(We still are in flashback-where Madhu was about 16 years old)
I needed answers! I felt so incomplete and also with Rishu gone now. Who was he?
Where was he? Why wasn't he with us? Why could i always see the pain in Maa's
eyes if someone asked her about her husband? Could i ever meet him? Didn't he
want me? There were so many questions filling my mind that it gave me a headache.
I desperately needed the answers...it had started eating me up from inside.
My eyes were giving up once again. I was tired from that excessive crying; i knew
they would be puffy but i didn't care..got up and walked out of my room.
"Madhu?" Maa looked at me hurt. I could see her eyes moistening...and it was
because of the hurt my face clearly portrait. She walked up to me and hugged me
tight and led me to her bed. I sat down.
"Please Madhu, don't worry he will come back...he told you naa that it was urgent.."
she reasoned. I kept quiet.
"Madhu please just let it out...share what you are feeling...what you are thinking...
it will reduce your pain. Believe me.." I looked up at her...looked into her eyes and
finally spoke..
"Maa you want me to feel lighter? You want me to share my pain?" i asked. She
looked puzzled.
"What do you mean?"
"Will you answer my questions? Will you Maa?" she was confused, "Answer me
Maa...promise me!" she looked scared now. She nodded, still scared.
"Maa, I know this will upset you but i can't hold onto these questions anymore.
You need to answer me..they have been bugging me since childhood now.." i said.
She shook her head in agreement once again, i know she knows now what i was on
about and what i was about to ask her.
"You want to know about your dad right?" she said. I kept silent.
" I think it's time now to tell you everything. I can't keep ever thing hidden from
you for much longer." i watched her being quite nervous; how would i take this
new revelation which was about to be laid in front of me?
"His name is Shamsher Malik..my husband.." she started, "we were a very happily
married couple and so we had you. Our lives changed all for good, he always took
real care of me and when you were born he was like the happiest person on earth."
she let out a soft chuckle, still with wet eyes, "but you know all good things have to
end and so did we..." a sad smile crossed her face.
"He always took good care of us, especially you. He loved you very much but things
between us started to not turn out right. We used to have an argument nearly every
second day but also somehow make it up to each other but somewhere i think in
this we lost our love. Later on when you were about the age of 1 and half he
started distancing away from us as if he was guilty of something, and he was..." a
lone tear dropped down her check to which i responded quickly by wiping it off. I
hated myself for asking her about my father.
"Maa you don't have to continue...I don't want to know anything if it brings tears
to your eyes."
"No Madhu you have the right to know and I think it is also time you know
everything..." I nodded while she continued.
" a month after your second birthday he bought home a little baby girl..." her voice
chocked "...your sister..." Huh? That was the only question that came into my
mind. I hadn't really understood clearly what she said which confused me even
more. As the words sunk in realization drew onto me to which my eyes grew wide.
"He..He..cheated on...you?" i finally let out with a shaky voice. I never noticed
when tears unwillingly formed and leaked out.
A day had passed since the new found information had been ingraved into my soul,
not letting me forget it...thinking it to be a bad dream...but
Maa's words kept on ringing in my ears. All the Love, the eagerness to see him
was all overtaken by Hatred. Pure Hatred. All these years i had believed maybe i
was not good enough to be with him, to have him ut the truth was that he never
deserved me and my affection towards him and never will!!!
(End of Flashback - note that she has been telling all this to RK)
"Rishu..that day i had decided to move on...to never even think about him forget
mentioning. I had decided that i would make Maa proud and i did. I became
someone for which people recognize me. My team and i work for one of the most
successful designing brand...but still...i could not save Maa."
"I am so sorry Madhu.." i looked at him, confused.
"Why are you sorry for?"
"For not being there with you. I know you must have so badly needed a friend by
your side but i was never there when you needed me the most." he replied in
guilt.
"Shut up Rishabh...you never knew about it so no need feeling guilty about it. And
anyway i really don't want to talk about him or even bother thinking about him
right now. I had a great day and don't want to spoil it now." i tried to divert his
attention but still i could see some pain in his eyes which reflected his feeling
clearly.
He stretched out his arms inviting me for a hug which i really needed and
somewhere he too. I threw myself in his arms as my arms encircled his ribs while
he snaked his arms around my shoulder pressing me in his hold. Somehow it felt
different. It was not like i hadn't hugged anyone else before or even someone from
the opposite gender but this feeling felt so special and well just different. Not
wanting to separate myself from this feeling i hugged him tighter.
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