Scenario
The situation here is, that Sam wasn't fired by the BoD. Instead, he resigned himself for reasons you'll find in this SS. And his resignation was given to the Board in a serious meeting, and not in the funny way that we saw.
Another thing, this story starts from the scene where Gunjan went to Samrat's house to wake him up.
Kaash Aisa Hota!!! A SaJan SS
"Samrat......utho, Samrat......" he heard her voice. "This can't be Chashmish, how can she be here??!!". Still, he opened his eyes and saw her sitting very close to him. A smile captured his face, as he said, "Chashmish, tum sapney mein aur bhi beautiful lagti ho"......and went back to sleep again. His words gave a sweet pinch in her heart. She saw him sleeping again, and for a moment, she could not think of anything else. But she had to wake him up. She had come there to talk to him.
"Samrat......", she said, softly, almost as a whisper in his ear. He woke up and saw her sitting next to him. His head was on her arm and they were merely away from each other. It was like a dream come true for him. For years, he was dying for this day......this moment to come. The day, when he sees her face the first thing in the morning and its glow making his every morning beautiful. He closed his eyes to feel this moment, to capture her beautiful face and gorgeous smile in his heart; because he knew......it was just one odd morning.
His head was on her arm and his eyes were closed. All she could do was to look at him, lying sooo calmly on her arm. Wasn't this her dream too? A dream that she used to see, since the day, she understood the meaning of love? A dream that she wanted to live? A dream in which she saw herself sleeping in his arms and waking up in his arms? Yes!!! This was her dream'this was her life. But maybe, this is why dreams differ from reality. And the reality was that a lot had changed between them. Despite being soooo close, there was a distance between them.
There was silence in the room, but there was a lot of noise surrounding the hearts and minds of the two people sitting there. A strand of her hair fell on his face, which made him realize that sometimes, dreams do come true. He opened his eyes and he saw the most beautiful sight of his life. It was HER......his Chashmish,......very close to him. It was after a very long time, that their eyes could see deep down into each other's. There was a time when they needed no words to express themselves, and they could read the message from each other's eyes'......but the distance of 3 years, that were no less than a nightmare...... there was something new in the eyes. Maybe, the language in which the message was written was new, or, maybe, the message was very blurred......which made it difficult for them to comprehend what was in the eyes. Thus, they were absorbed to find some familiarity in them.
Without breaking this eye contact, he brought his hand to her face and very gently, tucked her hair, back of her ear, with his fingers brushing her cheeks. His touch made a sensation in her whole body......as if, a high voltage current passed through it. She closed her eyes to feel his touch, to absorb the affection of his touch in herself. His hand was cupping her cheek now and his fingers were gently caressing her cheek. She opened her eyes in which tears had already made their way. His condition wasn't any different too. Tears were piling up in his eyes too.......but definitely, these tears, in their eyes, were of happiness. Or, maybe, they were because of getting in a moment, which was too good to be true and was utterly unbelievable.
Her face was getting closer and closer to his, and now, they could feel each other's breaths. There was hardly any distance between them. Heart beats were racing, and shivers were passing through their bodies. They were at the disposal of the moment that was happening between them. His hand was on her face, and she was leaning on him, with her arm still under his head, and gripping her dupatta tightly with her other hand. Just as their lips were about to have a sweet touch, his phone rang.
The dreamy moment broke, and reality spread its wings. She moved back and he withdrew his hands from her cheek. With a jolt, he sat on the bed, and she started rubbing her arm gently, that was under his head all this while. He picked up the phone from the bed side table, but by the time he could answer it, it stopped ringing.
The eyes that were till now looking into each other's were now avoiding moving in that direction. Awkwardness took charge. She straightened her dupatta and dress and was rubbing and pressing her arm, while looking down at it'but in between'she couldn't help looking towards him and then down again. And he too, flipping his cell phone, he also on and off looked towards her and seeing her eyes down on her arm'he just kept on looking at her. but when she raised her eyes and saw towards him, their eyes instantly moved left, right, down.......anywhere.......except for looking at each other.
And the silence continued for sometime......till, he decided to end it.
"Woh........" and his phone rang again.
"Hello....... per main ne toh resign ker dia hai........haan, lekiin aaj hi??.....ok, I'll try to come today........around evening time.......will that be ok........great.......bye", and he hung up the phone.
She was sitting quietly on his bed and was trying to regain her senses back. He looked at her and they both shared a brief smile.
"Kiska phone........" ; "Excel se phone'.", they said simultaneously.
Smiles spread on their faces as they both laughed. Speaking simultaneously was something that often used to happen with time. Though, a lot had changed, but this one coincidence brought a lot of memories back for them. They did, what they used to do'and that is, they started laughing. This laughter stepped towards making things normal between them and it eased the environment surrounding them, as they could now breathe easily.
