Blast From The Past! Thread #3 EP 52 Pg 147 - Page 74

Originally posted by: indi52

ami, sigrid, wisy, ritu
all such talented people, ptch just think where we're gonna take ipk. the fight scenes and after are mine to write, direct, be assistant, nanny, cook on, i will multitask so that all you creative folks can get much needed breaks. you know how draining daily soaps can be, you need your rest, and i 'm always there for you. 🤣

Originally posted by: wiwy

Exactly! I am tuned in to his song too! And I am a bigger baichaari coz I am one step closer. Do u know how it feels when sumthng is within ur grasp yet so far. Go ahead and laugh. Dats wat frnds r for!

Originally posted by: ipkkndfan30

Ami,

episodes 45 and 46 Before I start anything, I adore your dp :) Red and blue are of your wonderful analysis :D

The CVs make some connections to their first meeting to show how far they have come and also we see a tone set for the next phase of this fascinating love story.

you are right ! the writers of the first yr of ipk always maintained a connection to the past scenes.

"mahesoos" .. wonderful word of yours :) how did this mahesoos happen, i wonder? when did they actually started feeling for each other (for lack of knowledge of a better word in eng:)) But this mehsoos between them is devine and I wonder did they feel scared of this feeling being the first time that they probably felt it ?

Bas pata chal jata hai
so true for them ! I found this feeling used at the time after the contract marriage when arnav loses his voice. khushi senses whatever he is trying to convey and that time they surprised each other as well as others.

He looks up to find her. what better feeling for a lover seeing what he longs for? Almost In disbelief, he watches her every step, without blinking.
😆he he he.. must be a awesome feeling.

Khushi also felt him the moment she came in but convinced herself " Gabhra mat Khushi, aaj to ravi vaar hai, aur woh laad governer to bilkul nahi" she gives herself a half convinced smile and begins to walk to her desk,
😆ha ha ha khushi and her self talk.

memories of the first time she is saved by him from a screeching car, holding her, protecting her.
writers are showing her remembering good things of ASR ! to make the viewers aware that she has developed a soft corner for ASR even if she denies it to herself.

A whirling sound, she feels their connection, and is inclined to look up at his staring, longing, questioning face.Did he catch her thinking about him?
that whirling sound of wind whizing past the face... and then the rabba ve.. beautiful :)
I wonder when did Arnav realise khushi has feelings for him?

The same man that dropped her from his first story office, came to her rescue thrice, two times risking his own life and The same man who interrogated her with his intimidation for hours one night, just stood there and listened when she unleashed her anger one him twice
Hence the irrational behavior. What if she lets him speak and he proves he's not a monster?⭐️

Love the line in blue. I didn't think this way. Ya, he was introduced to her by DM as a rude, arrogant rich man. But this man did everything he can to save her.. aaah..the contradictory feelings .. maybe her heart is saying he isn't bad.. dimaag says 'khushi, bhaag.. he will turn into the monster again ". she doesn't want to listen to her dil this time !

que the best back score EVER* ASR takes his confident, determined, sexy as ever long strides to follow her

😳

Rabba ve, the provoked face turns into a mesmerized face and Khushi is allows it.

😳😳

Arnav takes inhales deeply trying to breath her in

😳😳😳

It was obvious he was dying to find out who she was talking to. ⭐️

😉

One wonders what this "Kuchh baat" is, if Khushi had listen, what would he have said?
I feel he just wanted to clear his stand of what happened that GH incident day. He feels she was of the assumption that he knew of the poor state of the GH. Even though he acts rude to her, he definitely didn't think of harming her .

anger makes way for pain when he sees her crying.⭐️

How khushi made ASR angry today !

I love the way Barun's expression changes from sheer anger to concern when he sees her crying.

He wants to wipe them away but its not his place,⭐️
👏So true... abi uska haq nahi hai :)

During that door banging scene, that tit for tat was lovely.. just like lovers quarrel :)

He learns the value of her dupatta to her. Today he gave her the respect back that he squished under his feet that night.
Dupatta .. a very imp accessory in this love story. I love the way the writers always completed the scenes during these episodes. you are right... they made him return the dupatta as a closure to that night.

Arnav takes it and drinks it. Khushi thinks thats rude and refuses to take the glass he fills us for her.

Yaha dono barabhar ke gamandi hai. if it was a character like payal.. i wonder how the scene would have been!

