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Posted: 16 years ago
#81

A NOTE:
Thanks cupid but I will not ignore it…I am not the one to just sit and take anything!!! That's not me, and moreover writers don't fall short of words… …'wink'

Hey Dadpot (interesting name, do tell me what it means)

I thought of sending a PM to you but then if you can be so forthcoming, then I should be equally forthcoming if not more.

I was elegantly surprised after reading your post.

I would say you are fairly right. I don't know how closely you are following my story, but I have already put up a note saying I have taken bani's past from "A thousand splendid suns". You might have missed it; I don't blame you for that, to Err is human.

I am a great fan of Khalid Hosseni and have read both his books voraciously, which were deeply touching and scintillating. I was profoundly influenced by his charismatic writing to the extent that I almost shed a tear or two which I usually don't. I was struggling to find a background so I just felt like taking Miriam's past as I have already mentioned.

I am an individual, and am bound to get carried away and I do have my own sub-conscious/conscious influences and favorites. I am a self-confessed bibliophile/logophile and my hobby is to read and collect articles, essays, lines and words which leave an impact on me. Writing in IF is something I do out of love and interest and of course my wonderful friends here.

It is not as if I am publishing a book and I have "blatantly copied" or "ripped off". I do tend to write references from books if I fall in love with the emotion of it, it's a completely individual choice. I also do a lot of research work. Internet is a vast and open medium, maybe you might copy my story and post it somewhere else, who will know… …I don't mean to accuse/hurt you but I am just stating an example.

I am really thankful to you for taking out time and commenting. Please do find interest to read more (which is by the way original work). It has been a pleasure and I truly mean it.

God bless
Dhani

P.S.: In the book, it is not Friday…read it again if you want to check.

Part-9

"My heart, the bird of the wilderness

My heart, the bird of the wilderness, has found its sky in your eyes.

They are the cradle of the morning; they are the kingdom of the stars.

My songs are lost in their depths.

Let me but soar in that sky, in its lonely immensity.

Let me but cleave its clouds and spread wings in its sunshine."

{The paragraphs I have used are parts of Tagore's single song, I have broken it and used the lines, so beautifully written, you just feel like reading them again and again}

It was no human agency but rather a quirk of the tides that was responsible for fixing the date of the vessel's early arrival. The period of the year fell close to the autumn equinox, and one of the more dangerous oddities of the waterways of Bengal: namely the ban, or bore-a tidal phenomenon that sends walls of water hurtling upriver from the coast. Bores are never more hazardous than in these periods, when the seasons turn upon an equinoctial hinge: at those times, rising to formidable heights and travelling at great speed, the wave can pose a serious threat to the river's traffic; thankfully the ship was anchored well in time…

The town was small, just a few blocks of thatched houses that faded away into a jumble of shacks and other hut houses, beyond, the path wound through dense patches of forest and towering, tangled thickets of sugar-cane. The surrounding hills and crags were of strange, twisted shapes; they sat upon the plains like a bestiary of gargantuan animals that had been frozen in the act of trying to escape from the grip of the earth...

Most of the invitees were transported by bullock-carts…the workers were getting down the luggage and other things under jai's supervision…jai held bani's hand as she descend the ship…

Bani stood nervously at a distance as jai checked all things and the workers headed off to the ancestral house where the marriage was scheduled…

Jai was walking, his bad hung over his shoulder when he realized bani's absence…he turned around to see her standing at a distance…surprised he approached her…

"Come…" jai said…bani hesitated…

"Jai…I…"

"What happened…?"

"We were destined to be together only till here…" she said with a hint of sadness…

"What…do you mean…" a lamentable feeling entrapped in his heart whether he liked it or not: he was powerless to make it cease…

"I shall leave from here…"

"But how…"

"I can manage…already you have done so much for me…I can't thank you enough…"

"But bani…"

"I don't want to misuse your goodness…it's about time I leave…" bani said taking a deep breath…jai stood silent…bani turned around to leave…a few steps later she heard his coarse voice…

"Stay…" jai said impulsively, why he couldn't understand, but he only knew one thing, that he wanted her to stay…bani stared at him surprised…

"Jai…" he cut her short…

"Please…till the marriage gets over…"

"I am not invited jai…" bani gave him a sad smile…

"So what I am inviting you, Lolita wouldn't mind…"

"But…"

