Few steps below, I could feel the restlessness in the wind and long wait by midnight stars. The slipping time was allowed to do so. And -anyway, it had the big responsibility to bring our lives nearer to the epitome of fulfilment! So, happily allowed!
I remembered the naughty discussion of ours, how she wanted a boy, just like me, and me- a girl, with her calmness. She would then mark the end of the conversation with her decision, smiling hideously at her displayed supremacy on the subject unknown. I accepted, as I loved that achiever smile of hers. That was the first thing I noticed in her. How uncomplicated was our relationship! Though exist a huge age gap , yet no time taken to fall in love; as if we were always meant to be this way.
Life of a doctor was not easy! A long hour of work, returning home at 12, yet one thing was constant everyday – we came together everyday : not proclaiming her effort to be there for me, yet bonding in her subtle way, and talking about her daily chores- that how she got a free vegetable from the vendor, how she hated our neighbor's conversation, and how she wanted to learn something new, though not knowing her passion in exact. I smiled, and used fillers to show I was attending her innocent expression. Inside talk – I loved the simplicity of my life!
But then, something was empty. 2 years passed by, so quickly. Now we wanted to have a family, to hear some more tantrums. Hoping for the best, we went to consult a doctor.
Doctors are sometimes so disheartening, isn't it?
'No' – they said!
How could I see her childhood now? How could we convert the house to home? We were simple souls, who defined a complete life with all the phases falling in at right times? So, should we accept the missing phase? As if we had an option!
But life's irony! While attending a client meeting, I got a message from her.
'Positive! Ha! Happy now! '
Every day was a countdown! My girl/ her boy would come in next spring! Properly complementing the weather!
And today was the night! I promised her I'll be always beside her, as I promised her in the marriage vow! She looked tensed, but dared not express it. I smiled, as ever, demanding a same from her as well. She went into the labor room, assured by my reassurance that everything will be all right.
Funny these wives! They trust their husbands so much!
I was hallucinating – Nurse comes, smiles and says- 'Congrats! You have a lovely Baby girl!' I shout with joy, also am happy that I win! I rush to her room, see her relaxed, place a new-beginning kiss on her forehead, and nervously hold our creation.
'Sir… ummm… you have a lovely baby girl.. and.. doctor wants to talk to you'
Oh! Here it came! THE MOMENT! I rushed towards the room, but why was I stopped at the entrance by the doctor? She was murmuring some words, inexplicable-
'Sorry…Tried hard… brave woman… baby …fine… but...mother...!!
'My spring is waiting for me, let me go!' But with ticking of hands, my mind took over my heart, and I realized my gain, and my loss. I walked inside, saw her, sleeping… relaxed, happy, that she had filled the emptiness. Fool! She did not realize the void in existence-NOW.
But my maze was broken with Ashni's cry. She wanted a hug, badly. Me too! And this was not a nervous hold, but a tight one, reassuring, as always, that everything would be all right!
I cried hard...holding my little baby...and she join with me...
I scream her mothers name...and may be she also...
And then suddenly that miracle happens...my nidhi...my nidhi regain consiousness...she started to breathing...
I screamed--Doctor!!
Forgetting I myself is a doctor...
I looked at her ...who was smiling now...though my eyes were teary...at that moment I so wanted to scold her...that how dare she left me alone??
But I couldn't utter a sound...just holding my baby in my arms looking helplessly at her...!!!
And then she uttered---Sorry!!!
As if she knew my inner turmoil and answering my every question through her eyes..
!!!
And that is my life...our life...ashutosh-nidhi's life...now fulfilled with our creation---Ashni!!!
In this happy moment I just want to thank god for giving me this wonderful perfect family...Thank U...Thank U very much!!!!
Ashutosh!!!!
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