Blast from the Past Thread #25 ** Abducted Dreams ** p 129, ep 257 - Page 81

Originally posted by: aarwen

Episode 251

What I see is a girl in love. Who wants nothing else. No one else but the man she loves dearly and deeply.

Murphy's law states that anything that can go wrong will go wrong. Your wallet is empty. Your cab arrives late. You get stuck in a traffic jam. You left your phone at home. And all you want to do is reach the airport on time to stop the person you love the most in the world from leaving. Happens in asli duniya, happened to Khushi as well. she can't enter inside. He isn't picking her calls. How helpless she must be!

A whimsical gust of wind blew and the one trying to run away knew she was there. The same wind made her turn around so that her starving eyes could get a glimpse of the man she wanted to find. A minute movement of the left muscle near his lips and you know there was a smile. His heart had leapt in joy to see her come. To see her care. Their eyes met. The camera movements managed to give us an illusion of nearness and of distance. She stared. He was within reach yet so far.

He turned and continued to walk away. She called. He could not bring himself not to answer her call. She needed him to listen to her once. At least once. Just this once. But she uttered the unmentionable name and his fury returned in full force. He cut the call. And strode in the opposite direction from his wife. She stood lifeless. Her fingers reaching out, curled across the glass door. Something brittle yet strong about glass. A barrier between the star crossed lovers. The life slowly slipping away away from her with each step he took that made him more and more unreachable to her. Maybe it was because of this intense agony that her face seemed a little inert. Too much to feel inside. Numb on the outside. Comprehending, processing too complex at the moment. Pain constricting her every breadth...

A slightly abrupt cut of scene. She stood with her eyes lowered and suddenly he was right there before her. "Tumne mujhe jane nai diya". The truth. He could not leave her in the broken state that she was in. A keen sixth sense of perhaps the impending doom which is why she stood tensed. Disoriented and cut off from the surrounding. She had laid her faith on a vicious man doing a right thing. There was gain in this for him so she hoped he would get there. Her last resort to get Arnavji to believe her.

Too distraught to care that she was getting pushed by the approaching crowd. But he did. She should not get harmed. Once he started he never could stop being protective of her. He moved closer and framed her with his strong arms on each side. No one else could cause her trouble except he himself. Was that not a tell tale sign of love?

They stood silently staring at each other. The world forgotten. Just two people in love and the certainty of time slipping by. Could he not see the sincerity in her despairing eyes? Tender piano notes chimed in. She tries to stop him. But he is harsh today. Has to be if he wants to remain detached. The last flight announcement has been made. Her time is up. A sense of urgency. He stopped . He wanted her to prove her innocence. Wished it badly. "Kahin ek hope thi ki shayad tum galat nai ho." . He longs for that. But is hurt too many times to take a leap of faith in love again.

Beseeching for him to believe her. Each second my heart clenches and shrinks further. Coiling biting pain like I am seeing someone dear leave. Like I am seeing someone equally dear powerless to hold on to her life. She lost her last chance. "Gotta go now".. When will we hear that accent again? His voice thick with anger. Yet his face seems immobile just like his heart. Everything held in control today. The eyes cant lie though. Windows to his soul they show the torment. She puts her hand on his shoulder. I like this display of right over him just like how moments before she had wretched out the ticket from his grasp.

He jerks her hand away. Why is it important for you to prove your innocence? "kyu tumhe itna farak parta hai"? If he could think clearly in this moment what would he have hoped to hear? "Kyu farak parta hai? Baat aapki hai isliye farak parta hai.. Kisi aur ki hoti toh nai parta.. Agar aap hi aise chale jayenge toh hum saans hi nai le payenge..." Beautiful confession of an everlasting emotion.. She served her heart and all that love on a silver platter to him. Isn't this what he longed to hear. That he was important. He was the center of her universe really. She could not live without him. His wretched eyes know this, his expressions melt and yet he moves away. She reached out and placed her hand in his. "mat jayiye", whimpered his wife. Another valiant effort washed away. He pries away his hand while two girls, one on screen and one off, sob their heart out. It really feels like the last embers of life were slowly leaving her body. It is getting increasingly difficult to watch now. Painful to breath. How will the girl bear this? He gave her a chance and now he really is leaving.

