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Its been a long day for Arnav Singh Raizada, who stood in front of a mirror and practiced for it, endured a cruel joke by DM when his laundryman showed instead of Khushi, then the agony of finding out she's off today of all days... but the universe was listening to what he wanted with all his heart...she was here and he couldn't wait any longer, no time wasted, "is she here today?" he asks La, for the first time today he looked at La with any interest. "ya She's going to the party with me"
He cant contain himself and goes out to see her, from above the stairs, he take a moment to take in the vision in pink, she looks up to see him and right away notices his soft look . As she looked at him, all she could think about was his pain the day he lost his parents...
He walks down the stairs with his eyes fixated on her, they come face to face,
a soft gaze from his side, she looks down, with determination he takes a few steps forward, she waits for him but La beat him to Khushi, "Lets go chamikili, itgs getting late, by ASR see you soon"
Khushi saw it all in his eyes, she knew he was going to say something, both desperately wishing for one more moment alone but it wasn't meant to be here, it had to be under the stars where their parents could see them grow...La whisks her away, she looks back and confirms her thought,
that he was indeed trying to say something...he looks awfully painfully disappointed, seemed this guilt was literally eating him up inside.
At the party an uncomfortable Khushi waits outside while La goes inside when his thought randomly pops up in her head, him telling her he didn't want to see her face, she scolds herself "hum bhi na kitne ajeeb hai, dimaag kabhi bhi kuchh bhi soch ne lagta hai, ab yahah uss laad governor ke baare mein kyu soch rahe hai?(i'm so wierd, why am i thinking of the LG right now??)" Those words about not wanting to see her face deeply hurt her every time he say them, the same way "rakshash" and "Laad Governor". just as she finishes thinking about him in all her lonesome at a crowded party, she turns around to find him in front of her with the same eager face she left at the RM...he comes to the party he turned La down for over and over today...his presence here especially for Khushi speaks volumes of how badly he needs to reverse the damage he did and in turn reflects the pain that he lives through daily because that's the only way he could really grasp really how much pain he caused her.
Khushi responds with her signature wide eyes, and to an extent knows he's here for her but she gets angry and tries to push him away. maybe she's frustrated with his mixed signals..."don't want to see your face" one minute and in the next his gaze stays upon the same "shakkal (face)" like its providing him oxygen... so with out saying a word, she tries to walk away but a soft toned husky voice, a vibration of vulnerability in it begging her to stop
"Khushi"
she can feel it in his voice, in the way he says her name, a call from somewhere deep within unlike the "Khushi Kumaari Gupta" she has become accustomed to. it's all too scary for her, in an attempt to push him away again, a firmness in her voice "Lavanya ji is inside, you can go"
"Khushi" he call out for her in the same mannter... but somewhere she wants to protect her heart from this man who can turn on her any minute...
"hamme aapse koi baar nahi karni hai Mr.Arnav Singh Raizada!" she explodes, "aur baar baar sabke saamne hamme iss tarah mat bulaiye, hamne kaha na aapse Lavany hi andar hai, aap jaaiye yahan se"
After specifically asking him not to call her name out in such a manner, she literally she's shooing him away...and ASR does not get shooed away by anyone and especially not a low-status middle class girl, all the softness goes away "What the! How dare you?", his question is met with a fired up response "Kyu? hum daring kyun nahi kar sakte? daring pe sirf aapka naam likha hai kya? aapne daring karid li hai kay? (why can't i dare, have you bought out daring 😆)"
"What nonsense?"
"Aap nonsense! aur aapke saath aapka pura (yo're nonsense! and you'r whole family) " gasp! did she almost just? she stopped her self realizing what she just said.. Obviously driving Arnav's temper up. "Aap kyu hamaare peeche padein hai? aap ky (why are you after me why do)"
Tumhara dimaag kharaab ho gaya hai Khushi Kumaari Gupta (are you our of your mind KKG?)" then his ego takes over "tumhe kya lagata mein tumse yaha baat karne ayaa hoon? agar do minute pyaar se baat kar leta hoon, iska matlab yeh nahi ki apni jagah bhool jao, understand? (you think i came here to talk to you? if i talk you nicely for two min doesn't meant you forget your place understand?)
