Those eyes, those beautiful eyes!! The sadness was sooo evident in them when they saw the love of their life in someone else's arms.
Did you see him retreating the instant he saw that dreadful moment. He was desperately waiting for her to regain conscious, he was praying like crazy, all he wanted was her happiness and her health – and may be in his heart, he just wanted her eyes to look at him with the same love, that same acknowledgement which would give him peace for the rest of his life. "apnay pyar kay liyay tumhain hosh main aana hoga Kaajjal" these were the words his heart was echoing wile standing outside the room door and adi was out for medicines. Pyar kay is mor pay, jahan har umeed dam tor gaee, wahan bhi aik umeed baqi thi, apnay pyar ki umeed, us ki azmat ki umeed, us ki sachaiee ki umeed - "apnay pyar kay liyay tumhain hosh main aana hoga Kaajjal." and when that moment came, his life slipped from his own hands.
His heart shed a hundred tears when the doctor said please leave me and adi alone. O my God, the girl I have practically lived – I don't even hav a right to talk about her, listen about her health – o gosh, that was yet another shocker. He was standing by the window and the doc was talking to adi. He was holding the wall, and his head was bent down, and his whole being was shouting, God damnit, she is mine, I need to know what the hell is wrong with her. She is mine, for heaven's sake she is mine!!! Those silent tears, that sad body language. My heart was still not able to get over that pain and than came the shocker of my and his life.
He was waiting for her to see him, but she only saw adi, he was waiting for her to acknowledge him, but she only acknowledged adi, he was waiting for her to look at him with some love or something at least in her eyes, but she gave him the bluntest look in the world, and went into adi's arms. Oh did you see his body retreating at that moment, he took a step back with shock and disbelief – how conveniently Kaajjal went into adi's arms without even recognizing him.
Come to think of it, what a shock it must be – for he doest know she has lost her memory – to see her in adi's arms when Dev, who she claimed was the love of her life standing right their with the same concern full look in his eyes. Ahh that pain was sooo evident in those eyes, as if he couldn't believe himself. And that umeed, that aas, that faith in love, and that bharosa came falling down all around him. His life was shattered once again and this time forever. He looked away from Kaajjal as if trying to think what has he just witnessed? The girl who was his is not his any more, the girl who's love was his only hope in life, is no more that hope, the girl who worshipped him practically was not even ready to acknowledge him. O my God, his heart was bleeding at that thought and that pain was evident in his eyes. His world had crashed around him and he had no other option than to look away. The pain was too much to handle, his kaajjal was close close to him, but he was not able to take her in his arms, he was not able to love her, to hold her and take all her pains away. they were sooo close yet sooo far apart ... O God, please have mercy!!!
Gham itnay milay mujhay, kay gham say begana ho gaya
Wo meray naseeb main thi, par naseeb hi anjana ho gaya
And my heart is still bleeding, the pain is too much to bear, the torture is too much to tolerate. seeing dev break like this, is impossible to take. 😭
Arjun
