Forever and always yours 10(part-1) on Pg 68 2.3.17 - Page 26

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CHAPTER-6

Jalal rushed outside the hospital, and went to the nearby park and then he broke down. Her every word depicted pain that she is gone through in the past five months. Yes, she has every right to hate him. She had been correct every day he had spent with Rukaiya were very tough for her too spent. What if Jodha had done the same he had done with her, he would also feel the same. He could not imagine the pain she must have gone through each day, he knows. But he knows the pain she will go through if they get separated. She may say she needs him no more and can move forward, but he knows deep down she craves for him, the way he does for her .Each every word from her mouth keeps on ringing in his ears increasing the pain in his heart. Her one question shook him to the core and the question is if he had never known the truth about Rukaiya would he have returned to her? He thought about it yes. He would have returned. Because he never confessed it to anyone not even to Abdul., since the day Jodha left he felt something is missing and he had no clue what. Whenever he and Rukaiya made love his soul seemed restless. Just after a week or so of their marriage he had stopped making love with her because he felt so restless, his heart always pounding in fear and restlessness. He felt like he is betraying someone. Who is waiting for him? But he did not know who someone was? At times he or for the fact he usually got irritated when Rukaiya called him Jallad. It is the name bestowed to him by Jodha during the college times. He felt possessive about this name, he only liked when Jodha called him with this name. Jodha always called him Jallad when she had mood to be naughty. Before he came here he had hope in the midst of all odds that maybe she will forgive him, but now the hope died. And he feels he has no reason to live for. He loves her lot and what about their child? His heart leaped with joy in this odd hour when remembers seeing the little bump on Jodha's tummy his child he corrected himself their child is growing. He decides to leave for the hotel as he wants to sleep by taking sleeping pills. Because he wants to run from this mayhem because he knows where ever he will go until he is awake all the events of today will come back in front of him as a movie and will try their level best to kill him. Jodha is also crying lying on the hospital bed she thinks whether she is right to treat him like this? Yes, she had been too harsh by her words she agrees. But whatever she spoke is what she felt in the last five months. But what about forgiveness? Could she forgive him and move on in life? Or could she forgive him and move on in life with him, as if nothing ever happened? Or she could never forgive him? But the query which soon came to her heart is that can she live without him? Soon her mind answered back she has survived five months and would survive the rest of her life without him. Jodha heart seemed to speak - she had not lived, but survived in the past months. Is survival necessary or living? Jodha seemed numb to answer further because she knew in the battle of her heart and mind her heart would emerge victorious and if this happened, she will have no other option except returning to him. Which she deep down desired without her knowledge or you may say she knew the desires of her heart but is afraid to acknowledge it. She loved him and will always love but, she is afraid of another betrayal. It is not that she had not ever dreamt of him coming back and asking for forgiveness. She had dreamt of it a million times in a day, but the problem which aroused is that she never could decipher how would she react? Soon a nurse came and gave her pills and as soon as she took the pills she dozed off. Soon a week passed by and Jodha had been given permission to be discharged from the hospital, all the past week she had been busy thinking whether the way she had behaved with Jalal is right or not. Where is he now? Is he alright? How much she tried to ignore and hate him, the more she found herself thinking about his whereabouts. She thought of asking Abdul, but later drops the idea as she did not want anyone to know that she still cares for him. Meanwhile Sujamal comes and tells her to get ready as the car is ready. She goes and changes then goes towards the exit and sits inside the car. Sujamal who had been driving notices his sister lost in her own world of thoughts and decides not to trouble her. They reach home after few hours all thanks to the traffic for the delay. Jodha insists Sujamal to go and stay at his friend's house as he had invited him, but he refused as he needed to relax. She says she will call Moti to stay with her. Sujamal at first protests but later reluctantly agrees. On, the other hand Jalal seemed to be living inside his own world of thoughts. Was everything that had happened a week ago kept on coming in front of him as if a movie is being played in his mind and which has no pause button. His head and body both are throbbing. He just desires to see her once and he desires to feel their baby. But he is afraid to go as he fears the outcome of this meeting will be worse than the earlier one. He finally decides to go to the bar as he desires to forget everything. He keeps on drinking but now he is completely drunk and has no clues how many bottle he has drunk. He takes his car and drives it to Jodha apartment. He takes the lift and reaches the door apartment and rings the bell. Jodha goes and opens the door as it might be Moti, but as soon as she opens the door her eyes widen in shock she gasps- Jalal...

Promo- Jalal kneels down and touches her tummy and says- Jodha I feel it, I feel our baby. Tears roll down her eyes, when she hears our baby she is happy deep down that he could feel their child even though he is drunk.