Her line here reflects the hurt his words had caused her and how they've stayed with her, only now she's using that pain against him now. We learn later that she lied about Lucknow, was it just to see his reaction?⭐️

I feel she wanted to tell him that I am giving what you want.. you want me out of your life.. so be it.. she is hurt by his hate filled words earlier wishing her to be out of his eyesight.

Yes he was cruel to her at first and later when he felt his guilty for the first time he told himself in the heavy rains that "Arnav Singh Raizada ko kisi ladki se koi farq nahi patda." To prove this, he pushed his cruelty to the point where something pushed back and caused him fall hard.⭐️
All the wrong things that he did to her .. they are like defence machanism for him to prove to himself that she doesn't affect him.

Need i say more? ok i will, loved his flinching in his sleep when she say's she leaving for good

Yes me too 😃

And Ami, all the rest of your analysis from this point onwards till the end deserve a big applause. 👏😳

Originally posted by: BarunDiwani

It took me for ever to do mine, it's an ocean this 45/ some of 46.

Originally posted by: BarunDiwani

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Episodes 45/46: Arshi scenes only

Its been quiet a journey for these fated lovers, and this well planned meeting from above is milestone of sort. Today's meeting brings along with is all the events that transpired between the two since the day they first laid eyes on each other. Since then, they've made homes in each other's minds, the harder they try to kick each other out, stronger their hold on each other becomes. The CVs make some connections to their first meeting to show how far they have come and also we see a tone set for the next phase of this fascinating love story.

Much has changed since that fateful night at the Sheesh Mahel, but one thing remains, even though in those initial moments this "mahesoos"(sense) was clouded by misunderstandings and bad impressions...their sense of eachother's presence was always there.

Well connected thoughts and yes since Sheesh Mahal a lot changed .Its amazing how far they came from that night till here.Arnav is taking off his egoistic tycoon coat slowly around this small town gal before putting it back on.

Arnav's restless mind wins, prompting him to stop his work and leans back on his chair. Eyes looking up, he shuts them, trying to catch his breath...just then his eyes open like something woke them.

Love this one yes connection was always there.

Only this time its overwhelming enough to make him stand up and "mehesoos." ..."khushi?" he mouths her name. Bas pata chal jata hai (you just know)

He looks up to find her. what better feeling for a lover seeing what he longs for? Almost In disbelief, he watches her every step, without blinking.

He was trying believing as he was watching her silently.

Khushi also felt him the moment she came in but convinced herself " Gabhra mat Khushi, aaj to ravi vaar hai, aur woh laad governer to bilkul nahi" she gives herself a half convinced smile and begins to walk to her desk, unaware of the eyes following her. She sits in her chair and memories of the first time she is saved by him from a screeching car, holding her, protecting her.

She closes her eyes to try and tame this feeling. but with her eyes closed, the "mahesoos(sense)" of him is even stronger

Again connection was always there but today acknowledgement is taking its place with a hint of denial.For a small town gal its natural to have fear for such feelings.My POV

A whirling sound, she feels their connection, and is inclined to look up at his staring, longing, questioning face. Did he catch her thinking about him? Almost startled she stumbles a bit trying to stand, the employee interrurpts "arrey Khushiji, aap yahan? (Khushiji, you, here?)"

"Haan woh, Hum apna saamaan lene aaye the. samaan? ( i came to get my stuff)" He notifies her Arnav asked to have it sent to her house but no one came today its in storage room. Looking up as Arnav with anger "no need to have it sent, i know how how to get my work done and i can get my own stuff" She indirectly tells Arnav.

"Khushi, mere cabin mein aao, mujhe tumse kucch baat karni hai (Come to my cabin, i wan't to talk to you)" a soft tone in his voice, and using first name, he asks nicely.

Yet again she ignores him. Khushi asks the employee where the storage room is and proceeds giving her self a pep talk "upar mat dekh Khushi, aur uss arnav singh raizada ki chinta to bilkul mat kar, murti leke nikkal...mat dekh usse..mat..." her voice dials down and she looks up.

Yes she defies him,ignores him ,eludes him,disregards him and even dares by every move she makes today.I think she couldn't stand his silence either as he can't hers.But she never let him speak too which shows how scared and overwhelmed she is at this point.

Since the day she met him, he had been a "rakshas" to her, but at one point something changed. The same man that dropped her from his first story office, came to her rescue thrice, two times risking his own life and The same man who interrogated her with his intimidation for hours one night, just stood there and listened when she unleashed her anger one him twice. Well aware her feelings for him had changed, but unwilling to acknowledge them, she does what she can to push him away. Hence the irrational behavior. What if she lets him speak and he proves he's not a monster?

