Is it Hate OR Love ~ ALL CHAPTERS TOGETHER IN THIS THREAD - Page 2

Chapter 7

Mahamanga roared loudly "Quite!"

Her loud roar echoed back few times in the Diwan, everyone in the court was stunned into complete silence.

She yelled at the top of her voice "No one has any right to interfere in Shenshah's personal life, no one. Getting married to a Hindu Rajvanshi Princess was not a religious decision but a political one. Shenshah has not broken any rules of our religion. Before pointing out your finger on Shenshah, think twice, you can be punished for disrespecting the King of the kings."

Everyone stayed quiet looking at Maham with wide eyes.

Adam Khan got up and said "There is one thing that I would like to say Vajire Aaliya."

Maham glared at Adham and frustratingly thought 'when will he learn to stay quiet!!! Ya Khuda... '

Adham continued arrogantly "Every decision that is taken by the Shenshah has impact on everyone here and on common people too. They are questioning him today?" he pointed towards Jodha then said "Why this napaak hindu rajvanshi is allowed to stay in Agra palace and that too following her own religion."

Hearing Adham's disrespectful words for Jodha, Jalal's temper went out of the roof and he immediately got up and shouted loudly "Adham" His loud roar once again stunned the whole court into silence.

His eyes turned completely dark and fuming red. He looked at Jodha who was sitting in the corner...she was shivering seeing his horrifying anger. Everyone got up from their chairs out of respect. Jalal Adham furiously stared at Adham then continued "Adham, if you say one more word against Jodha Begum, I will not spare you alive. She is a Mughal begum now, you have to give her respect otherwise be ready for the consequences." Entire court got terrified and froze seeing angry brutal face.

Adham replied looking down "Jo hukum, Shenshah!" and bowed down to Jalal and walked out of the court clutching his hands heatedly.

Jalal looked at Jodha crossly for a second but then he dismissed the court.

Jalal's anger towards Jodha confused Rukaiya; she was unable to understand all these changes in Jalal. She could tell that something was brewing in Jalal's mind.

Rukaiya went to Jalal's room and saw him lost in some thoughts.

Jaal was thinking 'Today I had to take Jodha's side in front of the whole court, I don't want her to think that I care for her...in fact, I don't want anyone to think that. Its better if I just stay away from her...yes that's what I will do...I will just stay away from her from now on, if she doesn't want to be mine and wants to stay away from me than that's what I'll also do... I will also stay away from her.'

Rukaiya kept watching Jalal confusingly, finally after a couple of minutes, she spoke up and asked "Jalal, aisi kis soch me khoye ho ke aapko hamare aane tak ki khabar nahin hui? Hum dekh rahe hain jab se aapki Jodha begum se shadi hui hai tab se aap bahot badal gaye ho. Aapka bartav hame kuch samaj me nahi aa raha. Aapki harkato ne hame sochne pe majboor kar diya hai ke kya iss badlav ki vajah Jodha begum hain?? Kahi aapko Jodha begum se pya..." (Jalal, where are you lost? You didn't even realize when I came in here!! What are you thinking about so deeply? I have noticed that ever since you got married to Jodha begum, you have changed a lot. I am unable to understand your behavior lately. Is Jodha begum the reason behind all these changes?? You haven't fallen for Jodha Begum, have you?? I mean in lov...)

Jalal kept his finger on Rukaiya's mouth so she cannot finish her sentence and crossly replied "Ruk jaiye Rukaiya, aapko to pata hona chahiye hame aasan cheeje pasand nahi aati, aur hum kabhi apne dushman ko aasani se maaf bhi nahi karte, usse apne pairon par jhuka kar rehte hain. Aur aaj tak kisika guroor hamare samne tik nahi paya hai. Aaj hum aapko sunate hain Jodha aur Jalal ki shadi kese hui, Jalal told her everything from their first meeting to war then wedding, Jodha's rejection, her fasting, cooking, everything...ab bataiye Rukaiya, aapko ab bhi lagta hai ke hum apne dimag se nahij dil se chal rahe hain???" (Stop right there Rukaiya, you know me very well, you know I don't like easy things, I never forgive my enemies, I want her to bend down on my feet. She is the biggest challenge I have ever faced. Even after her defeat, she talks with her Rajvanshi pride, I want to crush her ego under my feet and you know me very well no one can stand against Jalal's pride." Then he told her in detail what happened between him and Jodha from very beginning, their first meeting, the war, their wedding, her rejection, him forcing on her, her fasting, cooking everything. After telling everything he asked her "Rukaiya, do you still think that I am falling in love with her? I am not using my heart Rukaiya, I am using my brain to defeat her.")

Rukaiya replied unconvinced "Ye to sirf aap hi bata sakte hain Jalal ke aap apne dil istemal kar rahe hain ya dimag. Aapki aakhon mein hamne Jodha begum ke liye ek tadap dekhi hai, jab bhi aap unki taraf dekhte hain aapka chehra khil uthta hai. Magar aapki baaton mein unke liye beinteha nafrat hai. Aapka baatein kuch aur kehti hain aur chehra kuch aur. Aapko dekh ke koi bhi keh sakta hai ki aapko Jodha begum se mohabbat ho gai hai aur hume lagata hai aapki aakhon mein ek intzar hai. Kuch to hai jo hum samaj nahi pa rahe. Jalal hum aapke ache dost hai phir bhi aaj hume pata nahi chal raha ki aap dil se soch rahe hain ya dimag se. (Jalal, only you can answer your question if you are using your heart or mind. But I can clearly see the desperation in your eyes for Jodha Begum, every time you talk about her your face sparkles. But your talks have immense hatred in them for her. Jalal your words and your eyes don't match... your words have enormous hatred but your eyes say opposite. Anyone can tell, the way you look at her, you have fallen in love with her. Jalal, I am your best friend but still it's difficult for to me to tell if you are using your heart or mind.)

Jalal heatedly replied "Rukaiya, aap hamari sabse aziz dost hain, aapko itna to zarur pata hona chaiye ke Jalal ke pass dil nahi hai, aur jab dil nahin to kisise pyar kaise kareinge hum? Rukaiya hum Jodha ko dil se hara ke hamare dimag ki fateh karna chahte hain. Jalal aaj tak ek bhi jung nahi hara hai, Jalal ko sirf faheh ki aadat hai aur bahut jald hum Jodha par bhi fateh pa leinge." (Rukaiya, you are my best friend, you should know that Jalal doesn't have a heart, and if I don't have a heart how can he fall in love? Rukaiya believe me I want Jodha to lose her heart over me and only then my mind will win over her. Till date Jalal has never lost a war, I have a habit of winning only and I will win Jodha too very soon." he again smirked and walked out of the room.

Rukaiya taking to herself with little tears in her eyes "Kuda kare yahi sach ho...Par patani hame aaj aisa kyun lag raha hai ke aap apne aap se har rahe ho, Aur aapki ye haar hamara sab kuch loot kar le jayegi." (I wish what you are saying is true... but today somehow I feel like you are losing against yourself Jalal and this defeat of yours will take away everything from me.)

Jalal realized after talking to Rukaiya, he is losing his mind over Jodha and he is failing to hide his newly developing feelings towards her. He decided to ignore her as much as possible and don't give her any importance to mask his emotions in front of others. His manly ego got hurt hearing the truth from Rukaiya.

Weeks passed and slowly Jodha got settled in Agra, but between Jalal and Jodha nothing changed. It became a routine for Jalal to see Jodha doing tulsi pooja every morning during his sword practice session. Slowly his wounds started to pain intensely...her rejection was crushing his ego little by little... He thought that in few days she will give up and surrender herself to him but instead she even stopped looking towards him. Jalal noticed that day by day she was losing her charm; even her dressing changed towards simplicity, her face turned pale but still it had a glaze on it of her pride. It was very frustrating for him to accept that she was happy with what she had and didn't miss or need him. Even though she was a princess she didn't request for more maids or any extra luxuries. She was given a small chamber and no maids. Moti and Reva were the only ones taking care of her every need. She just looked satisfied with everything she had and never complained while Jalal was becoming more and more restless with each passing day. To crush her pride he humiliated her at every possible opportunity he got, especially in front of others.

In the beginning, Hamida banoo invited Jodha to Diwan and other places where other begums were invited but after many times of humiliation by Jalal, Jodha decided to stop attending any of the functions. Lately, she was not even receiving any invitation to Diwan E Khaas or in any special occasions.

Even though Jodha was an officially wedded wife of Jalal and thus a special begum, still there were only two special chairs allotted in Diwan E Khaas, Harem function hall and in the Grand dinner hall for Jalaal's special begums Rukaiya and Salima only. Gradually, every harem women realized that Jalal hates Jodha begum and doesn't want to give her the respect of his official special begum.

Most of the people in the palace started treating Jodha like Jalal's maid or concubine instead of his officially wedded wife. Slowly Jodha accepted this kind of behavior, she got used to hearing loud mocking laughs behind her back, her self-esteem was breaking day by day. When she got married she expected this is how her life would be. The only people who were good to her and had become her support were Ammi Jaan and Salima begum and her only fun was spending time with Rahim. She created her own little world with Ammijaan, Salima, Rahim and her daily routine...she found peace in it.

It was about more than a month now and Jalal's ego was getting bigger with his frustration.

To entertain harem women, every now and then different types of activities and functions were organized and once in a while Jalal would also come to attend the function.

Jalal ordered his newly hired maid to inform his special begums to attend tonight's function since he was planning to attend the function too.

Jodha also received this special invitation by the new maid, which surprised her since this invitation came directly from Jalal. At the same time Jodha was also feeling excited. For some reason every time she heard his name or saw him...some unknown feeling gave her happiness. But still she decided not to attend the function and save herself from any humiliation that might happen there, but Moti convinced her to attend the function saying that this invitation directly came from Shenshah so she should go so as not to create any unnecessary problem or conflict.

Jodha was very pleased inside that Jalal had kept his word and never tried forcing her for anything and also let her follow her religion and rituals. Even after many ignorance's and humiliations she developed respect for him and she decided to attend the function.

Everyone gathered in the big harem function hall. Two chairs were arranged next to Jalal's chair for Salma and Rukaiya and about thirty five chairs were arranged for his special begums, each chair was allotted individually and for rest of the concubines a carpet was arranged in the back to sit.

Everyone came before time and took their places. All of the begums and concubines dressed up with expensive jewelry and dresses to please Jalal. Jalal also arrived and sat on his throne. Rukaiya begum and Salima begum greeted him warmly. About a minute later Jodha entered through the main entrance dressed very simply and with minimum jewelry. Jalal got surprised seeing her in the function without invitation. She looked around in the hall and their eyes met, Jodha quickly stole glance from him and looked for an empty chair, but soon she realized that to humiliate her, she was not allotted a chair. In a few seconds every single person in the hall grasped that she has not been allotted a chair. Jalal noticed many begums were sniggering at her seeing her in dilemma. Jodha gazed back at him with fiery annoyed stare then walked gracefully with stiff neck and sat on the carpet next to the concubines. This extreme humiliation brought tremendous pain on her face. After sitting she couldn't lift her eyes up to see anyone, it was getting very difficult for her to gulp her tears. Her eyes got moist but she controlled her tears to not come out. Her face turned entirely red in intense anger and disgrace.

Jalal couldn't take his eyes off her, his eyes turned soft seeing her in this vulnerable condition. His chair was big enough for two people to sit so he asked Rukaiya to come sit next to him and called his personal maid and instructed her to tell Jodha begum to come and take Rukaiya begum's seat.

Salima begum got pleased hearing that but it was a shock for Rukaiya since he gave her chair to Jodha begum. For Rukaiya her position and power was everything, her eyes got filled with extreme rage towards Jodha.

Rukaiya out of jealousy taunted him "Jalal, what happened, your heart winced seeing her in this condition?"

Rukaiya's statement suddenly made Jalal realize that he was showing care for Jodha in front of the entire harem.

As per his order Jodha came and sat on Rukaiya's chair. Her face expression was impassive. She was still looking down; she suppressed her boiling anger and knuckled her fist.

Jalal dryly in bitter tone asked "Jodha begum, why did you come here without an invitation? What happened to your self-esteem and Rajvanshi ego?"

Jodha with shock looked at him dreadfully and replied "Shenshah, I didn't know lying is also one your qualities. Your personal maid came and invited me for the function otherwise I have no interest in seeing you or your function." she paused and fumingly stared at him and then continued "By the way thank you for this humiliation." Then she got up gracefully and walked out of the hall.

Jalal recalled his instruction to his new maid and realized that he made a mistake and said all of his special begums instead of giving individual names. He closed his eyes in guilt and after a few minutes he also got up and walked out of the function hall.

Few days later, Jalal was passing through harem to see Rukaiya and he heard a very melodious song. He stopped to hear more and wanted to find out who was singing.