"Excel se phone tha, Chashmish. Abhi tak mera resignation approve nahin hua hai......aur kuch files pe merey signatures chahiyen, kyonke un cases pe decision main ne liya tha. Is liye BoD ka khyal hai, ke un cases pe approval signatures merey hi hone chahiyen. Aur kuch pending cases ko discuss bhi kerna hai, is liye wo mujhey College bula rahey they. Yeh transition phase bhi bohat lamba ho jata hai. I wish, yeh sab jaldi khatam ho, takey mein once n for all Excel se dur ja sakon". As he was saying this last part of going away from Excel, his smile had faded and sadness started popping up in his voice. To cover up for this, he stood up from his bed and walked to the window.
She walked up to him and stood on the other end of the window. She knew that Samrat was upset and that he was hiding his emotions from her too.
"Kya dekh rahey ho, Samrat"?
Samrat was absorbed in watching the birds, flying, chirping around, moving from one tree to another'to a pole'then to a tree. Looking at them, he replied. "In birds ko dekh raha hun, Chashmish. Kitni azaad zindagi hai inki. Koi bandish nahin, koi rukawat nahin, koi tension nahin, koi pareshani nahin. Kaash hum insaan bhi in parindon ki terha hotey. Hum bhi inki tarah azaad zindagi guzaar saktey, aur zindgi yun humara her pal imtihaan na leti. Kaash hum bhi waqt ke paron pe asaani se udh saktey, per yahan toh, jaisey hi hum udhney lagtey hein, waqt humarey per hi kaat deta hai, aur hum munh ke bal zameen pe ja girtey hein."
"Aisa kyun hota hai, Chashmish? Kyon sab kuch humarey haaton se aisey phisal jata hai, jaise wo kabhi humara tha hi nahin. Bolo na Chashmish, aisa humarey saath kyon hota hai"? Facing Gunjan, he asked her. his voice was shaking, his eyes were fixed on her, and there was only pain in them.
Each of his word stabbed her heart. How could she respond to this? She, herself was a victim of the harshness and cruelties of life. But every word from his mouth fell like a sword on her heart and it felt as if the sword brutally broke her heart into small pieces.
But she had to talk. ..she wanted to talk to him. A lot had to be said, to be heard......and ......after Nupur's return, till now..they both were avoiding bringing up this topic. But it had to be talked over some day, so why not now??!!
"Kuch toh kaho, Chashmish.
"Samrat, mein yeh toh nahin janti ke ye sab kuch kyon hota hai. Haan per itna zaroor janti hun ke zindagi ke kisi modh pe hum insaan waqt aur kismet ke agey bebus ho jatey hein. Hum chahey jitna bhi zor laga lein, apni kismat ko nahin badal saktey. Kahin na kahin, kisi na kisi terha ye apna khel dikha hi jati hai, aur hum sirf bethey ye tamasha dekhtey reh jatey hein. Aur sab kuch jo humara hota hai, wo ek pal mein hi paraya lagney lagta hai". Her voice was also shaking, but saying all this, made her feel lighter.
After she came to know about Nupur's reality, her guilt had made her life hell......every breath was difficult to take. Every second she was just about what she had done with Samrat..what all she had said to him. The guilt had surrounded her heart and mind'and she wanted to rectify her mistakes, in any way, and at any cost.
Looking out of the window, she continued, "Aur Samrat, ye parindey toh bezubaan hotey hein. Humarey dil mein, dimagh mein jo kuch hota hai, hum ussey express ker saktey hein. Hum sochney ki capability rakhtey hein. Her situation ko handle kerney ka tareeka nikal saktey hein. Per ye becharey toh sara waqt, ek jagah se dusri jagah udhtey rehtey hein. Na kuch keh saktey hein, na ker saktey hein. Bus yunhi udhtey udhtey apni life puri ker letey hein".
By now, Samrat had walked to where she was standing. When she turned her face from the window towards him, for a second she got confused, as she saw him standing close to her.
There was a silence of few seconds again.
"Kya hua, Chashmish. Tum ruk kyon gayi?", he asked her.
She got lost in his eyes for a while, and he had to snap his fingers to bring her back from her thoughts.
She blushed slightly, and looked down.
He was getting amused looking at her feeling shy and blushing. A smile crossed his face as he saw his Chashmish like this.
She looked up again, at him..."Wo......mein......tum.......kya Samrat? Tum bhi kya baatein le ke beth gaye? Mein yahan tum se kuch aur discuss kerney ayi thi, aur tum ne mujhey kin baton mein uljha dia", she said trying to bring herself, her voice and the environment back to normalcy.
"Sahi keh rahi ho Chashmish. Bohat serious baatein ho gayein. Acha, baba......ab nahin kerunga aisi baatein.......per tum ye toh batao ke tum itni subah yaha kaise?" Thankfully, he was back to himself again.