He walks away but the truth is yes, he did come here just to talk to her, his reason for being here, is stronger than his ego today, he stops, looks back, and those darn tears...he just can't bare to hurt her more than he already has yesterday, "Sorry bolna hai Arnav, sorry bolna hai"
...he turns around but she gone...it had to be under the stars.
He goes outside, his eyes scan for her...there she was in the gazeebo under the stars wiping her flow of tears, pain of them reflects on his face again,
he makes his way to her, she turns back to him and of course proceeds to leave...
"khushi mujhe tumse kuchh baat karni hai (Khushi, i have to talk to you about something)"
she ignors him, its the storage room all over again, as always things must get elevated to the next level and he is pushed to his aer. Grabbing her vigorously, and turning her towards him, in fronts of him, a firm grip on both of her shoulders...a grip on her her defiance really.
'kitni baar kaha hai, jab mein tumse baat kar raha hoon to moo mat moda karo, KITNI BAAR!" shaking her to match the shaking in his voice,"itni si baat samaj nahi aati tumeh? maine kaha na main kuchh kahe raha hoon?" (how many times have i told you when i'm talking don't look away, HOW MANY TIMES!...can't you understand this much? i told you i was saying something!)
Then he looks at her and says something that gave himself away "subhah se dimaag kharaab kar ke rakha hai (you've ruined my mind since this morning)", did Khushi catch that?? "aap apne dimaag pe dhyaan dijiye, kyu ki subhah se hum aapse mile nahi ha (then you concentrate on your mind because i haven't met you all day) " good point khushi, but you missed the real point...you have effected his mind since this morning without being there
"boliye, kya bolna chahte hai aap? boliye!" she screams at him
His grip on her gets stonger "main yeh kehna chahta tha ki uss din maine jo kaha mujhe nahi kehna chahiye tha, agar mujh pata hota to mein aisa kabhi nahi kehta, agar mujhe tumhare maa baap ke baare mein pata hot to main aisa kabhi nahi kehta ..SAMJHI TUM!!
Translation: "I"m trying to say that I shouldn't have said what i said that day, if i knew i wouldn't have said that, if i knew about your parents i would've never said that UNDERSTAND!"
all in one breath, like he would suffocated if it didn't all come out right then... Khushi looks up at him shocked to hear him actually speak the words she saw earlier at the RM. Even his shaking of her didn't matter while she saw what was in his eyes.
a moment goes by gazing each other, she struglle to free herself from his grip, he releases her as soon as he realises. "to yeh sab, aap sorry bolne ki koshish kar rahe the? bahut mushkil hoga na aapke liye? kaha aap, MR.Arnav Singh Raizada, kaha hum Khushi Kumaari Gupta (So all this, you were trying to say sorry? it must've been hard, you Mr. Arnav Singh Raizada and me Khushi Kumaari Gupta)" ..all that "aukaad" talk erupts "aap sorry kaise bolenge? (how will you aplogize?)"
She's right that it was hard for him to say sorry but how wrong she was about the reason for the difficulty.
"waise bhi, you don't know anything about me, no problem, let me tell you...I was 8 yrs old when my parents died in a car accident, i didn't even know the meaning of dying then, for so many days i though they went somehwhere, and will be back...till this day i feel that my parents are stars, thats why i hang stars on my bed, fast speeds in cars scare me even today, sleeping by myself scared me, going into darkness scares me"
Arnav listens with all his heart, without blinking, he takes it all in like a sponge, compassion in his eyes, an need to want to just take care of her, tears emerging every passing second. she continues "so many yrs have gone by but it still feels like a bad dream, on day i'll wake up and they come"
That last line seems to hit home with him, to wake up one day and see his mom come back, i'm sure he has daydreamed such thoughts.
