Blast from the Past Thread #27 ** 'Finding Nai, the Barber' Break ** - Page 50

Originally posted by: aarwen

Episode 295

Am giggling madly remembering a crazy Sukhi, but it has been too long away from ASR and ab saas lene mein problem ho ri so to breathe again saw this episode.
Wish I could take away your pain..
Through the glass door in the hospital you spot di staring unblinking at a pair of scissors in her hand. My heart stills just writing it here, imagine the younger brother across the door witness to this. The setup was contrived, you had reached just in time to see her standing having reached a brutal decision in her deranged and delinquent mind.
I did think Anjali's dialogues were interesting. When she said others don't respect him and hate him I almost thought she is angry with Shyam too. But Anjali's words were not "I hate him". The viewers were already being told there is no way Anjali will believe the allegations against her husband. She will willingly destroy the life inside her. She is unstable out of her mind without the man she worshipped. Remembers how the brother who adores her threw her husband out of their home.

In my first viewing at this point I still had hope. Anjali reaches out to you as you set her on the bed. And with childlike belief wants her chote to fix everything. Make it like before. You tenderly stroke her hair, like a mother shushing her scared wailing child. A haunted look in your determined eyes. You want to protect her. You can't.. not from this..

"ye sab tumhari wajah se hua hai. Jab se tum aayi ho tab se." She stills. Way past hurting now. You are too worked up to see how much your words pain her. The trusting sweet girl who is yours and with all of her pure heart wants the very best for you and di, you are making her cry. Making her feel lost and alone.

You had to take control, scoop away the surgical instruments and send the doctor away. With infinite softness you say "main hun.. main hun" .. Seems like you will have to remind both women you love that you are also a person.. With a heart and feelings and not a super human rock to depend upon.. Your di's child, how could you not love the child? You, who have hurt the girl you loved madly, tortured her, left her crying in the cold all for this child and di.

In a quiet firm voice you try to calm down your sister. Oh you poor chote! cradling your ailing sister. I see how tired you are. At fourteen perhaps you had to go through a similar harrowing experience, we never shall know the details of, because the writers forgot that the viewer might have wanted to know more. To a casual onlooker it might have looked that ASR was the one most hurt by the experience, but ASR had the strength to fight it for his di's sake. It was the smiling affectionate di who was brittle inside. Who needed someone else's strength to survive. You know that, which is why you have always taken care of her. Made that your reason to live.

Di is talking to you again. I really was hopeful. And then she says she wants him back...

"Calm down. Pehle aap chup ho jao, please." Who can say you are just a paid actor doing his job in a long running daily soap. A live breathing brother out in the real world might not have emoted this depth of emotion as Barun does here. And not melodramatic in the least bit. Marvellous acting. and I thought Anjali rather Daljeet acted well too. As brother and sister both actors gave us fresh believable scenes which have always been a pleasure to watch.

And now starts the delusion. She does not want to accept the truth. Make it better, make the sadness go away. Demanded the child as the helpless parent looked on. She cries some more, you look completely torn and helpless. The man who must have worked hard ensuring di never had to face a moment of sadness, uncertainty and loss ever again for as long as you were with her, which would be each of your breathing waking day of your life. Your di's home is destroyed, and you can't mend it. In fact you are the harbinger of this destruction and in di's mind perhaps your own wife is the cause of it.

"I am sorry di.. Really sorry".. Both siblings in a hug, crying for today and for a past that they had wanted to leave behind, but the shadows always loom. Had Khushi heard the defeated sorrowful moan from ASR would she have been affronted by the outburst for as long as she did?

A few words from mami and you have a reason to break the hard fought on control.. Oh that exquisite anger! How your words tear and wound your beloved.. You are heartbroken seeing di in such a state. And all the frustration helpless hot acid rage is lashed at the one person completely your own.

"Kyu Khushi?"! The voice raised in pitch reaching the perfect decibel. Khushi stood at a loss of words, suddenly facing the anger of her Arnavji.

"To hell with your sirf!" that's right.. Don't wait for her to complete her sentence.. Stride towards her as she cowers startled by your sudden outburst. A sudden vulnerability dripping in your words. "Tum soch bhi nai sakti maine di ko aaj kis halat mein dekha hai". You were terrified for your di, but Khushi didn't see the scene in the hospital. She can make assumptions, but she did not witness it.

"What did you tell di that she was forced to take such an extreme step?" You aren't angry with khush, as much yet. You are trying to find a way to channel out the fear, panic, frustration at being helpless and seeing di broken.

Khushi tries to respond. A little self righteousness. I have been this way in fights. Sounded much more holier than how I actually felt. Felt more wronged at being misunderstood by the one I love madly. She loves di a lot, but her love for di cannot compare to ASR's love for Anjali. But she has to say it to you because she believes it to be true at that moment. And I know you would believe her, you know how much she cares for di, but you are not thinking straight at the moment.

