Unsaid-Unknown Ronakshi FF updated epilogue 18/09/2019 - Page 5

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RoNakshi FF: part 7

The next day dawn where so much of events were to take place. Rohit sippy had no idea this is going to be a day he is not going to forget ever in his whole life, but somehow he anticipated the worst. If he could have hold on to keep sonakshi in the hospital furthermore he would have, but the “tomorrow afternoon” time frame he gave to nethra ji came too soon than he wanted it to. And he had no choice but to let sonakshi who was repeatedly requesting the discharge, have her way.

When he signed the forms of discharge which tulsi brought in, he felt like a toofan is on the way, and this is the calm before the storm. Heck, it is not calm even, inside his heart and mind a constant turbulence of agony was going on, making him almost crazy. He felt as if he is signing his death sentence when he signed the forms to let sonakshi be discharged, because somewhere the gut feeling of Sippy said him that this is not going to conclude well.

But the equally important thing is that he was determined. He was determined to do whatever to apologise, he was determined to do whatever to make up her mind and he was determined to do whatever to have her back. He messed it up all by himself, so its him alone who have to get it fixed. Ge will have to fight for this, and he had no idea what it would take now.

“Sir may i take them? Are you done?” Tulsi asked.

“No tulsi, ye sab mein khud jaakar dedunga usse.” Said rohit, getting up from his seat.

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Sonakshi was quietly seated off in the bed. When doctor dimpy and simmi came to her to check her vitals she thought her need to be discharge has again been declined but when simmi was starting to remove her IV line, she felt that finally, it is about time.

She saw mumma and pulkit seated in the couch with nethra ji. She hasn’t talked with them properly since she gained consciousness unless to tell them that she needs to go home. She couldn’t be here anymore, well she couldn’t be anywhere anymore. She has lost all the hopes in life, she no more saw any meaning in life. Nor she had any goals or aims. The aimless stare she was having defined the life of the new Sonakshi rastogi.

The door thud opened, the same door that she was aimlessly staring at. So consequently its with his eyes her eyes met. Sonakshi although was feeling empty till now, clearly felt that tug in the heart when those black eyes and the thick brows came in his way.

“Rohit...” that name effortlessly managed to escape from her lips yet. And she had no idea what feelings he went through just by hearing his name from her.

He looked wasted out of energy, she thought. But why would i think about him anymore, she thought next.

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“Itna sab kuch honeke bawajood bhi tum yahaan. Sharam nahi aata hein tujhe.” Said suman, getting up and going towards rohit.

Rohit’s eyes didn’t move any inch away from sonakshi’s. Their eyes remained fixed at each other. Its with that he talked yet.

“Mujhe sonakshi se baat karne hein.”

“Baat? Kyun kya baat karne hein ab tujhe? Ah?” Suman yapped at him.

“Mein pooch nahi raha. Mujhe baat karne hein. Matlab baat karne hein.” He answered back without moving an inch from there.

Nethra held suman back, while pulkit was tensed.

“Akhele.” He again said what he wanted.

“Kya pata tu meri bachchi ko mardaalenge. Akhele baat karna hein? Itna besharam keise ho sakta hein koi....”

“Suman ji please. Let’s go from here and you calm down. Sona you call us we will be outside okay. Come suman ji. Pulkit take the bags please.” Said nethra leaving the room after so much of effort to drag suman out.

And then it was time. Where they both became alone.

He walked to her and kept the file of discharge papers aside. Still their eyes fixed. Sonakshi felt her eyes welling up and soon her vision blocked. His image was getting blurry so it was then time to break the eye lock.

She looked away. and soon as she did, he felt a dragger in his heart.

“Jaa rahi hoon?” He asked. She remained silent.

“Mere taraf bhi nahi dekhungi sonakshi? Yuhi chale jaana chati hoon tum?” He repeated.

“Tumari koi galti nahi hein sonakshi. Mein ne kiya hua galat kaam ki wajeise tum suffer kar rahi hoon , pata hein mujhe.”

“I had no idea how to face you. But i wanted to. I am guilty for whatever i did to you. I took a wrong decision sonakshi. Bohot sharminda hoon mein. Tum jo bhi sazza dungi mujhe manzoor hein lekin iss tarha mujhe baat naa karke nikhal mat jao. Please.”

All the time only he spoke. She didn’t tell a single word.

“Please ek baar mujhse baat karo. Tum jo bhi chaati hoon karlo mere saat. Mujhe maaro. ruto. Chillao. Issi tarha silence mat raho..”

Yet no response. Not matter how much he loved her, he was also her surgeon. He didn’t want to strain her too much. That is why he sent doctor dimpy beforehand to check her status right now. She was fit enough and better true. Hence only he wanted to talk to her even at the last moment. Hadn’t she been well, he would not have discharged her, nor he would have come here to stress her.

