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Chapter 5- The feeling that I can't be in his arms kills me!!
Nandini's POV...
One Year Later..
"Oh come on Navya and Cabir! Why India??" I freaked out and they both were lying on my bed smiling wickedly..
"Because our mothers want a big fat Indian destination wedding for us!" Cabir announced in a dramatic tone..
"How typical!?" I said in a stern tone and both of them shrugged shamelessly.
"Anyways then I have to say bye bye to you guys because am not coming to India! Have a happy marriage!" I said in a emotionless tone waving at them and both glared at me. "Why?? What? Do I look like a fool to you guys? You want me to leave my work for 20 days and fly to India just to attend a stupid Indian destination wedding of yours??? No! Not at all this really doesn't ring a bell in my head lovebirds!" I was shouting my lungs out and both of them were looking at me with serious expressions..
Yes that's how I became. Cold. Heartless. Badtameez.
The whole one year. 365 days. I spent like never before..
I started hating fun. I started living like a boring person.
No happiness.
No fun.
I lived because I had to not that I needed to..
Suicide was not an option now because I knew! I knew my dying will break many hearts..
And I wasn't like 'him'...
I hate him..
The day he left me in that disastrous situation he took my everything with him...
"Tumhy meri bad'dua lagy ge Manik Malhotra! Tum ny jesy mjy tarpya hai na! Bilkul wesay he tum bhi tarpo gay! Tumhy kbhi chain nahi aye ga! Kbhi nahi! Mera Khuda tumhy kbhi maaf Nahi kary gaaa! Kbhi nahi!!" I had shouted these words when he was leaving me.
After his departure I got to know that he was always been friends with CaVya. Only I wasn't aware..
Since the morning he left I used to had nightmares. Nightmares about him.
I almost destroyed my career after him but then got a hold because I was strong..
"Ohkay! So in simple words you aren't coming to Manali?" Cabir asked getting up and I stared at him..
"No! A big fat no!" I said ruthlessly and he sighed nodding his head..
"Nandini maan jaoa na! If you are denying just because of 'him'! Tou he is not coming! He is allergic to India! Cabir and he was 15 years old when they came from India since the day he didn't go back!" Navya told me and listening about him once again brought his memories..
A dark painful memory that I Loved Him!
"I don't care if he comes or not! I am not coming now leave!" I said angrily pushing them both out and almost slumped on the floor remembering his handsome smiling face..
Oh Manik...
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"I am in!" The next early morning I went to Cavya's and told them..
Both were rubbing their eyes due to heavy sleep..
"What!?" Both exclaimed getting up with a jerk and I nodded shrugging my shoulders .
"Yeah! Am coming with you guys! Sorry for being an ass yesterday!" I said with a low face and Navya came to hug me..
"It's okay Nandu! You decided to come it's enough for us!" She said rubbing my back and I sniffed in her shoulder..
They both were the only friends I had...
"Wowww! It will be so much fun!" Cabir was going mad with excitement and we both laughed..
"Tu dekhna Nandu! Ab sab theek ho jye ga!" He said patting my head and this left me a little confused but I smiled at him nodding my head..
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Manik's POV..
"India? You both came all the way from London to Paris to tell me that you are getting married in Manali??" I asked coldly shuffling through my files and glared at the most stupid couple I have ever came across...
"We came just not to tell you! But invite you to come there!" Navya said leaning forward and showing me her puppy eyes..
"India? Aur me? Have you gone nuts??" I shouted throwing the file on the table and got up.
They know I hate India..
"Come on Manik! We will stay in Manali! And will come back from there directly to London! It's just the matter of 20 days! Then you can come back to France!" Cabir said innocently and I glared at him.
"This is not easy for me! You know!" I said helplessly sitting back on my chair..
"Manik! Whatever happened 15 years ago is now just a memory! Trust me kuch nahi ho ga! Let's go na!" Cabir pleaded and I shook my head..
"No! Am not coming! You guys can go now!" I said rolling my chair to the other side and heard both of them taking a sigh..
"If you are not coming because of 'her'! Then make it clear that she isn't coming!" Navya said in a stern tone and walked out with Cabir slamming the door shut..
Her...
Doctor...
Taking a helpless sigh I threw my head back on the chair and stared at the ceiling for few seconds before closing my eyes remembering the beautiful face which was my dream...
The one year I spent was perfect for my progressional life but my personal life was as usual fu*ked up..
Since the day I left Nandini I didn't sleep a single night..
No natural sleep..
I became an insomnia patient..
I started hating dark..
I started using sleeping pills..
Not a single night was in peace..
I was restless..
Her craziness and my Awarapan has ruined me..
Oh Nandini..