Jalal realized that the sound was coming from Jodha's chamber. He quietly went inside her chamber and got shocked seeing her chamber, she was given the smallest room compared to the other begums. Even the decoration of the room was not like special begums. His eyes caught her singing while doing prayer to kanah. Her eyes were closed and hands were folded and immense peace was on her face. Her simplicity was making her look heavenly. Jalal was surprised by her mellow singing; he did not know that Jodha's voice was so melodic. Jodha's purity always touched his heart and he always knew she had a transparent personality. Jalal got completely lost in her peaceful bhajan. Her beautiful mesmerizing bhajan was making the atmosphere so divine. He had been standing behind her for more than ten minutes but she was so involved in her prayer that she didn't realize he was standing behind her. After the prayer she turned back with Aarti thal and suddenly she saw him standing and looking at her all mesmerized and lost, but seeing him in her chamber in the evening gave her a shiver out of fear.

Jodha forwarded her hand to give him aarti but he didn't understand. He saw sindoor in the aarti plate and remembered how he had put sindoor in her maang at the time of their wedding, so he thought she is asking him to put sindoor in her maang. He took the sindoor and filled her maang.

Jodha got shocked at this gesture from him, she walked back two steps. Tears pricked out of her eyes then she ran out of her room with weeping eyes. This gesture made her realize once again that Jalal is her destiny and this realization made her feel very gloomy.

Jalal got confused with her reaction and thought maybe she wanted him to do something else when she forwarded the thal so to find out he called one of his Hindu administrator and asked him about the importance of Sindoor and aarti.

The administrator explained "Sindoor is symbol of marriage; every married hindu woman fills her maang with it proudly and for long life of her husband. Sindoor is their life; Hindu women want to die before their husbands or with their husbands, so hence they put sindoor." He also explained how to take aarti.

Jalal understood she was trying to give him aarti and not sindoor. Her ignorance always gave him pain. He realized that she hates him to the extreme and doesn't even want him to fill her maang. He was so shocked and impressed by her melodic voice and her divine face, they both were attracting him towards her. Every effort that he made to win against Jodha with his wicked brain was becoming futile for him. Whenever he went in front of Jodha he forgot everything, including his hatred. He was fighting with himself now and losing it every time. This defeat was something very new to him and was making him extremely angry.

Now winning Jodha became his obsession, the entire month Jalal didn't visit any of his begums, at night he just wanted to be alone and think about Jodha. Thinking about her was making him happy. He couldn't hold himself without seeing her and every time he met her instead of happiness, her sharp words and her sad face gave him immense pain and this pain little by little got converted into anger. He wanted to defeat her any way he could.

In fact, his real desire was to win her heart but he was unable to understand his own desire. He realized that he was losing against his mind. His own heart was defeating his mind. Jalal knew this but he didn't want to admit it.

Next day, Jalal received a message from Raja Bharmal and Rani Mainavati that they are coming to Agra for "Pag Phere Rasam" in 3 days. Jalal had no idea what this ritual was? He called the same hindu administrator to ask.

The hindu administrator explained to Jalal that after marriage the father of the girl takes her back to her house and after few days husband has to go and bring her back.

Jalal was confused and asked what the reason behind this custom was?

He explained that "parents want to make sure that their daughter is in good hands and if she has adjusted with her new family or not. Also in the beginning girls feel very lonely and miss their family a lot. So this way they get to see them too."

After finding out about the ritual, Jalal went personally to see Jodha.

Jodha with surprising expression welcomed Jalal to her chamber.

Jalal dryly said "Jodha begum, your parents are coming in two days for Pag Fera' ritual."

Jodha got so excited and happy to hear this news, she shouted and called Moti in excitement like a little child and almost jumped and hugged Moti and told her that bapusa and masa are coming for pag fera.

Jalal felt extremely content seeing her happy, his one sentence made her pale face glow in friction of a second.

Seeing Moti's cold response and hesitation all of a sudden she realized Jalal's presence.

She immediately sends Moti out and then in controlled calm tone she said "Shenshah, Please forgive me, I couldn't control myself and got too excited."

Jalal smiled at her genuinely and walked towards the door.

Jodha suddenly called "Shenshah!"

Jalal swiftly turned back and noticed that the happiness she had on her face has completely disappeared and now she has fear on her face, he quickly replied "Yes."

Jodha with requesting tone asked "Can I request you for something?"

Jalal got surprised hearing her requesting tone, till date she never asked for anything. Jalal curiously asked "Yes! What do you want?"

Jodha replied in pleading tone "Shenshah, I do not want anything but I want you pretend in front of my parents that we both are happily married and living like a happy couple."

Jalal confusingly asked "Why do you want me to pretend? You have everything you need here, you have a big palace, you can get anything you dream of, and you have to just ask for it. So tell me why do you think that your parents will be upset seeing you? What else can a person wish for?"

Jodha smirked sarcastically and replied "Shenshah, I had everything in my palace also; I am very much satisfied with what I have in terms of substance. But parents like to see happiness in their child's eyes; I do not want to give my pain to them. If they come to know what happened with me here, how everyone treats me, and that my value in this palace is not more than a maid or a concubine, they will be shattered into pieces. They will be worried for me forever and I don't want that. Also, I want you to give them respect as well. If you treat them the way I am treated, I will never be able to forgive you for that, I can do anything for my parents respect."

She paused and saw in his eyes then continued seeing his impassive expression "Shenshah, you will not understand this easily, the day you will start understanding common people's life you will win everyone's heart. People can stay happy with very minimum stuff but without love, affection, and care no one can survive. If my parents find out I am just a lifeless decorative piece in this palace, an addition to your winning trophies and am not receiving any love or care they will be devastated. I can understand why you questioned me. You can't understand all this since you don't have a heart to feel the pain of parents."

Jalal was completely shaken, and now angry to hear all this from Jodha, he felt as if she slapped him with her calm long lecture. No one ever dared to tell him this truth of life. Jalal was very much annoyed, he knew what she said was very true about him but he didn't want to admit it. Jalal felt like someone had stabbed him, he was feeling suffocated.

Jalal controlled his anger, and used his manipulative brain and told her I can fulfill your wish on one condition, which is that you will have to spend one entire day and a night with me and obey all my orders".

Jodha with irony tone replied "I knew you will ask for something...you believe in give and take. Royal king should always believe in giving and never expect anything in return."

Her every word poked straight in his heart. She was stepping unknowingly on his pride and ego. Jalal shouted out loud "Enough, not a single word, stop lecturing me and giving me your advice. Don't teach me my duties. If you accept my terms then tomorrow before sunrise come to my room." He walked out from there with fuming anger.

Entire night Jalal felt like killing someone. Her words were echoing in his ears constantly. Jodha dared to show him the mirror. Jalal's devil mind was occupied in planning evil plans to humiliate Jodha, he was very sure she will accept his condition to save her parents dignity.

On the other side Jodha wasn't sure what to do? If she accepts Jalal's terms he will make her life hell and if she doesn't her parents will be humiliated and also hurt seeing her condition in Agra. So she decided to bow down and accept Jalal's terms as her parent's dignity was more important for her than her own self respect.

Entire night Jalal and Jodha both couldn't sleep. Early morning Jodha took shower and went to Jalal's room.

Jalal was sleeping on the bed, he heard Jodha's payal. While sleeping he smirked wickedly and said loudly "Welcome to hell Jodha begum. Come here and sit next to me."

Jodha followed his order quietly; she saw his closed eyes with devil smirk on his face.

Jalal opened his sharp eyes suddenly and Jodha got scared seeing the dark devil in his eyes. He slowly came closer to her. He pretended he is going to kiss her, he came very near her lips, she got threatened with fear, her tears rolled out from her eyes but she didn't move even an inch.

Seeing her so vulnerable and sad, he felt happy at first but this happiness diminished in a few seconds when he saw her deep gloomy sad eyes, his heart winced in her pain. His own pain made him devil, his own vulnerable feelings created anger inside him. He decided to humiliate her until she begged for mercy.

He went very close to her ear and whispered sensually "Begum Jodha, massage my head."

Jodha hadn't said a single word since she came to his chamber. She quietly started massaging his head. She was acting like a puppet, her face was completely impassive...no expressions at all. Jodha's silence started to bother Jalal gradually. Her defenseless act started to kill him from inside. Her pain was unbearable for him to see. But his ego was way bigger than the pain that he felt for her.

After a while he ordered her to massage his legs. She followed his instruction without a single word.

Then Jalal took off his top (kurta) and told her to massage his back. Jodha looked at him with teary and angry eyes.

Jalal wickedly smirked and said "Jodha begum, I am not touching you, you are touching me. I will not break my promise." He was lying down on his bed; Jodha went close to him and started massaging his back with her soft hands. Her touch was making him crazy for her. He turned towards her suddenly and Jodha felt embarrassed seeing him, without his top and so close to her... She turned her face to the other side. Jalal ordered her to massage his shoulders and hands. She quietly followed his orders...now her unstoppable tears were flooding out constantly. Jalal wanted to see her pain but now her pain was bothering him. He always wanted her to bend down at his feet but his victory was giving him intense sting. He couldn't bear to see her vulnerable face anymore so he ordered her to make preparations for his shower, his clothes, and his Jewelry. She walked towards the shower room without any reaction. There was absolutely no expression on her face. He was confused with his own feelings and emotions... his mind wanted to crush Jodha and his heart was crying seeing her in this state. Jalal called out to few maids and told them to help Jodha. They were surprised seeing Jodha preparing shower for Jalal. Jodha's silence was dreadful for him. He was missing her lively...mischievous Jodha.

After Shower he was back to his mission again. Jodha was testing his patience with her silence. He wanted to break her silence anyhow. He ordered Jodha to cook breakfast for him and her. Jodha hadn't done prayer yet so as per her daily routine she cannot eat. She made Prasad for Kanah and breakfast for Jalal.

Jalal knew that she will not eat without doing prayer. He wanted her to say something... refuse to eat... he knew Jodha will not eat without Krishna's prayer, he said in commending tone to serve food for both and she did as he ordered.

Wickedly he ordered "Jodha begum, Eat your food." he knew now she will say something but Jodha was still quiet, she was in big dilemma, on one side her parents and other side Krishna, she didn't know what to do and who to choose. She was shivering, her heart bleed from inside. Tears were flooding out constantly with her silence. It was suffocating for her, she felt like he was cutting her heart with sharp knife in to little pieces.

She finally gave him a vulnerable and helpless look with her silence. She took a little piece from the plate to eat. Jalal could see enormous pain and tears on her face. She felt like she was about to drink poison. Suddenly she felt extremely weak...she couldn't move her hand, finally with all her strength she took her hand near her mouth and was almost about to put the bite in her mouth when suddenly Jalal held her hand and requested her to stop... his eyes were filled with her pain.

He said in defeated tone "Jodha begum, go finish prayer first and then come back."

She looked at him for a few seconds without any expression. It took her a few seconds to come out of the shock. She swiftly got up and ran out of the room and cried out loud bitterly in a corner...she was completely shattered and broken...she felt like she died a thousand times in the minute.

Jalal was looking at her from his window. At last, finally his heart melted and tears pricked out from his eyes. Jalal knew that if she would have eaten without prayer...she would have died right in front of him. This was an extreme punishment for Jodha. He was feeling her pain. Her purity and love for Lord Krishna and her parents was so divine. He murmured "Kash, aap humse bhi aese hi mohabbat karti." (I wish you would have loved me like this.)

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Recap: Jodha with smile: Shenshah do you know meaning of marriage... It's bridge between trust, faith, respect, and love for each other. It is connection between two souls...two hearts...In Hindu belief... Once you marry to someone with your heart than your souls are connected to each other for seven lives. The day you will start taking your decision from your heart people will started to love you from heart as well...

Jalal couldn't say word...he was utterly shaken, he changed topic and said with a serious voice, I have to go to court Jodha begum... Kudha AAfij and left ...he couldn't stand her purity anymore.

Maham was getting more and more annoyed seeing Jalal and Jodha closeness. Dasi came gave lots of messages to Maham. She was the one was managing all the mail and passes it appropriate people. There was a message for Jodha...and she wickedly smiles seeing this message...

Chapter 10

Jalal was in the court chamber surrounded by many administrators but he couldn't concentrate on his work. His ears were ringing constantly with Jodha's sweet bitter words; her utterance really touched his spirit. Why am I so concerned about what she said??? Do I have a heart??? Can I ever love her with my heart? Is it true, my own people don't love me because I don't love them with my heart? They just respect and pretend to love me out of fear?? He is completely disturbed by his thoughts; one side court is running and other side his mind is completely captured by Jodha's words.
No way, that can't be true, Jodha doesn't know anything, she is so innocent and divine, and she doesn't understand politics and power, in this game no one is your friend or relative. If I started taking my decisions with my heart, people will have no fear of their king, no one will follow orders, no one will pay taxes, and everything will be ruined. Her thoughts are making me weak and washing my brain... She is not a good influence; I better stay away from her. He wake up from the thoughts for few minutes and again his mind started running in different track.