If mamiji was telling her all this Khushi's response would be different. The hurt and indignation would be different. You are her Arnavji, her very own reason for existence and you are being unreasonable and mad at her for some mistake that was not deliberate. Yes a real life fight with messy vortex of emotions that I find you both plummeting into. The tension of the past few days, the intense scare of the past few hours, everything reaching a heady climax in these heated words.

It's a way of loving too, being comfortable enough around a person to let go of restrain. To allow your feelings to surface and be free to let them take any shape you want. Not caring if they are pretty or correct, just free flowing with instinct. If we had to be politically correct all our life even with ourselves we would be stifled.. no outlet... bound. With ourselves and if we are lucky with some special others we can be just be our true self. No faade. That is this fight tonight.

The words being spoken, meant to wound, actually are meaningless. The pain is what is wretched out of the gut. but your pain takes the form of uncontrollable anger. How can she make you understand when you are furious and unwilling to listen? when you are hurtful and insensitive. And you have hurt her so much that she almost forgets how much you are hurting because of all this too.

You don't even want to look at her, with your back turned, your voice raw and heavy. "Tum mere zindagi mein aayi kyu? Main tumse mila hi kyu?" Why did you enter my life? Why did I meet you?

Complete nonsense. Hurting. Irrational. Un raizada like or maybe exactly like the hot tempered man who rips girls doris and her heart. Only this time it hurts much more because you are the owner of her heart. It is ripped and shred into pieces. I remember that day on the bright terrace when you had lashed out at her calling her characterless and left the shattered girl to weep alone. The thoughts you utter out loud have the power to inflict pain upon her.

"Sab kuch kitna achcha tha. Sabse important baat di khush thi." your words are mean and wrong. It is all her fault. How? You know that is not true.. Sadly you are not in the state to think and hearing these words even she isn't. She can be sensible, but not this time. Not when your anger is biting and words echoing within her, leaving a vacuum.

Stride away muttering "It's the biggest mistake of my life Khushi Kumari Gupta. Wish I had never met you." You are angry. Not thinking. You are Arnav Singh Raizada the man with the hot acid temper and sharp tongue. You don't see the lone tear escape her eyes. She is miserable.. Same thoughts of blaming herself must have been in her head too, but to hear it from you. Spoken in a harsh convincing voice. Do you realize what you just did to her? The wounds your scathing words left behind in the loving simple girl..

I know this is the girl who is so completely yours, belongs to you just like you belong to her.. I can't grudge you this single outburst. What you went through is too much. You are not the one to cry and curl in someone's lap.. not now at least.. you had boiling unmanagable volley of emotions inside you and this eruption was the only way you could share it with the one you love.. hum samajhte hai ASR.. we understand..

Consistent with your character a lone drive in your SUV. I shudder to even see Anjali standing with the scissors and imagine what must you have felt. You who have tried so hard to keep her happy and sheltered from any discomfort. You who remember the laughing young bride who watched her mother die on the very same day. You who have spent years living for only one person.. Di..

A gradual change in memories I witness in you.. your face relaxes just a little. A deluge of moments... of a young bright girl you love.. Whose single tear torments you.. Someone as important as your di. Someone who found you.. Ran and hugged you.. Trusted you.. Loves you.. Whom you love.. Someone who had never wanted anything from you, just tried hard, with all of herself, to be there for you.. Someone whom you almost lost and stopped breathing at the very thought.

The last voice over was not needed. your "dammit!" and face say it all.

Before I forget I had to mention.. mamiji was absolutely awful. Khushi made a mistake, tried to be a little too goody goody and I didn't like her preachy tone with Anjali, still mamiji was hurtful and after a while there is just no excuse for this kind of behaviour.

Nani was again not her usual self today. All worry for her missing broken grand daughter, a fit of tears and panic. She was not her strong level headed self. I try to reason that she was extremely anxious for the well being of Anjali, still it felt like she almost dismissed the feelings of the daughter in law of the house. The nani I look upto, the nani who ASR looks upto also went missing in these episodes am not really sure why.

Originally posted by: Horizon

Great to see you back rhea. lovely take. agree on all counts..yes absolutely right about anjali being the more broken one among the siblings..if he masked his hurt with anger, she did in that excessively sweet demeanor... any emotion in excess sure can work like a safe haven.. almost like an addiction... his anger, anjali's sweetnes and Khushi's over chirpy to sanka.. I was watching the first raakhi episodes the other day, he had back to back fights with both Khushi and anjali ..intense they were.. and this story is indeed about these three people..

his outburst, the entire key is in his first line I thought, "you can't even imagine what I had to witness"..becos he had to see some thing unimaginable, he would say unimaginable stuff to Khushi.. a one to one balance sheet.. for his lost emotional balance ...
ofcourse Khushi being preachy to anjali was not at all needed. but the Shyam nail in the head was just not needed..

but so true what you say about the travails of the need to be politically correct even with dear ones.. there wouldn't have been a concept of family and home..
the drive in the night... how in character..his abode, his lap...that mechanical 4 wheeler...classic case of a loner..

mamiji certainly has no excuses.. after she helped Khushi during the first phase of kidnap I could never anticipate her going to back to the taunting self...but then that saas like spice is needed may be for regular daily soap kitchidi..

nani always panicked for anjali i thought, even the day akash's wedding and the accident

nice edits rhea..