Truthfully, as he strides away, it is not that much the acting today or the general cinematography which did not enhance the features of the actors, but the premise. The crossroad where they are parting ways today. The deluge of memories as they engulf him overwhelm me too. The tenderest unforgettable moments of love that they created for us and each other. One year and two characters who became indispensable to each other and us. I wish there was a magic spell I could cast to suck the sadness and shower them with everlasting happiness. But for now we have to watch them destroy themselves in acute wretched suffering.

He remembers an angelic voice saying "jab bhi aap humare paas aate hai humari dil ki dhakne tez ho jati hai". If only he knew how her heart beat when he came near.. dhak dhak dhak.. He remembers the girl fast asleep holding onto his tshirt. Trusting him enough to be herself around him. "jab jo bura kiya uska koi matlab nai, jab jo buara kaha uska koi matlab nai, is pyar mein sahi galat ka koi matlab ni bas ek chiz ka matlab hai..ki main ..hamesha..hamesha tumse.." . He remembers the impromptu lines he delivered as Ranjha. Where had the words come from since no one gave him what to say.. He has to realize today.. Why does he feel this way. Something exhulting in this love story. You feel it in the happy moments and you also live it in the sad ones. "kyu Khushi se dur jane mein itni takleef ho ri hai?" What his di had told him many many days ago has never been truer. Going away from Khushi is like moving away from life. Death is preferable to separation from her. Again that smile on his features. A split second of happiness. Alas he did turn, but an ominous hand stops him. She stares at the plane flying overhead, we are told he is not in it. It is going to be very lonely without him. But he had smiled slightly before leaving us.

Originally posted by: ArshiHamesha

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Arshi's Index

EPISODE Part 246-Part 247

Special Edition

Why?

Why? This is the word which provokes to find the true nature of any matter and to go in deep we search ourselves and critique others.Khushi did possible everything to find the answer of her question "Why did he marry me this way?"...She will get answer today...but Arnav will add another why? "Why didn't you bother telling me even ?

Arnav took his challenge and thought whatever he did was the best solution but got entangled in between his own tracks "Why did she betray us , me and my love? And soon he will be saying that "Why didn't you tell me if you were innocent?

Today this why is going to bring them at another why? The bridge of Why will seem so long to be crossed till it will turn evening for Arnav and then his plea and yelp won't seem working for him...

"Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own ~ Robert A. Heinlein"

Arnav's first"why ?" alarmed him with her Khushism ..."Jayie arnav singh raizada, humne aap ko maaf kiya... and he said ,"what the " to fulfill her wish unconsciously "Yahi What the sun ke jana chahte thay.."...but his tenderness and concerns about her soaking him in deep distress. oh that tenderness, faiqa, so fills the heart... just as sweet as his harshness is harsh. ...Where she is going?...Which couple of seconds Amma and Buaji asked her but didn't pay attention to her craziness ... yet only Arnav is keeping an eye on her through hangman's noose since yesterday as she is acting weirdly without eating, sleeping and all..."tum theek ho" ...as he asked her already and now after finding out the answer of his own "Why" ... missing stars and the Brighest STAR of his life he runs as fast as he can...as his whole world is being snatched away in these couple of seconds of Darkness...In these couple of seconds his past , present ,and future is mingling with all of the desperation, trepidation, fear , desolation, despair and melancholy .He knows what she is up to and he calls her and kya karoon iss paagal ka...she picks up the phone ...Hey DM ...seriouslykiss mitti ki bani hai yeh....She directs him to move so she doesn't fall on him...

Questions starts running in his brain, "What?" and her voice makes him to turn and look up.His whole body gets halt in that moment and he couldn't move ...his voice only picks up a courage of FEAR losing her ..."Khushi"...

He stares at her frenetic state and position inces away from death...and that makes him to move his acts..." don't move!!! stay there... main aa raha hoon!...[I am coming...]... he will not let her make any mistake, he will be there for her, to stop her from hurting herself,and it also shows while making his life comfortable, she will put her life in deep danger because of her impulsive nature.That does show at the cliff where he has to come with his heartbeat to bring her back...

First time when I saw that, I was paralyzed seeing her and him like this. To dissect this scene I had to stop million times.Sorry guys but it is really horrific .If it is for me then how the heck he can stay in his senses seeing his wife killing herself like that.impossible...

