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hello everyone , this is just an os i wrote (writing after a long time)seeing the precap yesterday. even though i am not hoping for such a scene , i wish things would go like this right before abhigya dance
Abhi was still ranting," i cant talk to her, cant see her in the eye, meri bolti bandh hogayi yaar uss fuggy ki wajah se. why did she just go and say all that to me? why cant things be the way they are. she is sweet and she loves my family and takes care of them for me and we are slowly becoming friends . i think we understand eachother better, why cant it be like this always/ why does she have to mess with this?"
purab thought "bcoz she needs your answer and she deserves better than this limbo you both share." but he didnt say it out loud. purab decided he needs to tread this landmine carefully- one wrong step and pragya di's life will be blown up and purab had no doubt she wont be able to pick up the pieces. even though she is bulbul's sister, purab has always thought of her as his own sister and partially just like bulbul he blamed himself for the "its complicated state " of her relationship with abhi.
abhi raised his voice a little more" purab ! are you even listening yaar? yahan mein bak bak karta jaa raha hoon , meri haalat kharab hai, tujhe toh koi farak hi nahi pad raha!"
purab smiled and said "nahi yaar mein toh sun raha hoon par samajh nahi paya teri problem kya hai?"
abhi said slightly angry"tu sun raha hai toh samajh kaise nahi raha ki problem kya hai? fuggy ne mujhe propose kiya ! she said she loves me. and hamesha mujhse hi pyaar karegi. woh yeh kaise keh sakti hai yaar?"
purab decided to play a little dumb for abhi. he said' Pragya di teri wife hai yaar. woh tujhse i love you kahe toh kya ho gaya?"
abhi held his head in frustration"par woh jaanti hai ki main tanu ko chahta hoon"
purab once again in dumb mode said" oh toh pragya di ne tujhe tanu ko chodne ko kaha kya?" purab knew pragya di would never say that out loud to abhi . she loved him too selflessly and never expected him to reciprocate, he knew this from bulbul's rants about her di's mahaan love.
abhi said as if in some deep thought" no she said she doesnt expect anything in return from me for her love. she said she had no expectations. but still yaar she shouldnt have.'
purab said as if he just realised" accha toh theek hai na abhi, bolde pragya di se ki unhe aise nahi kehna chahiye tha aur bolde tu tanu se pyaar karta hai ."
abhi said"i cant. "
purab asked "but why ?"
abhi threw his hands up in the air"you seriously have to ask? bcoz its fuggy. she is different.she loves my family so completely. a few days without her and dadi literally wilted infront of me. without her nothing seems right in that house. bcoz she is so good that i dont understand her. she faced so much from me and yet she loves me." and abhi says to himself" how can she love me"
purab who knew abhi better than most barring dadi, understood what has his friend in knots. abhi has grown up in a cynical world with selfishness allround so much so that he just accepts it without any moral questioning. to meet a person who doesnt follow the rules of that cynical world is almost unknown to him. which is why it is easy to accept a girl like tanu,as much cynical and selfish as the rest of the world as his love than pragyadi bcoz he in the deepest part of his heart doesnt love her and doesnt expect her to love him. she loves the idea of abhi the rockstar just like everyone else and abhi is fine with it. purab knew that abhi is constantly bowled over by pragyadi's absolute selfless nature. which is why his best friend cant even fathom the thought of having such a good soul falling for him- the egoistic arrogant cynical rockstar( thats what abhi sees himself as) who has tortured her emotionally for so long before he actually realised her good nature. and which is why abhi is scared to even entertain the thought of being in love with pragya. bcoz he is scared of breaking her heart or his. but purab had decided enough was enough. time to knock some sense into his friends thick skull.
purab thinking so continued," arey yaar jab di ne boldiya she doesnt expect anything from you then she is ofcourse not going to be that surprised to hear your no. so tell her no."
abhi said"i cant hurt her like that"
"but you cant say yes either right? bcoz you love tanu." purab stressed on the word love.
abhi looked at his friend and was about to say "yes i love tanu" but he felt as if his voice was gone. he somehow couldnt say that. not to purab. this was his best friend. the one guy who would never lie to him and hence abhi never lied to him too.
abhi slumped in to the sofa behind him and said " i dont know."
purab could have punched his fist in the air"finally , some break through" but he controlled himself and asked 'matlab"
abhi said "purab you of all people should know my thoughts on love. its for songs, books ,movies and the money you can make out of it. but its not something i can say has ever had a place in my life."
purab smiled at his brother in all but blood and said "come with me"
abhi was a bit confused but he stood up and followed purab. purab took him to the window facing the party room where all the guests were seen enjoying, dancing and laughing. and then he found her- his love.
purab turned to abhi- "dont mock me if this gets me filmy, par teri confusion aur tension door karna hoga hamein. so bear with me ."
he turned to the scene in front of me and said sure that abhi was listening," do you know what i feel for bulbul ? most people would say i fell for her looks,bcoz bulbul is very beautiful and its her beauty that strikes anyone who meets her the first time. but not for me.what made me notice her was her innocence. she knows she is beautiful but she never rubs it in your face. the first time we met, we used to fight a lot. she judged me too soon and so did i. and then we both realised that the other person wasnt so bad. slowly as time passed , i would notice these small things about her- her carefree spirit, her good nature, her care and dedication to her people and work. basically i fell in love with her mind which is intelligent and yet so child like innocent. i tried not to but i would love to see her smile,to make her smile, to wipe away any tear that dared to enter her eyes. i would feel all protective of her. i tried not to bcoz i knew i had already made a promise to someone( purab flinched a little and so did abhi) and i will regret breaking that promise . it wasnt that i couldnt imagine my life without her. it was the thought of her sharing her life with someone else, having a future with someone else that made me act on my feelings.
love is not about songs, movies, books , dates etc. these are just ways to express the actual feeling. you are in love with someone when you cant see that person with anyone else, cant see that person having a future with anyone else, sharing their deepest joys and sorrow with someone else. you love a person when you can cry to make them happy, you can bear hurt to see they are not.the thought of losing them scares you. and the thought of being with them scares you too bcoz you are an open book to them. in short if you close your eyes and think of a future , you see them.
abhi yaar thats what i see and feel when iam around bulbul.
now think about yourself , who in this entire party is that person to you ,who makes you feel all that i can feel for bulbul. that one person for whom you would defy friends, family ,the world and all that this world has given to you just for that person. who is it for whom you can destroy yourself to nothing.who is that person you dont want to live without? if you get the answer mere bhai, your road ahead is clear for you.
" ab agar teri life ki problem solve hui toh main apni life , i mean apni honewali wife ke paas jaa raha hoon"
saying this purab started leaving the room. just as he reached he heard a short surprised gasp from his friend which purab was sure he wasnt meant to hear. he smiled thinking that his friend is finally understanding what he wants or rather who he needs in his life. for once things should go right from here on. happy for his friend, purab left.
hope you all like it.
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