“Tume uss tarha ET mein dekar mera jaan chala gaya sonakshi. Ek pal mein eise laga ki mera sab kuch ko gaya. I am not asking you to believe me but such mein.tume andaasa bhi nahi hein tume iss tarha dekne keliye mein kitna tadpaaya. I thought i lost you.” Rohit said as last few lines choked on his throat.

“You lost me, Rohit.You lost me already.” The first words they were to him,She said, making him look at her.

Rohit felt his breath being hitched. He was speechless. He didn’t want this to happen. Please. Anything but i cannot loose her.

“Maut se bachkar aagayi matlab ye nahi ki mein sab kuch bhool chuki hoon. Sab yaad hein mujhe.” She said again, this time looking into his eyes. Which were right now blood shot red.

“Kyun surgeon Sippy? Aapko kya lagta tha. Yahi tho wo pagal ladki hein, kuch bhi karengi wo mere liye. To chalo, haush aate wakt phir milkar dau teen catchy lafz kahoonga aur wo manengi. Kyunki mein toh parvati thi naa. Uss mahaan character hein na. What say? Isn’t that what you exactly thought? ”

Rohi decided to let her speak, now at this moment she had all the right to scold him, scream at him and do whatever with him. It is at least better than getting a silent treatment from her.

“Lekin nahi, i am sorry to burst your bubble. Mein ek aam ladki hoon, jisne aakar ek supposedly aam aadmi se pyaar karne lagi. I was a fool, what i thought and where on earth i was. I was living in a dream world. Where i thought you were mine as much as i was yours. But no, you wanted a revenge for your girlfriend hein na?” She stood up coming infront of him.

“Toh batao kyun. Us din itni aasani se revenge poora kiya hota tum. Maardalena chaiyeta seeda mujhe. Tumare liye bhi aasan hota aur meri liye bhi. Kamse kam i will die once rather than living as a dead body. Kamse kam tumara ye whole dhoka nahi dekhne padti.” She asked straight into his eyes. He felt some fresh tears wetting his cheeks.

“Arey arey arey. Ye kyaa paani bahar aata hein surgeon ki aakhon se? Glycerin lagaya aapne kya? Glycerin pata hein? Jhoote aansu banane keliye use karte ham set pe. Aap toh doctor kam actor syaada nikhla aakhir. toh glycerin ka bhi pata hoga aapse. Hein na? ”

Rohit bit his lower lip tightly trying to hold on the pain that was burning down his throat. As she said each and every word he said to himself that I deserve this. I deserve this.

“Ye jhoote aansu bhi mujhpar waste mat karo aap. Kya pata hospital bill ke saat saat i will have to pay you the price for the tears. Haa? Hein na. Aaj nahi doonge aap likke aapka fees? Kyun Rohit sippy. Aapki duty kar raha tha aap toh, fees to banta hein naa. Or should i be grateful? Should i get my hands together and worship you for saving my life without killing me on the operation table? You think i am glad to be alive? Haa? I hate this life that i can die right at this moment. I do not want a life where i will daily die. Achcha hota agar mein mar gayi...”

Rohit couldn’t take it anymore, he will bear with everything but not hearing a word about that. He grabbed her by the shoulders.

“Jo bhi kaho kehena hein tume. Mein bardaash karunga kyun ki i deserve it. Lekin maut ke baare mein nahi, ok? Maut ki baare mein nahi.”

“kyun? Aapko ko toh bade mazza aane chahiye wo baar sunke. Revenge complete honga aapki.”

“Sonakshi i was a stupid fool. Yes i am guilty for whatever happened to you. Haa hogaya bohot badi galatfemi. Maaf nahi milna chahiye mujhe. But iska matlab ye nahi ki i wanted to kill you. Eisa kabhi soch bhi nahi sakta mein. ”

“Aakhir teek eisa hi kardiya tum ne. Nahi? Ye jo bhi tum kiya hein na, maut se kam nahi hein, nahi hein maut se kam nahi hein...”

She bursted out at that moment. She knew she was breaking down. She didn’t want to, infront of him but she couldn’t control this tears anymore. Rohit couldn’t take it anymore. His heart was bleeding but he couldn’t keep on stressing her anymore, he feared.

“Please sonakshi ab nahin. Do not strain yourself. Its ok i need to talk to you but not at the cost of your health. Abhi abhi opearation hua hein tume stress nahi karna chahiye. Jo bhi baat karna hein, baad mein karte.”

