"Kaise hain dr mathur ab..nidhi"?? It was a concerned col verma who asked nidhi this, as she sat to rearrange his wardrobe.."better hain..baba.dr ashutosh kaafi high dose of Aricep de rahe hain..khud monitor ker rahe hain...lets see"! Col verma kept quiet"tu kya karti hai beta..wahaan pe"?? Nidhi looked at her father..she knew he had full faith in her..."baba..pata nahi kyun unhe mera intezaar rehta hai..mere hi haath se lete hain chai aur dawaa..dr ashutosh armaanji kitti bhi koshish kyun na ker lein...its strange..per i feel he can percieve the bond...haalaanki woh jaante nahi hain..ki main unki..."! Col verma looked at the stars through the window..as if looking at a distant star...n asked"kabhi teri maa ko yad karte hain :?? Nidhi smiled"yaad karte hain?? Bhoolte hi kab hain!! Roz :meri guddi kahi chali gayi...maine guddi se bura kiya...meri guddi kho gayi"...each day...but baba..ek baat hai...unke mann me koi bitterness nahi hai aapse ya maa se...he blames himself..not you...infact sometimes i feel..ki woh apne distant past me itne engulfed hain...ki recent past ki yaad nahi rehti...
Maybe if he meets you ever..."!! Col verma kept quiet as nidhi put the last button on the kurta and closed the wardrobe...he patted her..as if saying "i know nidhi..the injustice i m meeting out to you..."!! As col verma was left alone...his heart could not help wondering the events 25 years ago...his marriage...dr mathur's heart break..
.n lives entangled n destroyed forever...he had not been able to appreciate the old father's pain for so many years...but now that his own daughter was being claimed...by someone...oh it all had an eerie resemblance of history repeating itself...history repeating?? Did that mean more heart break..more tragedy. ..more sacrifice...???? Nooo echoed his heart...as his daughter let tears flow on to the pillow...hurting in the absence of the only man she loved..the only man she could have loved...but the man whom the society was not ready to give her...all because he was 18 years her senior...
Nidhi turned...n as she saw the star lit sky she got up to gaze at it...no she wasnt afraid...not of the society..not of what the people said...but what weakened her resolve were her own near n dear ones...dadi bua's firm no...n her baba's silent suffering...oh how could it all end...maybe it would have really been better had dr ashutosh married dr mallika...to the society they seemed so much more compatible. ..n love?? Who the hell was bothered about love...other than an ageing surgeon locked for long in his lonely fortress and a young intern who had had the vivacity to break that fortress...
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"Ashu aa to dekh..nashta ready hai..aaj sath kerte hain..fir tu drop kerye hue chale jaana nidhi ko..bechari auto richshaw me dhakke khaayegi"!! Nidhi stopped baba as she served him his favourite poha with loads of onion "main chali jaaoongi baba...i d manage"dr ashutosh who seemed in a relaxed mood...still in his tracks n tees raised an eyebrow"tumhari car..."?? Nidhi pushed her hair back..."woh actually clutch adjustment ke liye garage..."ashutosh looked at her sharply"so ..morning me..kaise "?? Nidhi answeted woth simplicity"rickshaw se..."ashutosh kept quiet n as baba valled again..he folded the newspaper n sat for breakfast..arman also came.."wow pyaaz ka poha...ya pohe ki pyaaz"baba slapped armaan's hand n said"tujhe nahi khana to ..ja bread kha..."nidhi got up n went into the kitchen"aap dono ke liye sandwiches hain...aur yeh cutlets bhi..."armaan beamed"wow...great nidhi...i mean dr nidhi..."!! Kaka smiled n said"beti tum bhi to kuch lo..."and nidhi nibbled with the poha...as she was deeply conscious of dr ashutosh's gaze...protective n penetrative. ..