*que the best back score EVER* ASR takes his confident, determined, sexy as ever long strides to follow her

He completely lost his temper as she did what no one could even think about it.Must say Khushi has GUTS and that is one of the traits he fell in for.

As Khushi was reaching for DM murti, ASR walks in, provoked and ready for answers. "tum apne aap ko samajhti kya ho? (Who do you think you are?)" Arnav startles her to her fall while DM slips out of her hand, he leaps to save DM and land right on top of Khushi. Thank God for the cushions she lands on. Rabba ve, the provoked face turns into a mesmerized face and Khushi is allows it.

They both look into each others eyes, She notices he has saved DM. Arnav takes inhales deeply trying to breath her in...just then Khushi's colorful ringtone interrupts.

Arnav stands up, and offers his hand to Khushi, irrational Khushi refuses.

Arnav more hurt than insulted tries to control his anger as she takes a call from Shyaam. It was obvious he was dying to find out who she was talking to.

LOVE THIS GREAT FALL as he was at the top of her.Must say really nice shot , nice angle,nice thought behind the scenes by the makers.She gave him every chance to scream today but he is having patience ufff for only Khushi...I noticed that too that he was a bit jealous of the caller.

He kept his patience until she says "Hum to yahan ek minut bhi nahi rehna chaahte" infuriates him. At last she ends her call, but quickly gathers her things and tries to leave.

"bhaag ne ke alave aur kucch aata hai tumhe? vaise tumhara moo kabhi bandh nahi hota, phir ab kyu taala laga hua hai?" [ he feels she is always running away from him, and her "khamoshi"(silence) he can not "Bardaasht"(stand)]

His voice lowers "uss di bhi mein tumhe kucch kahe raha tha, aur tum bina sune chali gaye, mujhe aishi batamee.." she starts walking towards the door while he's still talking. Arnav Singh Raizada was running out of patience, he beats her to the door and slams it so hard the handle falls.

"mein tumse kucch kahe raha hun Khushi Kumaari Gupta, Jab mein tumse baat kar raha to chup chaap kadi raho aur suno" in his voice, a desperation for her to listen. One wonders what this "Kuchh baat" is, if Khushi had listen, what would he have said?

Nice grabber

"Kuchh baat".hmmm ...Khushi is not ready yet as he is Rakshus with golden heart which is confusing her way too much.Its natural.

She gets another call, when she picks up his patience is out, sheer anger on his face he throws his phone away and breaks it. He steps towards her with intemidation "maine kaha tha na, mein tumse baat kar raha hoon, Let me finish! mein" anger makes way for pain when he sees her crying.

Her tears didn't effect him at Sheesh Mahel, but since the guest house incident, they bother him to no end. He wants to wipe them away but its not his place, he turns around and walks a few steps away.

Khushi notices this and also the tender look from him trying to tell her something...but she ignores and continues to defy him, banging, pushing at the door.

I have same thoughts for this yes her tears really have deep impact since guest house.

Arnav: "tumse nahi kholega yeh, bekaar koshish karna chood do "

Khushi: "aap chod dijieye, you need to stop telling people what to do, I know what i can and can't do"

Arnav: "you cant listen but atleast you can think before doing something"

Khushi: "nahi sun sakti!" Khushi responds

Arnav: "to phir aanken bandh karke sir darwaaze pe marti raho" ASR witty comments

Khushi: "I want to get out of here and i will" Khushi stomps over to the window and opens it in hopes of a way out letting a powerful wind in.

LOved this nok jhonk which heated up later.HE just wants her to listen but she is so afraid by each and every move of him that how come he is not the same as before with her.

The her "laheria" (thanks Indi!) flies once again looking for Arnav, dancing for him and teasing his face (thanks again Indi!) eventually it flies off of her and lands on him, completely covering his face. Looks like her laheria has made a choice for her.

Love this new word of yours and Indi

Realizing she lost her dupatta, her modesty, she turns to find it on him. she quickly turns around. A very crucial moment, He holds the dupatta in his hand and look to her, embarrassed, scared and nervous.

He brings it to her, beside her with his eyes lowered so she doesn't have to turn around.

He learns the value of her dupatta to her. Today he gave her the respect back that he squished under his feet that night.

She puts her dupatta back on but it seems to have mind of its own, connecting her back to this man she wants to detach from more than anything.

YES Dupatta is in love with him but she is not giving it permission to do so

She managed to pull it off of him and goes to get a drink of water. Both reach of the glass, Arnav takes it and drinks it. Khushi thinks thats rude and refuses to take the glass he fills us for her.

