NEW THREAD I-Rishabala FF: Faithless Love Ch.4 P.8 4/14/14 - Page 3

I sat there as I stared at the mehendi that stayed cold on my hands. Tears stayed dried on my cheeks as I stared to space. Life had stayed still for a while after RK left the room. Getting engaged was supposedly skipped as rings would be exchanged on the wedding day which was set for tomorrow.

The moon showed lightly as I stared back at it dreaming and waiting for something to happen. Some miracle that would take me back to the time I had asked for Varun's hand in marriage. The moment we both had decided to get married in India.

Flashback:

I had decided to propose to Varun at the Taj Mahal. Everything was perfect. Although, a boy to propose to a girl, I had decided to create a twist and do it the other way around.

A smile appeared on my face as I tried to handle my red sari as I felt a blush appear on my face. I placed my hair in front as I fixed it for once and held a ring in the box.

"Ok, so the moment Varun comes in, start playing the song. Thanks!"I exclaimed as I smiled at the violinsts and turned around as Varun showed up. He wore a white shirt that fitted perfectly with his tanned body. He had a small smile on his face as I laughed and ran up to him as he opened his arms and hugged me tightly.

"Hey! You look hot today!" Varun mumbled as I laughed and slapped his back. He smirked as I grabbed the collar of his shirt.

"Only for you," I whispered as I giggled and kissed his lips.

Suddenly, I felt roses falling on us as I smiled and felt the roses falling on us by nearby rose tree.

The violin began to play as I blushed and kneeled down on my knees. Varun stared at me curiously.

"The day I've seen you at the campus and saw you laughing, I fell in love with your laugh. I fell in love with how you made me laugh, made be myself. You let me love myself more than ever. I love you because of the way you believe in me, the way I become a perfect part of your life. I want you be a part of me and me a part of you. Will you marry me Varun?" I asked as Varun stared back at me and smiled.

"Of course, I would," Varun said as he grabbed my hands and pulled me into a hug. I smiled as I grabbed the ring and placed it into his hand as he picked me up and swung me in the air...

Flashback Ended:

I heard a crash as I turned around and saw a box on the floor that Nandini was holding in her hand. It was already morning and the entire night had been spent thinking about the memories Varun and I once shared. Now there were none left.

"Here! RK sent these for you,"Nandini announced as she threw a large tray across the bed towards me. I held on to my knees as I looked up at her in curiousity.

"Your bridal attire,"Nandini mumbled as she turned around and was about to walk away.

"Nandini! Wait," I said as Nandini stopped in her tracks and looked back at me.

"Why are you made at me. Look, try to believe me," I said as I felt tears well up in my eyes.

"Di, you've already humiliated us a lot. Don't expect sympathy," Nandini said as I felt a tear drop down on my cheek as she walked away.

"By the way, here's some haldi and apply it yourself. Mom doesn't want the haldi ceremony to be held in front of the relatives. Too much embarrassment and taunts already," Nandini said as she shut the door.

I closed my eyes as tears unbreakably came out and flushed my face. What have I done? I've ruined my own life with my own hands! Why did let Varun leave me?! I could've done something! Something! I let him go and let a villain enter my life. It's all my fault. Why did I give away Varun? Why?...

Flashback:

I stood there as the ring that once held my finger rolled down on the tile floor. Shock approached me as my heart began to ache in pain.

My lehenga lost its pink as I let it drag on the floor as I began to walk up to Varun and Aditi as they stood there on the balcony in eachother's arms as Varun had cupped Aditi's face and had been kissing her intensely.

Tears dried and came more as anger approached my mind and turned my face red.

I pulled open the French doors and grabbed Varun and slapped him hard on his cheek.

"How dare you bas***d?! How dare you?! You RUINED every damn thing we had! Everything! And you, Aditi! What have I done to you!" I exclaimed as I held her shoulders and stared into her eyes.

"God! Madhu,stop being so overdramatic! You don't understand!" Varun exclaimed as he pushed me off of Aditi.

"What do you mean?!" I screamed as I wanted to roll into a ball and just cry. Just cry my eyes out.

"Look at you! This is why I like Aditi! Look at you and her! She's much thinner, modern and educated than you! You might be a doctor, but look at you! You dress like an aunty! YOU lost yourself the MOMENT YOU came to India! Varun, don't kiss me, hug me, don't do this, everyone will see! And look at Aditi! She LOVES me! She loves the way I am!" Varun exclaimed as he pointed at himself.

"B-b-but, I love you!" I announced as I cupped his face and tried to find the lost love that once appeared in his eyes.

Flashback Ends

The water turned on as the hairstylist lightly washed my hair and the haldi off of my face. I laid my head into the dark,colored round bowl.

My eyes wandered to the ceiling as I stared at the whiteness of it that signified purity, but that had left me the minute I entered the room with RK...

