Jodha's Diary - Part 6 updated - Page 7

My favorite part was Entries 15 and 16.

Explains her current stance too. A blow to dignity and self-respect is something that's hard to digest/overcome for her. Period. She does eventually let go of the grudge but it takes her a long long time to forgive and forget.

Thanks Anu. 😊

Yes, you are right. She would need sometime to forgive and forget.

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We need more entries like 16 to fully grasp what's happening in Jodha's mind.

Awesome updates 👍🏼. Will be waiting for next entries 😊.

Thansk Priya. 😃

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Thanks dear.😊

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So here is the next part. 😊

I hope you enjoy it.

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Entry 17:

I cannot digest this. He did not believe me, at all. And the irony is, I almost felt sorry for him. Antara says I am being foolish.

This is what happened. I got to know that Maham Anga killed his unborn child and Rahim saw the whole thing. I confronted Maham Anga. Even though I had to break Rahim's trust, I went and told him. He did not believe me.

Antara said I behaved foolishly. That I am in a place where everyone hates me, and I do not have any status in this palace. And why would anyone believe me, just because I say so? That my so called evidence will not hold true in front of these people.

But, I am a Rajvanshi. I never lie. Why cannot these people understand that? Well, Antara said they do not know me and also my Rajvanshi's straightforwardness will not stand in front of these politically cunning people. Also that this is a different game these people are playing which I do not know the rules.

What I do know is many of his near and dear ones are using him and he does not even know this. Foolish man he is.

Entry 18:

Today I met him in temple. I was surprised to see him in disguise. And he was surprised that I recognized him. What does he think of himself? I can recognize him anywhere. And it seems he got to know the trust about MA? Should I feel vindicated and proud that I was proved right or should I feel sad for him to have been deceived by his own mother-like figure?

Entry 19:

How can he do this to me! He could not destroy me when he tried to kill me; he wants to take revenge on me in this manner? Does he not know that by rejecting me and giving me a divorce, he will make my life even worse than it already is?

He came to my room while I was getting ready for bed. And he was in a weird mood today. He said we are married, yet we are strangers. That I panic when he comes closer to me. Why is that a surprise? Doesn't he know that he terrifies me?

He gave me a choice; either to stay with him, the person whom I hate the most or else he will divorce me and I go back to Amer. What kind of choices are these?

If I stay back, all my self-respect and dignity, my entire being is compromised. But, getting a divorce is also not an option, my life will be even worse. When did my life become such a conundrum?

Kanha, help me. I do not know what to do.

Entry 20:

Something unexpected happened today in the court. Maham's look alike was caught as culprit. And he asked sorry to me and my family in front of everyone. Is it some kind of a game? Or is it genuine?

Entry 21:

I am going back to Amer, it is decided. I said I am dying here every day due to him, sometimes my feelings are killed, sometimes my self-respect or sometimes by dignity. At least my father will take care of me even though I am divorcee. He almost hit me after that. But, then he said I am nobody. It hurt.

I think I will always be scared of his anger. He does not know what he does when he in a fit of his rage.

Entry 22:

He is a foolish, foolish man. His hand was hurt and I just happen to be there. Seeing an injured person and not doing anything is against my code. I just applied some medicine and he was so sarcastic about it too. He asked why I am doing this since I hate him. What is not there to understand!!! For me he is an injured party and I am just helping him, and said so. The idiot that he is, he cut his other hand! And he wanted me to nurse that injury as well. To hell with him!!! He is an idiot. Who cuts their hand like that!

Entry 23:

Today he forced me to participate in Meena Bazar. I asked him why I should do it, since just yesterday he had said I will stay here for two more days at the most. He again got angry and demanded that I participate and that no one know I am leaving. Well, I will show him what I am made of.

Entry 24:

He gave me permission to play holi. I cannot believe that he is being generous like this. What is going inside his head; another plan to humiliate me?

I am really going to miss Ammijaan, Rahim and Salima begum when I leave. Ammijaan has taken such good care of me, I never missed my mother.

Entry 25:

Kanha, what happened? What did I do? I committed a sin. There is no pardon for me and I have to take the punishment. I accidentally threw colors on Maham. That was wrong. I should not have done that. He was right, he gave me permission to play holi and I disrespected his religion. I tried telling that it was not intentional and was an accident. But he was again in his rage and he did not believe. He thought I was deliberately doing all this. He threw all my colors to ground and I am to be punished.

My punishment is to send me back to Amer tomorrow itself, in disgrace.

I apologized to Maham too. She said my mother will give me punishment as she will be here. That was news to me. I did not know that he had sent a letter to Amer, asking my mother to come. I think she has come here to rescue me and take me from this place.

ontinue soon & pm me dear...love u❤️🤗

Thanks Rani.😊

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