PART- 14 I LIVE OR DIE...??
Hello readers...!! See this time early naa... so let's not waste time and move on with the story...!!
At nandini's place-
Navya: for ur parents...!! for amms...!! what they must be feeling seeing u like this... at least for them.. come back...!!
(That was it for nandini... as the mere discussion about her parents and amms... made her look at navya...then she stood up and started walking... towards her room... and this time none of them stopped her... as now they were feeling that they failed... but then they saw her turning... towards them... and she said...
Nandini: U WANT ME TO COME BACK FOR THOSE... WHO THEMSELVES WILL NEVER COME BACK TO ME...!!! U WANT ME TO LIVE... FOR MYSELF NAA... THEN GET IT CLEAR IN UR MINDS... I WANT TO LIVE LIKE THIS... !! LIKE THE WAY I AM NOW... !! I DON'T WANT MYSELF BACK...!! I DON'T WANT TO BE THAT OLD NANDINI... I DON'T WANT TO BE WEAK AGAIN...!! AND I DON'T EVEN CLEARLY REMEMBER HOW I USED TO BE...!! SO U ALL ALSO FORGET...!! (She said all this in a very loud voice... and in all her senses after a long time...and pushed a table kept near her in aggression... her this action and her words took away the senses of others standing there... but as this was not the time to be weak... so again...)
Abhi: (he came forward to her and held her by her arms...and said loudly...)NANDINI...!! kis se... jhoot bol rai ho... humse ya khudse... ?? ye Tum bhi jaanti ho aur hum sab bhi... that u are not happy... u don't like urself anymore... u want to finish ur life... aaj tum humse toh kya khudse bhi nazare Milana nai chahti... because u know u are wrong...!! Plz don't do this to urself...
(Nandini was blank for sometime as she had no answer... because somewhere she knew that she is not correct... she is not happy... she so wants her life back... but she had decided she will not fall weak... she will not let out her pain... because still the person because of whom she has become like this is not here... for her... so she has locked herself in that darkness... and lonely world of hers... )
Nandini: ( looking here and there) it's nothing like that... I want to live this life only... where I am strong... where I don't cry...!!
(This time cabir came to her and said... as he have had enough now... enough of the polite behaviour... as that behaviour has not helped in getting her back so this time... he said it loud...)
Cabir: u think u are strong...?? U think that u are happy...?? and u think the old nandini was weak...??Then u are highly mistaken... U R NOT STRONG... U R WEAK... BECAUSE... IF U WOULD HAVE BEEN STRONG U WOULD HAVE FOUGHT WITH ALL THE PROBLEMS... LIKE THE OLD TIMES... U WOULD HAVE FACED THEM... IF U WOULD HAVE BEEN HAPPY NAA ... THEN U WOULDN'T HAVE TRIED TO DIE ... IF THIS IS HAPPINESS... THEN ... UR DEFINITION HAPPINESS IS TOTALLY WRONG...!! NOT CRYING DOES NOT MEANS THAT U R HAPPY...CRYING DOESN'T MAKE U WEAK... IT'S IGNORANCE... IT'S RUNNING AWAY FROM UR PROBLEMS WHICH MAKES U WEAK...!! LIKE U ARE RUNNING AWAY... FROM PROBLEMS...!!
Nandini: No...!! No...!! No...!! I am not weak...!! I am strong...!! I will not cry...!! ( she shouted... and then... her breath became uneven... but still she continued...) I will not let anybody of u affect me...!! Nobody affects me...!! (Now she started coughing... as now it was too much for her... firstly she was talking for so long after a long time... and on top of that shouting... was really not helping... with this everyone became... worried for her... then cabir started patting her back... but she pushed him... not wanting anyone near her...) Just go all of u...!! Just go...!!
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With this she started moving to her backyard... as now it was getting difficult for her to control herself... but her bad luck her backyard gate was also locked... so now she became more furious... already her condition was getting worse... but she shouted again...
Nandini- (looking towards all of them...and her head was spinning... now... but still she shouted...) open this right now...!! Why... kyu...?? Har baar u all of to interfere in my life...?? Can't u all just stay away... why u have to show ur extra concern... ?? Why does it matter to u all whether... I LIVE OR DIE...?? It's my bloody life... ( saying this she was about to fall as now her eyes were closed... she was unconscious now... but before she falls two hands came and saved her from touching the ground... and the hands were of none other than MANIK... whose face was already reflecting guilt... pain... and eyes were full of tears... but seeing her falling he couldn't stop himself... from holding her...)
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All of them were standing outside nandini's room... as abhi along with Mukti was inside her room examining her... all were hell tensed... and manik was numb... he was just remembering her words... cabir was consoling navya who crying seeing nandini like this... there alya and dhruv where standing together but still were far away from each other... they cannot console each other... as they were bound by their own words...
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In nandini's room-
Abhi gave nandini an injection and asked ...
Abhi- Mukti does nandini has any kind of allergies to any of the chemicals... u must be knowing... has her doctor ever told about it...??
Mukti : no abhi ... she is not allergic to any chemical... Doctor never mentioned...
Then abhi gave her one more injection... he has been carrying these injections with him ... for any kind of emergency... then leaving the sleeping nandini they came out...
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As they came out... all of them asked what happened..?? Is she fine...?? To which abhi replied...
