Wow! This indeed is one thought provoking discussion!!! 👏 Gp, you took my humor bone allegation too seriously is it? 😛 Kidding... 🤗 Lovely discussion and love the way it is shaping up... and i love each, each of your perspectives.
Mine, would run closer to DD's - she has just summed up everything I want to say. So has Ruby, Vaish, Sara and others.
I agree with you GP on the fact that this is a change in Dutta that is hard to perceive, given that he has never been seen like a man who can be so love-struck. But he is love-struck in a very real way. In fact, calling him love-struck, outside a joke would also be very demeaning to the whole emotion that his character is going through right now. So my apologies for using that term. Dutta is not love struck - he is just touched by love - a feeling so powerful that it has calmed down a lot of hatred inside him, it has let him go of the bottled emotions. This love, has allowed him to clear his own vision and look into his own eyes in search of himself. It is a feeling of being wanted, loved, cherished and treasured. Yes, he has always been "loved" by his sisters and mother and always been "wanted" too, but all that has been for a purpose. All his relationships have needed him to fulfill an obligation of "give and take" - more give and less take. But, this is one relationship where someone has loved him so selflessly that he is able to see how he is wanted, without being expected to give anything in return. How he is cherished to a point that his hurt seems bigger to this woman than her own, even when he was the one doing her a lot of "wrong". How her love has healed every wound he has suffered, with much sensitivity, patience and her unselfish actions. Treasured to an extent that this woman would not think of running away from him even in the face of death. This is a feeling that has helped him introspect his own "closed" mind to emotions - an emotion that he had stacked away deep within him for the fear of being seen as vulnerable, almost suppressing that part of him which yearned for true love (not physical, but emotional) too! This woman came into his life and without making any sound, unwound all his locked doors with so much ease that he did not even realize how he was just completely changed. In this process of introspection, he has also come to realize that someone who could have died for him, with him cannot be a person who can cause him harm - an analysis he had always refused to get into, being the hardened person that he was. This analysis, after being touched by the love, gave him the strength to apologize to this woman in front of his family, servants, guards, workers, subordinates - but most of all, for his own peace! However, even in that apology he ended up expecting her to react the way he wanted to and when she did not, he almost ended up hurting her again. But this time, there was a difference - he too feared losing her if he hurt her too much.
For all this while, Dutta has taken his relationship with Nakusha - be it that of a confidant, a friend, a wife, a lover (he always knew she loved him and would do anything for him -that is why he had asked Baji to place the knife in her dupatta in that temple scene - he knew she would run after him if he walks withe goons, which no one else from his family would do or he could have asked Baji to give it to his sisters too, isn't it?) for granted. This is because of this inherent security that "she will always be there". But, her running away from his proposal has got him to think about her fears about the relationship and her hesitation with it. Remember, he married her in a fit of rage and she accepted his decision. But when he had "set her free" her from the marriage, she had not accepted his decision as whole-heartedly as the marriage, but complied with it for it made no sense to reason out with a man not wanting to stay in that marriage. And now, while he has asked her to re-marry him with all respect, she has yet to say a resounding "Yes", even though she continues to love him with all that she is, she can be and will ever be!
Dutta is realising this feeling – and he is giving her exactly that attention which she deserves, but will not ask for. He is giving her that love which he has not experienced himself before in the 30 years of his life - nor has Nakusha for that matter. He is making her feel as treasured as she makes him feel - to be able to rekindle the lost friendship in their relationship. And not just for the sake of getting it right, but also because he wants to GIVE her everything that is rightfully hers and his love comes first on that list for her! It is that phase of life which people experience at a younger age, when they are more carefree and jovial – for Dutta, that phase of life passed away with blood on his hands and deep, deep scars on his mind – at having been ridiculed by a woman who "pretended" to be in love as well as the course of life he had chosen to displace his frustration, killing innocent people. The third time he killed someone, his hands had stopped trembling as the boy-next-door was silenced. The kind of life he has lived, makes him that much more intriguing a lover. He is not someone who can express himself in flowery words and he perhaps never will because emotions that have been stifled for over a decade do not find the right words, instantly. Plus, the upheaval that both of them have gone through has left them, as most of you pointed out, tongue-tied. Yet, he is going through this phase as any person falling in love for the first time would – because this time the love is mutual – perhaps stronger from the part of the woman in his life – a fact he could never deny and may be will never be able to overlook. Love at any age brings along immaturity – and people do things that is not really expected of them, that would surprise them too for they would never have expected to be doing what they are doing. There is no love, regardless of the age of the lovers, that is not immature for that age 😊 So, I think silent conversations between people who have too much to say to one another, but are waiting for that moment when they will just let go of everything else, are the most beautiful conversations they can have – and in the end, it is these silent conversations that will help them connect with one another in times when one of them seems like a "different" person. These unsaid interactions are bringing the warmth back into their interactions – and perhaps that warmth will bring back the words too. 😊
Like DD said, Dutta had got lost in the way and changed – so he is not changing now – Nakusha is bringing his life back on the path he had abandoned for hatred! 😊
Edited by adithinks - 14 years ago
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