I have already surrendered my ego to her and accepted her as my begum but what she wants is my heart which already died long back. She clearly stated that she will not accept me unless we both are in love with each other. But love makes people weak, as soon as the heart starts beating the brain stops working. I cannot let my heart take over my brain.
Disappointedly, he said to himself in silence, Jodha begum we can never be together... you believe in love and I believe in hate, fear and power. I am the king of the kings. I want to see fear in common people's eyes, fear of The Jalalluddin Mohammad. I want them to be scared of punishment for not following rules. Jalal is famous for his cruelty and there is no space for love. Our destiny can never be together...
Leaving her thoughts behind Jalal was back to his cruel and merciless judgment. That is how he had grown up under the shadow of Behram Khan and Maham Anga.

At a very young age he saw cruelty on himself. After his father's death when he was merely 13, his own uncle tried to kill him for power. He was exposed to a very tough life at a very tender age which made him ruthless. Maham and Behram khan trained and molded the young kid and made him the king. He spent his entire youth in wars, treachery, blood and battle fields. These battle fields created hunger in him to win power, Supreme power over entire Hindustan. When this young kid needed his mother to nourish him with love he was brutally killing people while she was busy saving the kingdom for him. This ignorance generated deep silent bitterness and anger towards his mother and life. Gradually he got detached from her. Hungry for motherly love the poor kid found comfort in the arms of his Badi ammi Maha Manga, unfortunately, her motive was to use him to gain power. Little by little he gained a lot of power with his hungry killer merciless sword and made himself a successful king of the kings at this young age. His long vision, commending power and multi layered personality made him expert in manipulation. He became a shrewd politician. Soon he got surrounded by selfish people. He shut his own emotions, closed his heart and made up his mind that everyone loves him for his power or for their own selfish needs. This made him extremely egoistic, rude and short tempered.

His foundation was based on the mantra that 'POWER IS EVERYTHING, GO TO ANY EXTENT TO GAIN IT, PEOPLE ONLY RESPECT OTHERS OUT OF FEAR. DO NOT TRUST ANYONE, NOT EVEN YOUR OWN SHADOW... EVERYONE AROUND YOU WANTS SOMETHING FROM YOU.' Those were the MANTRAS for Jalal, which his actions were based on.

After Behram Khan's death, Maham Anga controlled almost all his judgments and his thinking at some level, Maham hated hindus, so hindu people were treated very poorly at that time, they had to pay extra taxes, they were not allowed in many places, many of them were forced to change their religion. Overall it was not a fair kingdom, after many years of blindly following this way Jalal also started to think that Hindu people are not that trustworthy.

Jalal's original foundation by his father Humanyu and Hamida banoo was still strong; so many times he took decisions unknowingly with his heart. For example- He never agreed with Adham or Behram khan that after winning the war they should kill or arrest all the soldiers and the king. He thought that if the defeated king wants to surrender, and then give them proper respect. Inside his heart he knew what he was doing was not fair but he didn't want to admit it.

Ever since Jodha came in his life he was going through many emotions like love, hate, aggravation, mystification, delusion, rejection, which he had never experienced in his life.
Jodha had unknowingly dropped a stone in still water and took away his peace. After their marriage, he didn't sleep peacefully even for one night. He wanted to make her life miserable but without doing anything she made his life puzzling and more confusing. Her words were crushing his pride slowly and gradually. Jodha was altering him little by little; she was showing him the real truth. It was surprising and disturbing for him to know how simply she read him clearly and said you are alone among thousands, she bluntly said the stuff which he feared to even think in his thoughts... his every act which gave him guilt, and she was telling it to him without fear. He always knew that no one truly loves him but hearing it from her was really hard for him to accept.

Jalal wanted to satisfy his bruised ego...he started longing for love for himself, pure and selfless love...he wanted to feel loved by someone and so he decided to see Rukaiya. She was the only one he could open his feelings to and he also knew that he has been overlooking her since he got married to Jodha.
Jalal's ignorance was really hurtful for Rukaiya but she knew he will come back to her after a while. Their relationship was based on friendship and trust on each other.

Jalal went to her chamber silently and grabbed her from her back and held her from her waist with passionate love. Before Rukaiya could say anything he started kissing her on her neck with passion.
At first she got surprised with his sudden kiss and moved away from him to show her anger for his ignorance, without saying a word. Jalal turned her towards him and kissed her again, before she could say anything he possessed her lips with his and whispered "Rukaiya, I want you."
Before Rukaiya could come out of this sudden passion, he moved further and carried her in his arms and softly put her on the bed, he opened her blouse slowly while passionately kissing her and in no time they were lost in each other's arms with deep passionate love, finally their sensual touch took him to heavenly pleasure and they became one.

After completion of their love making, they were still lying on the bed panting loudly.

Rukaiya noticed the change in Jalal's touch, she had never felt this much desire and possessiveness in his love before. Jalal's eyes were still close but suddenly he felt restless!! He realized that his entire session with Rukaiya he was thinking about Jodha...while making love to Rukaiya he was seeing Jodha only. This realization gave him a deep ache in his heart, immediately guilt spread on his face, he couldn't see in Rukaiya's eyes.

Rukaiya also felt a big change in Jalal, his sudden passion, his touch was incredibly unusual, he never made a move this passionately and aggressively, both of them, were silently lost in their thoughts.
After dressing up, Rukaiya hugged him with love and asked him straight "Why do I feel like you have changed? Your touch and love was not the same, feels like you have renewed...I can't tell what? But something was different about you today?"

Jalal didn't want to hurt her, to hide his guilt and he replied masking his emotion "Why? Didn't you enjoy it?"

She blushed shyly and said "Oh Jalal, I have never experienced this much passionate love from you before, I felt like your touch was pouring so much love for me. First time ever I felt you desire to touch me... I felt complete today with you touch and love, I am felt like I was being loved by you for the first time. "

Hearing the word LOVE' from Rukaiya, Jalal got extremely mad and lost his wits with his temper... he shouted "Stop it JODHA BEGUM, how many times I have told you, I don't have a heart and I don't love anyone."

He immediately realized what he has said! Jalal got dumbfounded and shocked at himself... COMPLETE SILENCE...he didn't know what to say?? He knew he has hurt Rukaiya to extreme. He also knew that Rukaiya loves him. He had no strength left to perceive in Rukaiya's eyes. Jalal also loved her, but as a best and close friend and companion only. He decided to leave her chamber but before he could leave Rukaiya held his hand, she wanted to verify one more time in Jalal's eyes...he looked back with immense guilt in his eyes...at last tears pricked out of her eyes. She realized Jalal came to see Jodha not her. He was pouring all his love to Jodha not her. She released his hand and ran out of his sight. Jalal was still standing there, frozen on his spot with repentant face seeing her running away from him and out of the chamber with tears and tremendous pain.

Jalal realized his mind and heart both were entirely captured by Jodha.

Other side!!!!!!!!! Jodha was feeling much relieved after talking to him about her feelings, suddenly her face was shimmering with unpredictable smile, she wanted to tell everything to Moti about what happened. How she got lost in the morning romance and their first kiss, his passionate desire for her, his strong grip, all those moments were giving her goose bumps and she was constantly blushing. She talked to herself, oh I was so wrong about him, he is so loving and caring, and little by little her heart was opening for him.

It was almost evening, Moti came back and saw Jodha lost in deep thoughts and smiling mischievously. She could tell, she was charmed by Jalal. She said playfully "Kaha khoi ho Jodha, Shenshah ki baho me," (where are you lost Jodha, In Jalal's arms?")

Jodha with annoyance replied "Moti, stop teasing me and listen, I have to tell you a lot of things." She told in a brief about what happened and with so much contentment.

The two friends were chatting and lost in their talk and never realized Maham was standing outside listening to their whole conversation.

Hearing about Jalal and Jodha, Maham got crazily mad; she never thought Jalal will come this close to her. Finally Maham came inside Jodha's chamber and gave her the message. Respectfully Jodha said thank you and took the message from her.

Maham gave her evil guise and left.

Jodha got surprised and excited to see a letter from Sujamal bhaisa. This was the first time she heard from him after her wedding. She was also worried for him; she knew he was feeling betrayed by Amer but their brother and sister love was so pure that this dispute didn't touch their relation. She got shocked to read that Sujamal wants to see her twenty miles away from the palace in the Jungle cottage and he had also mentioned not to inform anyone.

She knew that he is alone and very much in pain so she decided to go see him in the morning. It was a very difficult task for her to leave the palace without any permission but she decided to take the risk to see Sujamal.

Maham was watching Jodha's reaction and her wicked smile came on her face!!!!

Jodha anxiously said "Moti, I will have to go see Sujamal bhaisa, there must be something very important that he wants to meet me."

Moti with guiding tone replied "Jodha, you need to tell Shenshah before you go, don't hide anything from him, he is your husband."

Jodha with confusion " Moti, Sujamal is my bhaisa, how can I betray him? He said not to inform anyone."
Moti with puzzled expression replied "But how will you go Jodha?? As per Shenshah's condition, don't you have to spend the night with him tonight then how will you manage?"

Jodha playfully gazed at her and said "Moti, have you forgotten how many times I have ran out of the palace in Amer? Don't worry I will manage."

Jodha's all worries disappeared as soon as she realized that she is going spend the night with Jalal. Jodha with excitement "Oh my god, Moti... I have to get ready and do a lot of things."

Moti just smirked back at her seeing Jodha picking out her favorite dress, Jewelry and ordering Moti to fix her hair, and then quickly she finished pooja and aarti. Today her mind was not able to concentrate on anything else.

After pooja... there was some time left for sunset, so she went out for a walk in Jalal's personal garden. It was very much pleasant and cool atmosphere... there were lots clouds were dancing in the sky and making surrounding soothing , her mind and heart were feeling so peaceful, she felt like dancing and singing. She saw a very little white rabbit running around in the garden, she started running behind it to catch the rabbit like a child, her innocent face had smile.

Jalal watched her running behind the rabbit from his chamber, he got lost in her giggle and was happy to see Jodha's mischievous smile. He had waited so long for this smile. Race between Jodha and rabbit was still going on. Rabbit was also playing with Jodha... Rabbit run and hide behind tree and wait for Jodha to come and again run away from her... She chuckle first seeing rabbit playing after a while she started to giggle out loud...

Jalal again forget what he decided and couldn't hold himself... he came to the garden. Jodha didn't realize Jalal was walking towards her and suddenly rabbit turn and with rabbit she turned and crashed into Jalal. She lost her balance and was about to fall but Jalal pulled her by her wrist and glided his hand towards her waist to hold her and save her from falling. They were hugging each other in no time.

Jalal became conscious and pushed her away softly. Jodha was utterly lost in his arms breathing profoundly. She also realized and pushed herself away from him with a little smirk and lots of blush.
Jalal observed her blush, her eyes were down. He just smirked.

Jalal while glancing in her beauty asked "Jodha, do you want to walk with me?"

Jodha nodded her head shyly in a yes.

They both walked in complete silence and didn't know what to say. While walking, slowly Jalal held Jodha's hand with assurance that you are mine and looked at her. Jodha squeeze a little on his hand. This was the first acceptance from Jodha. Their hearts were dancing and singing melodious music. Even the air was feeling their love, both of them couldn't denied magnetic attraction towards each other... They were feeling like they are in a different world and wished for this moment to freeze forever. They were feeling absolute; there was no necessity to say even a word.

After a long deep silence and walk, Jodha broke their silence and said "Shenshah, You know since my childhood I love watching sunset... People say watching sunset create sad feeling...but I always felt so happy and cheerful after sunset...

Jalal amusingly ask "Why are you feeling happy seeing Sunset?"

"It's because, I always waited for sunset so bapusa and bhaisa comes back from political work... Our entire family sits together and eats then we play games till late night. Since my childhood when I didn't understand time Masa always said after sunset everyone will come home."

"Do you still enjoy sunset Jodha begum?" Jalal asked curiously

"Yes, I do like to watch sunset... only difference is before it was making me happy... and now it gives deep pain but I still like it because that pain reminds me those beautiful days." Her sound got dim... her eyes got dark with deep sorrow...

Jalal sadly replied "Jodha begum, let's go back... I don't want you to see sunset..."

Jodha with smirk "Shenshah, I really wanted to see sunset today... and that is the reason I came to garden... today's sunset will really give me that happy and cheerful feeling... I am waiting for sunset since afternoon..."

Jalal confusingly asked "What is so different in sunset today?"

Jodha quietly watched him and decided not to answer his question... After few minute, she said "Shenshah, as per your condition, I will spend the night with you tonight. Will you be coming to my chamber or do you want me to come to your chamber?"

They were still holding each other's hand. Jalal suddenly recalled, what happened the entire day and how he had decided to stay away from Jodha and now again he was holding her hand. Instantly he released his hand from Jodha and said in a fainted tone "You do not need to stay with me tonight, I promise your parents will receive great respect from Agra and also, I have some other plans tonight."

Jodha disappointedly gazed at him for few seconds... Jalal couldn't see in eyes for long... After few second later, she said in a sarcastic tone "Oh! I thought, we will talk the entire night but anyway it's better... enjoy your night Shenshah... hope you have the best time with your best plans."

She stopped while walking... her heart shattered inside, she felt suffocated controlling her tears. She said grimly "Good night Shenshah, I will leave now."

