Blast From The Past! Thread #3 EP 52 Pg 147 - Page 100

Originally posted by: chalhov

ASR to Di

Ek aur baat Di, Agar mer zindagi mein aisi ladki kabhi aa bhi gayee na, to mein usse door hi rahunga, kyu ki mein apni zindagi dimaag se jeeta hoon, dil se nahi

phir yeh sab kyu why ASR why don't you really realise that the slight mention,thought is taking your thoughts back to Khushi what you are denying yourself but yeh dil hai ki manta nahi(your heart is not listening to your brain)

I feel this is what is happening to him I have made slight changes to this song of Silsila very appropriate for this current episodes where ASR dil is always going back to his memories of his different incidents with/of Khushi.Why this rabba veying in front of Khushi's😉 house and waving chunni taking him back to the store room when he was with Khushi.This show as mostly on ASR POV which has contributed to its popularity along with Barun Sobti's acting not like the typical shows which always cater to the female lead keeping in mind their female viewership.The Sanaya acting as lovely and innocent Khushi along with the other cast and crew it was very good the story was well shown in these episodes whether it was Shyam or La or RF or GF.

Di asking him do you know this area and this narrow slow lanes and why not is this not where his love is so how will he not know his Dil knows but Dimaag will not accept. He has to and will travel this way how many times he knows not

issi raah pe nikalte

getting through the same road

yeh kahaan aagaye hum, yunhi saath saath chalte

where is this that we have come, walking together for so long

Coming there his thoughts run away from him to where his Dil is leading to

Main aur meri tanhai aksar ye Sochate (baatein karte) hain

i n my loneliness I usually think (have this conversation)

yeh sochta hoon main kab se gumsum

i've been thinking quietly since then

ke jab ki mujhko bhi ye khabar hai

that i'm aware of it too

ke tum nahi ho, kahin nahi ho

that ur not around, not there at all

magar ye dil hai ke keh raha hai

but this heart which is telling me

ke tum yahi ho, yahin kahin ho

that ur here, somewhere around here

Remembering the guesthouse incident saving her going there how can he not and then remembering it always his 1^st tender touch gently pushing the hair from her face(Zulfon ko bhi choone khi izzazat nahi)

tu jahaan hai mein vahaan hoon

wherever u are, there i will be

hamein milna hi tha humdum

we are destined to meet my soulmate

Originally posted by: BarunDiwani

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Episode 48: this was supposed to a short one dammit! sorry for the length

Change seems to the theme of this episode, as we move on to the next phase of this story. Khushi and Payal plan to move out of the city, while La moves into the RM. Arnav and Nani go head to head again hoping to change the other. Arnav and Khushi still linger in each other, both fighting to change that 😆 with so many changes, adjustment is inevitable

Shyaam stoops to new levels as he talks to Khushi in front of Anjali letting her believe its his friend's mom (yuk! ), flashes of suspicion on Anjali's face but before she could form her thoughts into anything Shyam turned her attention to the food they where cooking.

I was cringing the whole time, especially when Anjali asks

"aap ammaji se bahut pyaar karte hai na?"

"accha aap ko aisa laga?" an excited shyaam asks "vaise acchi to woh bahut hai" (barf) again red flags go up for Anjali, but Shyam is quick to divert her attention

Khushi was unable to ask Shyam for his help since he hung up, so they prepare to leave for Lakhnow. Khushi doubts her decision to go back and looks for a sign...deep within, she knows and needs no sign but for now

"pata nahi hamn sahi faisla liya hai ki nahi, kaash kahi se hame koi ais ishaara milega jo hamse kahega ki, Khushi tumne bilkul sahi faisla liya ha...vaise aise hame kabhi koi bolta to nahi hai"😆

"khushi tum kuchh bhool to nahi rahi ho (arent you forgetting something Khushi)?" khushi thinks for a sec to no avail "DM ko apne saat nahi le jaana hai kya?"

here comes her famous gasp❤️

her DM symbolized her heart, try as she might, she keep forgetting it, first in his office and now in his city, she always held her close to herself.

