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Episode 46
I Want To Get Out Of Here!
The wind is blowing, a dupatta flies away landing on a man. He carefully removes it from his face inhaling the scent of its owner. Kushi standing at the window her hands guarding her exposed neck. Nervously, she looks over her shoulder to see ASR with her dupatta, she turns back. Totally exposed in every sense of the word….vulnerable, unprotected, she has lost her shield. He sees her discomfort, he doesn't understand it, but he respects her feelings and hands her the dupatta eyes averted. She places her dupatta back to its rightful place as she turns to him and it has a mind of its own. It caresses him again. She looks at him and where the dupatta is gently caressing him. She walks away. He is taken aback and he removes his jacket and tosses it as if that will remove the sensations and emotions he is feeling. Removing the clothing that she or an article of her clothing has touched will not help to remove what you Mr. Arnav Singh Raizada are feeling!
RM- Shyam has just gotten off the phone with Buaji and Anjali notices he was on the phone. Did she hear? Is he caught? She asks him why he looks so is he missing someone? He says his friend just called and he stayed with him when he was away. His mother is the one who taught him to make the jalebi. Oh, the sweet secret! Little does she know that sweet secret is Kushi! He mentions after her giving him the offering that sweets are very sweet when offered by her hand. Sweet Talker! Yuck! Bell rings and Anjali says it is probably Chote coming from the office, she will go and see.
Store Room- They both reach for a cup in front of the water fountain. They stop both take their hands away. They reach again he grabs a cup first and pours the water. He drinks she is astounded, insulted maybe? He didn't offer it to her. He refills the cup and hands it to her. She refuses. He says, take and she stubbornly answers, "I said I don't want it. Why are you looking at me like that? I know you are angry, just do what you always do. Break something, like you did my phone, and break the door because I want to get out of here! Go ahead break it!!!" He angrily says, "Yes I will break everything!" He throws the water cup and she becomes shocked and frightened by the anger this man exudes. He comes forward she walks back until her back hits boxes against the wall. She has nowhere to go. I will break everything one by one just to hear you scream! Now listen to me." "I don't want to listen to you." She backs up and hits her back against the boxes against the wall; she can go no further. He slams his hand on the boxes next to her. "No, you listen to me." She tells him 'I want to get out of here.' "Listen!" She says 'I want to get out of here!' "Kushi, I need to talk to you!" "First open the door!" He hits the boxes again, walks over to the door and violently kicks down the door. He turns and looks at her."Now listen to me?"She gathers her belongings frantically saying, "I do not want to hear anything you have to say. You hate me don't you? You hate my status right? You don't want to see my face right? Then be happy because I will go away from you forever. I will go to Lucknow forever!" His eyes soften….. she is leaving?
"You cannot leave….Kushi….KUSHI!"
She walked out the door and as far as he knows out of his life. She got out of there!
RM- Family has neighbors who came to visit after a pilgrimage. They are chit chatting and finally the real reason for the visit has come out. They want to see the "new" member of the Raizada family. They heard Arnav has a girlfriend who has held a fast for him on Teej and moved in before marriage.
GH- Kushi comes home with a worried face and Payal notices she came home late. Kushi says to Payal that they should go home to Lucknow. Payal questions her, "What's wrong? What happened to you?" Kushi answers "Broke. He broke it." Images of him throwing the phone enter into her head. "ENOUGH," she firmly states as if it all will end, "I decided to go back." I want to get out of here.
RM- The women continue the children of yesterday met a few days before the wedding but the children of today know each other…a boy and girl together before marriage? Shyam interjects that 'Mrs. Raizada would never allow that in her family and they have a misconception. She is a very modern woman and she has not forgotten her culture, but knows how to adapt to this generation. That is why we love her very much." The women believe she is giving in to the child. Mami says her famous, "hell hi bye bye, if you don't understand no one else will you travel in the same boat, right?" She continues with Sunita's son has refused the girl she chose for him and married one of his liking who is 10 years older than him! She makes a sarcastic joke "who dyes their hair more you or your daughter? Hello hi bye bye, hmpfff.. talking nonsense!" The women were sent home with the tails between their legs. They got to get out of there!
