part 11
heer...................
ha prem........... bolo........
prem-chalo achha hai...... tumhe meri aawaz to yaad hai......... kya risabh aas paas hai?
prem cursed himself for asking this question...... how stupid of him to do that......it was almost 3 a.m and it was quite obvious that risabh was with her...
heer- he's not at home.......... she bit her tongue for blurting out the spontaneous truth lest prem might suspect something.... something that she didn't want him to know........ that she was still his.... that no one had ever touched her except him... that she did not share her bedroom with risabh... he's out of town......... she quickly corrected herself.
prem- heer i want to meet you....... just once.... i want to talk to you about a lot of things......... i know the truth is not what eveybody is seeing........ there's something deep......... which only you know....... and now i want to know........ i want to know what led you to this...... please heer....meet me once....
heer knew very well that she did not have to say anything to prem.... he would guess everything by one look of her face.....and...... if he came to know of the truth and her pregnancy......he would never let her stay with rr.god only knew what he would do to rr the day he came to know that she was being ill-treated by him.... she desperately wanted prem to do that.......... to make rr pay for all the miseries that he had caused to her....... but she dare not say anything to prem. she was well aware of the fact that except for a few people no one in prem's family liked her....... and if she went back in prem's life he would again have to make a choice between her and his family. she did not want prem to suffer anymore...... she had already seen what his family meant to him...... and he considered his family above anything else....... she did not want him to go through the pain and agony again...... she was ready to sacrifice herself.... to spend all her life in tears rather than seeing prem cry........ she knew that prem would be hurt but as time is the best healer..... he would forget her as time passed by.........
heer- prem this was my decision. i married rr because i wanted to....... you had only told me to move ahead in life....... and so i have....... i'm very happy and there's no need for you to worry about me........ and yes i don't want to meet you.......... there's no point in meeting you...... you're my past..........
prem-i'm your past!!!!!!!!!.. what do you mean heer...... you've forgotten me..... do you want me to believe that.........
heer- prem i don't want to talk about anything else....
saying this heer cut off the phone and switched it off .tears came rolling down her cheeks......... only she knew how much she wanted to be with him....... to be in his strong muscular arms......... hide herself in his broad chest and forget all her pains........ but this was not possible...... one mistake on her part and prem would be separated from his family forever.
her words hit him like hurricane...... but he knew how to get out the truth from her......... she had tried to avoid him earlier when he tried to confess his love to her and denied him the truth but he being prem had got his way.... and this time he was not going to give up...... as it concerned heer....... his heer.... he could not even think of her with someone else let alone the thought of somone else touching her....... how come he was still feeling her pain when she was no more his...... he sat by the window engrossed in her thoughts.... the effect of the sedatives being nil.... as sleep and peace were light years away from his eyes and heart.......................
next morning when prem came down it was quite evident from his eyes that he had not slept and was very disturbed.
prem- achha maaa main aata hoon......
g.mom- par kahan prem
prem- office jaa rahaa hoon maa....... kaafi kaam pending hain......
g,mom= par beta teri tabiyat......
lalu- haa prem tumhari tabiyat toh theek nahin hai naa
prem- it's okay bauji........ main theek hoon yahaan achha nahin lag raha.... office main kaam karoonga toh achha lagega
saying this prem left without eating anything... gmom was worried about prem. she knew he would never say anything to anybody....... but her...... and she needed to speak to him.......
as prem drove to the office he felt much better ........ he wanted to get away from the house....... every nook and corner of that house reminded him of heer...... his cupboard where her things still lay as he had made sure that she adjusted to it before their wedding.........the window in his room where they had chatting for hours together irrespctive of day or night......... the dining table where she had over fed him lovingly without anyone else noticing even though his appetite was full and he did have a heart to refuse her seeing her innocent face and eyes full of love......the terrace where he had laid in her lap gazing at the moon and stars weaving their dreams of future and their togetherness......... everything........ everything.... he wanted to get away from everything.......