I just wish...
I just wish kay main tumharay qabil hota...
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"When is the wedding? I need to book my tickets!" Next day I called Cabir and told him my decision..
They both were my only friends so I can't say no to them..
Ahhh India...
So many painful memories...
But I need to live with it...
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Navya's POV...
"Plan is all set!" Cabir exclaimed putting on his blazer and I picked up my bag..
"Yes! Nandini is coming with us! We will reach India on exact 20th of February!" I said rubbing my hand in excitement and Cabir turned to me .
"And Manik's plane will land on 21st! He will come to farmhouse at 21st's evening!" Cabir said flashing his teeth with full confidence..
"Apny mandap kay sath un dono ka mandap bhi na sajwa diya tou Navya Naveli naam nahi hmara!" I said winking at Cabir to which he laughed taking me in a hug ..
And India... Here we come...
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Nandini's POV...
My heart hammered in my chest when I put my foot on the floor..
India...
My motherland ..
After so long..
Though I was very little when I left but still everything seemed to be so familiar...
Maybe that's why everyone says that there is nothing better then the motherland..
"Nandu? Why you stopped let's go?" Navya said cheekily and held my hand to drag me with her..
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The farmhouse that had been booked by the both families was really very big and beautiful.
"This one is your room! And the room on left is mine!" Navya told me opening my room door and I smiled..
The interior was dark brown and really very beautiful..
"Left one is yours? Then who is staying in the right one??" I asked almost falling on the bed. Dead tired because of the flight..
"Umm! No one actually! That guest still has to arrive!" She said with a small smile on her face and I was too much tired to instigate more..
"Make yourself comfortable! You want dinner??" She asked walking out of the room..
"All I need to do is sleep! Good night Navya!" I said sleepily dipping my face in the pillow and soon I felt the quilt covering me..
Thanks Navya..
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I didn't know for how long I kept sleeping but the next time I woke up I again noticed dark in the room..
I turned to the side and saw the timepiece. It was set with Indian time and It was striking 5pm..
Ohh. I slept more then 15 hours?? God...
That's a new record..
I lazily got up and walked towards the window. I opened it and immediately the cold wind rushed inside.
I closed my eyes and breath in the fresh air for few minutes..
It felt so good..
So how about taking a shower?? Sounds like a plan..
I opened my luggage and sighed because the whole bag was full with Indian attires..
Navya had packed it for me and strictly prohibited me to wear any kind of western jeans shirt..
Only Indian...
And dupatta with was a compulsion because her Mom liked it??
What rubbish..
I made a mistake of coming here..
"Arghhh!" I cursed her under my breath and reluctantly choose a plump short kurti with dark green patiala shalwar and matching dupatta. Grabbing my clothes I entered the bathroom and took a warm relaxing showering..
My nerves calmed down and an unintentional smile appeared on my face...
Good vibes were coming..
My heart was happy..
It never been happy in this whole year...
Maybe It was because of the weather.
Smiling to myself I slipped in my dress and it was looking good..
"Doctor Nandini Murthy! Not bad haan! You look good in Indian attires!" I praised myself and giggled..
I blow dried my hair and let them fall over my shoulders..
Then I wore a matching comfy khusa! All thanks to Navya and came out of my room.
The room on my left was still empty and wide open..
I walked closer to the railing and peeked down only to see so many ladies sitting. There were piles of colorful clothes around them and they were laughing on something. Navya was also with them gossiping. I waved at her and she smiled gesturing me to come down. I skipped the stairs and reached down..
"Hi everyone!" I greeted them all and they all welcomed me with smiles..
"Slept well??" Navya asked lowly and I nodded. "Trust me Nandu you are looking killing in Indian attire! Aj tou kise ko maar he dalo ge!" She continued naughtily and I glared at her..
"Shh! I am hungry! Isn't there any tradition to treat the guests with good food?" I asked teasingly and she stuck her tongue before gesturing me to come with her..
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"Where is Cabir?" I asked munching to an Apple when Navya put the food plate in the oven to warm it..
"Airport! He has gone to pick his friend!" She said with a weird kind of smile on her face and I shrugged..
"Ohkay?? Which friend??" I asked least interested to know and she put the plate in front of me to eat..
"You will get to know! He must be here any minute!" She said smirking a lot and I made a bad face..
I picked up the spoon and mixed the daal with rice. I was about to take the first bite when suddenly a weird kind of sensation filled me and I look at Navya she was smiling..
"I think Cabir is back!" She said with an evil smile and walked out of the kitchen..
Ishq pahly tha ya aashiq pahly
Aayein maashoq tu pahly aashiq pahly
The spoon fell off my hands and all my appetite was lost.
