Jodha's Diary - Part 6 updated - Page 5

Originally posted by: tamy267

wow wow Kshithi...I am enjoying this a lot!!!! carry on buddy!🤗

in next diary u must include sword fight!!!😳

Originally posted by: sreev12

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Originally posted by: SARA4444

amazing update 😊

continue soon😊

Originally posted by: rock&roll

First of all Kshiti..Thank u so very much for sending me this Link and my sincere apologies for my late entry...😳..Hum aapke gunehgaar hain aur aap jo bhi sazaa denge hume manzoor hai😳 😉😃

The diary is indeed lovely very well written..and is a big help to me to understand Jodha's POV since I am not completely updated with many many earlier parts of the track..Plz do go on...For me ,it is reading a story since I don't even know what's going to happen while reading the diary in a lot of tracks...

Very very well written 👏👏

Now any takers for Jalal's diary here...asking in all earnestness and seriousness.😊..It would be a huge help to me guys..That way i get to see both sides of the coin really fast 😳

Originally posted by: AkDha_Fan

Lovely!!

Originally posted by: prejudiced

Lovely update.

U managed to bring in the chicken feeding and the night a drunken came storming in to her chamber

.A series of events that led to firming up her opinion of him in the initial days...explains why it takes her so long later on to forgive him post the Ruqu pregnancy MU saga.

In subsequent update, hope u plan to include the bit about the breaking of the phamous "vase" which seems to have vanished from Jalaal's chamber and left is wishing (even now) that one day he would magically produce the fixed one 😆😆😆

Originally posted by: Cleo12345

love it...please continue😃

Entry 10:

Antara asks why am I not sad for his loss and why cannot I understand his pain in all this. Yes, I feel sad for child. Yes, I feel sad for the mother who lost her child. But, I do not owe him any of my affection and condolences. Antara says that is very callous, and that I should feel sad for my husband. Why should I feel sorry for the person who destroyed my life?

Entry 11:

I have lost track of time. I do not know how many days have passed since the incident. I do not know how many days I can go on like this. I cannot take this terror, uncertainty of my life. I want to escape. I have an idea. I will go talk to him right now.

Entry 12:

What happened was totally unexpected. I was so desperate to escape from this hell that I went and told him that I killed his unborn child. I made him clear that my family had nothing to do with it. I will never forget his rage and what he is capable of when he is angry. He loses control of his senses. He tried to kill me then and there. But his chief queen came in between. She said she had evidence that proves I am innocent. I was asked to leave after that.

Entry 13:

He came to my room to ask why I lied. He was angry for the deception. I was so frustrated that I spewed all my anger on him. I said that by incarcerating your own wife without giving her chance of defense, you have insulted me and my family. I hate being married to you and face every manipulations, taunts and constant fear of my life and my family's life. I would rather die than being your wife. He left after that.

Entry 14:

He acquitted me and my family today in the court. But I will not forgive him for all the wrongs he has done for me and my family.

Entry 15:

He came to my room while I was doing my pooja. He asked about some box and I said I do not know anything. And we had some words.

But then he said that he gave full honor to all my brothers, he even made my brother a minister. And that he honored me when he released me from jail. So should I be grateful for him for releasing me and my family? He is correcting his own mistakes.

I was so angry that broke a vase. I point blank told him that you broke my dignity and self-respect just like this glass. This can never be mended. Even if this put together, the scars will not go away.

He was thoughtful for a moment and asked a servant to bring all the broken pieces to him.

Entry 16:

After he left, I looked at one broken piece of the glass left by mistake and my life looked back at me. Just like this piece of glass, my life is broken and damaged too.

I am angry with this whole world. May be I am taking all this anger on him?

First I saw my mother's temple looted and destroyed by him in front of my own eyes. I almost lost my best friend. Then my parents found a groom for me. I was asked to marry him and do my duty. I had to break my baby sister's heart to do my duty.

I came to terms with this. I slowly started to dream about my life with Suryabhan. We had common goals, i.e. defeat our enemy. I thought we can build our life together and probably come to love each other. All my dreams were shattered the day he got killed. And Amer was at war with Mughals.

Then my marriage was fixed again, without my consent. My father told me that the person I am marrying to will solve all of Amer's problems and my brothers will be freed. I had not even grieved my lost fiance. Yet, I accepted my father's wish, for Amer. I will do anything to save Amer.

It was such a shock to know just a day before my wedding that my father is giving me away to our enemy, to the person whom I hate the most. My brothers were in prison. So, my father traded me for them. My life was inconsequential in front of my brother's lives. My fathers choose them over me. And my father did not even tell me in my face of all this development. How can my own father betray me like this?