As soon as she realizes she was forgetting her DM, she had to pick Her up and hold Her, look at Her...

and the first picture came to mind is how is leapt to save her beloved DM, even though he didn't believe, he cared about her sentiments. Lovely expressions on Khushi's face as rabba ve played briefly

she puts down the Goddess, like she was cutting off a feeling, a certain frustration appeared on her face. As she lost herself in his thought, she didn't realize DMs chunar dropped...a sign perhaps ?

LA makes her official entrance into the RM.

Nani has made up her mind about Ms.Kashyap and does not hide her displeasure at all and needs much convincing before Anjali does the aarti ceremony.

La does try to greet Naniji, but as Naniji has made up her mind and refuses to acknowledge it. La even made pastries for the family, unfortunately it had eggs in it which noone in their family eats. The important thing is she really tried from day 1 to fit in, and other than Naniji, the rest of the family seems to like her.

Mamiji is doing all she can to show support to La, enjoyed her jokes to break the ice when things got tense. Even though its for her own gain, its nice La has someone.

La's first day had truned into somewhat of a disaster and no end in sight yet, as she draws unfriendly looks when she gets cozy with her boy friend,

but draws some real attention when she tells Arnav, she's really hot and needs to take a shower

"tumhara room kaha hai (where is your room)?"

"chalo mein dikhata hoon" Arnav casually tell her thinking it's not big deal he is ready to walk her to his room when Nani's voice echos through the house

"taheriye Mr. Kashyap (Wait)!" she walks over to them intimidating La "Where do you think you're going? I'm asking you Ms. Lavanya Kashyap"

Poor la couldn't find the words, so Arnav spoke for her

"Nani, whatever you want to ask, you can ask later at this time"

Nani inturrupts "i'm not asking, i'm telling you, she will NOT be staying in your room. As far as her staying in this house, was the only choice to save our maan our honor, but without a marriage in one room, i will not have it, this is against our values and beliefs"

During the heated argument between Naniji and Arnav, La accidentaly makes things worse by trying to teach nani the definition of "Living-in, matlab saath saath rahena, aur mein aur Arnav saath saath rahenge"

"hello hi bye by, laagat hai ee miss Kashyap ko lion ke moo mein kho ho khelne ka shokh hai" maami says what everyone is thinking😆

Naani puts her foot down and has La's stuff put in the guest room.

ASR had kept his patience when Naniji refused to acknowledge La's "namaste", when she refused to eat her pastries (before it was revealed it had eggs in it) but now she is imposing her values on him and his girlfriend taking away their freedom to choose to stay together "Now i've had enough!".

His anger rises in his eyes as La leaves, Shyam tries to stop him, "sorry Jijaji" not this time. "Nani, i don't think you needed to further damage the situation, La is a guest in this house, Nani if this continues..."

Nani challenges his statement "to kya chote"

"kya ka jawab aap jaanti hai Nani, I'll leave this house with Lavanya, shaadi aur baak riti riwaazo se mera koi lena dena nahi hai (i have nothing to do with marriage or the other rituals)...and i've had enough, meain ek baat ko baar baar nahi kar sakta" unable to bare the air in the room, he walks out

Arnav has always respected the women in his life, even with all of his difference with Nani, he never disrespected her, and the way he is sticking up for La fighting for her respect in this house is very similar to the way he would do later for Khushi during the "moo dikhayi" when people point fingers at the new bride that eloped with the groom and later in front of Dadiji when he says one of the best lines in the show "Jahan meri patni nahi aa sakti, mujhe nahi lagta wahn mer zarurat hai.." To say he is a fair man is an understatement but this man who knows right from wrong according to him and will not back down to fight for it, even if the fight is against his own grandmother. The makers did an excellent job making this complex character with so many amazing layers come alive and to Barun Sobti, who had breathed the life it so deserved into him.