GH- Kushi is holding on to DM tightly. Payal takes her and places her on the desk. She asks why the rush to go to Lucknow? Kushi answers her with enough and why is she asking her over and over again. She wants to go home where she came from with her sister and her parents, (where she feels safe away from that demon). She will call the man who got Buaji the tickets, she has some money saved. She rummages through her bag. Buaji comes in upset she heard she wants to leave. Payal says Kushi is very stubborn and doesn't want to listen. Buaji asks her what happened or if there was a problem. Kushi answers that there is no problem and that they have already been there for over 2 weeks and it is time to go home. I want to get out of here. That's why they will go back now. Buaji becomes a little insulted and says that she must have a time limit to stay with her aunt and reminds her that when she was young she didn't want to leave. "Okay go." Payal the peacemaker says, "it's not that!" Buaji sadly says the girls have brought color to her grey days and she thought they would be with her as she grew old. Now it is all clear…
RM- Shyam lets Mami know she did great handling the nosy neighbors. And she tells him don't mention it for she is a member of the family too! Nani is very concerned because today neighbors will talk but tomorrow, society. What will they do? This problem is not good. Shyam reminds her that they have talked about it she has already given her consent…but 'you saw how they talked' she interjects. Mami says why worry she is there and she will handle those nosy bodies. Shyam continues that he doesn't believe that if Arnav leaves the house that that would be good and if he goes then to Lavanya what will people say then? Anjali chimes in, "but the same house is new for us try to understand." Shyam agrees but better they are there where limits can be set and Lavanya can be molded to who they want her to be. Arnav will have to conform while in this house and so will Lavanya. They will do as they are told as respect to this house. Just then Arnav walks in briskly Anjali tells him they were just talking about him. He tells her he is tired and going to his room. Dismissed… he wants to get out of here.
In Arnav's room he throws his jacket on the chair, he is on the phone with Lavanya who has picked up something in his voice. Lavanya seems to know Arnav. She asks him what has happened or if someone has said something to him. Why is he worried and tense? He answers her with a curt, "I have already said once nothing happened!" The images of Kushi yelling at him to stop telling what a person can or cannot do are in his head. Lavanya asks him again what happened. Did someone say something? He replies, "No one has the courage to tell me anything"……. Duh,wrong ASR, her name is Kushi Kumari Gupta and don't you forget it, oh he won't!, "and you know it!" He disconnects and throws the phone on his chair. He's lost hearing her voice in his head... "I don't want to listen to you." He slams his hand on the boxes next to her. "No, you listen to me." "I don't want to listen to you." She tells him 'I want to get out of here.' "Listen!" She says 'I want to get out of here!' "Kushi, I need to talk to you!" "First open the door!" He angrily takes off his vest and throws it. "You don't want to see my face right? Then be happy because I will go away from you forever. I will go to Lucknow forever!" He just stares remembering her words….Haamesha is a long time, don't you think Mr. Arnav Singh Raizada?
GH- Kushi is talking to her best friend and mentor Devi Maiya. She says, Goddess, until today all difficulties I have been given I have faced with courage and pride. I know you wanted me to be this way. Do not misunderstand me, do not think I am tired or giving up because of so many problems. I must tell you I have learned my lesson. I am sorry and could use a break until then I will return to Lucknow. Once I arrive I will bring you an offering. I am talking a lot because today I am happy. We will be back with our parents. Returning is the best decision of my life! I want to get out of here.
RM- Asr is dreaming.
Kushi yelling, "You don't want to see my face right? Then be happy because I will go away from you forever. I will go to Lucknow forever!"
"You cannot leave….Kushi….."
He awakens bolting up in bed and calling her name "…KUSHI!"
Mangal Lakshmi
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