The stylist dried my hair and straightened it as she smiled and looked at my mehendi.

"You know, your mehendi is so dark and maroon. Mr.Kundra will love you a lot," The stylist noted as I stared at the hands and weakly smiled at her. Mr.Kundra doesn't have the heart to love. Sadly, I only experienced love once that had eventually left me.

I looked up at my reflection as I took in the long red lehenda choli that hung on to me. It had bits of detail that attempted to glimmer my mood,but it did not work. My face was dried like a lemon's.

Madhu's Lehenga:

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The stylist placed on the long Rajastani, nose ring reaching from my ear to my nose in a circle as my maang tika sat as a diamond on my head. My hair was held up in a bun with jasmine flowers surrounding it as small, diamond-gold round balls hung on the middle of the bun and then right on the lower middle of my head.

A long-choker necklace of gold and rubies along with diamonds went from my neck to the end of a chest following a long trail of necklaces sitting right above the belly button of my stomach.

I placed on my Punjabi "chura" that colored in red and white bangles across my arm.

The stylist pulled up my duptaa on to my right shoulder to my left as she placed the duptaa right on top of my head. I weakly smiled and thanked her as I placed on the heavy anklets on my ankles.

"All ready," Mom asked as she walked in and stared at me with no emotion. The stylist nodded and left as mom stared at me in the mirror.

"So many dreams that shattered," Mom mumbled as I looked up at her with my vision becoming blurry again as I looked down failing to meet my mom's eyes.

"You know Madhu. A mom should never say this, but I wish you were never my daughter. I wish I NEVER gave birth to YOU! I really wish that you should possibly go to hell for what you have done. I'm warning you to NEVER, EVER come back to this house even if you are at your worst. Even if, you are abused,thrown out of your house or even tortured, don't you DARE come back. I'm not even going to drop a tear, the moment you leave," Mom exclaimed as I looked up at her in shock as my mouth widened.

I got up as I stared back at her in shock as she looked away and grabbed my wrist.

"But, M-" I got cut off as Mom twisted my wrist.

"Now, come on!" Mom exclaimed as she pushed me down the stairs.

I walked in silence as I walked out to the back of the house where the mandap was set. RK had decided that the wedding would be small with only some of his main relatives as he didn't believe in creating a big wedding.

The rose colored flower felt like thorns as I walked on them to the mandap. The mandap was set in the middle of the backyard where a large red canopy of flowers was set above the brown colored poles that were covered with a stream of Jasmine flowers.

I felt like an emotionless human being as I stared at RK who wore a tight black,embroidered sherwani that held a long, red embroderied scarf on it. He wore a dark, morroon colored turban that held flowers on to it. RK picked up the flowers to show his face as he looked back at me and smirked.

"Finally, Madhu-bala came," RK noted as the relatives chuckled who sat on the golden colored chairs and looked at us. His eyes seemed to go up and down my figure as he seemed to be set on taking in my features.

My eyes lowered as I tried to quickly get out of this shame. Mom released her hard grip from my arm as it turned slightly pink.

My hands went over to my long lehenga as I tried to pick it up as I walked up on the stairs of the mandap. Suddenly, I felt my feet trip as my mouth widened in shock right before a felt a pair of hands around my waist.

A long pair, of strong arms reached around my waist as I looked up to see RK holding me tight as his widened. His face flushed as he seemed to be in shock and for a minute, I could see fear that had appeared in his eyes.

"You ok?" RK asked as I looked at him in disabelief as my nose barely touched his. His hand's warmth seeped through the skin of my lehenga choli as I quickly shook my head.

"Huh...yeah, I'm fine," I weakly whimpered as he shook his head and held me get up fully on my feet as he grabbed my hand and helped me up.

"I told you! The stairs to the mandap were too wide!" RK exclaimed at his secretary Bittu Ji.

"It's not his fault...I just tripped on accident," I whispered to RK as Bittu Ji shook his head and agreed while RK threw a glare at him.

"Do not, tell me if I'm right or wrong," RK whispered back to me as I lowered my eyes and shook my head.

"Aab, var maala ka time hai," The pandit announced as Ishita and Nandini walked up with the heavy rose colored var malas.

Aditi stood behind me as she rolled her eyes and threw a chuckle to Varun. I sighed as RK grabbed the var maala. My eyes stared at the var mala and then up to Varun who stood there laughing with Aditi. He was once mine. He was the one I imagined putting the var maala on,but she stole him away from me.

"Madhu,var maala," Ishita noted as I looked up at her after my broken bubble and slowly grabbed on to the var maala.

I held it up and Varun's face with Aditi stood in it. My eyes watered as I gulped as RK grabbed my hands and pulled the var mala towards him. He smirked as he looked at me.