“Baat? Ab kaha kuch bachaa hein haa baat karaneke? Ah? Baat karne keliye kuch bachaa nahi hein.pata hein,hum dono ki duniya bohot alag ti. Lekin mujhe kabhi us baat mishoos nahi hui thi. Kyun ki pyaar kiya tha mein neh aapse. Eise pyaar mein neh kabhi kissi ko nahi kiya ta. Poori kaainaat mein tum ta meri ek lauta sukhoon. Mera hassi meri kushi sab tum ta rohit sippy. Sab kuch ek taraf tum ek taraf tha meri liye. Paapa neh behja hua gift samaj kar socha tumare baare mein. Itna pyaar kiya mein ki tume dekh kar meri problems jhat se nikhal jaye. Itna....itna pyaar kiya ki.....ki tumse alag hauna.....kabhi.... kabhi... soch bhi nahi.... nahi sakti thi.. mein.....” she started sobbing so badly while he still held her in his arms. He wanted to take her to his embrace and wipe those tears away from her forever. His hands travelled up her arms and ultimately ended up cupping her face.

“Sonakshi...”

“Naam mat lo mera.” She tried to get away from him but he didn’t budge in.

“Please....”

“Barbaad karna chati thi naa mujhe.”

“Nahi kahunga mein ki i didn’t want to take revenge from you.i got caught to mahtre’s trap. Revenge chati thi But uss tarha nahi jis tarha tum sochti hoon. I had no idea ki tum mera liye kya kya kar chuki thi until nethra ji told me. Pooji ke liye mhatre ki saamne jaana, aur wo sab kuch.jitna naa mein kahoon utna kam hoga.Mein zindagi bar sharminda rahoonga i cannot explain it. But Please mein tumari barbaadi nahi chati thi, i wanted revenge but i got to know everything right before our weeding, aasani se tumse shaadi karke sab kuch boolna bhi possible tha lekin mein neh eisa nahi kiya. Kyun ki mein nahi chatha tha ek jhoot se hamari aage ki zindagi shuru karu. Issiliye aaya tha tumse milne. Sab sach bataake shaadi karne keliye. Please yakeen karo at least this time.yakeen karo mera please....please ” with that he bent forward and kept his forhead against hers. She started sobbing more against him, syncing his sobs alongwith. They both sobbed together and loud.

They had a minute of such sobbing. She felt his breath mingling against her skin.

“Ab yakeen karne keliye, yaa umeed rakhne keliye kuch bachaa nahi.”

“Bachaa hein.”

“Kya bachaa hein? Kuch bhi toh nahi.” She said detaching herself from him.

“Pyaar karta hoon mein tumse. Itna karta hoon ki kabhi tumare bina jee nahi paunga mein.” He said but just to earn a sarcastic smile from her.

“Meri aankh khul chuke hein ab surgeon sippy. Khule aakhon se aur qwaab nahi dekhna hein mujhe...”

“Ye nahi koi qwaab nahi koi dhoka. Mein sach kehe raha hoon. Ye pyaar jhoot nahi hein. I promise ye pyaar jhoot nahi hein. I love you so much sonakshi. Please. Please do not....”

“I don’t have any more interest to get fooled. I am sorry. This must either be you pulling my leg, or else your guilt talking. That too if you are actually gulity. Who knows what is in your mind. ”

“Tumare alaawa kuch aur nahi mere mind par. Mera pyaar tumare liye, sach hein wo pyaar aur i haven’t loved anyone like that. I had no idea i loved you this much but now i know and i have a very clear cut about my feelings. Nahi hein koi shak, nahi hein koi confusion. Mein tumse bohot pyaar karta hoon bas. Karta hoon pyaar tumse sona mein bohot....”

“Mujhe srif mere apne pukar tha hein uss naam se. tume koyi haq nahi hein uss naam use karna.”

“Please do not be like this. I told you please let’s solve this. Ek mauka do mujhe. Tum Kuch bhi kahoonga mein karunga, taiyyar hein jo bhi sazza bukhatne ke liye. Lekin please iss tarha mata kaho. Mata socho. ”

Sonakshi took his hands off her cheeks some how and took a step back.

“Toh pyaar karta hoon mujhe? Hein na?”

“Bohot. Khud se zyaada. Sab se zyaada.” He said with teary eyes.

“Chalo teek hein.tume koi sazza nahi doongi mein. Lekin ek baat, staabit karo ki tumara ye pyaar hein na, wo sach hi hein.” She said with dry eyes. She wiped off her tears dry that is why.

“Kya karna hein mujhe? Tum jo bhi kahonga mein karlunga.”

“Ok then, do this. Mein jaha bhi honga, leave me alone. Mein kaha hoon keise hoon ye doonde ke bhi koshi mat karna.”

“Sonakshi...ye kese.... mein..”

“Mera baat abhi katham nahi hui. Chalti hoon mein. Agar aap sach mein mujhse pyaar karti hoon toh simple si baat hein,mujhe doond kar mujhe milne mat aana. Jab tak aap nahi aayenge, tab tak mein maanungi ki aap mujhse pyaar karta hein.”