"Kaka...kya hai yeh..meri shirt ka button toota hai..."kaka stood up slapping his forehead"bhool gaya ashu beta...abhi karta hoon..."and brought out the box trying to thread the needle..but his hands fumbled...nidhi got up n took the needle n the blue thread.."laaiye kaka..mai kerti hoon"and as she came to dr ashutosh...he awkwardly extended his shirt side...as he had worn it...it was the third button from the top that had been missing...nidhi held the shirt..careful not to glance at his vested torso...as she put the button n tried to break the thread...which just wouldnt break...aahutosh asked for a scissors as he said"dhaage bhi rishton ki tarah hote hain...aasani se tootte nahi..."and as he buttoned up n nidhi arranged the box, kaka commented"isi sab ki wajah se to kehta hoon..ki ab bahu le aao ek...mujhse nahi ho pata..."dr ashutosh emerged in his grey suit n looked at nidhi ..she got up.."chalti hoon baba...shaam me aaoongi"dr ashutosh cleared his throat n said"lautoonga to pick ker loonga...aaj car nahi hai na ..."nidhi loweredher eyes n said"thank you sir..
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"Kab milega certificate internship completion ka"?? Dr ashutosh asked nidhi as he drove to jeevan sandhya..."bus one month to go...manager sahib kaafi khush hain mere kaam se...but jeevan sandhya is directly under IMA...so lets see"!! Ashutosh turned the car and said"why should IMA have any problems with u...u have worked so hard...that too in a charitable institution..."nidhi signalled"bus bus plz stop.."ashutosh parked the car n as nidhi got down ..he thought something n said"chalo i d also have a look...at the patients..."nidhi looked at him..n smiled..as her eyes brimmed with love...his quality to work for the underprivileged always impressed her v v deeply...
As they walked together into jeevan sandhya; the manager emerged"morning sir..so kind of u to have come...baba kaise hain aapke"?? Ashutosh nodded n said"just wanted to have a look...may i"?? And he was taken aroundas he met patients ; checked them; gave nidhi some tips..and finally as he got up to leave ; nidhi said"thank you sir"!! Trying to put everything into those two words...dr ashutosh gave her a look and said"shaam ko 6 ish pick karne aaoonga..."nidhi fumbled"aapki surgery..."?? He paused for a moment and said"dont worry ..mujhe apne appointment pata rehte hain...lunch kahaan kerti ho..canteen to hai nahi yahaan..."!! Nishi mumbled"woh ghar se kuch..."ashutosh gave her a long lingering look..."tumhe kya lagta hai...tumhri fiqr karne wala koi nahi hai kya"?? And then strode off without looking back...
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"Ashutosh...aaj mai chaloongi tumhare saath baba se milne..ok"!! It was the devilish mallika with a large mango shake talking to aahutosh in his cabin...dr aahutosh kept working and when she repeated...he replied a lil terse.."i am sorry...i have other commitments. ..aur isse pehle ki tum poocho kya..let me tell u ..nidhi..dr nidhi ko pick karna hai jeevan sandhya se...baba ke paas le jaane ko..n now if u would let me work mallika"!!
A burnt jealous mallika emerged n dialled..."yes...investigate n see for your own self...today evening..."!!
A devious smile playing on her face...as dr ranganath emerged...his eyes fraught with anger...
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For nidhi too it was a long n tiring day...but surprisingly she was called by the manager...who seemed to be a lil nervy ...n asked her about her visits to dr ashutosh ...n baba...nidhi had answered in the earnest n then come back to work...till her cell rang"dr Ashutosh"she looked at her watch n grabbed the phone"jee bus aayee...i m sorry:!! And she quickly winded up her work n left..as she walked to the car...to dr ashutosh waiting outside...his tie hanging...hanfs in his trousers pocket...she felt someone watching them...she looked around...but could not see
anyone...n yet..
Dr ashutosh opened the door of his new BMW and pushed her dupatta in ..as he closed the door n came to drive...nidhi yawned ...n then apologised...dr ashutosh smiled n said"neend aa rahi hai to so jaao...half an hr lagega traffic mein..."nidhi sat alert.."aap to jante hain ..main car mei so nahi sakti.."ashutosh did not say anything ..just drove on..nidhi broke the silence.."sab kaise hain kgh mei...dr ranganath se mili thi..ghar aaye the...woh aur anji apne sangeet ki practise..."and rest was lost...as her eyes met dr ashutosh's. ...