I found it awkward he is giving her in the same glass as he has HAQ on her somehow.my POV

"aise kya deck rahe hai aap, gussa aah raha ha to nikaal dijiye, jaise aap hamesha karte hai" Khushe dare to talk to him like noone does again "tod dijiye kisi cheez ko..lage haat ye darwaaza bhi tod dijiye, kyu ki hum yahan se nikal na chah te hain, sab kucch tod dijiye!" Khushi defying continues.

"haan tod dunga (ya i'll break everything)!" He fires back cutting her off and throwing the water cup "Ek ek cheez todta rahung ta ki har tut ne wali cheez se tumhare kaan khule, aur tum meri baat suno (I keep breakting things so with each break your ears open and you listen to what i have to say)" [what a line!] so much desperation in his voice.

Yes he is not in a mood any more to listen to her as she is not listen to him.Her defying is raging blood in his veins.But you can hear a plead in his anger.

He just wants her to listen to this "kucch baat" but unforgettably this heated argument excelates

Khushi: "hum kuchh sun na nahi chahte, hame bas yahan se bahaar nikkal na hai"

Arnav: "Tum sunogi! " slamming his hand on the box to her left figtening her

Khushi: hamme bahaar jana hai

Arnav: Main kahe raha hoo

Khushi: hamme bahaar jana hai

Arnav: Khushi main tumse baat kar raha hoon, tum meri taraf...

Khushi: Pahele aap darwaaza khol dijiye

"Fine" he thought "if that's what it will take to get you to listen" Arnav with all his anger and strength kicks down the door leaving her in disbelief.

"Ab sunogi (now will you listen)?"

I felt that he can't see her distress as she was because of the closed door and being alone with him in this store room.Even in his rage he wants to remove hurdle for her so she can calm down and listen to her.

To his disappointment, she quickly grabs her things, "Hame aaki koi baat nahi sun ni, nafrat hai na aapko hamse, hamaari aukaad se, hamaari shaka dekhna nahi chahte na app? to khush hogiye, kyu ki hum aapki nazron se hamesha ke liye door ja rahe hai, Lacknow jaa rahe hai hum, hamesha ke liye."

Hamesha hit him badly.I felt pain in my heart as he lost his mother and now she is saying that without knowing it how hard it would be for him.Thats why he asked her on Bachelor night "Promise,You will never leave me"

Her line here reflects the hurt his words had caused her and how they've stayed with her, only now she's using that pain against him now. We learn later that she lied about Lucknow, was it just to see his reaction? she did study his face, it was the same look he had when she handed him the resignation.

She knows she has affected him and this scared her even more so she walks out of there before he could come to terms with what she just told him

"tum aise nahi ja , Khush, KHUSHI!" (just wanted to hug him here)

Absolutely she knows she has hurt him but she is hurt too.At the same time she does not know what to do.

Arnav yet again unable to finish his "kucch baat," only a matter of time before Khushi's strikes are up. He has tried numerous times now to get her to listen and prove he's not the "rakshas" she believes him to be.

-She turned her back at teej morning and ran

-She ignored him today and when he asked her to come to his office, still he followed her. this is Arnav Singh Raizada.

-She refuse help from hom when he extended his hand to get her up from their fall

-He bought down the door in the hope that she listens, but she grabs her things and leaves

what is a man to do?

Her irrational behavior here will have some adverse effects or their unspoken relationship in the coming chapters full of "koi faraq nahi padtas" "tum mere liye koi maine nahi rakhi" "na tumahari shakkal dekhni hai, na tumse baat karni hai" ...sigh

YES battle of "Farak nahin parta "just begins now

Arnav comes home fuming and goes striaght to his room after telling Di he is tired. O

n the phone with La, furiously removing his layers of clothes . "Kisi kis himmat nahi hai mujhe khuchh kehne ki, and you know it!" but the contrasting flash backs of her refusing to listen, add oil to the fire.

But the thought of her leaving for good?

Well, that starts a new fire altogether.

Khushi talks to DM "Lucknow waapis jaana, hamaari zindagi ka sabse acchha faisla hai" the second she says this her smile leaves her face and a sadness takes over.

Even in his sleep, Arnav can't turn off her words to him "hum aapki nazron se hamesha door jaa rahe hai" He flinches in his sleep "Lacknow jaa rahe hai hum" he jumps up to his own voice telling her to stop "tum aise nahi jaa sakti, Khushi, KHUSHI! [Earlier when he told her this, it was meant to stop her from going to Lucknow.

