FF *Ishqzaade* Chapter 27 updated on page150*THREAD CLOSED* - Page 18

(Maham bids adieu to adham...and quickly makes her way back to the palace...so that she can reach there before jalal)

(on the other hand jalal was fuming with anger...that adham khan escaped from there and he couldn't be able to kill him...)

Jalal:- bhag lo adham...kitna bhagoge...jis din tum humare shikanje me aa gaye...bus wo tumhari zindagi ka akhiri din hoga...hum tumhe zinda nahi chorege...ek bar humse bagawat ke liye to hum tumhe maaf bhi kar dete...magar tumne jodha begum per shamshir uthane ki gustakhi ki hai...uske liye hum tumhe kabhi maaf nahi karege...hum kasam khate hai aaj...jab tak tumhe maut ke ghaat nahi utaar dete chain se nahi baithege...{ run adham run...lets see how far u can run...the day i will find you will definitely be the last day of your life...i wont let you live...i might be forgiven you for betraying me...but by targeting jodha...and hurting her...you have confirmed your death...i wont forgive you ever for that...i swear on god...i wont sit peacefully until i finish you }

(suddenly he remembered about jodha that how badly she was injured...he becomes really worried...he runs back to jodha...who is sitting on the ground...breathing heavily, holding the wound at her hand which is bleeding badly...jalal quickly moves towards jodha and sits in front of her...cups her face in his hands...really tensed... )

Jalal:- jodha begum...aap thik to hai na...ya khuda...kitna khun beh raha hai{jodha ...are you alright...oh my god...what is this...you are bleeding badly}(caressing her forhead...cupping her face in his hands...)

Jodha:- hum thik hai shenshah...chinta ki koi baat nahi hai{i am alright shenshah...nothing to worry...}

(jalal makes a really angry face...tears flowing from his eyes...)

Jalal:- thik hai aap...haan?? thik hai...kitna khun beh raha hai aur aap keh rahi hai ke aap thik hai...hume bevkoof samajh rakha hai kya...{how can you say that u are ok...when you are injured so badly...do you think i am a fool or something... who can't see anything}(he tears a piece of cloth from her dupatta and ties it tightly around her wound...continuously murmuring angrily...)

Hazaar bar kaha hai...apne apko taklif mat diya kariye...lekin aap hai ke koi fark hi nahi padta aapko...humari...humari khwahish ki...humare hukm ki to koi ahemiyat hi nahi hai na aapki nazro me...kya zarurat thi yaha rukkar apni jaan khatre me daalne ki...bar bar mana kiya humne...kha ke jayiye yaha se magar aapko to koi baat sunni hi nahi hai na...humesha apni man marzi hi karni hai....{thousands of time...i have told you...not to hurt yourself because of me...but it seems like you have no respect for my wishes or my orders...there is no importance of mine in your eyes...isn't it??...what was the need to stay here and put your life in danger...i forbidden you again and again...but you never listen to me...you always do what you want to do ...that's it}(he goes on and on...tears were continuously flowing from his eyes...jodha was very shocked to see jalal crying like that...)

Jodha:- shehnshah aap akaran hi itni chinta kar rahe hai...hum bilkul thik hai...kuch nahi hua hai hume...bus chota sa ghav hai...thik ho jayega kuch dino me...{you are getting so much worried for no reason shenshah...i am perfectly alright...nothing has happened to me...it's just a little wound...it will be fine in some days itself}

Jalal:- chota sa ghav hai ye...shayad aapki ankhen kamzor ho gayi hai jodha begum...pehle aap ye bataiye ke aapki nazro me humari icha ki koi ahemiyat hai ya nahi...{little wound?????...perhaps your eyesight have become week...are you trying to make a fool out of me...first you tell me...do i have any importance in your life or not...}

Jodha:- ahemiyat hai shenshah...isiliye to apke saath hai...isiliye to apko akela chorkar nahi bhage hum{you do shenshah...that's why i am with you... i dint leave you alone and ran away...}

Jalal:- nahi jodha begum...aap jhut bol rahi hai...koi ahemiyat nahi hai...agar ahemiyat hoti to aap humara kaha kabhi nahi talti...kyu karti hai aap esa...kyu baar baar khud ko taklif deti hai...kyu baar baar chot pahuchati hai khud ko...aap samajhti kyu nahi...hum nahi dekh sakte aapko ese...nahi dekh sakte....{no jodha...you are lying...you don't have any respect for my wishes...if you had...you never had ignored my wish...why do you do this...why you hurt yourself again and again...why you cause yourself this pain...why don't you understand...i can't see you like this...i just can't see you hurt like this jodha.}(crying badly...)😭

(Seeing his concern...jodha melts down and put her hand on jalal's face...a tear rolls down her eye)

Jodha:- hume maaf kar dijiye shenshah...aap shant ho jayiye...hum jante hai ke hum baar baar apko kasht pahuchte hai...humari wajah se apko sharminda hona padta hai...aap to yaha apna farz nibhane aaye the...aur humne apko phir se ek nayi duvidha me daal diya...{Forgive me shenshah...please calm down...i know i always cause you pain...i make you feel ashamed in front of everyone...you have come here to fulfill Ur duties... and i put you in a new dilemma }

(jalal looks at her with disgust...he shakes her shoulders...)