Awww ..Sanka is at her peak..."lo... inheenka kaam kar rahain hain aur humain rok rahain hain..." [see, I am doing his work and he is stopping me.]...Khushi is Khsuhi complete"paagal" in her husband words... He runs as fast he can after his life and they are on a terrace again once more time but only two of them...Yes ...His Rose without thorn meaning without Shyam...but he is still a thorn.That dreadful night Arnav wanted to be alone with her and today he got his wish but circumstances are different.

Seeing Khushi trying jumping ,his hand reaching out trying to stop her,"khushi!". ...I hate this seeing him again the same dreadful experience of his mother from which he never came out and now seeing his Khushi going through with that."Kyuon kood jaogi tum.." [Why will you jump] i felt they could have gone into his panic a bit more... more anger, more yelling... and leater when she heard of his mother's suicide, a feeling of remorse in her, of consoling him, without saying anything, just finally getting his extra panic... nice that might have been.

Pondering connected Dots: if only she had seen the shock at Heer's words "Hum mar jaayenge" during the Heer-Ranjha act,if only she had noticed that he couldn't meet her eyes when he said that he didn't and never did love Lavanya - She would have seen the love he has for her in his eyes.

But Khushi is so desperate for Arnav to find his happiness & for that she is ready to self sacrifice her, this is the Khushi most of us know & have been missing, who understand & nurtures her relationship, We have never seen Khushi express her love for Arnav because she hasn't yet accepted that she loves him. She knows somewhere, deep in her heart, that she does have feelings for him - but she's afraid to give it a name after Diwali as she has been hurt before and she's afraid to be hurt again. But that doesn't stop her from loving him. It is this love that pushes her to take an extreme step. She goes to meet death with a clear conscience - that she has said goodbye to all her loved ones, she has left her imprint in each of the gifts she left for them, and she has paved the way for two true lovers to unite by forgiving all the hurt,rudeness, and harsh treatments.

Pondering connected Dots:it is this love for him that will make Khushi leave Arnav, for his sake, for his sister's sake. When she found out about Shyam's true identity first time, it was for Arnav. She knew that Anjali was the most important person in Arnav's life, and to hurt Anjali was to hurt Arnav. For Arnav's sake, she kept quiet, for love's sake she kept Shyam's true identity a secret.

"Raat mein dayein se teesra jo sabse zyaada chamak raha hai", "Aap aur Lavanyaji yaha neeche khush rahiye, hum upar theek hai" ...This shows her deep love for him and second shows he wants his proximity for life...After even death she wishes to be near him , seeing him smiling and happy...as a Bright star looking and directing and showing the way in his life as always... She already is the brightest star in his life without dying. She has been the one to bring out the human Arnav from ASR. Whatever emotions were controlled by ASR so many years were let loose only after Khushi challenged him, stood up to him, nettled his ego, and faced him with her naturalness. She has always been his guiding light, an angel and she will always be there for him to light up his way.

In the second line, She is willing to let go of her love to someone else, as long as he is happy, with the one he truly loves.Need I say more about Khushi's love for Arnav?

Symbolism and connection: Stars !! Khushi , a Bright star is indicating the distance in between them and she is light so He will be in dark meaning CVs did good for giving us hint as he is going...Also clutches the star in his hand, does not let go of it and running outside to bring HIS star home, into his life is the indication also , he is the one who will bring her to life and win her back..." I will win you back..." tumhain paa keh rahoonga..."

My biggest grabber is She was afraid at first and reluctant and above all Sunlight was bothering her to make decision too...it is hard for her to remove herself from her Arnavji.She was procrastinating with a load of silly reasons about jumping from the terrace, but the moment Arnav came there, she saw her love, and her love for him was her courage. His presence, his face as she steeled herself to take that step, the good memories of them together - all rolled into love - all gave her the courage to meet death for his sake only...

Pondering connected Dots:Loop is closing as Khushi did not let Arnav finished telling her the reason of his breakage from Lavanya and today Arnav stated explicitly why he broke up with Lavanya, He has said that he broke the alliance because He NEVER loved Lavanya "main Lavanya se pyar nahin karta tha aur issliye main ne tum se shaadi nahin ki..."..., If Only Khushi would see and understand why he made a move to her and married her...uhhh...Paagal indeed!!!