"Please…" jai didn't know what had come over him, he was never so comfortable around girls, he had always remained a bit aloof from them with the only exception of Lolita, but with bani he could open up so easily that he was requesting her to stay back…he had no right to do so but yet he was hanging on to a flicker of hope…bani couldn't refuse those pleading eyes, there was something in them which made her agree…

"Okay…"

"Good…come…let's go…thakuma will be really happy to see you…"
XXXX
Bani gawked at the magnanimity of the only huge building in the surrounding area; it was like a palace, with colorful stain-glass windowpanes, countless number of rooms…the grooms were send to a different house where they would stay…she amazed at the vastness of the place…

"Look thakuma…who's here…" jai stepped aside to reveal bani who was standing behind him…

"AHhh!!!Bani…" shakuntala exclaimed…

"She was going but I stopped her, and invited her to the marriage…" jai said…

"Very good…"

"I hope I will not be imposing on you thakuma…already you people have done so much for me…"

"Arree…na na…I am so happy, now you can massage my legs daily…" shakuntala grinned…bani smiled…

"Sure…I would love to…"

"Kajol…take bani to my room…" shakuntala said…
XXXX
Bani looked at her faded sari…she had brought only one sari with her, and one she was wearing, on the ship she washed one sari and wore the other, now again she has to wear the same sari and it was a marriage house, she regretted her decision of agreeing to come here on jai's insistence…

"Ki holo… (What happened)" shakuntala's voice boomed, bani suddenly turned around hiding the sari behind her…

"Kichu naa… (Nothing…)" bani muttered…

"Bani, Lolita will help with your dress…okay…"shakuntala smile at her, asking somebody to send Lolita to her… …

Bani noticed Lolita in a gloomy mood…

"I think these will suit you…" Lolita said extending a few saris towards bani…

"Lolita…what happened??? You are so upset" bani asked, Lolita was about to say something when she shut her mouth invariably…

"Nothing…its nothing…" Lolita mumbled before leaving hurriedly… …bani looked confused for a second but then her eyes fell on the pretty blue sari, she ran her fingers over the material…a soft smile formed on her lips, she would wear it in the Ashirwaad Ceremony tomorrow, she imagine jai ogling at her spellbound…she blushed to herself… …
XXXX
Jai ran settled his hair, ruffled by the blowing winds…the sun stirring at the horizon as the suck approached… …

"You are here, I was searching the entire house…" bani said…jai smiled and turned his head to stare at the sky…bani stood there rooted for a second, because when he was around, the oxygen seeped out of the air, her chest tightened and she couldn't draw enough air…all she could do was stand there, gasping… …bani gulped down, steadying herself she stood near him….

"You know how to make dolls with coconut leaves…" jai asked suddenly…

"What???" bani asked surprised…

"Dolls…"

"How???"

"Let me show you…" jai tore the coconut leave and turned and twisted making it into a cute flat doll…bani giggled…

"Wow!!! This is so cute…teach me please…"

Jai taught her how to make the dolls…

"I never knew this…" bani said amazed…

"We used to play with them when young, thakuma used to make them for us…" jai reminisced fondly…

"Wish we always remained children…" bani said poignantly looking down at the dolls…

"Hmmm…"

"Bani you are here…thakuma is calling you…" Lolita's voice interrupted them…

"Oh!!! Okay I will go…" bani said and walked away…

Lolita stood before jai, scrutinizing him…

"What happened??" jai asked puzzled…

"What???" Lolita arched her brow…

"What what???"

"Bani…"

"What bani…?"

"Nice girl…"

"So…"

"Sooo…"

Jai left, not understanding what Lolita was implying to say…
XXXX

God bless
Dhani

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Posted: 16 years ago
#82
lolita is jealous! she can be watever she wants as long as she is out of jbs way!
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Posted: 16 years ago
#83
hey gr8 part
so lolita is jealous of jb now
loved the way jai tld bani to stay
hmmm kuch toh hai jai ke dil mein
plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz cont soon
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Posted: 16 years ago
#84

I'm very glad you took the time to address this issue, and let everyone know, the necessary

acknowledgment was given at the beginning of the story.

My friend, move on from this atrocity. And do what you do best. Write stories that captures the imagination

for all to read.

The less said about this individual who cried wolf, without knowing the facts, the better.


Thank you, Cupid

P.S. Always remember integrity rules.
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Posted: 16 years ago
#85
Jai feels something for Bani. Bani is gone too.