Jalal didn't want her to leave... he could see her face turned pale in few second... He wanted her to cheer up before she leaves...

Jalal in loud tone said "Jodha begum, wait... It is time for sunset... comes back... let's watch sunset together... I want to see your happy face seeing sunset."

Jodha pointedly gaze at him... It took him few second to realize why Jodha doesn't want to see sunset anymore... seeing her deep desire his heart cheered but when his mind scolded again his heart sink thinking their destiny is not together.

She replied sadly "No Shenshah, I don't want watch it anymore and anyway I don't want you be late for your big plans for tonight... Hope you have best time."

Jalal could sense her words were filled with full of jealousy. He held her hand to stop her and said calmly "Jodha begum, I understand your frustration but I have to take care of my other wives too, it's my duty, if you are going to feel insecure every time I visit someone else, you will slaughter yourself."

Jodha swallowed her tears and said painfully "Shenshah I am not jealous of anyone, but as it was preplanned that we will spend the night together and now we are not so, I am a little upset, it was my time that you gave it to someone else and I know very well you have so many wives... she paused and murmur silently...which I hate... then she continued "I know your duties towards them, but I guess you are right, I don't think ever in my life I will be able to accept the fact that you have so many begums and I am just one out of thousands."

Jalal realized that Jodha was really yearning to spend time with him, this brought his smile back. He couldn't see her sad eyes and also it was impossible for him to control his desire to be with her...

"Do you know Jodha begum, you are very stubborn?" he said mysteriously but with stern tone... Jodha stared at him disappointedly...then he continued with smirk "I will come to your chamber tonight and we will chat the entire night as per your order my highness."

Jodha suddenly cheered with thrilling tone and loudly said "Wow!! Really!" In excitement she hugged him by mistake but quickly she realized it and felt so shy, without looking at him, she ran away from there.

Jalal got shocked with sudden hug; he smiled and felt pleased seeing her content face. Then he said to himself with deep sigh out: 'hmmm! Ohhh... Jodha, sometimes you behave like a grown-up courteous female, and sometimes you are an innocent little child, sometimes you become Jealous, sometimes you are stubborn, sometimes you are brave, sometimes you are so divine, you are so unpredictable. I am completely smitten by your charms. Every time we meet, you surprise and scared me with something new. Your possessive attitude surprises me and also scares me at the same time.'

Next: They spend the entire night together.

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Precap: Jodha begum: you are very stubborn...? Jodha l looked at him with little anger...And with smirk he added...I will come to your room tonight and will chat for entire night as per your order my highness. Jodha suddenly vow!! Really!! With happiness...and she hugged him in happiness by mistake and realize... without looking at Jalal she ran away from their...Jalal was shocked with smile and feeling pleased... Jalal talked to himself: UFF! Jodha begum... sometime you are grown-up courteous female, and some time you are an innocent little child... Some time you are Jealous, Some time you are stubborn...some time you are brave...some time you are so divine...you are so unpredictable...every time you surprise me with something new.

Chapter 11

Knowing that Jalal will be with her the whole night, suddenly, Jodha started feeling everything beautiful around her... her ears were hearing melodic music... clouds were drizzling at her and ready to pour on her... feeling of rain was making her fanatical ... winds were blowing high with the feel of romance in the air... millions of butterflies started dancing in her stomach. Her face was glowing with happiness. In the palace when she passed the harem hall all the begums who saw her got amused seeing her smiling for no reason and completely lost in her own world. It was surprising for everyone to see her smiling; she always walked calmly and looked depressed. Some of them started gossiping that her parents are coming to take her back to Amer for some ritual, so probably she is gone crazy.

Jodha with so much excitement and contentment reached her chamber. She called Moti and Reva impatiently and told them to decorate her room with beautiful flowers, fragrances and lots of scented candles (diya).

Moti and Reva looked at each other with mischievous smile and asked "Rajkumari Jodha, Kya baat hai aaj (Is something special today) why are you glowing so much and why suddenly you want all romantic decoration??? Is something special going to happen tonight? We can also decorate your bed with flowers if you want" then both of them started to giggle.

Jodha realized that she was over reacting with Jalal coming to her chamber. She gazed at both of them furiously and annoyingly replied in loud tone masking her feelings "Reva do as I said... he is a Shenshah, so I am just respecting him by welcoming him and nothing is going to happen tonight, I am just fulfilling his condition."

Moti in low tone mockingly asked "Oh Jodha, Can you tell us, why you are glowing so bright like the moon and excited like a little kid?

Moti and Reva both silently smirked. She had no explanation for her enthusiasm so she tetchily said "Shenshah will come here any second and you both are wasting your time in teasing and laughing." She paused to look at them and got more angry seeing humor in their eyes, then she pouted and said "Just do as I say."

She was looking at herself in the mirror and blushing heavily, she wanted to look her best today. She left her long shiny hairs open and did all the (sringar) make up, she changed her necklace and earrings to match her dress, then while putting on her bangles she started thinking, Oh... tonight I will not sleep on same bed with him, she felt embarrassed as she recalled what happened the last time when they slept on the same bed. She said to herself timidly, oh god, the temptation to be with him is irresistible but what if he tries to kiss me? He always mesmerizes me with his eyes and I forget everything. As soon as I see him my heart jumps and starts beating so fast. I need to control myself, I don't want to show him my emotions otherwise, it will not take him long to know the condition of my heart. She scolded herself for her own thoughts, why am I thinking about him. Ohhh...Kanah... Yeh kya ho raha hai hame? (What is happening to me?) She took a deep breath in and long sigh out and looked at her gorgeous beauty in the mirror and again got lost in thoughts.

Few minutes later, Jalal took off his shoes and came inside her chamber without any announcement. A bright smile crawled on his lips seeing her chamber decorated with beautiful flowers and lots of glowing candles. Heavy breeze was knocking on the door, smell of the first rain was making the surrounding even more pleasant. Moon was hiding behind dark clouds which was making night gloomier... Candle lights were dancing in heavy winds...

His eyes caught Jodha who was all lost in some other world. He gave indication to Moti and Reva to leave quietly. Jodha was blushing heavily looking at mirror; her long hairs were blowing in the wind. Her beautiful doe like eyes with long lashes and deep line of eyeliner were glowing in the dim candle light. Jalal was delighted to see her smiling face. She was deeply lost in her thoughts and didn't realize that Jalal was standing there and staring at her without a blink and was admiring her beauty and every curve of her figure sensually with his sharp mysterious eyes.

In her thoughts Jodha was recalling their first meeting, their wedding and many more beautiful moments. Her expressions were changing from smile to blush and blush to laugh but then suddenly her smile vanished and turned into severe pain as she recalled how Jalal had said that 'you are just my possession, a winning trophy, A decoration piece for my palace, you are not an important person in my life. I married you to take revenge from you...' Suddenly she realized she went too far dreaming about him... she don't mean anything in his life, he doesn't even want her to give her respect as his special begum. He don't even invite her to Diwan E Khaas or any special occasion. He hates her... he married her to take revenge... Her heart felt pinch inside then her intense ache turned in to tears. Her eyes gleamed with pool of tears and started to dazzled profoundly... She said to herself, He doesn't have a heart; he doesn't care about me, he cannot love me. I am nothing in his life. I am just one out of thousands of women he has in his Harem. She came back to reality, her heart throbbed for her destiny. It was an intolerable feeling for her to believe that Jalal hates her. Suddenly his bitter words started ringing in her ears again and again.

Jalal was so stunned to see her weeping profoundly. His smile disappeared in a second, he was puzzled, and didn't understand what happened to her suddenly, she was smiling happily just a few seconds ago. He couldn't see her in pain and tears. He cautiously walked towards her and kept his hand over her shoulder. She realized immediately that it was Jalal, rapidly she turned back and saw him. It was not possible for her to stop her uninvited tears. Jalal cupped her face and softly wiped her tears with so much care and love. He worriedly asked "Jodha, why your happiness got suddenly turned in to sorrow??"

She gaped at him pointedly, looked straight in his eyes and bitterly replied "Shenshah, I just came out of my dream to reality" then she swiftly moved away from him.

She didn't understand why those words are bothering her now, why she was feeling the sting now, when he said all this to her she didn't feel this much ache.

Suddenly she realized that she had forcefully invited him to spend the night with her and now seeing her crying might upset him, she tried to hide her emotions and pain. She wiped her tears, then masking her feeling she smiled fake at him and to divert his mind she said in low tone "Shenshah, I am so happy; you have spared your precious time for me."

He pulled her by her wrist and asked her with angrily with thick sound "Jodha, tell me what happened suddenly??? Which dream of yours has been broken???"

She looked at him impassively and decided not to reply. He loudly shouted at her again to answer him while simultaneously making his grip stronger on her wrist. "Jodha, don't play around with your words, don't act too smart; I need to know what is in your mind? What is bothering you? If you are going hide things from me how will I fulfill my duty? All my begums are important for me and I can't see you in pain. Tell me which dream of yours was broken?"

Her eyes filled with immense sorrow, she looked straight in his eyes with hatred and retorted back loudly but sarcastically "Shenshah, Please leave me, why are you so concerned about how I feel??? I am just a winning trophy of yours and one more addition to your decorative pieces in your palace. I have no right to feel anything... I am not important in your life; my existence shouldn't matter to you. I am just one of your possessions." Her words were filled with extreme resentment.

Jalal realized the extreme fire inside her; she was burning in blaze with the harsh words he said to her. This was probably the first time he saw her extreme bitterness, he released her hand in shock. She ran towards the window, storm was passing through, winds were blowing high, all the curtains were flying in the air, and doors were knocking noisily on her heart. There was heavy storm inside of her and another outside in the sky. She suddenly felt like nothing was left in her life, she was all alone again.

Jalal went near the window and quietly stood next to her, his heart wept seeing her in tears. He didn't know how to respond and comfort her. Her tears were flooding out without any sob, her hands were laid on the window, and he gently kept his hand on her hand and looked at her with assurance in his eyes... you are not alone... I am yours. He wanted to apologize for what he had done and said in the past but his words chocked in his throat, he was unable to say anything, her pain was slaughtering him. He wanted to take her in his arms and hold her tight to give her comfort, he wanted to take away all of her pain and tears. Each tear that fell from her eyes felt like acid falling on his heart.

He broke the silence and vulnerably asked "Jodha, can't you forget the past? I can't see you in this condition." He looked at her with lots of guilt for what he had done. It was not possible to gulp the flood of tears threatening to come out; finally, his eyes gleamed with her pain. He couldn't see her clearly; they both looked at each other with gleamed eyes. Jodha realized he is really guilty for the words he said to her. His gleamed eyes gave her shocked seeing intense emotions from him.

Inside and outside storm had passed through and now clouds were shedding their tears, cool breeze came with cool rain from the window, it was dark outside and only few candles were burning inside, loud thunder crackled with lighting flashing soon after, Jodha got scared a little with the sudden flashy roar of thunder and bright striking lightning... she embraced Jalal in fear. Jalal encircled his hand around her to cover her in his arms tight and with this hug both Jalal and Jodha were feeling absolutely content. Jalal squeezed her tightly in his arms; he didn't want to let her go anywhere. They both got lost in each other's warmth. Jodha also gradually grasped him tightly and got lost in his broad muscular cuddle. Their painful tears changed into content tears. Clouds were laughing at these lovebirds with loud roar of thunders, this sensation was beyond their imagination. They were in each other's arms for long, at that moment they both knew they were in love with each other; there was no need for any words, their souls met forever again.

After a while, Jodha felt shy realizing that she was hugging him so possessively, she pushed herself away in embarrassment. There was only one candle left on in the room... she looked very beautiful, beyond any poets imagination...her cheeks and cute little nose turned red due to cry and all of her artificial make up washed away in tears...her natural beautiful face was glowing in dim light of candle...her eyes were still gleaming with dry tears, she stood by the corner of the window breathlessly...her long hairs were flying with the winds... Jalal couldn't take his eyes off her.

Jalal pulled her hand gently towards him... his eyes were filled with dark deep obsession... he whispered sensually in her ear while tucking her hair behind her ears "Jodha, I know you wanted to chat with me whole night...but I don't know how I will manage to hold myself. You know that you are my sweet torture... I can't resist myself being with you and keeping my hands from is not less any punishment."

She looked down while gasping heavily... repeating his words in mind 'sweet torture.' She smirked silently.

He gazed at her without a blink, then softly moved his finger from her cheeks to her lower lips and said in mumbling tone "How will I survive today." He went slowly near her lips but before he could kiss her she moved away from him and replied playfully "Shenshah, to chat we need to talk only. "

Jalal looked at her mischievous smile. He closed his eyes with deep sigh to control his desire. Jodha started to light up all the other candles...now the room started glowing with full of light and flowers. Her face again started to sparkle.

She asked him innocently, "Shenshah, Do you want to play something?"

Jalal playfully smirked and replied "Yes...but what I want to play you might not like it."

Jodha's heart started to beat faster. She replied in haste with little embarrassment "No, No I won't."
Jalal teasingly questioned "Oh! So Jodha begum, you don't want to play Chess?"