Abhi: she fainted due to weakness .. and stress... so I have given her glucose injection... plus I have also given her injection... which normally decreases the craving of a person for drugs... I hope that it shows some effect atleast...
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They all were sitting in the hall in the Angel's villa... after coming from her house... keeping the caretaker there ... for her... All of them were sitting silently... just remembering the whole incident... and feeling helpless... just then... navya brought water for all of them... and then settling herself she said...
Navya: Abhi... tumne dekha... kya haal ho gaya hai uska... uski haalat aur kharab ho gayi aaj toh... ese nandu theek kaise hogi... vo aur beemar ho jayegi...
( All this while abhi's brain was working on a different tangent... looking to the positive side of all this... and then listening to Navya's words he replied...)
Abhi : nai navya... !! This was a positive sign... didn't u see... she spoke... she did not open up fully but atleast she shared something... after today's talk I have realised that she has accepted that amms and her parents are not gonna come back... and she also wants herself back... though she is not accepting this... but her actions say it all... it's just now she has lost hope to get herself back... and we need to build up that hope... and that is only possible if we keep talking to her and force her to let it all out... once she shares her pain naa then... she will get her hope back...
Cabir: but abhi ... did u see her condition... she is not ready to let it all out... how will we do it...??
Abhi: first of all we need to give her good environment... her house needs colours... light... and a mirror in her room... as when a person comes in contact with drugs... he/she feels ashamed to look at themselves... they feel guilty... and looking at themselves in the mirror they are bound to see their old selves... so nandini also needs to look at herself... it's high time she has lived her life avoiding herself... her inner voice... now she needs to look into the past ... through that mirror... and adding colours to her house will give her peace... which she is searching in that darkness...
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As abhi said this all of them started discussing about how they will do it all... then Navya made some calls and ordered for mirrors... cabir hired painters... and manik just took his car keys... and left... saying... he will be back soon... with the light of her life... no one understood what he said... but then let it be ... as they know that manik knows the old nandini better than anyone else present there...
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As manik came back he had a jar in his hand... he just moved directly to his room... kept it safely... near his bed... and then abhi came to his room... as he knew manik is not fine... and they need to talk...
Manik and abhi were sitting in manik's room's balcony... and were silently looking at the stars... actually manik was looking at the stars abhi was just observing him... as in these 2 years... they have developed a great bond of friendship... and this friendship manik was not the all time protector... as he was or should say is for fab 5...
With abhi he was himself... the one who gets weak on seeing his loved ones in pain... and this time it was about nandini... who is manik's life... his reason of existence... and seeing her like that... it was very obvious for him to break... but the difference was Manik was all silent... just looking at the stars... then abhi not being able to take that silence said...
Abhi: manik... what are u looking at... u know naa it's me... u can share ur pain with me...
Manik: abhi I am trying to find peace... but now these stars no more give me that peace... only my shining star ... my nandini... can give me peace... but what have I done to her yr... she does not shine anymore... she is lost... she is not the same at all... ( he started remembering the whole London journey... how he found her in that hospital... her condition... her past... her sufferings... her words...) I lost her abhi... !!
Abhi: manik this time I also am feeling... guilty... that I left her... she don't even remember me now... but we have to be strong for her...!! We cannot loose hope now...!! And more over it was not your fault... U WERE FORCED TO DO THIS...!! it's not like that u did not come back... with ur own wish ... u were bound to do that... for them only...!! So u should not blame urself... it's just the fate... or the time which is wrong...!!
Manik: abhi it's my fault... all my fault...!! I was trying to protect them...!! But where it ended...!! My that action lead her to this phase of her life... without being her at fault... she had to face so much...!! She toh don't even want herself back... then how will we get her back...?? I am just too worried... what if in trying to get her back... we loose her... then...( he said this all blankly... and the thought of loosing her... horrified him to the core...) I cannot loose her... !! I will never be able to face myself if anything happens to her...!!
Abhi: manik... !! We will get her back... and nothing will happen to her... and tomorrow... I will be going to the doctor who was treating nandini till now... and I am sure we will get some solution...
Manik:(emotionally) I hope so...!!
(And then he just hugged abhi... and cried... and to lighten the mood abhi asked... about what he bought in that jar... to which manik replied...)
IT'S THE SPECIAL LIGHT... WHICH WILL DEFINITELY HELP US TO GET HER BACK...!! U WILL GET TO KNOW IT SOON... ( Manik said this with the spark of determination in his eyes... to which abhi just nodded and said...)
Abhi: now u sleep...!! Give ur mind some rest... as tomorrow lots of work needs to be done...!!
Saying this abhi came out of his room... only to be shocked to see the person standing out... and from the expressions of the person it was clear that he / she has heard everything ... and here inside the room...manik lied down... and then thinking about nandini he slept... as new morning is gonna bring new hopes... new challenges... for all of them...
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So here I end part 14... so was it upto the mark...?? Did u liked it...?? Do comment... and tell me...??
Keep thinking... what is manik hiding...?? What did abhi meant by that manik did it all for them...?? And who was standing there...?? Will they be able to get nandini back...?? Will manik be able to face nandini...??
AMAAYA...😊😊
Kabhi Neem Neem Kabhi Shahad Shahad