Looks like Lolita is having second thought about Girish & marriage. She is feeling jealous of Bani's closeness to Jai. Hope she doesn't come in between.
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Posted: 16 years ago
#86
Sorry for not having commented in sometime Dhani. But have caught up and absolutely loving the way this story is going. JB are too cute. 😳 Jai is surely beginning to feel some things for our Bani Rani. And Bani as well. Can't wait to see what occurs during the wedding--- hope romance blossoms between the two. 😃

Love,
Dil
Edited by Indian_Goddess - 16 years ago
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Posted: 16 years ago
#87
hey hey,
wow jai is starting to like bani...
awesome!!!
Lolita getting jealous of jai and bani..she better not get in their way..
nadia
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Posted: 16 years ago
#88
Am I sensing a note of jealousy in lolita's voice. Well she wa sthe one to back off and now since she is having second thoughts I wonder if the JB angle will move forward. And Bani she is already in love with him. And Jai he is so full of lolita at times that I don't think he registers Bani's presence at times. but waitng to see if their friendship would turn into something more.
bye
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Posted: 16 years ago
#89

Note: I was born in Kolkata, I have lived there for ten years so I am quite familiar with their customs and all, but I am certainly not well-versed with the intricacies and traditions, I am writing with the limited knowledge I have, please excuse if any errors are there. I hope nobody's sentiments are hurt.

Part-10

Bani ran from one room to another, she had decided to help shakuntala and indirani with the preparations not only out of obligation and gratitude but also out of respect and admiration…since the Ashirwaad Ceremony was about to commence things were to be organized. By now some of the people had been familiarized with her as Lolita's friend… …

"If I say you are jai's friend, you know people will say things…" Lolita had whispered into her ear when she introduced her to his mother and aunts… …

"Bani just see if Lolita is ready…" manasi asked her…bani climbed the stairs, Lolita's room was upstairs… …

Bani pushed the door to reveal Lolita sitting in front of the mirror, looking angelic, yet her face lacked the sheen of a new would-be bride…

"You look beautiful…" bani said standing behind her, removing an ounce kohl/kajal from her eyes, sticking it behind Lolita's ear, to protect her from any roving evil eyes…

Lolita gave her a faint smile…

"I am scared…" Lolita uttered from nowhere…bani looked at Lolita's reflection in the mirror…

"Why???"

"I don't know…" Lolita said getting up…bani could see a flicker of regret in her eyes, were it for rejecting jai, she cringed at that thought, at times she had felt extreme anger towards Lolita and her cold-heartedness, how could someone throw away the love which came her way, how could she down-trodden jai and his feelings like that, certainly she didn't deserve someone as nice and wonderful as jai...the thought alarmed her… … Why was she so concerned for jai…??? Why did he mean so much for her??? And why was she angry on Lolita because of jai, both of whom she hardly knew… …

"Bani you get ready…" Lolita suggested…

"Uh…mm…yes…you come fast…"

Lolita nodded her head unmindfully, after the incident on the deck with Girish and then her conversation with her mother that night, there was an unsure fear in her head, What will she do if something akin happened to her as well?? Will Girish's snobbish attitude doom their relationship even before it was formed??? She remembered jai, who loved her unconditionally… …it was too late… or…

Lolita sighed… …
XXXX
The ceremony had already stared where all the elders of the family were giving Lolita their blessings and good wishes for a wonderful and peaceful life ahead…jai stood afar, almost unrecognizable in the throng of people… …

"Thakuma…have you seen jai…" bani asked softly…thakuma gave her a funny look…

"I don't know…" she secretly relished bani's crestfallen face upon getting a negative answer… …

"Why dear…?" shakuntala enquired hiding her smile… …

"No…just like that…" bani walked away… …bani was simply sprinting amongst the hurdle of people looking nowhere in particular when she collided with something hard as she reached the bottom of the stairs… …

"When she passed by me with quick steps, the end of her skirt touched me…

From the unknown island of a heart came a sudden warm breath of spring.

A flutter of a flitting touch brushed me and vanished in a moment, like a torn flower petal blown in the breeze.

It fell upon my heart like a sigh of her body and whisper of her heart."