But at the same time her TRUST which she lost then is still shaky and soon is going to shatterd..."Jab koi aapke vishwaas ko choor choor kar de tou hum kaise bharosa kar sakte hain kissi par..." is coming in the picture too...

My grabber is he is answering her without looking at her as he can't show her HIS love and is unable to see her Love too..."Aap unse pyaar karte hai, aur hum..." - a moment filled with the unsaid love left hanging in the air, the disappointment that she is not 'THE ONE' in his life,

So appropriate FB's today and these are the same which they shared during Holi while he moved forward and held her hand...That shows their strong bonding attraction in between them . Khushi's sees him as her savior, herMaseeha, Who she trusts and loves with her life and she can do anything for his happiness and pleasure .She remembers Arnav taking her in his arms and nursing her... While Arnav sees his RIGHT on her...by stamping her by putting payal on her and kissing her by sharing passionate moments...

Once again after his mom's death , Khushi is his life no matter how much he is jealous or in rage but still she is his one true LOVE... He was unable to stop it from happening the first time, and this time, it is his own life that is leaping into death.He tries his best distracting her but in vain.

Pause here: "Breathe..." "hamari saansein rukne waali hai" - this is the 2nd time she mentions her dying, first was at the Heer-Ranjha act, she eats the sweet - meethe muh ki mauth - Her life will be in danger ..

His eyes, his voice and his actions beg her to come down and stay safe with him. He has always saved her and now too he will be there -...He is determined...After sharing immense love and intense emotions, Khushi finally makes peace with herself her past, her present, and her dreams and prepares for the leap... ,"Hum Theek hain..." Hum tayar hai..."...

Pondering connected Dots: They fallen together under a shower of petals...one day before.. was thinking of that too...

Arnav rememebr the time she had fallen on to his hand ..Like a Rose among his thorns is yearning for his safe heaven and Love. The gripping emotions represses his malice and hate, and Fear of Loss gives him the wings to leap to bring her in his safe heaven ,in his arms , in his Life away from all the harms... The fear is so fresh and compelling that he doesn't let her goeven after she struggles against him... .

Arnav is thoroughly shaken by Khushi's attempt of death and that has broken Arnav's emotional wall.He turns around for not showing his vulnerability to her , for not letting her peak in his love for her. He twirls around with anger and pain and holds her in his strong hold"what the hell were you thinking!..."

he is going to tell her whatever she wants after seeing her stubborn state because of his coldness and shrewdness...."maine yeh sab lavanya ki vajah se nahin kiya... "[ I didn't do all of this because of lavanya,]..Khushi is adamant,"jhoot mat boliye...[don't lie]
Arnav with raging anger ..."main jhoot nahin bol raha hoon..." [I am not lying.]...Khushi with continuous pressure..."then tell me why did you marry me.?" Humain sach jane ka poora haq hai..." [I have a right to know the truth]... "har pal yeh sawal humain khata rehta hai..." [every moment, this question is eating me.]

One more time Dark memories of dreadful night which are eating him all the time rushes to Arnav to make his bright surroundings dark ..."chod dijiye Anjali ji ko..." ..her dreadful words which brings his cindering Lava up to the surface...and Shyam's hold on her which resulted in their marriage explodes the opening of his bubbling volcano to echo the Truth in each of her veins...

"kyunki main tumhare aur shyam ke baare mein jaanta hoon..."[ because I know about you and Shyam...]...The stillness of the surrounding halts the air in between them... 👏 👏 👏
"jaanta hoon ki tumhare aur shyam ka affair chal raha hai!"[I know you have an affair with him] "issliye ki maine tumse shaadi."[that's why I married you.]Finally his CHOT is out with a bang...

...and she stood frozen in his hold just like that dreadful night ...He married her out of jealousy and hate seeing her in other man's hold and she was ready to give in her life for his happiness because she thinks he loves some one else..."Hum dono kitne ajeeb hain..."