As they entered mathur niwas..baba opened his arms"aa gayi meri florence nightingale..."!! And nidhi smiled as she washed her hands n got tea n sandwiches for all...with medicines for baba..baba took the dosage..and smiled"jeeti reh beta...pata nahi kis janam ka rishta hai tera mera..."nidhi nodded and added"baba...aap hi to kehte hain..kuch rishton ko naam ke bandhan se aazaad rakhna chahiye..."and baba smiled...as he looked at armaan..."arre woh card to dena...ashu ek bhali si bachchi...nidhi ki umr ki hogi aayi thi..yeh card dene tujhe..bade apnatv se bulake gayi hai..shaadi hai uski..kal sangeet hai..beta janaa zuroor...itne pyaar ka nyota kahaan roz roz milta hai..."!!
Dr ashutosh looked at the card...n then sighed wistfully...as nidhi got up coughing.."main chalti hoon baba..der ho gayi..."baba nodded n looked at arman "armaan...chal meri florence nightingale ko drop ker ke aa ghar...go "gave a mock order!!
Nidhi smiled n said"baba kal aapke liye hare chane ki methi muthiyaa..laaoongi..."and nidhi left...as ashutosh went into his room...his head bowed...and baba looked at kaka..."heera man...sach batana mujhe ...yeh bachchi nidhi...iska kuch...sarokar hai kya...ashu se...iss ghar se..."kaka was dumbfounded as baba contd."pata nahi mujhe kyun lagta hai kabhi kabhi...ki kuch hai...meri nazron ke saamne...jo mujhe dikh nahi rahaa...hare chane ki...methi muthiyaan..."!!
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"Kaka...main jaa raha hoon...surgery hai meri..."shouted ashutosh n then remembered something and came to the kitchen..."kaka...woh ..nidhi ko dekhiyega kuch kgaaye zurroor...plz"kaka smiled"haan beta...dekh rahaa hoon sab kuch ..kis daur se guzar rahi hai bechari..woh aur tum...beta kyun nahi dr sahib ko bataate...woh baat karenge ..colonel sahib se"?? Suddenly both heard baba's footsteps"kisse baat kerni hai ...i am ready..colonel ho ya general...kya baat bolo..."!! Kaka n ashutosh looked at each other n then kaka said"woh kuch nahi..mai keh raha tha bete se ki..dr sahib ko to ab fauj ka koi colonel hi sambhal sakta hai..bahut ziddi ho gaye hain"!! Ashutosh took the opportunity n said"i am leaving baba...tough surgery...shaam ko miloonga"!!
Baba sat on the dining table...his fingers rummaging his newly trimmed hair ...which ashu had done though he had not allowed baba to shave off his own beard...n baba had joked"majnu lagta hai..zyada...neuro surgeon kum"!! Baba had a sharp look in his eyes...as he was deducing something...and he suddenly called out "armaan...heera man...
"!! But as he looked for them ..in walked nidhi in a pale lilac churidar kurta...baba frowned "ab yeh kya manhoos sa rang hai florence nightingale. ..teri umr to gulabi ..peela yeh sab pehene ki hai..."nidhi gave a weak smile n replied"baba ...jab zindagi me hi rang na ho...to kapdon me kya achche lagenge..."baba bit his lip...n held her "tu bata mujhe beta...kaun hai woh...jo rang bhar sakta hai teri zindagi mein...main jaaoonga ...baat karoonga...jhagdoonga...minnat karoonga..."nidhi smiled trying to give a sunny smile n said"buss filhaal aap yeh dawaa leejiye..."and her cell buzzed...she stood up..."baba...i have tp go...mujhe IMA ne bulaya hai...pataa nahi kyun..."!! And before baba could say anything...nidhi was gone...