Jodha excitedly replied; "Oh! Yes I want to play chess."

Jalal impishly asked her "So what game you didn't want to play Jodha begum? You just said you won't."

Jodha was trapped... She had no answer. She looked at him shyly and blushed!!!

His lips curved with romantic smirk, he said "I always play every game to win something. Without a challenge it's no fun!!!"

Jodha proudly replied "I am a Rajvanshi princess... I am not scared of any challenge."

Jalal instantly corrected her and said "No Jodha begum, you are not Rajvanshi princess anymore, now you are a Mughal begum."

Jodha with grouchy tone replied "I agree with begum but I am still a Rajvanshi. You can call me Rajvanshi begum."

"You are too stubborn and fearless my Rajvanshi begum." He smirked mysteriously and continued "So my dear begum, are you ready for any challenge?"

With little resentment Jodha replied "YES! I accept your challenge Shenshah!!! What is the challenge?"

Jalal oddly gazed at her and said "Whoever wins gets one wish."

Jodha shockingly replied "A Wish!"

Jalal smiled and said "looks like My Rajvanshi begum is already scared, forget it then."

Jodha proudly replied "I accept it."

Jalal again asked "Are you sure and any wish!!!!!!!!"

Jodha with overconfidence replied "hmmm...Why should I worry??? I know I am going to win."

His eyes were dancing with humor seeing her overconfidence. "Okay then let's play." Jalal said cheerfully.

They set up the chess board in the middle of their bed and the game started.

Jodha teasingly said "Shenshah, I was really shocked to see tears in your heartless eyes."

Jalal narrowed his eyes and gazed at her with deadly silent anger. Seeing his eyes she got shiver in her entire body and thought...oh god... he doesn't understand joke and took it seriously.

He replied in calm but threatening tone with gloomy angry eyes "Jodha begum, it was not tears; something fell in my eyes so my eyes got moist." His calm sound also gave warning to Jodha... she took a deep sigh out and mumble to herself... he is damn dominating.

While playing Jodha talked about Amer, her childhood, her brother Sujamal, How she learned fencing from him. Jalal was listening to her sweet talks and stealing glances at her secretly. He was enjoying her nonstop talks very much.

After a while Jodha realized Jalal has not said anything and she is the only one who is talking. Jodha with cranky tone asked "Shenshah, I am talking so much and you are not even replying and stop gazing at me like this."

Jalal replied calmly "Jodha begum, I was waiting for my turn to talk."

Jodha with irritated expression replied "Shenshah, this is not your court room where you have to scan, scramble and weight every word before saying. You better talk to me otherwise I will not say a word."

"Ohhh... my Rajvanshi begum is giving me a warning." He smirked.

Jodha squinted her eyes at him.

He continued with serious tone "Jodha begum, it doesn't matter where I am, I am the Shenshah of this saltanat so every word comes out of my mouth is scanned."

"I don't agree with that Shenshah" Jodha replied hesitantly.

"What do you mean Jodha begum? I always scan my words before saying... I learned that in my childhood." Jalal said confusingly.

Jodha calmly replied "I agree you mostly scan and talk but when you are angry your mind doesn't scan what you are saying. Did you scan your bitter words before saying them to me?"

Jalal replied sadly, looking straight in Jodha's eyes "Yes! I did scan every word before saying to you; I wanted to take revenge from you, I wanted to shatter your pride so I was purposely hurting you with my harsh words." He paused for a few seconds and said in dim guilty tone "It was my ego Jodha, not words..."

They played quietly for a few minutes.

Jodha gulped the past and seriously asked "Shenshah, Can I ask you something?"... She pause to see him and continued "I want you to scan, scramble and weight your words before you answer my question."

Jalal confusingly gazed at Jodha and replied "Hmmm, ask me?"

"Tell me three people whom you trust blindly." Asked Jodha.

Jalal replied promptly "NO ONE...NOT EVEN MYSELF."

Jodha looked back at him surprisingly and shocked and then asked him again "Don't you trust your Badi ammi? Not even Rukaiya begum Shenshah???"

"I have same answer for this question as well... I am the King of the kings... I don't even trust my own shadow. No, I don't have trust on Badi Ammi or Rukaiya Begum. Jodha, I can't trust anyone, I only trust my own ears and my own eyes... I have seen enough treachery to know not to trust anyone."

Jodha sadly replied "By the way Shenshah trust comes from heart and sometimes even your own eyes and your own ears can betray you but if you trust and hear the sound of your heart, it never betrays. For me trust is everything... I trust Moti and Reva completely... I trust many people and fortunately no one has betrayed me other than my DESTINY." She paused, her eyes had immense sorrow, she continued gloomily "It is sad to know that my husband will never have trust on me."

Again she challenged him with her simple fact of the life. Seeing the deep pain in her eyes, Jalal said in dim unsure tone "Jodha begum, I don't know why, but I think, I have started to trust you and I am very scared of that feeling...what if you also...???"

Jodha with giggle replied "What if I kill you and run away with a Rajvashi king?"

Jalal instantly shouted angrily "STOP your foolish laugh Jodha. You have not seen a betrayal that is why you can laugh like this??? But my own uncle whom I played with him... who has fed me... was ready to kill me for the kingdom. I have seen many betrayals from close friends... administrators... many relatives and even begums... so don't laugh... It's not a joke..."

Jodha realized his insecurity in trusting. To change the topic she said in serious tone "Shenshah, you have major anger issues. You lose your temper so quickly, I was just teasing you but I understand your point of view and the reason, why you don't trust on anyone."

Both of them looked at each other impassively.

To lighten up the conversation Jodha teasingly asked "I still don't understand one thing Shenshah, why do you trust me? Ohh... sorry why have you started to trust me a little bit???" She smirked at him mischievously.

Jalal gazed at Jodha silently... his anger got vanished seeing Jodha's smirk on her face. He replied "You know Jodha begum the day you understand my unspoken words you will get your answer."

Jodha murmured in very dim voice "He is damn controlling, he won't say anything."

Jalal's sharp ears heard her murmur, he asked "Did you say something Jodha begum??"

Jodha diffidently replied "No, nothing Shenshah, you won't understand."

They both smirked mysteriously.

To change the topic Jalal said "Jodha begum, pay attention at your game... seems like you have trusted your queen too much... at the end she is going to ditch your king."

Jodha replied playfully "Don't worry Shenshah, Queen is always there and ready to save her king...I fully trust my queen...my queen will sacrifice herself but not break the trust of my king and I know for sure my king will never betray me either."

Jalal playfully asked "Do you trust your king, Jodha begum??"

Jodha boldly replied "More than my life Shenshah."

Both of them glanced at each other, Jalal with deep passion and Jodha shyly.

"Why are you staring at me Shenshah???" Jodha asked unclearly in low tone.

Jalal smirked secretively and asked curiously "Jodha begum, was there any Rajvanshi prince who was crazy about you?"

Jodha replied instantly very naively "Oh yes, lots of them, Shenshah!!!" And innocently told him how crazy some princes were about her, how desperately they were trying to be friends with her and some even proposed her bluntly. How some of them followed her just to see her once." She talked innocently for more than five minutes about it without even thinking much.

Jalal listened to her every word and smirked lovingly. After her long talk he teasingly asked in short sentence "So you think you are beautiful?"

Jodha gazed at him tetchily and replied in upsetting tone "Oh...so you don't think I am beautiful!"

Jalal grinned seeing her annoyed innocent face and replied "I didn't say that."

Jodha got more upset and disappointed hearing his short answer and thought Jalal doesn't think she is beautiful. She said with irritation "Let's play chess, I don't want to talk about anything else, I know you have many beautiful women in your harem."

Her face suddenly turned pale and sad thinking 'Jalal has many beautiful women in his harem, why he will think I am beautiful.'

Jalal loved seeing her jealous and angry face but he couldn't see her sad face much longer.

At last, Jalal with smile said "Jodha begum, look at me."

Her eyes were still lowered, she was upset and lost, her mind was stuck at the thought that Jalal thinks she is not beautiful enough.

Jalal said with little louder tone "Jodha begum," she slowly lifted up her doe like beautiful eyes.

Jalal with pleasant smile said "Jodha begum, I have never seen anyone so beautiful in my life like you, your beauty is beyond any words, any imagination. It is true that I have so many beautiful women in my harem but none of them can stand near you, do you know why?"

Jodha forgot to breathe...she just kept looking at him and nodded her head in NO.

"Because your beauty reflects in your soul, you are innocent, pure, truthful and divine; you have no fear of saying the truth, I have never seen any woman who is beautiful inside and out, beyond any words. For me you are the most beautiful woman in the world." He said sincerely without breaking his gaze at her.

Jodha never imagined that Jalal would answer like this, she didn't know how to react, she couldn't lift her face up, her heart suddenly started beating at the speed of a jet, she was feeling extremely shy under his penetrating gaze and her cheeks turned red again in bashfulness.

Jalal lifted her chin up with grin "My beautiful Rajvanshi begum your turn. Where are you lost?"

Jodha was so shocked to hear this intense appreciation of her beauty...she felt like many butterflies were fluttering inside her stomach. She couldn't say a word; she just blushed shyly. It was impossible for her to control her smirk... She said to herself... Oh...Kanah... I feel like hiding in his arms forever. Suddenly realizing what she was thinking she scolded herself for these weird thoughts and started to pay attention at the game.

Their game started again.

Soon Jalal got trapped by Jodha's queen. Jalal was pretty impressed with her chess skills. With her every move she was trapping Jalal little by little, she played like an expert.

Jodha and Jalal both were tired, It was a very long emotional day for both of them. Jodha lay on the bed while playing and her legs were dangling up and down as if dancing, her payal was making soothing music, she didn't realize while playing when her dress started exposing her half legs. Jalal eyes caught her soft, smooth, spotless, attractive legs, he couldn't take his eyes off of them. Jodha saw him staring and realized her legs were exposed, suddenly she got up and covered her legs. Jalal smirked at her mysteriously, he was not able to concentrate on the game anymore and he was constantly being distracted by her innocent talks and beauty.

Jalal rushed a little in his next move and gave her check and didn't realize he left his own king open.

Jodha with victorious smirk after moving her horse and trapping his king from all sides and said; "Shenshah, in rush you have put your king in danger and left him alone and it's now trapped by the enemy."

Jalal realized his mistake and sharply replied "Do you know Jodha begum that a King is always alone??"

Jodha in advising tone "But you can still save your king by sacrificing your queen."

Jalal with sarcastic grin replied "Without my queen, I would rather finish my game; king is supposed to protect his queen not sacrifice her."

At last, Jalal lost and Jodha won the game.

Jalal proudly said "Jodha begum, I am very impressed with your talent. You are a woman with many hunars (talents). Now as per the challenge; you can have one wish. So tell me what do you want?"

Jodha teasingly asked "Anything Shenshah?? Are you sure you can fulfill my wish??"

Jalal passionately gazed at her with his sharp mysterious captivating stare and said "To Suniye Jodha begum" (Hear me out Jodha begum.)

Koshish to Hardam Karte hai Ki Apki har Khawahish puri kareh (I always try to fulfill all your wishes)

Magar Darr Lagta Hai Kahi Aap Khawahish Mai, Humse Judai Na Mang Le. (But I am scared what if you wished for our separation.)

Jodha shyly smirked and said "I had no idea ruthless Shenshah can be this romantic" after a brief pause she continued "I don't want anything right now; when the time comes I will ask for it."

Jalal leisurely said "Jodha begum, it's very late, we should go to sleep. I will sleep on that sofa; you sleep on the bed."

Jodha was very much pleased to hear that but she said "No Shenshah, I will sleep on the sofa and you sleep on the bed here."

They argued for some time and then finally Jodha gave up and said "Shenshah, I have complete trust on you, we can both sleep on the same bed."

Jalal felt happy to know that she has started to trust him... he asked teasingly "Jodha begum, what you said in the afternoon that between husband and wife ... something bridge, respect, trust and faith and..."

Jodha kept her finger on his lips and stopped him before he said love.

Jalal looked at her with intense gaze and kissed her finger, like she just got an electric shock she took her finger away from his mouth. He swiftly grabbed her hand and pulled her closer to him and asked her sensually "Jodha, you respect me, you trust me and you also have faith in me. Are you also in love with me?"

She looked at him with intense love and asked him cross questioningly "I think you also respect me, you also trust me, you also have faith in me, Are you also in love with me?"

Jalal snapped at her "I asked you first so you are supposed to answer my question first. I am ordering you to answer my question."

Jodha smirked back at him and with witty gaze she snapped back at him "hmmm! I can love you but there is one problem Shenshah, You claimed that you don't have a heart." She blink her eyes few time at him and continued with mischievous smirk "The day I find your heart, I will think about loving you!!!!"

Jalal had no answer to this... he knew she trapped him in his own talk. His sharp eyes scanned her darkly but his facial expression remained impassive.