]

We can almost hear his heart beating as his breathes heavily at the thought of her out of his life.

How quickly has the this small town girl turned upside down the world of this man, this mighty personality? Yes he was cruel to her at first and later when he felt his guilty for the first time he told himself in the heavy rains that "Arnav Singh Raizada ko kisi ladki se koi farq nahi patda." To prove this, he pushed his cruelty to the point where something pushed back and caused him fall hard. When he saved her, protected her, held her, touched her face for the first time, nothing would be the same again. The yearning and the longing for her, he had never felt anything like this, she had already become a part of him. how does he even begin acknowledge this when she wont even listen?

Now that the realization had hit both of them, the denial sets in and they both will try their best to flush each other out of their systems.

Things have come a full circle, paving way for another phase, another layer...

YEs realization and ACKNOWLEDGEMENT has started but with DENIAL

These scenes were PERFECT, so many emotions and feelings and frustrations emoted perfectly by both Barun and Sanaya. The directing was Beautiful, Arnav's body language yearning for her, feeling the need to get close to her even at the hight of his anger...BRILLIANT! the music once again was perfectly utilized. standing ovations to the whole team!

DROOL CORNER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This one is my fav

❤️ Need i say more? ok i will, loved his flinching in his sleep when she say's she leaving for good ❤️

Originally posted by: indi52

i can feel you in the pit of my stomach, in the grazeon my heart, on the edge, of my nerve, you are here.

oh the turmoil of a feeling. how it plays with hard earned equanimity. he had no place for this surge of emotions. this overwhelming need. this chasm in his being. yet here it was and try as he might he couldn't get back to business as usual.

his place of comfort, his office, his absorption in his work that could always shut everything out, failed miserably this time. thoughts of her, sindoor in her eye, he wants to wipe it off, but no, she won't let him, she walks away.

the tenderest notes of rabba ve know what ails him. but not he.

he struggles to let it go. yet again a set of memories. "uss din tumne jo..." he begins, but she never let him finish. her silence bothers him, perhaps even more than her shouting. he can't think any more. he is feeling worn, gripped by this wave of feelings, unable to let it go.

he leans back, rests his head, and closes his eyes. maybe he seeks respite or perhaps a little time to dream.

she's walking into the office.

as she walks in, she senses something.

and a breeze rises swirling in undertone wrapping around both holding them in its embrace.

... he opens his eyes...

she consoles herself, don't worry khushi, it's sunday, no one's here, certainly not that rakshas (through gritted teeth, of course, for she has her own struggle with her own unnamed, unfathomable feelings, why does he come to her mind all the time?)

she enters the office.

he knows.

he knows the girl in his thoughts is now near, just here somewhere. his eyes say he has felt her. he leaves his chair, alert the moment he senses her, moving toward the sensation. he comes to stand at the impressive array of sheer glass windows in his office and looks down. there she is on the lower deck. a bit perturbed, then walking slowly toward her desk, and he watches her.

he watches her standing at the place from where he'd let her fall, he'd challenged her with cool derisive eyes after setting her embarrassing and difficult tasks, he'd hollered "miss gupta!" that terrible day of the guest house.

but today, he stands stock still, silent, just gazing upon her, drinking in it seemed all of her he could, perhaps wondering did he just conjure her up with his incessant thoughts of her. not a word, no movement. just eyes darkening, a whirlpool of emotions swirling in them, a throbbing energy gathering.

she hadn't seen him and she walked up to her desk. then in a most melodious segue, he saw her in her filmy red chiffon, hair flying, hurt filling her gaze. and at the very same instant she was thinking of him holding her close in the rain, protective, dependable. she's looking at him and he at her.

she didn't see him walking away, being nasty. he didn't see her turning away, walking away from him.

but you don't let me be, your thoughts roaming free
no barriers no limits, reaching prohibited zones
unprotected territories, you are here.

as her thoughts ended, a visible drooping of shoulders, an exhale of surrender almost, she closed her eyes seeking help. how was she to handle this whole cascade of troubling thoughts. she'd shouted at him, she'd prayed to dm to stop these thoughts, she'd resigned.

and yet... the thoughts of a man whom she couldn't fathom, couldn't forget.

the rustle of breeze rose as if to remind, she looked up, and there he was. hay hay hay... rabba vey, her feelings flowed before she could check them.

an instinct about the other had come to stay. he could sense her, she could sense him. again love had taken a step. and turning away was impossible.

what came after that, had to be that and nothing else. two people thrown asunder by a stubborn inexplicable emotion, what could they do when they met? have a reasonable adult conversation? of course not. they had to fight, had to clash. had to meet and touch and feel each other. make love. and perhaps this was the only way, for now. the language of love is not always full of sweet nothings. it took them virtually nothing to turn on the other's nastiest side. in matters of war, they were utter equals, from day one. clear sign of what sort of lovers they were going to be.