“No sonakshi mein nahi rehe paunga tumari bina. Mujhse nahi honga. Mein kese rahoonga sonakshi... please mere saat eisa mat karo.please...we belong to each other sonakshi. Please. ”

“Wahi toh kaha taa mein neh. Aapka bas ka nahi hein ye pyaar. You do not love me. Its clear as that.”

“Sonakshi, i love you than anything in my life. But this... ”

“ Yahan see ye baat katham hein.If you love me, then prove it Rohit sippy. Prove it by letting me go.”

And there she walked away, and out of his life.

Rohit remembered falling down against the wall sliding, sitting alone in the room where she left her last scent, last memory in. The pain sank into him and engulfed him. He felt tears falling down and thereafter, he was never the same rohit sippy again.

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The next three weeks everything changed as if everything got caught to a toofan.

kahani parvati ki went off air. Its true that sonakshi alone took the decision to quit the show, making it easy to nethra ji even to replace her. But nethra ji never wanted to look post it, nor she wanted to ruin the charm of her character by a replacement. She adored sonakshi and it was while having her in mind she made this drama. So no sonakshi no KPK was it for her. The channel agreed with the off air decision after so much of difficulty.

Sonakshi left mumbai, without telling anyone. No one knew where she was. Not even Suman. Not even nethra. There were so many calls up and down, right and left but every attempt remain futile. May be she left india, may be not. May be she is alive or may be... no one knew. But she left in one night, and the next morning when rohit heard this he was broken beyond repair.

suman,pari and pulkit left their home at goregaon and shifted to some other place in mumbai. And eventually Veena sippy or others couldn’t locate them. Their equation slid away like that.

Sukhmani sippy hospital lost their smartest, most talented cardio vascular and thorasic surgeon, Rohit. He left his job on the day sonakshi left him at the hospital. He did not want to do anything anymore. His life had no aim anymore but he took the undeclared punishment sonakshi gave him. He promised her inside her mind that if that is what she wants, he will prove her that way that he loves her,endlessly.

Rohit had no one to support from home. Veena disowned him. No one from the family were happy, not even nishi with rohit. They blamed him downright for the disaster he caused while he kept mum, accepting all that as it comes. He knew its his fault so going through that was ineviatable.

One day, rohit decided to move out of sippy mansion. Nothing seemed easy for him and living was a burden to him. So he decided that he has to stay alone. Not with anyone around. He wanted nothing anymore. So he bought an apartment for him, and taking nothing that he belonged from the house he moved out with a luggage. No one asked where he was going, and no one bothered. Veena felt broken no matter how much she despised him, but the anger overpowered. While the rule at sippys was to not associate rohit, ravi alone took the decision to leave sippys and go with his sir, as usual. Rohit strictly told him that he doesn’t want anyone but ravi was adamant.

One year passed like that.

Yo this is wonderful. I feel so bad for Rohit. Argh!! The feels!!!! Hope to read the next pet soon

Feeling bad for Rohit sippy....

Hope to read next part soon.....

This is awsome update👏👏👏.....eagerly waiting for next one....

Emotional update...feel really bad for Rohit and Sonakshi...please reunite them soon.

oh god whats this now

all are unhappy all are sad'uff

so much misery

yeah but as they say time heals all lets see what in store for my favorite couple.

Awesome update

Feeling sad for both

Plz unite them soon

Can't wait to read next part

Plz update soon

Please continue soon...this is awesome..

Sona please come back soon.

Superb story

Love it

Cont soon

Unsaid-unknown

RoNakshi FF: part 8

Ravi looked at the time and woke up. It was time to go see sir.this has become his daily routine now and he didn’t mind. The past one year,there has been only worsening in sir he saw. Coming out from the room he dialed sunita’s number.

“Koi faida nahi hein ravi, aaj bhi koi kabar nahi mili didi ki...”

“Mujhe toh bohot dar lagta hein.aage pata nahin kya hoga sir ko.nethra madam se pucha tum?”

“Roz puchti hoon mein,aaj bhi dhoond rahi hein woh. Lekin naa. Kuch bhi nahi...”

“hmm. Mein raktha hoon phir. Kal Aakar milenge.”

Ravi kept the phone.

“Kya tum bhi Ravi.ab toh chod lo wo rauz pooch taach karna. Nahi milenge koi kabar.” He turned his head hearing a broken voice behind.

“Sir,aap utgaye?” He asked looking at rohit, even though he very well knew his answer.

In return, rohit shrugged his shoulders and leant his head off the head rest of the couch.

“How many times I tell you ravi. Go home.shaadi toh sunita se karchuke hoon tum,rehete yahaan. Mere baat Maan ghar jaa. Mujhe kisika sahara nahi chahiye. ”

“sir mein kaana lagata hoon. Dawaayi bhi peena hein aapko.” Said Ravi walking to the pantry area.