Jalal scowled at her amusingly and said in soft tone "Subhan Allah, baaton mein aapse koi jeet nahi sakta"(Subhan Allah, no can win in talks with you.) and then he said to himself, one day you will admit that you are in love with me Jodha and I will wait eagerly for that day.

They both slept on the same bed.

Jalal slowly shifted his pillow towards her side, he intentionally slept in the middle of the bed. Jodha closed her eyes and pretended to act as if she is not affected. His breathing was clearly audible. She could smell his intoxicated smell.

She closed her eyes and thought His eyes control all his actions. Without saying a word he can threaten me but when he looks at me with his mellow gaze I forget even myself and feel sparks in my entire body... I am completely charmed by him... Oh god, his dark shoulder length hair adds charm to his warrior manly look... I wish so many times to be able to touch his soft hair... I never got attracted to any man like this... Me and Leela always talked about good looking princes but no one can even come close to his personality and looks... but it is so depressing, he has so many women in his harem.'

Jalal softly asked "Are you sleeping?"

Jodha wake up from her thoughts and fuzzily replied "Not yet Shenshah."

"Something is missing, Jodha begum." Jalal said in serious tone.

Jodha with grumpy tone replied "Shenshah, Now what is missing?"

Jalal said in deadly serious tone "I can't go to sleep without a sweet good night kiss" and to make her more jealous Jalal added "Rukaiya kisses me every night before we go to bed and also massages my legs."

Jodha with shocking expression irritably said "WHAT????" Hearing this her sleep ran away from her.

Jalal continued with very serious tone "Actually Jodha begum, that is a Mugal custom, whichever wife I sleep with has to kiss me good night and massage my legs till I fall asleep but I understand if you don't want to do it, don't worry I will go to Rukaiya begum."

Jodha with puzzling tone replied "But you didn't tell me this the other night when we slept together!!"

Jalal controlled his smile hearing her worried tone, he again said in serious tone "Yes I didn't, because that day you were sick and it was my decision to spend night with you."

Jodha remembered her mother used to massage her father's legs and her mom also told her this was part of wife's duty.

Jalal with mischievous voice "It's okay, good night Jodha begum, I will go to Rukaiya's chamber" Jalal pretended to get up from the bed while showing fake disappointment.

"Wait Shenshah...You don't need to go anywhere I can follow the custom." Jodha said in haste with little awkwardness.

Jalal surprisingly asked "Are you sure Jodha begum?? Okay, then I will sleep here only," Jalal never thought, she will agree on kissing him, he was just joking.

Jodha came very close to him, sensually gazed in his eyes, then came near his face and stopped just before his lips, she waited there for a second and playfully kissed quickly on his forehead instead of his lips and said "good night Shenshah" with winning look.

Jalal got annoyed with her witty play, his eyes turned dark thinking she is playing with me and turned towards her...his half body on top of her...he came close to her ears and with sensual but dominating whisper he said "Let me teach you how to kiss your husband good night, Jodha begum," they both gazed at each other intensely, with her eye expression she gave him consent to kiss her... he ran his fingers through her face and kissed her forehead first, then softly kiss on her one side of cheek and other side softly bite on it. His sudden bite, Jodha opened her eyes and looked at him lovingly. He waited for a few seconds while gazing at her lips and thought her lips are exceptionally kissable, soft and inviting... then possessively he kissed her lips very softly. As soon as his lips touched her lips, her entire body trembled and shivered and he quickly pulled back from her and left her with delicious taste and craving for more, which he could clearly read in her eyes. Jalal gazed at her sensually and with smirk said "Good night Jodha begum, I was kidding about massaging the legs but kiss is an obligatory custom" and winked at her. She closed her eyes with deep desire to cuddle him.

Finally after the long day of emotional roller coaster ride they both went to sleep, peacefully dreaming about each other in their embrace.

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Chapter-14

It was a beautiful morning, dim melodious sound of birds twittering was making the surrounding more pleasant, the cool wind seemed so gentle, quietly moving the leaves along with it. The early Morning orange rays of the sun through the window woke up Jalal with a smile on his face. It was the most peaceful sleep after many days.

Jodha was still sleeping calmly resting her head on Jalal's shoulder. Her face was glowing in first ray of the sun. She was holding him like her possession. Her hands were on Jalal's chest and holding his top tightly.

While gazing at her Jalal was thinking, why can't I takes my eyes off her??? She looks so pure and divine... her selfless nature and her purity makes her different from others. She knows that she has special place in my heart but still she never shows off to others. I can see deep love in her eyes for me, I can feel the profound longing for me, but something is keeping her away from me...earlier I thought she wanted some time, she wants to adjust to the new culture, and build trust on each other, It is amusing to feel her trust on me she even didn't move a bit even after my horrible accusations , I clearly feel she deeply cares for me and loves me, then what is stopping her from admitting it? Then Jalal said to himself; I will never let you go away from me... I will wait for the day you completely accept me... your possessive grip on my kurta is taking me to another world... I am feeling heavenly pleasure just being with you. Your one small smile arouses millions of flowers in my heart. I have never felt so fresh and energetic in the morning... Jodha...your presence around me gives me assurance of my heart's existence.

It was becoming difficult for him to just look at her, he turned carefully and leaned towards her and kissed her gently on her forehead and moved her head and hand on the side. With his little movement she realized he is awake. She slowly opened her eyes and saw him staring at her sensually without a blink.

With smile he whispered in her ears "Good Morning..Jodha Begum"

Jodha felt uncomfortable with his passionate gaze. Her dupatta was out of place and was showing her cleavage and bare waist...sudden realization made conscious, she swiftly got up from the bed to fix it but before she could move further away from him, Jalal pulled her back next to him and leaned towards her... her head was resting on the bed and Jalal locked her with both hands. Jodha's face was glowing with smirk and blush, she couldn't lift her long and beautiful eye lashes up... his romantic gaze was making her blush heavily.

"Shenshah; let me go..." she said in soft whisper.

Jalal with smirked replied "First you call me Jalal not Shenshah."

Jodha irritably said "Let me go Shenshah..."

"I will let you go but first you call me Jalal..." replied with his stubborn gaze.

She looked at him and said "I can't call you by your name. Last night was a mistake..."

Jalal gazed at her and said "As a Shenshah I am ordering you, when we are alone you call me by my name."

Jodha irritability replied "When we are alone, you are my husband not Shenshah."

Jalal with pleasing tone replied "Okay, then as a husband I am requesting you to call me by my name."

She looked at him with a little anger and said "Jalal, please let me go."

He smirked at her and said "I can let you go but first you have to..." before he finished his sentence she got success in releasing her hand from him and moved away from there. Jalal was still relaxing on the bed laying down on the pillow and watching her fixing her clothes and hair.

Jodha with casual conversation said "Shenshah, I am very happy today "It's Holi" Holi is one of my favorite festivals. Every year we have so much fun."

Jalal casually replied "We don't celebrate this festival in Agra. I know very little about holi."

Jodha with informative tone replied "Shenshah, Holi is a hindu religious festival, It's a festival of colors and love. Hindus believe it is a time of enjoying spring's bright colors and saying farewell to winter. Children and youth spray coloured Gulal at each other, laugh and celebrate, while elders tend to smear gulal on each other's face. Holi is a big celebration in Amer. We have invited many Rajvashi Rajas and many very good friends of mine are also coming this Holi." she took a brief break and continued in very exciting tone "Every year in Holi, we used to play together all day long and at night dance on dhol... I miss those days...We use to have so much fun...run out of palace...going to lake...horse riding. Since, I am married now I am stuck in the palace with all the restrictions."

Jalal listened to her innocent talk and said "Jodha, you are so innocent, you still have heart of a child and enjoy everything with so much enthusiasm...I never got a chance to enjoy my childhood like this. I remember very few things from my childhood. The only part I remember well is me and Rukaiya having so much fun together but we both had so many restrictions too. We got married at such a young age and my father also died at an early age, so I had so many responsibilities."

Jalal with curiosity asked "Tell me about your friends, Are they coming for holi?"

Jodha excitedly replied "Yes... all of them are coming... Prince Surya Vadan from Jaipur and His sister Lilavati, and Price Dharam from Kanakpur and his sister Kanika are coming for Holi celebration. Surya and Dharam both are best friends of Surajmal bhaisa. Me and Surya are best friends from childhood. We always played in teams, Me, Surya and Bhaisa always stayed in one team. Lilavati is my best friend too; we always share every small secret of our life. She just got married; I can't wait for them to come. You will really enjoy their company but everyone will miss Sujamal bhaisa" her sound turned dim at Sujamal's mention.

"So every Holi you all get together?" Jalal asked eagerly.

"Yes! Actually almost every festival we get together. They all come here during Ghangor and Holi and stay here for about a week. We also visit their states to celebrate few festivals. In Jaipur they have a huge grand fair once a year. Every year we visit Jaipur at that time and also sometime we all meet at the time of weddings and other functions." She replied excitedly.

Jalal with a little jealousy looked at Jodha and asked "So do you know all of them since your childhood?"

Jodha casually replied "Yes!"

Jalal's eyes turned suspiciously dark, he asked in baffled tone "Did they come for our wedding?"

Jodha sadly replied "No!!! No one came to attend my wedding and I don't need to explain why! All Rajvanshis were against our wedding including Surya. He actually came before our wedding to see me and tried to convince me very hard not to get married to you. He was even ready to talk to my father. But for me, Amer is everything so for Amer I agreed for this marriage."

Jalal sarcastically but irritably said "Oh!!! So your friend Surya tried his best to keep us apart."

Jodha replied dryly "He is my very good friend; His intentions were towards my well wish."

Jalal didn't know how to react to this, but knowing about Surya created an unknown jealousy in his heart. Wickedly he said "Wow! I am very much interested to meet this best friend of yours who really truly advises you for your better life."

Jodha realized Jalal was getting a little annoyed and envious...So she decided to tease him more "Yes Shenshah! Indeed he is a very nice person, any girl would be happy to be with him. He is very charming and caring. He is very brave and very good in sword fighting too, every time we meet, we practice our fencing together. Do you know at the time of last Ghangor when I got engaged with Raja Suryabhan, my parents received proposal from Surya too, but unfortunately that time my engagement was already fixed. His proposal came a little late and you know, Lila also always wanted me to get married to her brother Surya. She used to tease us all the time, she always thought that I loved Surya but I don't blame her we were so close with each other. We were together all the time and the way Surya cares for me, she always suspected...but for me Surya was always my best friend and advisor."

Jalal with little anger and fire in heart in annoying tone asked "Oh! So your best friend wanted to marry you??"

Jodha with defending tone replied "Why? What is wrong in that? You are also married to your best friend!!!"

His anger boiled up with jealousy, tetchily he asked "Did you also wanted to marry him, Jodha?"

Jodha looked at him from the corner of her eyes and smirked seeing his annoyed face. She enjoyed seeing his anger and possessiveness about her.

She replied calmly "I don't see any reason, why not? He knew me very well...he respected me... he cared about me... He is a hot, good looking, handsome prince and future king of three states. He is also from a royal family and my best friend's brother and most importantly he always trusted and supported me in my every decision."

Hearing her answer Jalal's entire body burned in blaze, his eyes turned dark, he shouted "Enough Jodha, I got it, he is perfect, and he is the best. Now can I go and get dressed for the big celebration of Holi???" he said sarcastically .

Jodha coldly smirked and acted very normal as if nothing happened; "Oh Sure Shenshah!!!"

Jalal angrily got up and walked towards the door.

Jodha yelled "Wait Shenshah,"

Jalal asked her deceptively hiding his anger "What?"

To tease him more she asked "Shenshah, can you help me pick a dress for today? I want to look my best today."

Jalal frustratingly replied "Jodha begum your best friend is coming today, why don't you ask him to help you? I am getting late."

Jodha with little smirk on her face asked "Why are you sounding so grumpy? Are you jealous of Surya?"

Jalal realized his behavior showed his jealousy. Suddenly he changed his tone and replied in deceptive calm tone "Why would I be Jealous of anyone, I have everything I want." but he failed to hide his face expression...

Seeing his annoyed face she just grinned and said "Shenshah, I have got something for you."

Jalal dryly asked "What?"

She gave a gorgeous rajvanshi outfit to Jalal... (Something similar to PrithviRaj's outfit) All over white with red border, silk Sherwani Kurta and silk Dhoti with long pearl necklace and said "Shenshah, It's Holi today and I will be very happy if you wear this outfit."

Jalal looked at the dress angrily and asked techily "Why do you want me to dress like a Rajvanshi?" he murmur in very dim tone seems like she likes only Rajavanshi man'.

Jodha heard his silent murmur which annoyed her she replied grouchily "It's just a gift from me. When we met for the first time you were in a Rajvanshi outfit and I wanted to see you again in a Rajvashi outfit but it's your choice if you don't want to wear it then thats fine... and by the way I don't have any problem with your Mughal outfit and Mughal man. I am sorry I have got gift." She looked at him with a little disappointment.

Jalal realized she heard his silent dim murmur... without any argument he took the outfit from her hand and walked out from there with impassive expression..

