Ok guys as promised...part 13...am tired...but a promise is a promise...do hope that you will like this part...written in a ruish though...ah well!
Do leave comments! This part is long....got a bit carried away...
Am a bit disturbed though...regarding all the fake ID's on IF...i am a die hard Prachi fan...and do not appreciate such pranks regarding the ID's...do hope that these people who do these pranks just STOP...it is not funny!
A kind note to all who do such pranks...please stop.
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Part 13
In the middle of nowhere, surrounded by only trees and the faint roaring of the wind two souls await for the storm to arrive…amongst the darkness of the past.
Looking deep into her eyes…he trails his fingers through her hair…allowing his eyes to deepen with intensity and love, yet there is a shadow of sadness hidden amongst it all.
She closes her eyes to the sudden contact.
He touches his lips softly to her forehead, then pushes her chin up...making her eyes open, to look straight into his.
She gasps…so deep, filled with such secrecy…she can barely look into them.
He whispers her name desperately again, as if trying to tell her all that he hides… with her name….
He is scared and shaking, she allows her hands to entwine in his…holding on tight. His lips are white, body limp…all due to fear of a secret of the past.
She looks at him searching for answers…allows her fingers to caress his face encouragingly…"jai….please jai….don't do this to yourself…don't…its killing me seeing you so broken…please jai"…she closes her eyes…as if feeling all his pain…so deep so strong that she can barely hold her tears…"please Jai…" she whispers once more allowing her head to rest against his chest…feeling his heartbeat.
No response…only silence…
The roaring of the wind engulfs their presence…the open windows bang forcefully…the cold chill enters the room...freezing them…yet he feels nothing as the chill is nothing compared to that in his heart…it is now so cold…that he is numb of all feeling except the love for his wife…
Silence…no words are spoken…she breathes heavily…trying to lessen his anguish…feeling all his troubles…yet understanding nothing.
"Sanjana" he utters…no emotion…like a robot…his eyes stare out of the window as if lost in time of the past…his eyes glisten and involuntarily a tear falls..
"Sanjana…killed me…she destroyed who I was…" he whispers meekly as if trying to disguise the fact that such an strong emotional man could ever be so broken…by a woman…a woman who he now despised with his whole heart…another tear falls…he tightens his hold on bani…wanting her to melt into him…his heart…his soul…just deeper…not wanting to loose the warmth of her touch…
"Bani…she killed me…she killed Jai Walia…just by her words…I loved her so much, I gave her my heart…my soul my pride…all…yet she killed me…"
He brings the golden chain, which now has a dent upon it up to his face…allowing it to sparkle mercilessly amongst the light…his eyes harden…"Sanjana…I gave her this with such love…to keep my love for her alive, who knew that such a simple thing could cause such turmoil...never again…" Another tear falls…
She feels him weeping…his breathing heavy…she presses herself closer into him…giving him her support, knowing that talking about something so deep must take allot of courage…a tear falls from her own eye…yet she still holds tight…
Thunder bangs…wind howls…yet still he continues to stare at the chain…as if lost by its very presence exactly as he had been when he had first met Sanjana…lost by her very presence.
He fingers the dent, loosening his hold on bani…who still holds tight, sending a cold shiver through his spine…how can he forget the past…yet in order for him to let go of Sanjana he must…this is what holds the chain together…love of the past…love which now no longer exists…only if you remember the past…only if..
He continues…letting his gaze now shift outside the window… " I met her at work, 7 years ago…she was what any man craved for…her dazzling looks could kill you…but they were a curse…a curse which I would only know of until later…"
He digs his fingernails deep into her…breathing heavy…eyes teary…
"another normal day at work bani…just another, but how was I supposed to know that it would later be seen as my worst….every man tried to get her attention, yet she never gave them hers…except me. At first I was intrigued by her, amazed…but I later lived to realise that there was nothing amazing about her…I found out months after our marriage…months after when it was too late bani…too late to save my family…"
His body is engulfed with tears…they shake his body…yet he cries silently.
She looks at him…knowing that he must need her support…she still doesn't understand…he is speaking in riddles, but she thinks she understands a little.. "jai" she whispers...cupping his face in her hands…he is not listening, too filled with grief...she caresses his cheek…and hugs him tight…hugging him all over…soothing him…allows her lips to rest upon his, as if medicine…they kiss softly…he holding on tightly needing her support…minutes later she breaks away breathless….she has never been kissed like that…so soft yet deep enough to touch the soul…
"jai …don't do this to yourself…tell me when the time is right but…not now"…she turns to go…but he holds her tight…looking out of the window…she doesn't struggle...allowing her heartbeat to soften to that of his…
"bani, if I don't tell you tonight…I never will and I never want you to hear what I have to say from another's lips…never bani…" He locks eyes with hers…
"She killed me Bani…killed and shattered my whole family by her every presence….we were all ghosts in her presence…trying not to be noticed…yet somehow always being noticed by her… just by our smallest actions…bani she…she...ruined my family….she killed me"
She still doesn't understand his repetitive words…she is confused…killed in what way….and then it hits her…
She had noticed, jais family were so different around her(bani) as if scared…even Jigs sudden accusations and hatred suddenly all fell into place, like a puzzle….the reason for his family's distress…which they would never utter again…but which once Jigyasa had… nearly...she shivers remembering. The day Jigyasa had mentioned those words…the room had gone cold…jais back had stiffened…and as soon as those words had left jigysas mouth her own eyes had become scared, scared of what she had just said…Jai had turned around so fast and hit her hard…that she had fallen to the floor…weeping...but no one had helped her…no one had spoken about the matter since…but she can still remember…no one helping Jigyasa not even her young children…all walked past her...and jai…bani hadn't heard or seen jai for two days after…sick with worry...yet still she had not brought up the matter trusting him…
Now she understood the reason for all this distress was Sanjana…she wasn't just linked to Jai…but his whole life…yet still she was confused….she didn't understand what it was that Sanjana had done…there were still a lot of the puzzle pieces missing…
"She killed me bani.." he repeated for the 5th or 6th time…
Lightening flashed….the wind howled…and his tears fell…amongst the pool of his own distress screaming out silently for all to leave him…yet nothing did…
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SHE comes…slowly approaching her destination…only two hours away. Eyes sparkling…now understanding what must be done…to save her love…now understanding what must be done….she comes to destroy all…
"Such truth…will it kill or save them…"
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hahah i am so mean...right well i was about to write the whole sanjana story....but then i got a bit carried away...ah well..read the next part to find out more about Sanjana...i hope 😉
I do hope taht i have not discouraged oyu all with this part!
Do leave comments would really appreciate it!
Luv ya
Sweetu.
Edited by sweetu144 - 19 years ago