Rohit didn’t make a comment. He sighed and stared up at the ceiling.

Jaha tum nahi hoon. Waha mein pata nahi keise jeeta hoon.

Mera dawaai toh tum hoon.Toh tumari bina kese theek hoga mein.

Sonakshi. Wapas aao,please.

He felt his eyes being wet again. For last one year, every morning has started and every night has ended with tears for the ex heart surgeon Rohit sippy. He would have healed so much of hearts but now, his heart had no way of healing.

He saw Ravi taking the still full plate of food from last night to dump to the trash. This man never stops making food no matter how much I tell him not to make. Rohit rarely had an appetite anymore. though he had a daily medicine dose to take he yet skipped food and just had the medicine, in a total anti-medicinal way.

Post sonakshi went missing, rohit was mute for one month. He didn’t say anything and after moving out to the new house, he started binging alcohol, three months of being an alcoholic, he caught a severe alcohol poisoning and a resulting pancreatitis.his fellow consultant then decided to dig into the matter and diagnosed the PTSD that rohit was suffering in hiding. Therapy of one month somehow stopped him being an alcoholic, but the PTSD never resolved.

Rohit sippy was stuck at the moment where he held a lifeless and bleeding sonakshi in his hands at the ET from one year now. Whenever he closed eyes,he saw only and only that all this while. He had day and night flashes of that one same thing, and otherwise he had her last words ringing in his head many a times.

“ Yahan see ye baat katham hein.If you love me, then prove it Rohit sippy. Prove it by letting me go.”

He gulped hearing that again and again. He wanted to go find her, no matter in what place in this world she is. He wouldn’t mind walking to find her till he dies. But he was helpless at her condition, which was not a condition but clearly a punishment for the whole life. His love was questioned and he had to prove it by sitting without trying to trace her, and even if he traces her, he was asked not to come in front of her ever again.

This was madness. Me waiting at one place not even trying to find her is actually madness. But that is what I mentally promised her. To never come back, to never search. To leave her at her ease,which was clearly in a place where he doesn’t exsist.

He committed a grave mistake. Nothing could have been done to reverse it. But he knew that his love was true. And it hurts him because he knew she loved him too. But two people, knowing that they both love each other. Yet staying apart, it was the deadliest thing in the whole world, now he knew.

the chain of his thoughts interrupted as Ravi came to him with the medicine and food.rohit nodded in negative for the food plate,trying to get lost in thoughts again.

“Sir, dawaai toh lona.”

He silently took it, too tired to argue or do whatsoever. As he gulped it down, Ravi self analysed how much sir has changed over this year. In one year he seemed to grow ten years older. The totally dismantled,unmaintained look of him made Ravi wonder again whether he was that same old Rohit Sippy he worked worshippingly for.

“Sir aapka is mehene ki appointment daale?”

“kaun sa?”

“Sir Dr.nishaan ke saat. Aapke medicine bhi katam hein almost.”

“Kya faida Ravi. Nishaan se kehediya mein pichili baar, ki mujhe nahi aana hein,wapas. Wahi same medicines lenge prescription mein likha hoga. ”

“lekin wo therapy wagera jo monthly karana hein Sir.”

Rohit gave a weak mocking smile.

“Mujhe dekkar tume lagta hein ki wo jo bhi therapy kaam karta hein mere uppar.ravi tumari sonakshi didi hein naa. Uski alaawa koi kuch bhi kaam nahi karte mujhpar.”

“Sir hum chale naa. Jaakar kahaan se bhi didi ko doondlenge. Wo naaraz hoga lekin aap dektehi sab kuch bohool kar aayengi wo sir. Mujhe yakeen hein. Jitna uske bina aap thadpta hoon,woh bhi utna thadapti honga. Please nah sir.ek baar chalte ”

“Mein yuhi iss tarha nahi rehete hoon ravi. mumkin hota toh kabse jaakar pataliya hoga ki kahaan hein wo.usse wada kiya mein neh, ki kabhi apna shakal nahi dikhaunga. Now that I think of it, I shouldn’t have let go of her. Jaate wakt rokh kar I should have told her not to go. I mean I begged so much ravi. I begged her so much. Saboot chahiyeta meri pyaar ki usse. I mean haa bohot badi galti hua hein mujhse,sazza milna chahiye lekin kab tak ravi. Poori zindagi betana hoga kya mujhe uski bina...poori zindagi...uss...ki bina kese rahoonga mein...isse accha hota agar ussne zeeda maardiya hota mujhe.... I cannot just live without her....I cannot...” rohit covered his face towards the latter part and started sobbing out of the blue. His words choked towards the end.

Ravi stood silently,all helpless. After a while rohit pressed his eyes hard and wiped his face off tears.