Arnav's answer leaves Khushi numb and Khamoshi envelops her visage...- the man for whom she was giving up her life has been thinking of her That low..."Because you don't have a character..." A character which she holds the most more than her LOVE and today that LOVE is staining her with that title...

i feel all sorts of things as i read this... moving... the most significant thing to me while watching this desperation and this revelation on a barren terrace, is that all of this is possible... misunderstandings of this nature can happen quite easily and when the feelings and emotions are too much it really rips people apart... the heart bleeds, the mind shreds... you can't think can't feel just a madness takes you with it. their acting took it to that level and just now as i read your words again i went there... beautifully and sensitively felt, faiqa.

Pause here:"Hum Raaste se hat jate"..and Mamiji saying "main DI ki Khushi ke liye apni Khushi qurbaan kardoonga !! during Teej...Yes , Khushi will remove herself from Arnav's life for Anjali's happiness but at that time , both will be aware of the innocent love of one another.Also "Nanhi Khushi" is indicating again the child's arrival is not possible... Loved the Rabba ve today,it felt justified.

~~Love conquers all things. ~ Virgil~~

Pondering connected Dots: He will bow in front of her for her special upbringing and character.

Khushi ends up with "Why?" and silence...Why should I give any answer or ask question when I mean nothing

Originally posted by: aarwen

Episode 250

The plot is thinning. well said. it's thinning, almost curdling and soon will scatter, separating. Barun's screen time is reducing. Am sitting watching wondering. Soon what will I be writing?

They want me to believe that right in the middle of a working day in AR office Shyam coolly sits in ASR's glass walled room on his chair. silly, wasn't it? so i just didn't pay it any attention... soon, i think if i write at all it will just be about khsuhi or asr or the two together. first viewing of course had no idea that the plot will fail to this extent, there still was some excitement about a hidden abductor, a new character, story getting denser. now we know none of all that is happening... but some spectacular asr khsuhi scenes are still there... reason i am still here.

"Tentative interiors of the office we were discussing.." Now why aren't the meetings that I attend this entertaining? He continues to do whatever important thing he is immersed in while his wife waits outside for him. Restlessly she paces. Heart in deep constriction. breathing is already difficult when he is this mad at her. Fighting back tears. A desperate girl. As the minutes crawl by her eyes get repeatedly drawn to the clock. She sits tensed. Hands clenched together. Attempting to bear the pain that steadily, ruthlessly courses through each vein in her body.

I miss the breeze that would bring that mehsoos right in with a cheerful rabba ve on to the screen. He notices her first. A split second of softening in expression. wonder if these were directed or the actor felt his way through the way he thought was natural. She looks up and almost breaks into a tentative relieved smile. Breathing just became a tad easier. He is in front of her. Her starving eyes can feast on the face of the man she loves. Just having him in front of her brightens up her world. She means to rise but he resolutely walks on. Nice body language by Sanaya. She sits down again Rigid, but her body is held forward. A bird perched to fly off. A yearning that he will call her and let her talk to him. A sense of nervous energy in the way she holds herself.

I do get disturbed thinking did Arnav have to continue to disbelieve his wife? The hurt was sharp and extensive but surely love conquers all. Pauses at the staircase. About to turn but controls himself. Yes a full scale fierce battle rages within him. Was it possible to get more dejected than she was already? Some thoughtful person brings her water. The smile as she shakes her head pierces my heart really. In life we have to do what we do to keep up appearances. But out of the hundreds of people we meet each day one day we sometimes mange to find someone who is it. The center of our universe. If he smiles your heart is happy. And if something is wrong with him you might as well stop breathing. nice writing. She sits in a crowded reception area, but in reality she sits all alone. Solitary, deserted, friendless removed from the world. Only one man matters. Only one man is needed for her survival. And that man refuses to talk to her. Will not believe in her innocence.

Far across the distance and spaces between them in his own barren land sits he. Punishing himself and the girl he loves. This scenes takes me back to the tortured ASR in the early days of the show. How each time he would be intensely affected by the very girl who is now his wife. He wants to check on her. Instinctively knows how badly he is hurting her. Their eyes meet. A sense of timelessness in their suffering. Centuries of lovers have endured this tragedy in uncertainty, jealousy, treachery.