Jalal:- farz...aapko abhi bhi lagta hai ke humne ye sab mehez isliye kiya kyuki ye humara farz tha...kya apko sachmuch samajh nahi aa raha jodha begum ke kyu hum itne pareshan hai...kyu hume itni taklif ho rahi hai...kyu humari aankho se aansu rukne ka naam nahi le rahe...haan??{duty...do you still feel that i came here to save you just because that was my duty...are you really not getting...why i am so worried for you...why am i in so much pain...why my eyes are flooded with tears like this...}(jodha was clueless...she was not able to understand what jalal is trying to say...she looks at him confused...)

Jodha:- shenshah ...aap...aap ese vyavhar kyu kar rahe hai...itna chintit hone ki koi aavshyakta nahi hai...humne kaha na hume kuch nahi hua hai...phir kyu aap...aur aap ye sab kya keh rahe hai...hume kuch samajh me nahi aa raha...{why are you behaving like this shenshah...when i have already said that i m fine...and there is nothing to worry about...and what are you saying...i am really not getting all this...}

Jalal(burst out in anger and agony):-(gets up from there and moves his face away from jodha...getting more and more irritated with each of her questions)...yahi to baat hai jodha begum...sab kuch aapki ankho ke samne hone ke bavjud bhi aap kuch nahi samajh pa rahi...aur samjhegi bhi kaise...kyuki aap wo mehsus nahi karti jo hum kar rahe hai...kaise samjhaye aapko...kaise samjhaye...ke hume kya ho raha hai...ke ye sab mehez farz nahi hai humare liye...{see...this is the thing...everything is in front of your eyes but you are not able to understand...ohh...sorry...how will you understand...when you can't feel from what feelings i am going through right now...oh god...how can i make you understand that what am i felling...what is happening to me...that its not just a part of my duty...}

Jodha:- shenshah(amazed)...farz nahi to aur kya hai...kyu ese bol rahe hai aap...kyu itne chintit hai aap humare liye...kyu shenshah kyu...boliye kyu????{if its not ur duty then what is this...please tell me...i can't take it anymore...why you are so worried for me...why you are talking like this...why???}(She shouts)

Jalal:- kyuki hume parvah hai aapki jodha begum(looking at jodha...shouts)...bahut parvaah hai...(a bit soft now)...aapke jism per ek kharoch bhi aaye ye hum bardasht nahi kar sakte...aapko taklif me nahi dekh sakte jodha begum...bahut dard hota hai hume...bahut dard hota hai...bahut dard{because i care for you damn it...i really care for you so much...i can't even tolerate a single scratch on your body...i can't see you in trouble...it really makes me hurt...it gives me severe pain}(he cries bitterly...jodha is way too shocked...she has never seen jalal like that...)

Jodha:-(with tears in her eyes...) lekin itni parvaah kyu shenshah...aap to humse nafrat...{but why shenshah...when you hate me so much...}(jalal interrupting her in mid...)

Jalal:- nahi karte jodha begum ...hum apse nafrat nahi karte...aap janna chahti hai na ke hum ese bartaav kyu kar rahe hai...kyu itne dard me hai...kyu aap per ese chikh rahe hai...to suniye...{because i don't...i don't hate you jodha...really you want to know...why i am behaving like this...why i m in so much pain...why i m shouting at you like this...then listen }(he takes a pause...)

Kyuki mohabbat karte hai hum aapse jodha begum...bepanah mohabbat kate hai...behad mohabbat karte hai..){because i love you jodha...terribly...deeply...sanely...i love you like crazy damn it...}..(shouts loudly than ever that it echos in every direction)...nahi ji sakte hum aapke bagair... nahi ji sakte.{i can't live without you even for a sec...i just can't.}(and he completely breaks down...covers his face with his hands...crying loudly...) aapko taklif me nahi dekh sakte...nahi dekh....(terrible sobs)...{..i can't see you in pain}

(jodha's heart stopped responding for some time...her eyes floods with tears so much that...everything have become fade for her...the only thing she can see and hear ...is jalal...she was not able to believe that jalal actually said this...she was in a trance...she stood still on her position as if she has stopped breathing too for some time...her whole body became numb...she was just watching jalal w/o any expression...and tears were flowing continuously from her eyes)

(jalal composed himself...and decided that he will not keep anything inside him today...he has to release this burden of hiding his feelings... out from his heart today)

