"He is an old scar," I said curving my hands around the mattress, bracing myself against the never before spoken acquiescence.
For the first time, I wanted to talk about him. Talk about the 'us' that never were, as though it was my vain attempt to keep the last of it alive by way of making it a memory of having mentioned it to someone.
"Everything fades with time, Binoy." I found myself saying after a little while, when I felt his hand cover mine.
"True. But, he showed up after all this time and yet you turned to him like he'd never left your thoughts." It appeared that Binoy had taken to a bit of jealousy A BIT JEALOUSY I'D SAY HIS VERY JEALOUS
"I can't quantify it like that. I know him for a little over a year, but we haven't met more than three - four times and our meetings never lasting beyond quarter of an hour. " LOVE HOW U USED THE WORD 'QUANTIFY'HERE
At that moment, I didn't know if there was a way to explain what Rishabh and I shared.🤗 SOMETIMES U CAN'T EXPLAIN LOVE OR A RELATIONSHIP
"You don't measure madness..." I said in a whisper, closing my eyes. "That is what this is. You let it wash over you. You don't need to spend years together to comprehend that part about the other person. I always thought we were each other's vice. An unacknowledged indulgence. That said, it might not be the same for him and it is also not of my present." SUCH WISE USED HERE MADNESS CAN'T BE MEASURED.LOVE HOW SHE EXPLAINS WHAT SHE FELT WAS NOT THE SAME FOR RISHAB OR PART OF HER PRESENT BUT SOMEWHERE IT IS PART OF HER PRESENT (I FELT THIS HAD A DOUBLE MEANING - HER HEART)
For all the pomp and show Rishabh lived in, his proposal was bourgeois, with just the two words to shoulder all the weight of his commitment - lifetime or not. And for this understated act, he certainly deserved the kiss, I told myself. 😃
"No! really...I have never let myself slip past a kiss...I have not..." To tell him in earnest that I had not been a cheat at all levels. BUT SHE'S CHEATING HER HEART MIND IS SAYING SOMETHING, CIRCUMSTANCES ARE SAYING SOMETHING BUT THE HEART NEVER LIES
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