Jodha took shower and quickly finished her daily prayer. Her hairs were still wet. She picked an entire white outfit with red border all over to match with Jalal's outfit to wear. She wore all the jewelry made out of beautiful white and red flowers.

Jalal also got ready and finished his daily routine; he did Namaj and prayer then met with Abdul to make sure if everything was safe and secured. After that he went back to Jodha's room in the Rajvanshi outfit.

Jodha was getting ready sitting on a chair in front of mirror. She noticed him in the outfit but didn't comment anything to annoy him. Jalal expected some reaction or comment from her seeing him in Rajvanshi dress but she didn't say anything. Her long shiny curly hairs were still a little wet. She looked divine and beautiful in white outfit with flower jewelry. Jalal never imagined her in flower jewelry...she looked simply beautiful. Rose & white mogra (jasmine) veil in hair with long white jasmine earrings... with red rose necklace was adding to her beauty... She looked breathtaking in flower jewelry.. simply divine like apsara...

Jodha finally couldn't hold herself and gave him a compliment casually, while looking at the mirror she said "Shenshah; do you remember when we met for the first time? You were wearing a Rajvanshi outfit, I was completely awestruck by your charm, you looked so royal and appealing... your sword skill, your confidence, your magnetic personality...my heart stopped breathing for a while after seeing you. When you looked in my eyes and said you will come back... I knew you will come... I don't know why but I felt like I've known you forever."

Jalal's anger disappeared with her compliment. While gazing at her, he asked her sarcastically "Do you still feel you know me?"

She knew what he wanted to hear, she quietly looked at him. Deep pin drop silence for a few seconds... to break this awkward silence .Jodha curiously asked "How am I looking?"

Jalal scanned her from top to bottom and confusingly said "... hmmm nooo... Something is missing Jodha!"

Jodha looked herself in the mirror disappointedly... and techily asked "Oh... I don't look good."

He walked near the mirror and stood behind her, then took a pinch of sindoor from the sindoor box and filled her maang with love...then with content smile he said "No you look beautiful but incomplete without sindoor."

Jodha modestly gazed at him...both were standing and looking at each other without a blink. She felt so overwhelmed thinking he really understand true meaning of sindoor now...She bent down with teary eyes and touched his feet to take blessings from him. Jalal with surprised expression put his hands on her head and gave her blessing then held her from her shoulders.

Jodha got up with mixed expressions. With blush on her face, moist shy eyes and low tone she said "Its Holi today so it's a custom, wife takes blessings from her husband." Her shy smile made him crazy and the way she took blessings and gave him so much respect he felt overwhelmed. He softly kissed on her forehead and she felt so shy that she couldn't lift her eyes to see his face.

Jalal pulled her slightly towards him and in whispering tone he said "Why just blessings? I can give you much more my dear begum," then he encircled his hand on her waist.

Jodha flushed and glance at him nervously then in thin tone said "Shenshah, stay away from me, the door is open."

"Do you want me to close it?" he asked teasingly.

Jodha scowl at him pointedly and replied "Shenshah, please let me go... it's early in the morning!!!"

Jalal released her instantly and said impassively "Ok as you wish Jodha begum."

Jodha's face immediately turn sad thinking oh... I didn't mean this...

Jalal smirked mischievously at her and she realized he was teasing her... she said to herself, oh god he is so sly and I am so stupid couldn't even hide my expression... .

Jalal walked towards the door without breaking his passionate gaze at her and closed the door with strange grins on his face. His sharp sly eyes brightened with vast fervor. Then with intense gaze he walked towards her, scanning her mood...seeing his intentions she shyly walked backward...but he caught her wrist and pulled her towards himself.

Jodha thought "Oh god... again his eyes is mesmerizing me...he is strangely pulling me towards him...She softly asked "Why have you closed the door Shenshah? What are your intentions? " Her tone clearly filled with unfamiliar need ...

"You really want to know what my intentions are Jodha begum?" he whispered in her ears

Jodha realized she asked the wrong question. She flushed and lowered her eyes and couldn't mask her blush.

Jalal sensually gazed at her with his dark captivating eyes and replied in sensual tone "Jodha, I have closed the door because you have made me so crazy for you, with these alluring colorful flowers and white dress, you have mesmerized me. Every day I see you and you look more and more beautiful...Today you look extremely charming, even god will stop for few second after seeing you and will take proud at himself for making you so beautiful. Day and night I am just thinking about you only... My patience is betraying me... I am losing my control... I have never been desperate for any women like this... How can I let you go???"

Jodha blushed heavily hearing her praise then she tenderly asked "So, What do you want?"

Jalal drew her more closer and whispered in her ear with seductive gaze "I want you" then he sensually kissed her on her soft pink rosy lips very gently. She closed her eyes and responded back to his kiss. Jalal stopped and looked at her with intense tempting look then gently put her hair behind her ears and ran his finger on her face and stopped at her lips...then he cupped her face strongly in his grip and kissed her again but this time with more passion. He squeezed her cheeks and kissed on her lips with soft smooches, then he nibbled her lips, his craving increased with sparks in his body. He lost all his control over his desire...he started kissing her all over her face with deep longing for more...then he grabbed her hair wildly to lift her face so he can kiss on her neck.

Jalal's implacable passionate touch gave her pleasure. She whispered softly "Ohhh Jalal...ahhh... please control yourself; I am losing my control...let me go."

"Jodha, Don't control... you are only mine, I will not let you go today." and he tugged his hands in her wet hair and kissed her wildly on her earlobes.

"Jalal, Don't seduce me...don't touch me... please let me go" she said in whisper. Her tone was complete opposite to what she was saying

Jalal sensually with deep desire replied "I won't...Jodha"

Jodha responded back to his denial with more angry passion... she wildly bit on his lips, her sudden attack made Jalal angry... he madly started to kiss with smooch on her soft lips and bit on her earlobe then on her neck...his hands started to play around all over her figure. They were so close...there was no breathing space between them...Jodha's desire was also increasing by each passing second and she too was losing her control. Her open wet hair and fragrance of flowers made him fanatical. Their craving and thirst for each other was growing, Jalal took off her dupatta from her shoulders and pulled down her blouse a little and smooched on her shoulders softly but sensually. Her low cut deep neck blouse was showing her cleavage beautifully...Jalal's eyes drooled over it...which created extreme yearning. He moved little more downwards and kissed her with bite on her collarbone and with this intense touch, Jodha hissed in pain "ahhh" she blushed and felt shy, she tried running away from him but Jalal was holding her dupatta...it stretched and came out of the final grip of her dress. She turned her back and covered herself with her hands. Jalal walked towards her and hugged her from back and locked her entire body with his broad arms strongly and kissed her on her cheeks with love. Then moved her long soft hairs towards the front...he had never seen her beautiful curvy shape, spot less, soft and smooth skin...he started to kiss her softly, slowly on her back...his wet kisses on her back gave her deep shiver in her entire body, his touch and sensual kisses were sending millions of sparks in her body...it was becoming impossible for her to stay apart from him...she turned towards Jalal and hugged him tightly...he hugged her back with same passion, then caressed her on her cheeks...with deep intense smooch kissed on her neck, then slowly moved down a little and sensually smooched her on her teasing points.

Jalal in whispering tone asked "Do you like my touch Jodha?"

Jodha was at a point where she wanted more...she wanted everything... her desire was at the mountain...Jodha in response hugged him tighter and started kissing him wildly...her passion was so strong, her every kiss was leaving marks on his neck, cheeks and lips...without wasting time, Jala quickly took off his top kurta, it worked like a magnet for Jodha...his muscular tough body...the warm touch of his skin...his manly scent...all this made her forget all her shyness...their bodies collided with passion. She wanted to enjoy every second of their passionate hug.

Jalal still had his control but with strong craving...he was surprised to see her wild passion and enjoyed her longing for him.

He murmured in her ear "Jodha do you love me? Are you ready to go further?" Jalal knew with his experience that there was no way she would stop at this point...he didn't wanted to go further unless she admitted her love for him...he knew that it was important for her but she had no interest in listening to him. She kissed him on his open chest and hugged him so madly...his muscular strong broad shoulders made her crazy...she wanted to melt in his arms forever. She got lost in the magical warmth of his body...first touch of his sensual skin sent flashes in her entire body, Jalal could sense her eagerness and curiosity to explore further...he swiftly carried her to the bed and she immediately lay down and pulled him towards her, Jalal was on top of her putting his weight on his hands...gazing at her beautiful passionate seductive eyes.

Jalal could clearly sense her desire for wanting more...he asked her again "Jodha, Do you love me? Are you ready to go further.." this time he didn't whisper... it was loud and clear in his voice that he wanted the answer! But he was very sure she will not deny...he saw her desire was at extreme peak.

The strong voice of Jalal woke Jodha up from the most beautiful dream of hers and his captivating charm. She realized that she was completely lost in his arms, Jalal was on top of her. He kissed her again on her cheeks softly with love and asked her "Jodha, do you love me?"

She knew that they went too far again and if she stops him now it is going to be disappointing for Jalal. Jalal could tell her stormy eyes were widen in shock, her expressions were completely changed...he could read her denial thoughts before she even replied. He had really seduced her to extreme...but she was out of his spell now.

Jodha finally responded sadly "Is it really important to answer these questions? You are my husband and you have a right on me."

Jalal asked her again with resentment "Jodha, please tell me you love me and you want to go further."

Deep silence followed, only the sound of their panting could be heard... he knew something was there which was stopping her from completely accepting him.

Jalal disappointedly got up from the bed and bitterly said "Jodha begum, I am Sorry, I will make sure I don't cross my limits from now on. Until you are ready I will not touch you, not till you accept me completely."

Jodha could feel his controlled anger towards her. They both got up and got dressed quickly.

Jalal walked towards the window and stood there thinking hurtfully, why does Jodha always stop herself? I can see in her eyes lots of love for me but I can't understand this behaviour of hers.'

Knock on the door. Jodha opened the door.

Sukanya walks in the room and cheerfully says good morning to both of them and then in upsetting tone she said "Oh Jiji you are not ready yet...everyone is waiting for you." then innocently without thinking she asked "What happened to your flower jewelry, it's all broken"

Jodha and Jalal looked at each other with mixed expressions of shy and anger. Sukanya realized she asked the wrong question...so swiftly changing topic she said "Jiji; Masa is waiting for you and seems like you forgot we have to go to temple. "

Jodha sarcastically requested Sukanaya "Can you please give company to your Jijasa, seems like he is feeling too lonely here. I will get ready quickly."

Sukanya with smirk said "My pleasure."

Jalal gave furious angry glare to Jodha and went out with Sukanya.

Sukanya teasingly asked "Jiju, how was your night...And chopat game??"

Jalal mockingly replied "I wish I played chopat with my Sali instead your Jiji"

Suku felt a little shy and replied "Jiju apki aur Jodha Jiji ki Jodi bilkul sahi hai...aap dono se bato me koi nahin jeet sakta." (Ohhh Jiju you and Jodha Jiji are a perfect match... No one can beat you both in talking.)

They both reached the main hall where everyone was waiting for Jodha...Raja Bharmal with informative tone said "Jamaisa, on every holi we all go to Kali mata temple in the morning."

Mainavati asked suku; "Where is Jodha?"

"Masa Jiji is not ready yet... it will take her little more time." told Suku

Mainavati worriedly said "Raja sahib, we need to leave now otherwise the auspicious time for prayer will be missed. Sukanya you come with Jodha later."

Sukanaya with sad face pouted "but Masa..."

Jalal instantly replied "Don't worry about Jodha, I will bring Jodha to the temple. You all continue..."

Raja Bharmal with smile replied "Thank you Jamaisa" then they all left for temple.

Jodha got ready and came out to the main hall with pooja thal and saw only Jalal was there; she asked him "Where is everyone?"

"Jodha begum, they all went to the temple." replied Jalal..

Jodha sadly said "Ohh.. what about me? How will I go?"

"Don't worry Jodha begum; I will take you to the temple" said Jalal.

"No ! I don't want you to come to the temple" she replied techily.

Jalal with confused expression asked "Why not?"

Jodha stubbornly replied in firm tone "I don't want to discuss about it...but you are not coming to Kali mata temple."

With his sharp memory Jalal recalled the conversation about how his soldiers ruined Kali mata temple in Amer and took all the jewelry from there and Jodha fought with those soldiers. And that was the first time he heard about Jodha.

Jalal with guilty tone said "I know why you are saying no but what happened in the past was very sad, I have understood now, I was wrong, I have disrespected your religion but at that time I never thought I was hurting hindu people's feelings. I hated Rajvanshis then and to take revenge my soldiers did this crime."