"Now, this var maala is only mine," RK noted as I shook my head and went up to place it on his head before his cousins pulled him back as they began laughing while RK still held a smile on his face.

I sighed as I went up to him,but he got picked up in the air instead.

"Hey! This is not bhai!" Ishita exclaimed as she pointed at RK. I felt a smile appear on my face as Ishita's competitive side showed up as her face flushed with anger. She stuck her tongue out as she got her friends to pick me up to.

My eyes widened as I felt dizzy up in the air as I moved closer to RK. I grabbed the var maala and went closer and closer to him before placing it over his neck.

"AH no!" His cousins yelled as I felt a light laugh appear on my face as the girls laughed.

RK smirked as he grabbed the vaar mala as I tried to pull back,but suddenly I felt him pulling my arm as his softness brushed and pulled me closer to him and placed the var mala quickly over me.

My eyes looked up as I stared at RK in shock. Suddenly, I felt the girls' hands grip on my back loosening and I felt a fall,before RK hand's grabbed on to my waist as he held on to me.

"Ohh! So, the romance begun!" I heard the group of cousins exclaim as I felt a blush appear on my cheek.

I placed my hands on his hard,rough shoulders as RK held me up in the air as I nervously looked down at him. His hands felt secure and attached for once as he stared back at me and had the same smirk on his face.

My eyes wandered to Varun who seemed to stare at me with anger as he had a glare attached to him. I felt a sort of winnership as I felt I had told him off, but also guilty that I was making him feel bad about us, about me.

RK placed me down on the floor as I sat down on the small stool as RK sat right besides me. The rest felt like a dream as RK held on to my hand as his hard hands still gave some support that my family seemed to not give anymore after my shameful act. I could feel RK was doing all this for revenge,but I was fine and ok with it. I was fine as long as my family was fine.

RK's ma placed a red colored duptaa around my shoulders as RK grabbed my hand and took out a heavy diamond ring. His hand seemed to caress the warmth of my fingers as he took it carefull into his hands and observed them. Then, he placed the large ring into my hand as I felt my relatives aww over it. Then, I carefully grabbed RK's hand as if I was touching a diamond trophy as I placed the gold,diamond covered band on to his large finger that felt heavy beneath my hands.

Then, Ishita came and tied the knot. Our hands met with my parents as we placed jal into the agni and got up.

I stared down at my feet as I felt a hard grip on my hand. My hands seemed small under RK's who held my hand firmly and interwined his fingers into mines'. Then, the steps began as RK pulled me up closer on the mandap as I began to follow him. I felt it as if a vision collided with me. Flowers seemed to touch us softly as I heard musics and talks of my relatives along with the voice of the pandit's.

My eyes became watery as I moved in front of RK and continued the pheras as RK despised the fact that he had to walk right behind me. Then, we sat down and I felt RK's hands linger on to my neck as he placed a heavy, diamond covered mangalsutra around my neck. I felt the heaviness of its meaning. His thumb reach my maang with a pinch of sindoor as he placed it and covered it.

My eyes closed as I began to imagine it could've been Varun,but I blanked and erased the face replacing it with RK's face and name.

Tears fell down my cheeks as I walked down the pathway out of my house. RK stepped in front of me as I grabbed on to the rice out of the tray and threw it behind me. Mom stood behind emotionless as I didn't hear one sound of a tear. Nobody cried that day and I was left emotionless.

Time hadn't gripped on to reality as I looked back and went to my mom as I went up to hug her, mom held her hand out and placed her hand lightly on my head before looking away. Nandini turned her face around as Papa stared at me and placed his hand on my head before turning away.

My head stayed in a phase as the car rushed on the street and to his mansion that stood at the hill. My eyes widened at the sight of its height and size while RK stared at his phone texting somebody.

My eyes lowered as I noticed Ma (RK's mother) standing near the front of the large two doors smiling at us.

I wiped my tears away as I weakly smiled and followed RK out. Bittu Ji stood right next to Ma and Ishita. I held on to the tied knot scarf of RK's as he took it off and gave it to me.

RK rolled his eyes as I looked at Ma as she began to do the aarti. She placed a tikka on RK's and my forehead before she placed the plate of kumkum in front of me along with the Chandan pot filled with rice. I took my foot and placed the pot on the side as I placed my feet into the try and placed my footprints of the floor. Then, I placed my hands in the remaining kumkum and placed it on the wall right next to Ma's handprints on it.

Ma smiled as Ishita grabbed on to me and began to take me up the long staircase.

"You feeling ok, alright?" Ishita asked in concern as I looked up at her nervously. I knew that this night was not going to go well,but I had imagined it would go somewhat better. I lighty shook my head as Ishita opened the door to RK's room that stood at the end of the hallway.