Originally posted by: wiwy

⭐️ Rhea 295

Great take R! And the edits caught his pain so well! In this bro sis relationship he was the stronger no doubt. He must have been younger by 6 to 8 years minimum as Anjali was of marriageable age when the tragedy took place. If it hadn't been for him I think she too would have committed suicide...it seems to be the sort of thing she would have done when her marriage didn't take place.I am sure it was he who sambhaloed her then too instead of the other way round. And why was she trying to kill the baby? All her pooja path boiled down to this?! Trying to murder an innocent? I think Arnav was too sweet with her. And directed his anger at Khushi. She was the only person he could bare his heart to.

Originally posted by: cinthiann1758

Rhea👏👏👏Just amazing seriously just amazing. It seems like forever that I have read and responded...ad has truly gotten in the way with ambulances and back braces and Sukhi taking precedence but alas I am here and there you are with this review. I think I would rather have you as writer of the episodes you see so clearly the intensity and plight of each and every character. So difficult a younger brother witnessing his sister in such delirium and then too hear the blame for his sister's reaction is with his love, his wife. Argghhh terrible dilemma. Yes I agree Mamiji was hurtful, I didn't understand why she behaved with Khushi that way since she too came from modest means. Naniji I always loved her but we all know that our characters at times forgot who they really were because the written word penned by the CT said so.

Thanks again for this ... Will have to go back and read Indi and Soha too!

I am so thrilled for Barun but a sadness has filled my heart as well for my ASR is no more, just in my dreams. He will now form other men whom I will fall in love with again but ASR no one does ASR but Barun. I even saw it in MAMR that look in his eye as he carried the girl out of the pool! My heart fluttered when I caught a glimpse of ASRish in him!

Originally posted by: indi52

rhea,

we were both reading and writing furiously at the same time... he he. loved your take. yes, yeh ekdam live ka chakkar and of vourse she should have forgiven him a little sooner.. and if we needed contract talk and separation, no problem, we could have had another gorgeous scene as a result... as i havd just written above. i liked your delve i to why khushi said what she did and her self righteoys air going up the more guilty shd felt... could be... again, this could havd beenaddressed in tracks more to do with emotions and people instead of all those super wanton action based tracks. ipk in its first rwo hundred episodes had minimal "things happened" sort of story telling... but of great significance all the thibgs that happened were, they had a place in the tale. and those episodes had a huge amount of human character eploration. which is why we understand all of them so much. now it's all crazy levels of things happened kind of things happening... sigh.

Originally posted by: kizh72

Rhea, had missed seeing you around, lovely take of 295. We all wish they had done things differently. That molly coddling of Anjali by everyone, it would've been nice from where that started. The Anjali they started off with, seemed much more confident and together, did she need help getting there? Ha, I guess we'll be left with questions! Khushi talking with Anjali, I couldn't stand it too, if she had just asked her to eat and left it at that, would've been okay. But this was totally insensitive, the way it came across. Was watching episode 56 the other day, that clear eyed girl, why did they take her away?!!!!! Along with his gussa, suv, Bluetooth the whole works! post remarriage. Watching the reruns at the moment, feel a total disconnect. Him drumming and playing basketball(don't mind that)? The ASR we know would've worked his ass off, with no time for anything else. Worked multiple jobs, teaching assistantships, the works (Why the hell don't I get such TA's, my doubts will be never ending!!!!😆 Tomorrow if I were to take a TAship, some one would say, why do I get this old hag and not some young hot chick! Oh well!) Good to see you around.

Originally posted by: aarwen

Hahaha you want TA's like that? I sadly can't ask for a TA since I only get interns.. but none nowhere like that..

Aww you go be TA and I wish you a boss like a certain rude handsome devil incarnate with that heart of gold.. yehi meri dua hai kizhe..

Thanks for liking what I wrote.. have missed this place too.. loved all your discussions with the new and old by the way..

Am quietly whispering a few things in your ear.. hope no one hears.. Just because I liked Barun playing basketball I sort of want to make the excuse that being away from people and places that reminded him of the past might have given him a chance to breathe.. and basketball helped with the tension of forging a future for himself so his di's future is stable..

On a serious note I know how you must feel. It was like we started watching a completely different show where the characters were someone else completely or no one particular at all (eg. all the other family members were reduced to nothing). You know in the basketball match I was so frustrated with khushi's antics and her silly attire as she walked in that I almost for half a second thought in my head that ASR deserves someone atleast as smartly dressed and elegant as Sheetal. please please don't come murder me in my sleep.. I just mean Khushi was shown to be completely silly and out of element. This was not the girl ASR would fall in love with, right? or even if she was could ASR not see her feel insecure?