part 10--
Bani sat there, frozen. She was oblivious to her horrid surroundings… only those words echoed in her ears…
'Im sorry… par hum kuch nahi kar par rahe hain… she is in critical condition… the next 24 hours are extremely critical for her… we can't say anything right now….'
She did not hear the wailing of the mother who had lost her son in the next room, she did not hear patients being rushed to the emergency room, she did not hear the sobs of a small child praying her brother would be alrite… all Bani heard were those words ringing in her ears as tear drops simply fell from her eyes… streaming down her cheeks and dripping from her platonic face…
Pia paced back and forth, tensed and worried. She had gotten a call from Sahil earlier, who had gone out with Rano that night. He was getting ice cream for them as she was parking the car… and then a drunk driver rammed into her car and crushed feeble Rano… Sahil had rano's cell phone with him (hey, he didn't want disturbances!! ) and immediately called pia after rushing rano to the hospital.
Sahil sat on the hard hospital chair, sobbing silently and praying that nothing would happen to her. Jai sat next to him with a reassuring hand gently placed on his shoulders.
Pia: Jai…
Jai looked up at a worried Pia.
Pia: Take bani home. Now.
Jai: Kya? Bani won't just leave r--
Pia: I said NOW.
Pia's face was serious and determined, yet had a hidden hint of great fear and worry.
Jai: Thik hai…par… par..
Pia: no questions, take her home now. Get her to bed.
Jai: And you…?
Pia: dun worry about me, im fine. Sahil hai na yaha pe? Explain to the family wat happened… it'll be alrite.. Just…. Just take care of Bani…
Pia's concern for Bani touched jai, yet scared him very much. Why was bani so vulnerable?
With a silent and understanding nod, Jai stood up and hesitantly walked towards Bani. He bent down and looked into her teary eyes. He saw tremendous fear, sadness, vulnerability, yet a feeble attempt to mask it all. But jai saw all her hidden emotions through her eyes… as if he was looking into her soul…
Jai cupped her face with his hands and wiped away her tears gently with his thumb and index finger.
Jai (softly): Bani… ghar chale? We'll come back later… I promise…
Bani closed her eyes and shook her head no.
Jai: Bani… bani please… I dun want to see you hurt… tumhari pia di keh rahe na? Let's go sweetie…
Bani (between sobs): r… ra..no..o…. mein mar jaungi agar… agar use kuch…
her words shocked jai slightly…
Jai (trying to reassure her): She will be fine. Have faith. C'mon…
Jai stood up and extended his hand for her. Bani looked hesitantly into his eyes.
She saw reassurance, strength… she saw warmth and faith…
Bani: I can't… I can't leave her….
Jai: Hath pakro…
Bani finally gave in to jai's soothing pleading. She placed her shaking hands in his. They no longer shook as his firm grip held her tight.
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Bani sat on the bed, still in shock. She didn't speak a word, yet her silence spoke volumes about her, her life, her love for her sisters. Jai sat down next to her and placed his hand on her petite ones…
Jai: Bani, fikar maat karo… pia just called. Doctors said her condition has gotten better. She'll be fine jaan.
Bani looked up into jai's eyes. Suddenly, they got teary once again. She collapsed into jai's arms and sobbed loudly, as jai wrapped his arms around her, holding her close.
Bani(between sobs): mein… mein apni beheno ko kho nahi sakti… even.. Even… if they aren't my sisters… woh hi meri duniya hain… I can't live without them…
Jai was surprised. So bani dixit wasn't a dixit after all. Then who was she?
He stroked her stair gently and soothed her.
Jai: toh toh tum…
Bani: mein Bani…bani kapoor hun… mein… mein…
bani felt lyk she could open up to jai. She WANTED to open up to him… she couldn't keep all the pain inside anymore… it suffocated her… it haunted her… her memories never seized to stab her heart and snatch her smile…
Jai: Bani… mujhe batao… kya hua.. Please bani… I can't stand to see you lyk this… you have no idea how much this is hurting me…
bani grasped on to jai tighter as she plunged into her past once again.
Resting her head on jai's chest… bani kapoor began her story…
bani: mein chandigarh mein rehti thi, with my ma and papa. Papa… papa used to hurt ma… a lot…
she cringed at the memory of the sleepless nights she spent hearing her mother being cursed and whipped by her father's belt…
Bani: one day… one day my mother couldn't take it anymore… and she… she killed him…
Jai's eyes widened in shock…
Bani: they arrested her.. Threw her in jail…
she shut her eyes and began shaking slightly…
Bani: and they spent me to my chacha and chachi in Mumbai… they took me in without complaint… but treated me as a servant… nevertheless, I was given the name of a malhotra and gladly accepted it…
Jai sat listening, amazed at wat this innocent angel had to go through… his respect for her only deepened with each word she said.
Bani: my chacha used to drink a lot. He would bring his mistresses into the house at night… and made me lie to chachi for him… he used to beat me a lot too…
Jai couldn't believe it… he felt a knot arise in his throat, fighting tears desperately…
bani: and.. And one night… and one night… he was drunk… and he tried to… tried to..
Bani gasped… it almost killed her to go on
Bani: touch me…
Jai's eyes widened in shock and tears blurred his view. He tightened his grip on her, trying to protect her from her horrible reality…
bani opened her eyes, now more determined…
Bani: and I ran, I ran out of the house aimlessly in to the night… it was raining very heavily and I was drenched…I had no idea where I was going, who I was, who I wanted to be…. I was a nobody… existing for no one… not even myself.
Jai closed his eyes and let the drop of water slid down his cheeks and he remembered HER words… that beautiful young girl… that… ajnabi…
Bani: and then…these men… they began coming after me… I ran and ran…
Bani's tone was now desperate and clogged with tears…
Bani: until I ran into…
Jai: into…who?
Bani looked up at jai and stared into his desperate eyes.
Bani: superman…who else?
She broke into a fit of giggles and wiped her tears… yet there was such sadness in her eyes and voice…
Bani: kismat ka khel… ajeeb hai na?
Jai simply stared at her… bewildered…
Jai, barely able to speak… voice hoarse…
Jai: hain… bohut ajeeb hai… phir kya hua?
Bani let out a hoarse laugh.
Bani: phir kya hua? Hmph… mujhe aaj tak pata nahin, aat saal bad, ke phir kya hua…