The cold wind from the window rustled in and I felt so cold..
The laughter of so many people from outside hit my ears and I gasped covering my mouth..
The laugh... I can guess it in millions..
So that's why stupid heart was happy..
That's why I was thinking that something was gonna happen..
Ishq ky hath lagy hain jab sy
Aisy madhoosh phiry hain tab sy
With trembling legs I got off the stool and limped towards the door..
Maybe my ears mistook and my heart was lying..
But my brain was screaming that whatever I was feeling must be true..
The moment I stood in the door I saw HIM!...
He was there...
His back was towards me..
The black jacket was hugging his figure perfect...
I rubbed my eyes once..
He was there..
I rubbed my eyes twice but he was still there laughing with Cabir and Navya..
Ishq dil ky dar py kyun aya tha
Han aya tha ishq aya tha
After a whole long year I saw him and he hadn't changed a bit..
He was the same..
How much I longed to see him..
Suddenly I realized something wet on my cheek and I touched it to cheek that it was tears..
I was crying..
The realization hit me that I still love him...
All the hatred that I was trying to build inside me was now nowhere..
He was... He was everywhere...
In my heart...
In my mind...
So ham nazar utarein
Haye ry hum sadqay tumhary
Tumhary tumhary sadqay tumhary
Haye ry hum sadqay tumhary
I realized kay muhabat khatam tou kbhi hue he Nahi the! Haan kahen khoo zaroor gai the but when today I saw him in front of eyes everything came back..
Along with a painful truth that he didn't want us together...
But see! He kept his promise...
He...
He didn't die...
He lived...
Did he live for me??
I wanted to ask...
But couldn't...
Did he miss me??
I wanted to ask...
But couldn't...
Do he love me??
I desperately even today wanted to know..
But he won't answer to me that too I know..
I wasn't a desperate sh!t..
I thought I was strong but he was my weakness...
Tery waari waari jaawan mery ishqan
Teri khushiyan manawan tery shagan manawan
Main tey jaan qurban karaan
Tery waari waari jaawan mery ishqan ishqan
I was standing there crying at his back and lost in my thoughts when Cabir made him turn to me...
He laughingly turned and his smile immediately disappeared..
Our eyes met and I remembered all those pains I went through because of him..
He was the one who left me in that disastrous state..
He opened his mouth to say something but nothing came out..
I wiped my tears and almost run from there avoiding him..
I fell on my bed and screamed in my pillow punching it furiously..
"Ahhh!!!" I shouted in the pillow and felt everything suffocating..
"Nandu??" I heard Navya and her hand caressed my hair..
My head snapped at her and I got up with a jerk..
"What?? What the hell is he doing here??? You said that he wasn't coming!! You lied Navya!! You lied!" I shouted in extreme anxiety holding Navya's hands and she shook her head trying to cup my cheeks..
"Nandu just listen to me! Shh! Yes he wasn't coming! But suddenly last moment pay he said that he will come! Am sorry sweetie! Please just calm down!" She said worriedly cupping my cheeks and hugged me tightly..
"Navya!!!!" I cried her name she too started crying with me..
"It hurts me to see him here and the feeling that I can't be in his arms kills me!!" I cried hugging her tighter and she caressed my hair...
"Relax Nandu!" She was also sobbing...
"It hurts! It hurts so much!" I spoke closing my eyes...
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Manik's POV...
"What the fu*k is she doing here?? You said that she isn't fu*king coming??" I roared pushing Cabir away and he held his hands in air shaking his head...
"We really don't know how did she came! She actually surprised us!" He said in a worried tone and I picked my bag pack up..
"Am going back!" I said zipping up my Jacket and started walking out but Cabir grabbed my arm..
"Hey hey no! Why back?" He freaked out stopping me..
"Cabir! Didn't you see the tears in her eyes?? Main jab us kay samny aata hoon tou wo hurt hoti hai! I! I can't hurt her more!" I said freeing my arm and Cabir was about to say something but I stopped him. "No! Am going back!" I said in a determined tone and Cabir kept shouting for but I walked out..
I can't..
I can't face her...
Knowing that am the reason of her tears kills me..
I know I was doing unfair with her but...
I can't...
I just can't...
I can die for her but I can't live with her..
I was a piece of sh!t...
And Nandini...
She was a farthest star in the sky...a star out of my range...a star I couldn't reach...
Manali and it's snow...
Always bad timings..
I walked further out of the farmhouse and sat on a garden bench very next to it..
I called the airport and booked my seat. Unfortunately the seat was of tomorrow morning..
Ahh! Should I search for a hotel?? But after such a tiring flight I was in mood to even walk a little..
