Part 5 -
There was silence around..as if saying so much.. I was constantly looking at him waiting for him to unveil yet another layer of his heart..
"Have you ever made any mistake in your life Riti" He asked me in a soft meloncholy tone.
Well I am not perfect .. and if I look back there are lots and lots of mistakes that I can count in..But why does he wants to listen to it... I was still wondering when he said in low voice again...
"Sometimes our life pushes us on the edge ..and to just survive we take on whats right in front of us... Sometimes we dont know the outcome..we just know that this is the only way out...Right or wrong whatever it is..."
"I didnt understand you..." I was confused... He was talking in riddles here.
"I was in a situation where whole world looked like as stranger..and the only hand that came forward was of a friend.. A friend who didnt question my caste ..who didnt question my birth.. who didnt ridicule my abilities... He just stood there like a solid wall.. for first time in my life...there was someone who was speaking for me... and not indulged in throwing insults... He was a royal blood..and me a commoner then.. Still He showed his large heart that day ..I got indebted to him for the rest of my life..."
"You mean dury.. I mean duryodhana..."
He smiled at my innocent utterance.. and for a second I was so relieved with that hint of smile on his face ... He nodded his head slightly..
"But he was wrong man... I mean he had selfish motives... didnt you see that ..Atleast that is what people say.."I said quite assertively.. "He might be.. but then he was only one who seemed right that day to me.. Probably I knew Duryodhana had chosen wrong path and perhaps I was just seeing with his viewpoint.. But then there was noone around to tell me that i was wrong.. "
"I did mistakes.. in my rage...in my revenge..in my hatred for pandavas..I crossed a line one day..when I called a woman..." He stopped .. his eyes reflected his guilt.. it felt like pinching in heart somewhere... I had always wished that he had not crossed that line..
"Do you regret that..." I asked him with curious look on my face...
His silence gave me answer... Ofcourse he did.. there is no amount of citations that can shake my belief on that..I was pretty sure on it..
"When you came to know of truth...of your birth.." I stopped midway probably realising that he understood my question...
"Sometimes it is so much easier living in lies and misconceptions..than seeing truth.. when truth changes your life forever.. "
"My enemies were my own blood... my own kin...It was much easier hating them when I had not known this truth...but after coming to terms with it...I just could not look into those eyes of my brother with hatred... My brother whom I had considered my arch rival...my sworn in enemy.. Life is funny in its own way...isnt it... " He looked at horizon again and said with a sigh...
Yeah it is I thought... People whom you always hated turn out to be your own shadow..your own blood..How devastating it must be...when you cant reach out to them.. and hold them in your arms...when you know time has already gone for you to come to other side...which actually belonged to you... There was a man in front of me who chose to brave that situation in life with such dignity and grace..and He didnt fail anyone ..neither his friend..nor his brothers..but yes perhaps he was not fair on himself then...
I thought of changing the mood around...these talks were getting too heavy for me..and looked like it was taking him too deep in thoughts..and in again those oceans of his own sorrow..
"Lets talk on something else... I mean .. Tell me why you find peace in this place...Anything special here..."
To be Continued
(Just wanted to finish in this one...but thought of one last update more..Wont bore you people further than that.. Please give honest feedbacks... Would love to hear it)
Edited by riti4u - 11 years ago
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