Bani flushed lifted her head to witness the object of her thoughts grinning at her…

"I am sorry…" bani muttered, taking a step backwards… …

"It's okay…" jai replied not taking his eyes of her…bani adjusted her pleats…not meeting his eyes…her loose hair fluttering… …

"You…you look…different…" jai blurted…Bani's head shot up, she stared at him for a second and then burst into a fit of giggles… …jai looked embarrassed… …

"You don't even know how to compliment a girl jai…" bani said silencing her giggles…this further embarrassed jai… …her pressed the back of his neck, in the cream color kurta-pajama, he was looking rather cute, bani noticed… …

"You look beautiful…" he said finally, he liked the simple yet elegant attire… …

"I thought you never noticed any girl except Lolita…" she said… surprised at her bold statement…

"I didn't meet you before…" he said…gazing at her…bani became a bit self-conscious feeling his eyes boring into hers…

"JAIii…" somebody's voice disturbed them, jai left leaving bani rooted to her spot… …
XXXX

"My songs are like bees

My songs are like bees; they follow through the air some fragrant trace--some memory--of you, to hum around your shyness, eager for its hidden store.

When the freshness of dawn droops in the sun, when in the noon the air hangs low with heaviness and the forest is silent, my songs return home, their languid wings dusted with gold."


On the ceiling, moths flung themselves at the dull orange light running the length of the room and she heard the papery flapping of their wings… …bani lay awake, the coldness of the floor causing her bones to shiver…but she liked the coolness… Shakuntala was sleeping blissfully; it was only she who has been robbed by it… …

She pulled the blanket to her chin…sighing deeply…Jai…

She was surprised at how he easily made her forget everything, even her pity escapade and her bitter past, he made her smile, he made her sad, he made her angry and the very next moment convince her to forgive…there was something in him…something so effortless, that you just couldn't help but be charmed by… … Love…Was she falling in love??? Was this love??? All of a sudden a cloud of sadness masked her face, but he…he loved Lolita…
XXXX
The ladies were gathered in a circle, making garlands of flowers…the Gaye Holud (Haldi Rasam) was in just two days time… …there were cheers and laughters as each woman recounted the anecdotes of her marriage and other instances of experience, Lolita sat tearing the petals of the marigold with dejection… …she was still contemplating about her decision to let go of jai and marry Girish… …

"So bani…tell us…what you want to do…" indirani asked…

"I…I want to study… …" bani said with a flair of confidence… …

"Study…" all the ladies look stumped for a moment…

"What study, a girl is better off getting married…in this world how can a lonely girl live without any support, times are bad, you should get married to a nice boy…I will find one… na maaji…" indirani looked in the direction of shakuntala, who made no effort to answer… …

"Why badima…?" jai's voice roared from behind…placing the basket of fresh flowers he stood with his arms crossed…

"What do you mean why, a girl's prime duty is to get married and serve her husband and family??" she said stoically…

"Why is that, only boys have the right to study, to do what they wish, why, girls are not humans, they don't have any desires and ambition…"

"Shut up jai, you and your philosophical words, you can't change the facts" indirani retorted…

"It is we who have accepted these things as fact; we have made them into facts…what is wrong if bani wants to study…there are so many great women… Rani Laxmi bai, Sarojini Naidu, Annie Besant, Gaandhiji's wife Kasturba Devi…and many more, they have all and in fact are participating in the freedom struggle, they are also women…but they have made a difference…Even Maa durga was incarnated to kill Mahishasur, if god's can respect that we are just human mortals…No need to put such ideas into her head…let her do what she wants…" stating jai left form there, the women sat in a trance, breathless… …indirani blinked her eyelids...while bani looked proud… …
XXXX
"This jai…talks like he is Swami Vivekananda or something, what does he think, by these words he will change the society…that is what I don't like about him, talking, he talks big…as if he was giving a speech or something…" Lolita sniggered sarcastically… as they headed towards their room…

"Lolita…what he said was right…and who knows may be he will become a Swami Vivekananda someday, they were also bon from the society…there is no need to appreciate him Lolita at least don't make fun of his ideology…you know something, if something would have happened to the ship we were coming in, then we would have been the first to run away to save ourselves while he would have been the first to rescue others…I don't believe you, being his best friend you can talk about him like that…" bani lost her cool… …

Her eyes widened as she saw jai standing behind them, in a huff bani left… … leaving Lolita dumbfounded… …
XXXX
God bless
Dhani

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Posted: 16 years ago
#90
hey dhani
good part
loved the way jai told the ladies about why girls cant study
and the way bani answered lolita in the end
plzzzzzzzzzzz cont soon

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