arshi os: by my side - Page 5

Originally posted by: indi52

sweetjasmine,

thanks for reading.

Originally posted by: indi52

^^^

stg,

first, so good to see you.

thanks so much. this story is close to me, from right inside me... i love the character called asr and i can live with him because he is so real... makes awful mistakes too. you are right, a part of him will never quite forgive himself... he so wants to be sahi, he clearly knows what is not.

and if it were not weird, all our feelings, how would we even know it's genuine love?

you know that i too have a strange involvement with this piece of fiction. enters my thinking and feeling so very often. bizarre.

we are watching ipk on a thread called blast from the past, we are now at gh with kkgsr in revenge mode. and while some of us write on each episode... i am yet to tackle the wedding and the days immediately after it. don't want to write meaningless drama stuff... there was such intense feeling there, and a confusion so hellish... such pure complete acting and emotions... it could end everything... and yet, they held on to each other, even if through the illusion of hate... that hate most necessary to keep them tied to each other...

i too find it really painful to watch. which is why i have come up to 189, this week will start with the wedding episode...

so i do understand exactly what you mean about being true to the thing that means so much to you.

i just skipped the public tubewell bathing scene, but i think i did begin to understand why khushi might have lost it that much and why he would not hate her forever for it. she will forgive him those nights, he will forgive her that public humiliation... love huh. such a keen reading of it... this valuable and freeing emotion.

think i will watch that tubewell bath... and also episode 190 today.

Originally posted by: -SweetJasmine-

It is my pleasure 😃, it was indeed a nice read. loved it so much. was busy at work and could not read in one go, so limited my comment in one word as lovely, it was indeed very well written and beautiful.😃

Originally posted by: stg1

hello 😛

yes, i can always feel ur love for the characters and especially asr coming thru in ur writing, which is why i love to read u! and i think u love his flaws as much as his strengths, they're kind of what makes him so irresistible and so damn attractive, to me at least 😳 there's a certain kind of beauty in the way he is as harsh if not more so on himself as he is on others when he is wrong, how he holds himself to a higher standard and will admit when he's made a mistake without trying to hide behind why. sahi is sahi and ghalat is just that.

sometimes i look at the character sketch of asr, not factoring in what barun did with it, and wonder at how detailed and impressive and real it is. they really thought out his personality, his characteristics, the things he would and wouldn't react to, the things he wouldn't care about and the things he would. and i cant believe the same team who gave us these lights and darks and absolutes of this moral, modern and possible man also gave us the arnav who could possibly have played the drums at college, or basketball with sheetal 😆 but then again i think perhaps anything is possible given the right circumstances and it was writing and execution more than story that let them down.

so i am finally in the middle of watching the wedding episodes and am getting upset and emotional and depressed, even knowing the outcome of it all! ur right, the acting was so pure - i'm finding it heart wrenching and tangible, like i could reach out and touch their pain and every awful feeling they r going thru. and sometimes i'm cursing him, wanting to throw things at his head while i commiserate with my poor girl, and sometimes i'm crying and breaking right along with him. it was not what i wanted to see when the show was on but wow, what superb acting by these two, just these 3 or 4 episodes r enuff for anyone who thinks otherwise!

the public tubewell bathing 😡 😆 i did think after he left her out near the pool all night that nothing khushi could do to him would ever be as bad as that. so at the time even though i hated that she humiliated him like that i did still kind of feel he deserved it 😳 it was almost the equivalent of him trying to make her wear that mini dress in the beginning, something that was normal in his world but totally humiliating for her and out of her comfort zone - and he knew it. just like she knew, standing in the middle of laxminagar bathing was such an ordinary, every day occurrence for her but for him it would be a humiliating nightmare.

i think he let her get away with it, not only because he loved her, but because he was keeping score in that righteous head of his and knew he had so much more to make up for 😳 and that is also why i was never so up in arms or as upset about the lack of so-called 'repentance'. he wasn't a typical man and i always felt that he knew what he did wrong and he would try to make it up to her, throughout their beautiful life together, whenever and wherever possible. he wouldn't lose that defining core strength or hardness but he would always bend and sway and soften when required just for her. and part of that was giving her a lot of leeway! man of action, not words, is our asr 😳

enjoy discussing the mad love for this show with u as always 🤗 will try to read ur takes on the wedding and the bathing in the blast thread when i get a chance. sometimes i wonder when i will stop thinking about this show, stop obsessing over these characters and their love and imagining how their lives r going, and then i read another beautiful os like this one and start daydreaming all over again 😛