"Subha??!!" she exclaimed in a shocked voice.
"Mr. Samrat Shergill..is waqt dopeher ke 12 baj chukey hein. Adha din almost guzar chuka hai. aur tum keh rahey ho subha......!!!" She was almost scolding him now.
"Kya Chashmish......itney dinon baad toh itni sakoon ki neend ayi thi. Aisa lag raha tha jaisey sadion baad ye sakoon naseeb hua hai'toh itna sona toh bunta hai na?" He smiled raised his eye brows.
She could see his pain again. And she knew that he was hiding this pain from her. Her guilt was surfacing again. But maybe, it wasn't the right time.
"Nahin......bilkul nahin bunta itna sona. Tumhein pata hai zyada sona health ke liye acha nahin hota. Aur mein tumhein is terha sara din soney nahin de dungi", she was getting firm and authoritative.
"Wah, Chashmsh, tum toh aisey bol rahi ho, jaisey tum meri biwi ho........" and he knew that he had said something very wrong and she would've definitely been hurt by it.
Her heart skipped a beat just as he said this sentence and she got totally numb.
He looked at her and saw that she completely shaken by his words.
"Wo, Chashmish......I'm sorry......merey kehney ka matlab tha ke.......tum......." but he couldn't find any reason or logic for what he had just said. So, he knew that the best thing was to talk of something else.
"Emmm.......Waise, Chashmish......tumhein kaka ne koi chai, coffee di ya nahin?" His voice had not fully recovered, but he tried to sound ok.
She raised her eyes, back towards him......"kaka ne pocha tha'per mein ne hi mana ker dia. Mein college se chai pi ke ayi thi..toh, is liye......." She also tried to compose herself. But her heart and mind were still battling with Samrat's words.
Samrat knew that he shouldn't have said this, and seeing her lost, made him feel sadder. He tried again to cheer her up, if not, cheer'atleast to divert her thoughts on some other thing.
"Waise, Chashmish, tum ne ye toh abhi tak bataya nahin ke tum yahan kyon ayi ho? Sab kuch theek hai na??!!!
Gunjan came out of her thoughts, and looked back at him.
"Haan.......wo mein, is liye ayi thi, kyonke mujhey tum se kuch baat kerni thi, kuch puchna tha?", she replied.
"Toh pocho na, Chasmish. Mein tumharey saamney khada hun. Jo pochna chahti ho, pocho. I'm allllllll ears", he said mischievously, bending a bit forward towards her.
She smiled back at him, "Samrat, tum ne resign kyon kiya? Mera matlab hai, tumhari itni achi job thi, tum life mein settled they..phir bhi tum ne resign ker dia. kyon Samrat?" concern was visible in her voice.
This concern of her's made him feel happy. It was good to see the care Gunjan had for him.
"Hmmm.......sawal toh tumhara bohat acha hai, Per iska jawab merey paas itna convincing nahin hai'saiwaye is ke, keh mein tung a gya tha us routine se......us mahool se.......use jagah se. Ek stagnation ki feeling hoti thi ab wahan......jaisey mein kuch aisa ker raha hun, jisko mera dil aur dimagh nahin manta, per phir bhi mein kiye ja raha hun. Aur Chashmish......ye sahi bhi toh nahin hai na. Meri aisi thinking ki wajah se mujhey toh shayad koi nuksaan na hota, per bohat se students ki life merey decisions pe dependent thi. Aur agar mein half-heratedly kaam kerta, toh shayad aisey mein koi aisa decision le leta jis se kisi student ka nuksaan ho jaye. Ye mein bilkul nahin chahta tha. Is liye, mein ne resign ker dia". He tried his best to convince her, and as he was saying all this, he went and sat on the sofa.
She listened to him quietly. There was some uneasiness going on within her. But it was not the time to think about herself. So, she walked up to him, and sat with him, on the sofa.
"Magar, Samrat. Tum ne itna bada decision liya hai. Akhir tum ne kuch toh apni life aur career ke barey mein socha ho ga na. Yun farigh beth ke toh zindagi nahin guzar sakti. Tum ne agey ke liye kya socha hai?" She asked him with affection and care.
He knew that her concern was very valid. This thought maybe, crossed his mind too, but he didn't let the thought get strong. But coming from Gunjan, this gave him a sense of contentment and a feeling of belongingness'that there is someone who still worries for him.
"Chashmish, agey ka abhi kuch socha hi nahin hai. Sach pocho toh ab agey ke barey mein sochney se bhi darr lagta hai. Waise bhi, thak gya hun khud se bhagtey bhagtey. In teen saalon mein sab kuch jaise bikhar gya ho. Ab thodi der ruk ker araam kerna chahta hun. In bikhrey huey tukdon ko sametna chahta hun. Kuch waqt apney saath, apney liye guzarna chahta hun. Uskey baad agey ke barey mein bhi soch lein ge". He said very half heartedly,as if he was indifferent about life and future now.