I tighten my jacket around and laid on the bench with my bag pack under my head..
The cold was piercing in my skin but night and sleep over came me and soon I was in a deep sleep..
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Navya's POV..
"He is gone!" Cabir said holding his head in his hands and sat on the bed..
"Oh God! Why these two has to be so stubborn?? Specially Manik! Why can't he just let go of his past and live a happy life with Nandini? Nandini is crazy for him! Us ka naam he lety he ro parti hai!" I said helplessly..
"How is she now!? That means our plan failed??" Cabir said in a sad tone and I sat beside him..
"She is sleeping myny us anti depressant di hai! Or else us ka nervous breakdown ho jata!" I said remembering her condition..
"God!! I never thought that our plan will backfire like this!" Cabir was pulling his hair and I rubbed his shoulder..
"I just wish Nandini get well soon! Kya Manik sach me chalay gya?" I asked sadly and Cabir nodded..
"Yup! He must be boarding his plane!" He said in a cold tone and fell straight in the bed taking a deep sigh..
Mata Rani...sab Acha kar do...
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Nandini's POV..
"Manik!" I exclaimed loudly as I saw him standing on the bridge with a cute smile on his face and I run towards him..
"Come to me Nandini!" He was saying and I crazily run towards him. Soon I reached him and threw my arms around his neck..
He twirled us around and I giggled in his arms..
"Manik! You will never leave me na??" I asked innocently hugging him tightly and felt his lips pressing my head..
"Never! I will never leave you! Because I Lo--!" He was speaking those golden words but suddenly paused. I frowned and broke the hug just to notice blood oozing out of his heart.
"Manik!!" I screamed and he fell down..
"Oh Manik! No! No!" I was shouting and his eyes were closed...
"Don't die!!! Please! You always do unfair! You always leave me!! Don't dieee!" I was shouting shaking him badly but he didn't move..
"Don't die!! Manik!" I shouted again and fu*k it was a dream..
Oh God...
No...
I was sweating like hell in spite it was snowing outside but I felt suffocated...
I needed air...
I wanted to breath..
Manik?? Where was he??
I wore my sweater and grabbed my shawl. Then I hastily came out of my room there was a dead silence around. The room on my left was still empty and this made my heartbeat fast..
The big antique clock of the main hall was striking 3 am of the morning...
Manik...
I crazily run down the stairs...
He wasn't there...
I could feel it..
He left!?
Once again he fu*king left...
Everything was suffocating me..
He wasn't there...
Oh God...
I run out of the farmhouse..
I wanted to get away from everything..
I run more until I stumble and almost fell on a bench but there was a man lying on it..
The snow had covered him almost fully..
Who was he??
I touched his arm and the snow gathered over it fell off revealing the same black leather jacket..
Is he??
Is he Manik??
I immediately brushed the snow of his face and hair. My breath stuck in my throat...
"Manik!!" I shouted his heavenly name shaking him but he didn't move..
His lips had turned blue and his face was white as Ice...
I checked his pulse and it was dipping..
Oh God no...
"Manik!! Open your eyes na!! Please!!!" I shouted like a maniac and tears wet my cheeks..
What should I do? I can't move him..
Cabir! Yes Cabir...
I covered Manik wih my thin shawl and run back towards the farmhouse..
"Cabir!! Cabir!! Open the damn door!" I almost broke Cabir's room door and finally he came out yawning..
"What is it Nandu?? I was in a sweet dream!" He complaint scratching his bum still so sleepy..
"Fu*k your dream! Cabir it's about Manik!!! You have to come with me!" I shouted dragging him with me and he squealed in shock..
"Manik is gone Nandini!!" He reasoned but I dragged him with me until we reached Manik..
"Bloody hell! What the hell is he doing here?? He should be in plane by now!" Cabir freaked out and I rubbed Manik's ice cold palms..
"Help me taking him in please!" I shouted and he nodded..
With loads of difficulty we dragged Manik in, in Cabir's room..
"I will call the doctor! You yourself are shivering you won't be able to treat him!" Cabir said lowly pulling his cell phone out of his pocket and I nodded..
I sat beside Manik and cried..
Why you always do this to me?? Why??
I cupped his cheek and leaned forward..
I pecked his ice cold lips and his lips trembled with a low mumble making me frozen on my place..
The mumble was...
"Doc-doctor!"...
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So?? Pretty exciting it was?? They can't lie to themselves that they are insanely in love..
And Manik's last whisper! Ahhh! How many of you trembled along with Nandini?? Raise your hands!! Anyone?? Because I did...
Loved it?? Lemme know!
Love,Mawara
Edited by Mawara_Ejaz - 9 years ago
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