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Chapter 13: The Inevitable
~"In the end, we only regret the chances we didn't take"~
"Stranger? that was a little harsh!" He gave me a side way glance. "Come on, we r more than that!"
"Then what? We r definitely not friends."
"How about cherished acquaintance?"
I smiled. Oh, u will be cherished, Mr Charmer! No doubt there.
He stopped the car as we reached our hotel gate n called his manager to take care of it. We walked back to the lobby area.
"So.." He said nervously, putting his hands in his pockets.
"So..., I guess this is it". I said knowing very well that we should not stretch this any longer. Sooner it ends, easier it would be to let go.
"I'll go back to the party inside. My friends will probably still be there." I checked the time n it showed exactly 11.
"See I got u on time. Kept my promise". He peeked in my watch n said over me.
I struggled to smile n barely succeeded "Thanks Rishabh for the evening. I had a good time."
He ran his hand through his hair n faked a short laugh.
"Good? That word is a serious tarnish on my reputation, u know. I always give the girls the best time of their lives. But u obviously won't allow me to show u that. Still u should know, my room no. is 478, in case..."
His voice sounded a little hopeful n it kills me to disappoint him.
"U know my answer. Perhaps, u could have easily picked up someone else from the party tonight. I'm sorry for wasting ur time."
"Don't be ridiculous." He retorted "U never promised me anything. I knew very well how u felt about it, when I asked u out. N I respect ur choice. Remember when I asked u to dance with me?"
The memory of him asking my hand to dance in that extremely romantic way, came to me n my heart fluttered
"U gave me ur hand, n that's when I knew what u truly wanted. So when u hesitated n questioned me that why would u dance with me, I had said..."
"Because it's not just u who wants it, I want it too". I remembered how intensely he had said those lines n it had drove away every single ounce of doubt in me.
"Exactly." He smiled warmly. "Anything to happen between us will only happen when u'll want it too!"
His words touched my soul n fr the first time, I felt a part in me wanting... wanting to submit to this. I was terrified by the thought. My own desires had started betraying me n I CANNOT LET THIS HAPPEN!
He continued after a pause,
"I'm glad I took this chance though. I don't regret this".
"Me too!" I confessed.
He sighed n took a step back.
"So, who is going to say the word?" My voice was shaky n I could literally feel my heart getting ripped off, string by string.
He just stared at me n his warm smile wasn't helping my resolve. I brought myself to say it,
"Good.."
He cut me off before I could complete.
"I don't want to hear that from you, ever." He gulped down the lump formed in his throat. "H...How about, Good luck?"
I took off his coat n handed him back "Good luck Rishabh!"
N with this, I finally walked away.
Sitting in the garden in that lonely cold night, my thoughts kept drifting back to him. After I left the place, I didn't go back to join my friends. Instead, came here straight. I was feeling a strange emptiness in me. As if I lost something very essential, that made me feel alive. I had known him for just one evening, one damn evening. But being with him felt calm n satisfying. Like this was all I had been looking for. Like this was erything my soul yearned for. Like, this was where my heart always belonged. N... n it felt home!
Just then, my phone ringed n I was brought back to my senses when I saw the caller's name. It was from my mom. I immediately clasped it to my ears.
"Hell..hello Ma! Ma where r u? R u fine? R u back home yet?...Ma plz say something".
I blabbered as the thoughts about what my brother had informed, came rushing to me.
"I'm fine Madhu beta calm down" She said in a heavy voice.
"Ma...!
I couldn't take it anymore n started crying. I had been through so much today. I felt the pain, the heartache, the grief, the fear n most of all, the anger. I was angry with myself for going out with Rishabh when here my mom was missing. I hate myself for thinking about him when I should have been worrying about my mother. What the hell was wrong with me?
"Ma, I m so sorry." I couldn't think of what to say n kept on crying.
"It was not ur fault my sweet child".
Her voice was soothing n I wished I could hug her then.
"I'm a bad daughter."
"Of course not. U've always been my reason to survive. I can't tell u how much guilt I felt whenever u n ur brother had to witness those terrible fights. I never wanted that to affect u"
I sobbed hearing that n tried to pull myself back.
"Its ok Mom. Everything will be fine. We'll survive this, together. Are u home now? Did u talk to Harsh?"
"Oh baby!" her voice trembled n I could feel she was crying too. N then she dropped the bomb
"Madhu, I'm divorcing ur father!"
My world had stopped spinning. Everything came to still n those words echoed in my ears. My mind refused to register it. This couldn't happen. No, no, no, never.
I was sitting numb n lost. I couldn't feel the chilly wind or hear the party noises from the hall across. It had been long before when I talked to my mom n she gave me that horror. I had cried, I had whined, I had pleaded. I had said everything I could. I had requested her with every bit of me to stay. But she didn't budge. She told, this was inevitable n she had to do this. Had to? I gave a small chuckle as I thought about it. My mother 'had to' end her relationship because apparently, there was nothing that could hold her enough, not even her love for her children. She "had to" call it off n break this family because she was too tired of living it that way. She chose herself n her happiness above her children. I know is was wrong of me to blame her for this but I will. Cause damnit, I had just lost my family n I've only her n my father to blame for this. They ended their sufferings but ours had just began!
I always admired the perfect love stories n dreamed about forevers. Now I'm disgusted of myself. I was an idiot. I had all that shit n nonsense filled in my head. All that connection, soulmate, ocean everything, every damn thing is utter nonsense. There's no such thing as "unconditional love". Nothing can bind u with someone forever, not even for the happiness of ur children. In the end you'll always choose yourself, just like my parents did. You should, you have to! Because you are here to live your life. Cause basically, nothing n noone else matters!
I wiped my tears n got up from the chair. I carried myself back inside n the next thing I knew, I was standing in front of Rishabh, while he held his room's door open for me. He looked dumbstruck to see me there n before he could ask anything, I announced my decision!
"I want this too!"
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I KNOW RIGHT! So much drama n emotions n finally the shocking twist. I would literally die waiting for your responses so plz take pity on me n share ur views asap.😭 Comments, complains, anything, just keep them coming.😆
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Spoiler: I hear the condom packet tearing!😉
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