Each relives the hurtful moments. She remembers her wedding. Disturbs me to think that later this is the wedding she will think of as incomplete. yeah, because trp seeking means throwing in a wedding and so let's do remarriage... there is no faith in beauty in thsi world iis there. to wreck ipk so callously. ah well. this was her wedding, that sindoor was what she always wore after that, and the mangalsutra. at this point sanaya possibly has no idea there will be remarriage, nor does director, so they put everything into creating the moment when she will say, this and only this was her marriage... but... Barun's face radiates a sense of soreness. Unimaginable agony. ASR strides out of his office. I don't really like him leaving his wife behind. These two people are not really sane at this instant. Hurting too much. Not aware of what is around them. She follows him out. I felt a little lack in acting from Sanaya or maybe just a rushed up scene as he drives away. I was confident that he would atleast ask her to get in and fasten that seatbelt.😳

I wonder if Barun didn't have to go would ASR have not heard her out even now? I would like to believe it is more a demand of the script right now. He is in immense pain. But he has never been able to be angry for long with that jhalli of his. Anyway we don't always make the wisest of choices. Both the protagonists are human really. One not in the mood to thaw anytime soon. And the other in a do or die situation. Perfect time for Shyam to swoop in bringing in that temptation of a bright rosy future. And so the hapless victim signed a deal with the devil!

He walked into the room still in a bad mood. Immediately notices her missing presence. The wind chime, the poster, the dash of color. He loves her. He had said he would not treat her as his wife but when has she listened to him? Went ahead and made the room half hers too. In a fight you often reach that space when nothing you do, will be right in the eyes of the person you are in this situation with. A bit of hurt that she doesn't actually belong to him. He does not want her. Lots of concern for him. Her presence must be bothering him.

I just can't bear this flinging away those stars. You sort of resign yourself to the fact that no matter what she does he is going to continue to lash out at her. Be impossibly mean to her. Bruise her arm and batter her soul. Rhetorical question he asks of her, "Who gave you permission to change stuff?" She inadvertantly caused upheaval in his life since the moment she entered it. That first time he felt her in his arms and held her close. There was no looking back since then.

"Kisi ne nahi. Aur ye baat hume aaj pata chali..." That I safely kept treasured your mannat ki chabhi, with full right preached the righteousness of marriage, dragged you to attend pujas, fed you jilebis, I had no right to do those things. That I made you laugh, made you aware, made you alive, I had no right to do those things. That I made you mine and became yours, I had no right to those things. 👏 👏 We keep discussing this inherent sense of haq and crossing over into each other's personal space, that these two had for each other. Today she wants to step back. Not hurt him with her intrusion into his room, his life. The games she played to teach laad governor a lesson could only be played with the person who belonged to her. But if he wants nothing to do with her she will withdraw. If he doesn't like her face how distressing it must be to be surrounded by her stuff. He can keep this room which is his and she will sleep out of it.

There is a sense of bechari too that I get. There has to be some way she can convince him of the truth. Immediately too. And which does not involve anything to do with a certain viscous inhuman Shyam. Also Sanaya's acting feels a bit off. They don't really say it but it is not all really for Arnavji. She is hurt and this is her way of showing that hurt too. It is a mixture of sadness and care is what I feel.

But he will not let her move away. He will be mean to her. Like I said, there is no winning for Mrs Raizada tonight when her husband has decided he will remain unreasonable. Loss of control. Slam the sliding glass door, throw down that pillow. Get angrier and scarier by the second. Fling her on the bed and command her to sleep there. Turn off the light and lie down in his office clothes. How real and harrowing can this fight get? Throbbing, aching, echoing sad rabba ve will be their lullaby this awful night.

Originally posted by: Horizon

Rhea, that is a wonderful laying down of the emotions of their most painful separation..

that in blue... masterly..true for him as well .. how much he is torn between to be and not to be.. the fight between his dil and dimaag quite evident on his visage..some thing he wouldn't let come out during Diwali .. (it could be due to the double shooting of barun) but how that strained look suited his quite visceral pain... but only his frame was moving there everything inside pretty much left back...their moments of together ness he recalled .. it was almost a submission to his heart when he turned back in the end..

Loved that symbolism of glass on top.. they seemed reachable yet so far.. a mirage like ..

Khuhsi's naivety in putting all her eggs in one basket that is of shaym was unbelievable yet her desperate pleas are gut wrenching ..

thanks rhea,