“Sorry yaar ravi. Tume bi kya kya karna hein. Are tum jaakar sunita aur apne gharwaale ko milkar aao. Weise bhi mujhe sunata tum usse keheta ta ki tum ghar aanewala hein...tum jaa aaj raat,kal raat wapas aao. Teek hein. ”

“Nahi sir aap akhele hoon toh mein baad mein.”

“Naa naa.tum jao aur kal aatehi mera dawaiya bhi lekar aao ok. Table par jo pese hein wo lekar jao. Aur chahiye toh bata doh.”

“Lekin sir....”

“Chup chaap ghar jaa.chinta mat karo mein suicide nahi karne waala.aaj tak intezaar kiya. Toh kuch aur time hi sahi. Usse dekhe bina nahi marunga mein. Chal tu jaa,kal milte.”

He said returning back to the room.

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He was lying down as usual in the bed early in the morning. Last night ravi left to go home after so much of behes. He was to return tonight or tomorrow,rohit had no hard and fast rules with him anymore like in the past.

No change from other nights,he couldn’t sleep a minute the passed night too. He didn’t try to but whenever he even tried to close his eyes the flashes of sonakshi’s comes to him. He felt his heart tugging whenever he thought about it even. And he sometimes used to hear as if she is calling him. He took the phone she once gifted him to hand and took her photo out,the last one they took together.

“kya aaj bhi utna naaraz ho tum mujhse jitna pehele ti? Maana ki bohot zyaada hurt kiya tume mein...lekin ek baar. Bas ek baar. Ek pal ke liye waapas aao sonakshi. Agar ek baar aur dekhunga tume,kahi nahi jaane dunga...dekho tum mera taraf,bilkul weise kiya jeise tumne kahaa. Jaane diyaa aur kabhi tumare baare pata karnke bhi koshish nahi kiya. Teek weise tumne bataayi ti.... ” he sobbed.

“Lekin bohot hua sonakshi. Ek saal beet gaye. Ek poori saal har din tumhari bina zinda ta mein. Aur nahi rehe sakta mein...Kahin se bhi wapas aajao mere paas. Tumhari bina adhura hoon mein...bohot adhura hoon...” he said touching her picture.

“adhura nahi hoon.mar mar ke jee raha hoon mein... sonakshi bas ab. Wapas aajao....”

he heard the doorbell ringing. Ravi has no need to ring the bell because he already had a key,nor he needs to come this soon,abhi toh ghar poch gaya honga. Kya ho sakte hein he? Is wakt.

Now the whoever person was literally seated on the doorbell. He was annoyed. The bell kept ringing. He wanted silence around but what is the matter with people. He got up from the bed and walked to the hall. Staying there to see if this stops, but getting annoyed he kept the phone on the table and walked to the door.

“Kaun?” He asked with an annoyed face, opening the door.

And there stood her,right in front of him. He went as pale as if saw a ghost.

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“Hi I am sorry,does Rohit sippy live here?” She asked and he definitely had all his doubts removed when it her voice came out. It is indeed her.

“Rai?”

He mumbled. Raima singhania. After five years of absence. And she seemed not to know him. She stared at him for a while and then he saw her eyes getting bigger in shock.

“oh my gosh. Ro!!!! Yeh tum ho? Goodness kya halat bana kar rakhaaye...”

She said running to him and she jumped up and hugged him into her embrace.

Rohit had no reaction. This was not what it used to feel like whenever they hugged.he stood on his grounds not even reciprocating the hug. He just waited,and yes she was out of the coma and standing in front of him alive, something he once wanted but now,in this long process he knew the love he had for her is nothing at all compared to what he had towards sonakshi. He yearned to have sonakshi like this in his embrace and he would do anything he wanted to do with her.but this moment with raima, it meant not a big deal to him. She broke the hug looking at him.

“What happened ro? Tume kya hua hein aur what have you done to yourself....this isn’t what I expected from you? I thought you would be elated and carry me everywhere around like those days.kahin tum kush nahi hoon mujhe zinda dekhar? Haa? Very bad...” she started to laugh off loudly. Raima was such a bubbly character who had no seriousness in anything she did. She laughed for a while till she realized rohit still stared at her.

“Ro...what happened? Paanch saal ke baad mil rahi hoon, aur tum...ekdam no reaction. Haa I know...it’s ok. Toda bohot dher toh hua hein wapas aane mein...lekin aa toh hoon mein ab... kahan gum gaya tha tum? Trace karne poora teen mehene laga mujhe tumko.” She continued.

“rai...I...I am so relieved...finally, finally you are back to life. Pata nahi mein kese raha wo guilt lekar ki mein ne ye sab kuch kiya tumare saat....mere galti hein aur iss wajeise tum paanch saal tak coma mein aur...I am so sorry rai. I am so sorry...”