She knew where he was heading to, and what he was talking about. THIS was her fear too. She knew that this condition of Samrat, where he has left thinking about his future and has become indifferent is because of her. She was feeling very bad about herself. Her mind and heart were constantly telling her that she has ruined his life, she blamed him, cursed him, punished him for something that he never did. And as a result of all the bitterness from her'the guy who was filled with life.......doesn't care about life anymore.
His words had again made her numb. Lost in her thoughts, she replied, "thak toh mein bhi bohat gayi hun, Samrat. Pichley teen saal mein her pal ek sadi ki terha guzra hai. Sab khwab, khwahishein, umeedein, sab kuch jaise kahin gum gaye hon..ya kisi ne mujh se cheen liye hon......ya phir........ shayad, mein ne hi sab kuch apney ap se bohat dur ker dia ho......."
He could see pain in her eyes and there were some signs of regret too. He could never see her regret for anything that she had done..be it deliberately, or unknowingly. So, he interrupted her.
"Chodo na, Chashmish. Kuch aur baat kertey hein!!"
"Kab tuk bhago ge is sub se, Samrat. Ek na ek din toh tumhein ye sab sochna hi ho ga!!" she wanted to make him think in that direction and not avoid the topic.
All of a sudden, he stood up, "tab ki tab dekhi jayegi, Chashmish. Filhaal toh mujhey bohat bhook lagi hai. Aisa kertey hein, mein jaldi se fresh ho ke ata hun......phir coffee ke saath kuch snacks ho jayein"......and he was back to himself.
She also stood up, "Arey haan!!! Tum ne toh nashta bhi nahin kiya. Mein ne uthtey saath hi tumehin in baaton mein laga liya. Sorry, Samrat'."
"Hey, Chashmish'tum ek rule break ker rahi ho", he stopped her from continuing.
She got confused, "Kaunsa rule??!!"
"Tumhein shayad yaad nahin hai, per tumhein mujhey sorry kehna allowed nahin hai", his voice got softer as he walked close to her.
There was a second of silence again, as they looked in each other's eyes. These things had always been very special in their relationship'and their memories were making them relive those moments.
As he was very close to her, she brought her arms forward and pushed him back, "acha, ab tumehin bhook nahin lag rahi. Jao, ja ke naha lo, mein kitchen mein ja ke tumhari liye snacks bana deti hun."
He kept on standing there and looking at her, with a grin on his face.
"Jaaaoooo, Samrat", she tuned him from his shoulders.
He went to the washroom, and she sat on the sofa, with a smile on her face, "ye Samrat bhi na!!"
As she got up to go out of the room, she got a shock. He was standing behind her. Seeing her turn around, his naughty smile made way on his face'.as he started walking towards her again. Watching him come closer n closer, her heat beat raced, and with all her force, she gripped the side of her dupatta. There was a passion in his eyes, and his gaze was not allowing her to move. She was unable to think of anything. He came closer and started bending towards her. She fell on the sofa. He was bending and getting closer to her. Her heart started skipping beats. They were very close now, their breaths were mixing'.he could hear her heart beat, and the butterflies in her stomach were doing somersaults. Just when their faces were this close, he stopped moving further. Their eyes were caught by each other's..and this is what all they could see'.deep down into each other's eyes. She took a deep breath and he brought his hand towards her face. She closed her eyes anticipating his touch, but instead, felt his hand moved past her face. She opened her eyes and looked at him. "Kya hua?? Mein toh towel leney aya tha!!" Hewinked at her, gave a big smile and picked up the towel from the table that was placed next to the sofa.
She started blushing like anything. Her face had turned deep pink. She couldn't look back in his eyes, but also, couldn't wipe the smile growing on her face. He straightened himself up, as she also sat properly on the sofa. He was enjoying every expression of her face'and their occasional and brief eye-locks communicated smiles to each other.
He went back to the washroom and she made her way to the kitchen.
After that they both enjoyed coffee and snacks with lighter, routine chit-chat.
"Chalo, Samrat mein ab chalti hun", she siad, looking at her watch.
"Itni jaldi kyun??!! Arey haan'aj Tuesday hai, aur tumhari class ka time hone wala hai"
Gunjan instantly replied, "Dekha Samrat, tumharey undr ka Trustee abhi bhi wahin hai", and smiled.
"Not again, Chashmish'please. Chalo, aisa kerey hein..mein ne bhi Excel toh jana hi hai..Aur time kaafi ho chuka hai'toh ek saath hi chaltey hein".
Gunjan agreed as they both left for Excel.
Edited by ayesha_80 - 15 years ago
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