The large, wooden doors opened and there stood a small living area that led out to a large round bed in the middle of the room. A canopy of flowers laid in front of it as candles were placed everywhere around the room. My hands shook nervously as I sat down on the bed and moved into the middle of it.

"Please, look , Madhu...don't be scared...I don't what's gotten into Bhai,but you'll be fine. Just come and ask for help whenever you want to. Before, being your sister-in-law, I am your best friend. Ok?" Ishita said as I nodded before I weakly smiled at her as she left and closed the door.

My eyes wandered until I heard the door slam open. My feet began to shake as I grabbed on to me knees and stared down. I looked at the side of eyes as RK held a bottle of Vodka in his hand and took a large sip from it.

My eyes widened as RK laughed and threw his turban off on the couch.

"La,la,la,la,LAAA! Today, RK has WON!" RK exclaimed as he looked up at the ceiling with his arms wide open.

I bit my lip as I looked up and stared at him. RK laughed as he took another sip of the alcohol and walked up to me.

"Ohhh, a blushing bride! I see!" RK announced as he sat down and took a sip. Tears began to well up as I looked down and tried to hide and perhaps crawl up in a ball,but I couldn't.

"Wow, what eyes, what cheeks, what lipsss,what body, Ah! Too bad, I've seen it all!" RK announced and exclaimed as he began laughing. I clenched my fists as I tried to cover my self with my duptaa.

I suddenly, felt a rough grab on my duptaa as I looked up in shock as RK grabbed my duptaa and pull on it.

"Ouch! No! RK!" I exclaimed as I held on to my duptaa and pulled back. Suddenly I grabbed RK's hand and suddenly my nail went across his cheek. A scratch appeared on his cheek as blood began to seep through it. My eyes widened as RK looked at me in anger. His face turned red.

"How DARE YOU?!" RK screamed as he grabbed the vodka bottle and slammed it across the floor. I shrieked as I got up from the bed as RK grabbed the glass bottle and placed it in front of me.

"RK! NO!" I screamed as I began running towards the door before RK grabbed my leg and threw me down on the floor.

I felt my arm scrape across the floor as I felt tears running down my eyes. My body seemed to drag across the floor as RK threw me down and pinned me on the floor. He held the broken bottle in one hand as he stared me down.

My eyes widened as RK's face had turned around as his eyes showed a deep,dark hatred as his face seemingly turned red and haunted for revenge. I felt a tight slap on my cheek as I felt my earring beings ripped off of me as my necklace loosened.

My hands folded as I placed them on my lips as I stared back at RK.

"Please RK STOP! STOP! STOP RK please!" I exclaimed as RK stopped and stared at me face as his hands were besides my shoulders as he rested on top. My eyes closed as I felt tears uncontrollably falling down.

I heard a laugh as RK looked up at me and threw the bottle across the tile floor.

"Oh! Madhu is scared nah!" RK announced as he began laughing.

"W-w-why a-a-are y-you d-d-doing this?" I whimpered as RK grabbed on to my shoulders and pinned me down.

"Because of what you did to me!" RK whispered as he placed his head against my head hard.

I looked at him curiously as he stared into my eyes.

"I want you to think your entire life about why I will treat you like this. Why?!" RK exclaimed as I felt tears fall down my cheek as I closed my lips and tried to not cry.

I began to feel a bite on my neck as I screamed in pain. RK grabbed the back of my bun as I yelped in pain. My hair threw across the floor as I began to cry more.

I felt my choli rip as RK pulled on it.

"Leave me!" I screamed as RK began to kiss my shoulder. My hand dragged on to a candlestick that stood near the tabletop of the bed. With all my strength, I pushed RK away as I ran and took a candle stick.

"STOP!" I screamed as I pointed the candle at RK. RK smirked as he walked up to me.

"STOP! I'm telling you stop!" I exclaimed as I felt blood dripping down my lip as I swallowed it back. My eyes spotted the bathroom.

I quickly ran to the bathroom and took the door to close it,but RK held on to it as I pushed it hard with all my might. At last, I shut the door and locked it tight.

I felt weakened as I slipped down the door and fell on to the floor. My reflection seemingly went on to the tile floor where my face felt unfamiliar. Eyeliner had drowned down my cheeks as my hair stood up in a mess. Blood seemed to seep on my lips as I sat there in silence pleading for help.

What had happened to the caring RK I once knew? What had happened to my life? Couldn't he feel me crying and asking for help? Couldn't he feel the pain I once had?! What has happened to him?

Promo:

I lowered my eyes as RK approached and stared at my hand that had glass pierced through my hand. I bit my lip as tears fell down my eyes.

RK moved back towards me as I hit the wall as I looked up and saw RK as his eyes were downcasted on my hand.

He slowly began to grab my hand and caress it slowly as I looked up at him.