“ro. Wait wait now what.Calm down,jo hona ta woh toh hua hein iski tumari koi galti nahi hein...hota hein Eisa. Lekin mein aachuke hoon waapas aur...” she stopped in the middle and went to him, cupping his face she looked into his eyes sensuously, she leant to him and was about to plant a kiss on his lips and that’s when rohit jerked out and distanced himself from her. Raima looked at him in confusion for a while and that minutes were enough for her to figure out what was going on. A little understanding smile came to her lips.as rohit stared somewhere else lost in thoughts.

“kaun hein woh,rohit? Kaahan hein woh haa?”

He looked at her.

“Chill haa ro.its ok. Yeh koi serial nahi hein jaha I will take all anger and be dramatic. Arey yaar.... Sit down first..” she said making him sit.

“I am sorry rai.i mean....mein...”

“mein kya rohit.abhi nahi bataunga ke kaun hein woh...your eyes are carrying so much love and weirdly there is a pain. Where is she? Where is that girl who stole my ro?”

“I’m sorry raima. I mean I don’t know what you are thinking. But she didn’t steal your rohit. She had no fault.”

“kya sorry haa.here you know me. I am never so serious,I was pulling your leg. Yaar life mein bohot kuch badal sakte...there is no rule like you have to stick to your past all the time. I mean come on,five years rohit. I was away for five years and no one had a hope I’ll come out of it. And feelings are feelings ro.pyaar kahi baar ho sakta hein ro. Isska matlab ye nahin hein ki tum boora hoon. I am your past. But when I see you, I know this girl,whoever she is...she is your present, future and everything, itna toh guess kar sakta hoon mein...”

rohit gave a weak smile,and it didn’t go unnoticed by her. She nodded asking why and he sighed.

“mein bohot bade bewakoof nikhla rai.mila hua pyaar paas nahi rakh paaya...wo chali gayi mujhe chod ke....”

“chali gayi toh kya. Come let’s go find her. Hurry up tell me now. Where is she aur who is she?”

“Pata nahi kahaan hein.”

The next few minutes passed while raima scolded him for not even trying to find her out and rohit telling her that he promised not to follow her wherever.

“arey had hein yaar.yeh keisa dumbness hein. Here we should always live by yolo. Matlab you live only once. Break the rules. Love openly and say it out loud. Don’t hide anything. Kya pata ki agle koi janam hoga yaa nahi...”

rohit looked down.and shrugged his shoulders. He was too tired already. And the emotions he was having, he wanted to show all of them just to sonakshi exclusively.not to anyone else,not even to raima.

“Achcha koi baat nahi,bata do kyun aaya mujhe Milne...tumari ma toh bilkul nahi diya hoga koi chance mujhe milne aane kaa?”

“So what? You know nah ro,I never listen to anyone. Paanch saal ki neend se ut gayi thi mein ne...tum pata nahi kaha jaa chuka tha....and yes ma was so dramatic and all. I tried tracing you for freaking three months.and I was almost going to come but maamu ko heart attack aaya...”

“Kaun sa maamu hein ye?” He had no idea of this uncle of hers.

“Wait so.i too got to know him after waking up. We were at chandigarh. And he is ma’s brother.i mean we have never ever had contacts with him.and clearly no one ever told me about such a person exsists.apparently he has married maami against family so they did this some dramatic removing of him from home sorta thing. Dumb na? Anyhow when I came back from my so called beauty sleep, then only I got to know that he has been back with our family. He has been abroad all this while it seems and has returned back home around one year ago.”

“Toh uska parivaar? Now all settled issues with them too?”

“Mad or what.you know ma right.as if she is ever going to get off the grudge with his family. However it seems that he split up with the family and went abroad.which is why ma and them forgave him.apparently he is in touch with his daughter.mein toh kabhi mila hi nahi usse kyun ki our people doesn’t accept her and are not agreeing with her coming home. So Maamu lives with us and does up and down visits to see the daughter it seems. Suddenly ye sab hua toh doctors neh kaha ki kaafi mushkil surgery karne hein.. so I told ma that there is no good person than you for this. She was so not agreeing at first but you know I make my point always. She had to agree then finally I am here. Ro, maamu bohot sweet hein yaar mein usse nahi ko sakta. Please chalo na. Teek kardo usse,please.”

“Raima, I haven’t done anything from an year now. I am sure that I cannot do this. Chod chuke hoon sab kuch...mein apna contacts use karke tume best heart surgeon se miladunga lekin I am sorry. Mujhse nahi hoga..”

“Oh please rohit.please mana mat karo. I came here with lots of hopes. Pehele dil thoda ab ye bhi mana kar rahe hoon...” raima started to act dramatic to fool him.

“Hey I am sorry,rai. I didn’t mean to break your heart. It’s a whole different thing with sonakshi and....”

Raima started laughing.

“Toh sonakshi hein naam uski...very good.”

“Were you joking all this while rai? So all this heart attack and maamu also is a lie? You will never learn.”