"khushi... mere cabin mein aao... mujhe tum se kuch baat karni hai."
he asked her to come upstairs, he wanted to talk to her. i keep wondering what is it that he wanted to tell her. he'd just asked his girl friend to move in with him, yet the most urgent conversation he wished to have was with her.

and she never missed a beat when it came to provoking him, did she? was she really not aware this would get to him? turning away and stalking off completely ignoring him? did she really believe he's let things be and go back to work quietly? or did she not want him to? "upar mat dekh khushi aur aranav singh raizada ki chinta toh bilkul mat kar." but that's all she's been doing of late, thinking of asr. and before going, she did turn and look.

slipping into sanak mode to work off the tension, she talks to herself in the store room. funny line, sanaya really funny yet touching, the best of comedy.

"ab issme humari kya galti hai... hume kya pata tha ki woh laad goverrnor ravivar ko bhi logo ko tang karne ke liye ghar se nikalta hai." can't blame me, how was i to knowthat thsi laad governor stirs out sundays tot to get after people.

can you hear the music?

fabulously calibrated quarrel coming up. she's dropped the gauntlet by walking off. he picks it up and comes swiftly down the stairs, charging into the storeroom after her. "tum apne aap ko samajhto kya ho?" who do you think you are... he's livid. he's had it.

she was perched on a stool getting her devi maiya from a high shelf, she turned shocked and terrified. and she lost balance.

a beautifully shot falling together, him on top of her, but not before he's saved what is important to her and not at all of any relevance to him. her dm. how many things they told each other as they lay like that. you could almost hear it all.

then her phone rang.

but when he got off of her and stuck his hand out in a chivalrous, almost conciliatory, gesture, again she went for a thrust. ignore the hand. his fist balled in anger. tell you, these two.

"hum toh yahan ek minute bhi nahin rahna chahte," don't want to stay here a minute longer, her voice is getting hysterical as she talks to shyam. too many feelings.

"bhagne ke alava kuch aata hai tumhe?" what are you capable of other than running away..."waise toh tumhara mooh kabhi band nahin hota phir ab kyon taala laga hai... uss din bhi main tumse kuch kah raha tha aur tum bina sune chali gayi... mujhe aisi badtameezi..." usually you never shut up, so why thsi lock on it now, was about to tell you somethingb the other day but you just left... this sort of lack of manners...

and she walks off ready to leave. he can't take it. he slams the door.

"main tum se kuch kah raha hoon, khushi kumari gupta!" look at them, one curving almost into the other, so close, and that heightening tension.

"jab main tum se baat kara raha hoon toh chup chap khadi raho aur suno..." when i'm talking to you, stay put...

phone.

she takes the call, but with a violence hitherto unseen he just snatches the phone and throws it with force.

"main ne kaha tha na main tumse baat kar raha hoon... let me finish!" her eyes well up. and as though a magician had waved a wand, the vicious anger on his face is chased away, instead a concerned, practically contrite look. aneed almost to wipe away her tears. yes, har baar her tears had affected him. no matter what the state of his mind or emotion.

when she gathers herself a bit, she is desperate to leave the room. but the door's locked. she runs to the window and opens it. her hands and mouth say one thing, her dupatta does another. perhaps girls in our land have had their mouths sewn up for so long, they need a proxy voice, so devi maiyaa and writer conspired to give khushi her dupatta to this end. the happy go lucky dupatta could be as forward, as wanton, as loving, gentle sweet as khushi longed to be perhaps. how it blew out and caressed him yet again.

then it wrapped all around his face. he slowly pulled it off of his face, his hair, his shoulders, a darkness in his eyes around a flickering light, felt like lovers making love without knowing that's what they were doing.

he noticed her discomfort. familiar. he handed her fly away friend. arrested looks and emotions in these moments.

from a quiet beginning, deep in feelings, the episode climbed the notes steadily to a rousing crescendo of anger out in the open, riddled with desire. yes, that.

the soul of the episode. desire.

i feel you i sense you i want you i know you are near
you are here.