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"Dr ranganath...it d take 4 hrs..who is assisting me dr gandhi or mallika..."?? Dr ranga was uncomfortable"sir ..dr priyanka...woh actually sir i wanted to tell u...kal se...but aap ke paas time"and as ashutosh stoppedto listen...mallika walked in .."ashutosh..tum yahaan ho...aur OT wait ker raha hai...its critical..."
:"mallika a second plz..dr ranganath. ..."
"Dr ranganath ruk sakte hain...maut nahi ...plz ashutosh"!! And dr ashutosh nodded n walked off...
About 20 mins later dr nidhi enteted kgh...parked her santro...and looked with longing at the slot marked DR ASHUTOSH...recalling her early days...she went in...and almost immediately was confronted by dr mallika...
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"So dr nidhi verma...the internship that you should have completed 6 months ago...you are still at it"!! It was a severe dr khurana speaking to nidhi as she faced the 20 member IMA in the KGH board room...now dr sharma spoke up"and you changed 3 hospitals...kgh..city central...aur ab jeevan sandhya..may we know why"?? Nidhi looked around uncomfortable. ..n then at dr mallika who was looking at her viciously...nidhi stood the onslaught bravely n replied"personal reasons sir..."!! The drs looked at each other..and dr sharma spoke again..."dr nidhi ..we need to tell you..rather you have brought us to the point that we need to take action against you..."nidhi blinked"but sir what have i done..."?? Mallika thumped the table .."look at the courage..the audacity..."dr sudhir...calmed all n said"let the dr..nidhi speak..let her give a chance to clarify herself...i was there at mashobhra...at the conference ..n i did not see anything cheap..."dr khurana tapped tge table"dr sudhir let your heart not rule your head...we have ample proof of this young lady's philandering ways...she has been trying to hook...to trap the most famous neurosurgeon of the country...look at the indiscipline she has created...the least that is to be fone is to cancel her internship...exemplary punishment for all such...pushy girls...dr nidhi..look at this evidence...plz "and on the screen came up pics of the previous evening...n morning..dr ashutosh openimg the door for her...pushing the dupatta for her...nidhi tried to garner courage"drs these are yesterday's...dr ashutosh had just gone to pick me up...for his home.."!! Dr mallika looked sideways at dr sharma ...who spoke"take you home for...for what...what services do u provide him at home...may we know..."!!
THE DOOR SUDDENLY OPENED...N IN WALKED DR ASHUTOSH...STILL IN HIS GREEN GOWN ..HE LOOKED AT THE SENIOR DRS ...LIKE A FLOCK OF VULTURES TRYINGVTO TEAR A HAPLESS SPARROW APART...
ASHUTOSH TOOK JUST A MOMENT...LOOKED AT THE SCREEN ...AT DR SHARMA..MALLIKA...N AT NIDHI PUSHING HER TEARS BRAVELY AS SHE WAS...HE HELD HER HAND ..BY THE ELBOW ..N LOOKED AT HIS FRIENDS N COLLEAGUES..."so u want to know what services does dr nidhi provide me at my home?? Let me tell u...sje looks after my father...dr mathur..whom she helped me find from jeevan sandhya..and before you extrapolate n imagine...let me admit..accept that yes I do have a very special relationship with dr nidhi...n yes i do plan to marry her...and i do not think ..infact i am convinced i have not done any wrong...and i do not hold myself accountable to u..u are no guardians of morality...if u had been..u sjould have had the courage to ask me...not attack a defenceless young dr...and yes...if anyone yries to attack nidhi..personally or professionally...he or she..."and he gave a stern look at mallika n went on"he or she would have to face me...first...
Thank you..the meet is over..."!!
Before nidhi could realise she was being guided almost pushed to dr ashutosh's cabin by him...he closed the door ...and she stood with her back to him...her thin frame quaking with anger...with insult...n with pain...
Dr ashutosh was realising her pain..her agony
...what she had faced alone...aahutosh put his hands on her shoulders..."nidhi...will you plz..plz let me take charge of things...of u..nidhi..."and nidhi turned n held him...breaking down..n he just held her close to his heart...a heart that was honest solemn n strong...the heart that belonged to nidhi...nidhi who had to be his...