"now you know everthinga bout , sorry boliye, say sorry " almost like a test she demands him expecting him to fail but she mistook him fighting his tears, when he was just trying to process all he had heard and gather some courage, she tells him to give up "let it go, you won't be able to because i don't have enough status that you would apologies to me"
This second he realizes just how much that "hesiyat" "aukaad" words have really hurt her, he need to prove to her that she's worthy of his apology...so far other than Anjali, the only one he would do this for. She was his sole reason for coming to this party, she has become important, her feelings have become important, losing all of his inhibitions he knows he has to let her know all of it in one word.
"Khushi" there is that soft vulnerable tone again, this time she doesn't stop him from calling out her name "iss tarah" (in such a way), she stops for him and looks back, he's looking at her with the tears even more visible,
"Sorry"...heartfelt as can be, his tears for her are in his voice, this first one he is unable to look her in the eyes, she is stood there touched, stunned...he looks straight into her eyes,
"Sorry" a more firm confident, "I'm really sorry" the thiird one it had gotten easier, An emotional moment as as Khushi takes a deep breath after that last apology as more tears come rolling down, shouldn't she be happy?
Her tears have a massive effect on him, here we see what his tears do to her...they bring more tears to her,
she can't bare it. She doesn't know what to do, how to react she runs away...he lets her go as a huge load is off his chest and knows she needs to go.
Under the stars, as their parents watched, the two shared the most intimate moments together bringing them closer than ever. She shared everything about herself to him, it just all came out, and he showed a side of himself to her. She has seen him cry for Anjali, but these tears shed for her and for all the pain she endured...their oneness is a step closer. All that Khushi told him, he will keep close to his heart, no more fast cars, he will bring her "jugnu" (fireflies) in the dark, he will bring her the stars the night before their wedding. If she was holding on with all her might to keep herself from falling for him, today his tears have pushed her over the edge.
At their respective homes, their respective sisters know both have been crying, Arnav and Khushi both ignore them with the help of their respective wardrobes. after much begging payal gets Khushi to talk with a cup of tea. While Arnav's reactions are the funniest trying to get away from his Di. "Di please leave me alone"
Khushi tell Payal that "ek sorry hi to bolna tha, aur woh bhi uss laad gov ne aise bol diya ki hamme rula diya (all he had to do was say sorry, the way he said it, made me cry)" hmmm an admission of the effect of his tears on her, but interesting she doesn't tell Payal that he cried, i love how even Khushi keeps the most intimate details a secret..."phir us sab bata diya..phir he gave me a gold medal...(then i told him everything...then he gave me a gold medal)"
"Kya?" yes Khushi we're all confused explain yourself...
"arre itna sun ne ke baad patthar bhi bol deta, par uss laad gov ke moo se itna sun ne ke baad "sorry" nikkal hi nahi raha tha...sorry hai ya gold medal (after telling him the whol story, even a rock would've said "sorry" by then but it just wasn't coming out of him...is it a sorry or Gold medal?)"
In front of Payal, she feels the need to put a comic twist in her favor, she can't let her know how his demeanour really was, how she really felt when she left there...infact she sensed his sincere feelings at the RM before La whisked her away...but in front of Payal that "rakshas" image needs to stay intact.
Anjali continues to push Arnav for answers, and he can't seem to get a peep out, he did just accomplish a big feat, the emotion drainage of all that.. "i'm worried for you, i think you're" Arnav gives her a look before she can finish to which she says another "sorry"
"Di ek minut mein paanch baar sorry bol chuki hai aap, itna aasaan hota hai aap logon ke liye? mere liye itna mushkil kyu hai?" (Di you've said sorry 5 times in one minute, why is so hard for me?)...
"kya?" oh Anjali if you had any idea "chotey are feeling ok?"
"Haan Di, Nahi Di, Di mujhe lag raha hai ki mein paagal ho raha hoon" (yes DI, no Di, i think i'm goind crazy!)..😆.even he admits a small part o his feelings...this girl is driving him mad. All the emotions running high and thinking back to the day, all that he did out of his character for her, its finally hitting him "yeh ladki mujhe paagal kar ke chodegi" (this girl will drive me crazy) as he would later say...
can't reisist ❤️
❤️ his "'i''m going crazy" look 😆 this is my fav since i don't like to see him cry
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