“no. Are you mad? I was just trying to make you agree with me to come to chandigarh for maamu’s surgery. Please nah rohit, I was emotionally blackmailing you so told the heartbreak story. Please come. Maamu really needs your help.please.”

“rai...I am sorry....”

“Ok now I have my limits also,ro.Tume aana padega. No excuses. Come out of this at least once. What a waste you are doing to yourself.you promised her never to come infront of her you said,so you are in this so called hiding place away from everything,not trying to find her,not doing even your work. What even are you thinking? If sonakshi saw you like this she will never be happy....please rohit,mere liye naa sahi...samjo sonakshi tume itna backward aur toote hue dekhna pasand nahi karungi.kamse kam uske liye toh aajao?”

Uske liye, he gulped at that words and closed his eyes. Raima stood up to leave saying its all up to him now.

“Location bhej do hospital ki.mein kal pochta hoon.”

Raima had the biggest smile in her face with shining eyes.she hugged him and left after thanking him immensly.

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After Ravi came home,rohit told him his plans of going to the surgery at chandigarh. Booking the immediate available flight to there, both got ready.

Rohit went to see nishaan to explain about his state,that he is to reoperate on a patient after a long time, he didn’t want to go against medicolegal work by being a patient on anxiolytics and yet performing a surgery. Nishaan was is colleague and the therapist who knew everything inside out and he assured rohit it’s just a matter of the mind and he is in a state to perform this surgery.

After settling everything in Mumbai, Ravi and rohit took the midnight flight and reached chandigarh after some hours.

Raima has sent him the hospital details and rohit asked Ravi to check into the hotel and left directly to the location.

He was welcomed warmly by the surgeons there and raima’s mother was as usual bitter but rohit didn’t really mind. Raima thanked him heaps for being there. He went to assess the patient prior to the surgery. After all the preoperative things were ready,they decided to start the operation.

As soon as he entered the theatre he just got flashbacks of sonakshi one year back with the same kind of theatre and all. He gulped in anxiety which was kicking him. He waited till the nurses and the assistant preped the patient and till that tried to calm himself down.

He remembered how raima said him to come back out of this at least once,at least for sonakshi. He nodded to himself. At least once, at least for her. It’s ok she asked me not to come searching for her. I did as she said. This it something I would be doing because if she was here with me today,she wouldn’t have liked to see me back off from my duty. I would just assume this once, that you are next to me sonakshi. I would assume that and will do this. I will do this,for you. I will save this patient just as I saved you an year ago. I can because somewhere I don’t know why but I am doing this for you.

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The surgery was done and it was successful. Rohit came out of the theatre in a relief that he felt after a long time. Thinking of sonakshi, at that moment all his fears vanished. It was her once given love made him do this surgery,made him trust in himself once. Coming out, he met raima.

“Thank you ro.”

“It’s nothing. Wo kuch formalities hein tumare gharse kissi ko sign karna hoga... ”

“Oh yaa. Darasal maamu ki yaha admission humne karwaayi thi par toh sign uske daughter ko karna hogi I guess.”

“Toh usse kaho ki aakar wo sab poora karne. Mujhe advise bhi karna hein usse apne paapa ke condition ke baare mein....”

“Ok but I didn’t meet her yet ro.Wo uski friend hein udhar,nethra....”

she pointed at a place where there was a lady facing back to him.something really gripped him at that moment and he from far knew for sure that it’s the same nethra, once producer of sonakshi’s serial.

He walked to her and stopped behind her,she was in a call.

“Nethra ji.”

She cut the call and turned to him.

“Rohit? Tum yahaan?” She clearly was shocked.

“What a surprise. Aapki dost ki paapa ki operation karke aaya hoon mein. Kabhi nahi Socha ki aap milenge yahaan.”

“Woh...mein...yes I too didn’t know that you would be here.”

“chandigarh mein kaunsa dost hein aapki?”

He asked but he noticed that nethra was a bit tensed and he too weirdly sensed something unusual. He was about to open his mouth to ask something more but he heard some footsteps running behind him and stopping.

“doctor,paapa kese hein ab?”

He froze on his tracks. The voice that came from behind, a voice that sounded coming from far away from the past he felt. His eyes saw nethra looking behind him above his shoulder with a pale face.

He felt his heart racing.this couldn’t be a dream.it better not. I will not bear it to death if this is a dream. It can’t be.

He fisted his hands in trying to calm his bewildering thoughts,the tension and the longing. He cannot be mistaken, not regarding this. This gut wrenching feeling cannot be wrong.

He slowly turned back to face that voice.

At time stopped at its track and one year later they were back to the square one.

There he met those eyes,after one year of tears and pains and sufferings and what not.

And she had no less different from the expressions that he had.

“Rohit?”

“Sonakshi.”