. aur iss dard ka kya .. jo mujhe abh mehsus ho raha hai ?" he looked at the sky with tears in his eyes...
... I wish Kabir ki main tujhe sab bata sakti..
"Toh bataya kyun nahi ? Tu bata sakti thi na " His tears started flowing from his eyes... He wiped a tear and continued ...
... Par agar tujhe bata deti toh tu apna sapna chod deta aur main yeh nahi hone de sakti thi...
"Tu pagal hai Nisha.. tujh se zyada important kuch nahi hai mere liye ya yun kahun ki kuch nahi tha " He said looking at the sky with a hope that he would get his answers but alas nothing like this happened ...
... Pata hai Kabir jab tu London gaya usske kuch dinno baad hi mujhe pata chala ki mujhe blood cancer hai aur mere pass bohut kaam din baache hai ,mujhe bohut rona aaya.. maan kiya ki kash tu yahan hota mere saath ... kash main tere kandhe pe sir rakh ke ro sakti .. kash tu mujh se kehta ki tu sab theek kar dega... kash... par aisa kuch nahi hua ... Tu yahan nahi tha..
"I am sorry Nisha... I am really sorry ..." Kabir cried and hugged the letter close to his heart.. after a few minutes he continued reading the letter..
... Gussa toh bohut aaya tujh pe... ki tu aise time pe mere saath nahi hai... par phir socha ki tu yahan iss liye nahi hai kyunki tu mujh se door apna sapna.. Humara sapna pura karne gaya hai .. aur main janti thi tu use zaroor pura karega .. aur mere jaane se pehle tu wapas aayega ...
"Tu itni achi kyun hai Nisha.. " He shook his head negatively .. " Tu itni achi kyun thi Nisha ...?"
Kabir closed his eyes and remembered that horrible day ...
*Flashback *
Kabir was going back to India after 3 months... Nisha had forced him to take re-admission in London school of dance... after he completed his course he came back to India winning the best student award ... he tried calling Nisha but she didn't answer his calls , He tried calling the landline but she didn't answer that too... he felt weird but he thought that now he could give her a double surprise , he booked the next flight for Jaipur and waited to meet his lady love...
As soon as he reached Jaipur he went to his house and to his surprise all the elders were present there...
"Arey waah.. aap sab yahan... ? Main toh Nisha ko surprise karne wala tha aap sab ne toh mujhe hi surprise kar diya.. "
He smiled and went to Dadaji toh take his blessings as soon as he went near to Dadaji he noticed his face .. his eyes were red and swollen as if he was crying for a long time... he then saw everyone's faces and everyone had the same expressions as Dadaji...
"Kya hua ? Aap sab aise kyun baithe hai ? aur aap sab kafi time se ro rahe the kya ? Kya hua hai ? Koi kuch toh batao ...? "
He went to Ramesh and shook him ...
"Papa.. aap kuch kahiye na .. kya hua hai ?" every passing moment was making him more scared their silences were scaring him...
"Kabir.. apne room main ja... tujhe sab pata chal jayega... "
Kabir ran towards his room and stopped at the door... he freezed at the sight in front of him... Nisha laid there with an oxygen mask on her face ... blood tube instered in her hand...
He leaned on the door making it bang on the wall with a thud... the cousins who were sitting on the floor near the bed looked up.. Umesh and Sukku ran to Kabir to support him...
They took him to Nisha and made him sit next to her.. he placed his shivering hand on her forehead and whispered her name making her slightly open her eyes... her eyes got teary immediately seeing him in front of her... she tried lifting her hand and touching his face but due to weakness she couldn't do it but Kabir caught her hand and placed it on his cheek ... they both had tears in their eyes... Nisha used her other hand and some how managed to remove the oxygen mask from her face...
" Kabir ,..." She called him in a shivering voice... "Tu.. best.. student .. "
She tried speaking but had no energy to say anything but Kabir understood what she was trying to say...
"Haan Nisha... main iss year ka best student hun LSD ka "
He said and kissed the her forehead... Nisha smiled weakly and signalled him through her eyes to come closer to her and he obeyed her...
"Mera sapna pura karega ? best choreographer bananega ? "
She asked in a shivering voice ...
"Haan Nisha .. main sab kuch karunga... tu jaldi theek ho ja... aur.. " Kabir replied but Nisha stopped him...
"I love you Kabir..." Nisha said and her hand slipped from Kabir's hand ...
Kabir couldn't believe what just happened .. "Nisha.. Nisha aankhien khol... Nisha... "
He tried calling her and shook her body vigorously ... hearing him scream the cousins got up and even the elders came inside...
"Papa dekho na.. Nisha ko bolo na uthne ... Nisha .. uth na yaar ..." Kabir started crying and shaking her body hoping that she would open her eyes...
Ramesh came to Kabir and just placed a hand on his shoulder and broke down ...
Everyone started crying , The cousins came to Kabir and took him in a group hug... while he kept screaming Nisha's name begging her to open her eyes...
*Present *
... Kitni ajeeb baat hai na Kabir... jab tak tu wapas aayega shayaad main na rahun... par yeh letter chod ke ja rahi hun tere liye.. jab bhi tu yeh letter padhega na main kisi na kisi roop main tere aas pass aa jaungi .. Ya toh baarish ki boondhon main , Ya hawaon ke jhokon main... par hamesha teri yaadon main rahungi... Juda hoke bhi hum juda nahi honge Kabir...
Kabir kissed the letter and kept it inside his wallet safely... as soon as he kept the letter inside it started raining heavily... he smiled and looked up at the sky... He remembered what Nisha wrote in her letter ... he opened his hands and let the rain wet him ...he tried catching a few drops in his hand because he knew that these were Nisha's tears... even she was crying seeing him cry...
He got up and blankly started walking towards the sea.. he smiled and remembered all the happy moments he spent with Nisha and kept walking deep inside the sea hoping that even he would disappear in this water and meet his Nisha like the sky meets the sea at the horizon ...