Jalal:- pata hi nahi chala...kab nafrat mohabbat me badal gayi...kab is sine me dil phir se dhadkne laga...kab us dil me aap rehne lagi...kuch pata hi nahi chala jodha(smiling but tears still flowing continuously)humne to apne dil ke darwaaze bahut kasker band ker rakhe the...khwaab me bhi nahi socha tha humne ...ke hume bhi kabhi kisi se ishq ho sakta hai...hum bhi kisi ki mohabbat me giraftaar ho sakte hai...magar esa ho gaya jodha begum(looking at her)...aap kehti thi na ke ek din aap hume maat dekar rahegi...dekhiye...hum haar gaye jodha begum...hara diya aapne hume...apna dil haar gaye hum jodha begum...hume ishq ho gaya aapse...ishq(sobs){i really dint realize...when the hatred turned into affection...my heart started beating again...and you started to live in it...really i never realized...i have never ever imagine even in my dreams that someone can open the closed doors of my heart...that i can fall for someone...but see ...it has happened jodha...you have done for what you wished always...you defeated me...you won my heart jodha...i have lost my heart to you now...i m in love with you like mad... }

(jodha still standing w/o any movement...she wants to say so many things...but don't know why she is not able to...she is just standing there and watching jalal opening his heart in front of her eyes)

(at once jalal wipes his tears and tries to be calm...as jodha dint respond...he thought that jodha dint like all this...he stands up...and looks towards jodha...she is jammed at her position)

Jalal:- hum jante hai ke bhale hi ab aap humse nafrat na karti ho...magar ye bhi sach hai ke aap humse kabhi mohabbat bhi nahi kar sakti... kyuki zakhmo ka ilaaz to kiya ja sakta hai...lekin unke nishaan taumr us chot ki yaad dilate hi rehte hai...aur humne aapko jo dard...jo zakhm diye hai...shayad uske baad aap humari mohabbat kabhi kubool na kar sake...shayad aaj ke baad aap humari shakl bhi na dekhna chahe...shayad hum isi ke layak hai...humari yahi saza hai...magar hum zindagi bhar aapse aur sirf aapse hi mohabbat karte rahege jodha...aur humara dil humesha aapke paas hi rahega kyuki ise dhadkana aapne hi sikhaya hai...iska khayaal rakhiyega...magar ek baat ki behad khusi hai hume ke aaj humare sine se ek bahut bada bojh utar gaya...akhirkar hum apne dil ki baat ko samajh paye...aapse izhaar e mohabbat kar paye...humare pyaar ko qubool karna ya na karna...ye aapke upper hai aur hum aap per koi dabav bhi nahi dalege...bas puri shiddat se aapka intezaar karege ke shayd kabhi aapko humare sachi mohabbat ka ehsaas ho jaye...{i know...though you don't hate me anymore...but it is also true that you can never love me...because...wounds can be healed but their marks remains always reminding you of that pain...and the pain that i have caused you...is unforgettable for you...and you may never accept my love after what i did to you in my ego...may be i am worthy of it only...may be i don't deserve you...but one thing that i want to tell you that...i will always love you and only you throughout my life... i have given my heart to you jodha...because you have taught it to beat...promise me you will take care for it...i m really happy today...that i said my heart to you today and accepted my feeling towards you...now its totally up to you that you accept my love or not...i won't force you too...but will wait for you all my life that recognize my true love some day}(and he faces away from jodha and starts moving in the opposite direction...he is feeling really hurt...though he said all that but still he wants jodha to call him back...he was feeling really hurt that jodha dint say anything...he was just hoping that jodha stops him)

(on the other hand...jodha is still numb...she was too lost to say anything...she came back in her senses only when she realizes that jalal is going away...she is so much moved with his words...she wants to say so many things to him...but don't know why...she was not able to...she was just watching him going away helplessly...her conscience scolded her at once...)

Jodha:-(to herself) esa mat kar jodha...mat kar esa...roke le unhe...agar aaj tune apne dil ki baat nahi maani to shayad tujhe aajivan pachtana pade...mat jane de shenshah ko jodha...roke le unhe...{don't do this jodha...don't let it happen...if you dint confess your feeling today...you might not be getting another chance...stop him jodha...stop him}

(all the flashbacks going on in her mind...how jalal married her...put sindoor in her maang...how he agreed to all her wishes...how he gave her the permission to stay in her religion...how he beg forgiveness to her and her family in front of everyone...how he saved her from drowning...how much care he had when she opened her heart in front of him...how he consoled her like a baby...all of their close moments...their first hug...the moment when she was so close to his heart...when she actually realized his heartbeats...the way she arguemented with him...and his cute smile...when she fell on him...the feeling they shared...the eye lock they had...every incident was moving in front of her eyes one by one...now she was really unable to hold her emotions...finally she realized her feelings...)

(She gathered all of her strength...she can't lose it right now...at least not now...jodha with much difficulty...in a heavy voice...finally speaks up)

Jodha: - shenshahh... (Loudly...)

To be continued...😆

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