Jodha replied with intense pain and teary eyes "Shenshah, I took a pledge in front of Kali Ma that I will cut your head and bring it to her feet for dishonoring her respect. And look at my destiny, I am so helpless, for the same person I am putting sindoor in my maang for his long life." Jalal looked at her with deep guilt and requested in pleading tone "Jodha; please take me to the temple." Without any word...in deep silence Jodha and Jalal reached the temple...Jalal with respect; took off his shoes, crown and sword, gave it to Abdul and went inside the temple. Jodha got surprised with his actions. They both were alone in the temple (due to safety, no one else was allowed in the temple when royal people are inside). Jodha did prayer and Aarti with her melodious sound. After that Jalal went near Mata's statue and apologised for his immorality and sin. He bowed down for his mistake and promised that he will always respect all other religions and requested for forgiveness on behalf of Jodha for not keeping her promise. The Priest was watching Jalal's guilt and apology, he came to Jalal and said you have poured your heart out to mata...you have put your ego aside and bowed down to her...you have fulfilled Jodha's pledge, and gave his blessing to Jalal. Seeing this big change in Jalal, tears rolled down from Jodha's eyes. Jodha could feel change in Jalal...when they got married, he was an arrogant and egotistic king...but little by little...gradually his heart was opening towards humanity. They both got blessings from the priest for long and happy married life. Jodha looked at Jalal with content look and without any communication Jalal knew how happy Jodha was feeling. After his confession to devi mata Jalal also felt relieved and happy.

They both reached the palace and Moti came running to Jodha and said while panting "Surya and his sister Lilavati with her husband Raja Sangram Singh are here and Dharam Singh and his sister Kanika will be reaching here any time."

Jodha got so happy hearing this and with eagerness she asked Moti "where are they?"

"They all are in the big hall waiting for you, Raja Saheb and Masa welcomed them and left for donation" replied Moti.

Jodha excitedly started to walking fast towards the hall. Jalal watched Jodha's eagerness...she almost ran and reached the main hall and hugged Lilavati. Both of them wished each other for their wedding. Lila introduced her husband Sangram Singh to Jodha.

Jodha realized that in excitement she forgot about Jalal, she swiftly turned back to see him and saw Jalal was watching her impassively. Jodha very politely requested him "Shenshah, can you please come inside, I would like to introduce you to my best childhood friends."

Jalal walked inside while scanning each and every person in the hall.

Jodha introduced Jalal to Lila and Sangram and then she introduced Surya. Jalal got pretty impressed with his looks and personality, he thought, Surya indeed looks royal, and attractive.'

"I have heard a lot about you Surya VadanJi..." Jalal said in cynical tone. His eyes had dark mysterious anger.

Surya casually replied "Please call me Surya only. I have also heard a lot about you Shenshah E Hindustan" his sound also filled with sarcasm... after a brief pause Surya continued bitterly "Shenshah, so finally you came to take Jodha back to Agra."

Jalal got annoyed with his attitude... he replied with same tone "Of course Surya! How can I leave her here alone...?"

Surya arrogantly said "Shenshah, you are mistaken, she is not alone here, she has many close friends and her family here with her. I am sure, she is feeling more lonely in Agra than here" then angrily he added "What took you so long?"

Seeing his concern and his possessiveness towards Jodha, Jalal's jealously started roasting, He heatedly said "Sounds like you are worrying too much for your friend."

Surya looked at Jodha with deep care in his eyes, then proudly replied "Yes! I can't see tears in Jodha's eyes."

Jalal felt like killing Surya for a second. He took a deep breath in to hide his anger.

Jodha realized the inflammation between Jalal and Surya... both of them were losing their temper. Before anything went further wrong, Jodha came in between and said "I think it's time for lunch, let's eat first then we have whole day to chat."

Surya intensely gazed at Jodha and asked her softly with deep concern "Jodha, how are you doing?"

Jodha smiled and replied "Much better after seeing you all."

Jalal got more annoyed with her answer... while they were going towards lunch room, Dharma and Kanika entered the hall... Jodha greeted them and introduced them to Jalal.

Kanika looked at Jodha with jealousy and said bitterly "Jodha you are so lucky to have a husband like him" she paused and gazed at Jalal lustfully and while gazing at him she continued "He is not only extremely handsome and good looking but King of kings, Shenshah -e- Hindustan and you are queen of hindustan...Congratulations..." Her eyes were drooling all over Jalal and his strong personality.

Jodha got annoyed with the way she praised Jalal and the way she was drooling all over him...she replied bitterly "Yes Kanika, I am very much lucky to have a husband like him who has 500 queens and 5000 concubine and can still marry again" with taunt she added "You also have a chance Kanika!!!"

Jodha never liked Kanika, they always had clashes with arguments and fight. Kanika also hated Jodha throughout her life as she was her competitor. Even though Kanika herself was very beautiful and talented but Jodha beat her in every single challenge, so she is always ready to put Jodha down in front of others and because of Kanika's arrogant attitude, No one wanted to be friends with Kanika.

Jalal looked at Jodha with infuriated stare. Jodha realized seeing Jalal's anger that she lost her control and said a bit too much. She softly invited everyone at the lunch table.

Jalal noticed while eating, Surya was frequently gazing at Jodha and trying to interact with her. All of his attention was towards Jodha only.

Jodha cheerfully said to all "I am so glad you all came, we will have so much fun together."

Jodha and Jalal both observed, Kanika was persistently staring at Jalal. Jodha felt irritated with that.

Jalal was really annoyed with Jodha's behavior since morning and after seeing Surya it added to his fume and top of it Jodha's sarcasm while talking to Surya and Kanika really bothered Jalal. So to take revenge from Jodha, Jalal started flirting with Kanika. Jalal looked at Kanika with intense gaze and showed lot of interest in her.

Jalal ignoring every one said "Kanika, You have really good taste in Jewelry and clothes. Your Jewelry seems unique and antique."

Jodha's eyes widen in shock seeing him flirting with Kanika, It was too shocking for her to see him praising her like this... she thought I have to force him to talk to me and look how he is drooling over her and he never said a word about my dress or jewelry. With squinted eyes she gave him irritated gaze... Jalal saw her annoyed with his cornered eyes and smirked seeing her fuming in anger. He ignored her and asked "Kanika, tell me do you like Holi??"

Kanika with her princessy arrogant attitude "Oh!! No... not at all Shenshah... I hate Holi... it's so messy... I don't want to ruin my skin with all these colors??"

Jalal with smirk said to all "I am also glad you all are here, we will have lots of fun celebrating holi together... this is the first time I will celebrate Holi."

Kanika with changing her color replied "Oh sure Shenshah, you will have lots of fun with us."

Jodha started getting jealous with Kanika and her attitude towards Jalal... tetchily Jodha replied " But Kanika, you just said that you don't play Holi, it's so messy and what about your skin?"

To tease Jodha more Jalal replied instantly "This time Kanika will play holi with us, right Kanika?"

Kanika excitedly replied "Oh sure Shenshah, anything for you!!!"

Jodha gave annoyed look to Jalal. Jalal smirked back at her innocently as if nothing happened.

Finally after their lunch, they all decided to rest for a while and get back together in an hour.

Jodha casually said "Shenshan, Why don't you also take rest?"

Jalal replied with mysterious smile "I really had sound sleep yesterday with my begum after many weeks; I am not at all tired, I will go and finish some important work with Abdul" then Jalal left with romantic gaze at Jodha.

Jodha also smirked at his statement and blushed recalling sleeping in his arms. Everyone else left with Jalal other than Lilavati.

Jodha and Lila were very close from beginning... they shared every single secret of their life... Lila said to Jodha "It's been a long time we have talked... if you are not tired we can sit outside in fresh air, it is a beautiful day today."

Jodha happily agreed and they both went outside and sat on a bench. This bench was located outside of the main hall. Jalal was in the main hall sitting on a sofa waiting for Abdul, he heard Jodha's voice from the window... he saw Jodha and Lilavati sitting outside talking to each other... he could hear their conversation clearly.

Jodha cheerfully said "Oh...Leela, I am so happy to see you here again ... I can't believe we both are married and sitting together alone in the same bench and chatting..."

Lila excitedly replied "You are right Jodha, just in few months everything has changed. I have cried and missed you so much. I wanted to come and see you when I heard about Suryapratap singh's death and your sudden wedding... but you know my parents were also against like other Rajvanshis so they didn't allow me to attend your wedding. I cried so much regretting when my friend was in need I was not there for her. I am so sorry Jodha I was helpless." Lila's tears started flooding out.

Jodha wiped her tears and said "Forget about the past. It was my destiny and don't feel regret for it... I was chosen to save my land and I am proud of myself for saving my Amer at the cost of my dreams."

After a long pause, to change mood Jodha eagerly asked "Leela, Are you happy?? How is your husband and his family? And I want to know every detail about your first night...?" She giggled.

Jalal smirked hearing about first night.

Lila excitedly replied "Oh Jodha, I am so desperate to tell you everything... I am so so so happy...I can't explain in words...I feel like I am the luckiest person on the earth... he loves me a lot, he cares a lot about me and my in-laws are also very loving and caring too. I visit every Sunday to Jaipur, Jodha; do you know he loves me so much that he has promised me he will never marry again. He treats me so special...before I desire for something he knows it... he can hear my unsaid words... Jodha I never knew that to fall in love will be this beautiful... you know when I requested him that I wanted to come here to see you, without any question, he dropped his important work and agreed to come with me."

Jodha contently replied "Lila, I am very happy my dear friend found her the love of her life. But then you are so nice and caring anyone would fall in love with you."

Lila warily asked, her excited sound got dim and serious "Jodha, how is your life?? I know probably it was very difficult for you to adjust in Agra but I saw in Shenshah's eyes, he does care about you a lot."

Jodha didn't know where to start from... sadly she replied "Lila, I had never imagined that my life will change this drastically... I wanted a simple life like yours, I envy you so much... You don't have to compete with any other women and He loves you, he trust you... but I am not lucky like you..." with deep sighed out she said " I am the queen of Hindustan but do you know that... Jalal has three official wedded wives and more than 500 queens and so many concubines in his harem. Everything is so different in Agra... sometimes I feel like I am trapped in a Jail. Women have so many restrictions there... No one knows about our culture... Jalal didn't even know the meaning of Aarti, Sindoor..." Jodha's tears started flooding out...

Jalal could hear her sobbing... Her words were falling on him like acid...

"I have not told this to anyone Lila... but we have not consumed our marriage yet... You know Lila; I love him so much that I fear if I accept him I will not be able to live without him. He doesn't love me but I know he likes me a lot. He cares about me but still I don't know if he has trust on me. Lila... his one little touch makes me crazy... I want his love...I crave for his love...I just want him to love me... I will not be able to share him with any other women... I don't want to wait for him for months to see his one gaze, but that's my destiny... I have to share him among thousands of women. So I have decided that I will never let him come close to me. You know he is my first love and I know he will never love me the way I love him... He doesn't have heart to love... so I decided to keep my distance from him, so I never feel possessive about him. I know he has to fulfill his duty... but whenever I see him with Rukaiya begum I feel unbearable pain in my heart... I think he loves her and she is also his best friend and khaas begum... I cry when I am alone thinking he is with someone else... I don't know why I am so possessive about him. You know no one likes me in his harem, some of them treat me like an ordinary maid but I have learned to ignore everyone and I don't blame them, you know in the beginning he treated me very poorly so still everyone in the palace treats me the same way. I have heard so bitter words from them, that I've even forgotten how to fight for my self-respect... I have learned to quietly walk out without any response."

Leela regretfully said "Ohh Jodha, you have altered so much... Entire Rajvansh called you a fiery princess. Why have you stopped fighting? Why you let other begums treat you poorly?"

Jodha sobbing profoundly "Leela, You know that if your husband doesn't respect you, no one else respects you and when I was getting married I knew what I was getting into."

Jalal closed his eyes hearing her pain, it was unbearable for him.

Jodha continued with sad tone "Anyway I am proud of my sacrifice, at least my Amer is safe, my family is happy, but I only have one regret that I will never be able to give myself to him." Jodha was in so much pain, this was the first time she was able to talk about her fears and feelings to someone... Lila hugged her with tears in her eyes. They both were so much in sorrow, they couldn't say a single word. Jodha cried her heart out... and Lila hugged her to give her warmth.

Jalal got shocked hearing everything... he never ever imagined that this is what was in her heart and mind. He didn't know, she has a fear of losing him and that is why she is keeping herself away from him... Jalal felt her pain in his heart.

While sobbing she continued "Lila, I love him so much... that I can't imagine my single minute without him but he doesn't love me and he never will... I have a fear once I give myself completely to him he might not come to me again...what if I am just a one night stand for him."

Lila wiped her tears and said "Jodha, don't think like that, I saw in his eyes that he deeply cares about you. He really likes you... I have never seen you so negative before... trust in yourself one day he will love you back..."

Jodha said regretfully "Lila, I know he likes me and he will give me everything but not his heart. He claims that he doesn't have a heart. If I accept him then my expectations will increase and It will kill me if I have to wait for him for days to come to me. In current situation, we don't have any expectations from each other. Leela I am so confused I don't know what to do... I wish I had your life."

Jalal realized what Jodha wants, Jodha wants his heart and his love At least now he knew what was stopping her. He realized how possessive she is about him.She can't share him with anyone...he didn't know how to react to this.

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Hello Friends: What do you think... How Jalal will react?

Next: Holi... Surya and Jalal fiery sword fight and extreme Jealousy.