But there is one thing that gnaws at me. Perhaps it is due to my belief in individuality even in love, self-reliance, or just not liking others to morph into someone else to please that someone else. I am not sure.
But I am having a little bit of a hard time digesting this goo-goo eyed Dutta, fawning over Naku soooo much. It's not even a matter of Dutta really. It's just me--I have a problem seeing anybody, boy or girl, getting sooo besotted that they change everything for that one person. In the Dutta instance, he has changed for the good, but sometimes, I feel he is becoming sappy. **I apologize for my not so pleasant choice of words, but I hope you get the point. I could not think of another word.** It's probably a by-product of my experiences, or watching those of others.
I enjoy the romance between Dutta and Naku. But I can honestly say I enjoyed it a lot better a month or two ago...now it just feels like a tease, because of the truth thing. The excitement has faded a bit. And also, because all Dutta does is stare at Naku. To be an equal opportunity critic, I did not like it much when all Naku did was stare at Dutta too.
I love "love", I love seeing it, I love feeling it, I love seeing other people in it. It can be exhilirating, humbling, hurtful, instructional...so many things. And if you're lucky to find that one person who just "feels" right on every level (that ever elusive soul mate) at some point in your life, then you are lucky in more ways than you can imagine. And it's normal to get wrapped up in the other person, but at some point you have to wrap yourself out.
It's weird that I have this reaction...even I'm surprised at myself. I like Dutta to be a bit fiery, strong-willed, a bit untouchable---even from his family and Naku. Independent? Right now, I feel like he's just so wrapped around Naku's finger...
Have any of you even remotely felt this way?