ASR furiously takes his jacket and tie off as it seems to be a habit of his in his anger. his trusted jijaji comes to have chat with him. ASR know why he's here

"Nahi, mein iss ghar mein ab nahi rahe sakta (no, i can't stay here anymore)"

Shyaam says "shaant ho jaaiye saale sahaab"

"Naani ki baaten suni aapne? kya kisi rishte kis shaadi ke bina koi izat nahi hai? Lavanya koi respect deserve nahi karti? we want to stay together, so what if we don't want to get married, she has to understand this"

Shyam is at this "jijaji best" here, calming Arnav down with tea and tries to draw the bridge between him and Nani regarding marriage "society ke pressure mein aake mein shaadi nahi karna chahta, waise bhi mein shaadi mein vishwaash hi nahi karta (i don't want to marry b/c of society pressures)"

his eyes go to that forbidden place as he says he doesn't believe in marriage, a place where he saw his parents marriage shatter perhaps."my outlook is just as important as Nani's."

Shyam advises him to do as Nani says and see what happens, when she sees you're listening to her, she'll change too right? maybe she'll understand you,

then Shyaam says something very telling of his deceitful nature and exactly what he is doing right now😡😡

" ham apni zindagi mein pehle is samaj gaye the, ki apne aanewale kal ko sawaar na ho, to apne aaj ka liya gaya har kadam soch kar lena chahiye (in my life i learned early on that if you want your tomorrow to be good, every step you take today need to be thought out)" 😡😡

he continues

"Zindagi koi video player to hai nahi ki rewind button dabay aur ghalati sudhaar li (life is not a video player, in which you can rewind and fix mistakes)"

Arnav's heart skips a beat at those words,

his day was filled with big moments, his gf moving in with him and the big fight with Nani, so much happening, but somehow she manages to find him, his mind just needs an excuse. Earlier when Anjali was doing La's aarti,

he was instantly reminded of Khushi's arti at teej

and now this, he stands up, the need to be isolated with her thoughts, not even his trusted jijaji was allowed in (thank God!)

one by one, he thinks of all that he wished to rewind and fix. with each memory and each second, his body becomes more tense, his heart pounds faster

Can you hear him? rehearsing for a play months later?

jab jo kiya, jab jo kaha sab bhool jao bas waapis aa jao,

(whatever bad things done, whatever bad things said, forget all of it, just come back)

Jab jo boora kaha, uska koi matlab nahi,

(whatever bad things i said, it didn't mean anything)

jab jo boora kiya uska koi matlab nahi,

(whatever bad things i did, it didn't mean anything)

"Nafrat hai na?aapko humse, hamaar shakkal se? to khush hojiye, kyu ki hum aapki nazron se hamesha ke liye door jaa rahe hai" her words still haunt him

Sab bhool jao bas waapis aa jao

(forget all of it, just come back)

DROOL CORNER!!!!!!!

❤️ His need to want to go back in time and take away all the pain he imposed on her, he can hardly stand it ❤️

Indi, awesome line. true to the core. So, beware of anyone who is extra sweet 😡 But I couldn't make myself hate shyamwa at this point. His amazing attitude, solving the pbms, being a mediator and pacifying everyone made me too delusional. Am I an 'Anjali'?

I wonder whether ASR at any time loved la like a lover would ? I think he didn't have any other feelings except that of a friendship with la. Though their relationship might have become more than friendship wrt some intimacy. As you said when he commits ASR sticks to it. So, when dating la, he was with her and no one else..

so he let it pass after a seriously angry retort, choosing to stalk off to his room instead; and take off his jacket swiftly, in characteristic asr angry mode. how wonderfully barun created this man with gestures clearly visible, and many tiny details you'd miss but they'd make asr more and more real: the way he'd stare with unblinking gaze at the computer, utterly absorbed, the way he'd walk when angry, the sudden glint in the eye, the mask like expression in the initial days, eyes different only when looking at khushi. how effective he was and what the reach of this level of performance was got even clearer to me this afternoon.

👏👏 Barun understood ASR beyond the scope of the writing. I really feel, he made ASR understood by the audience .. his innermost feelings ..

a friend of mine was in cambodia recently, and the manicurist at the parlour told her she was very fond of watching an indian soap. really? which one? she couldn't say the name since it was in cambodian, but she said, you know it has that boy who's always angry. the girl doesn't know hindi. she watches a dubbed version, so she doesn't even hear barun sobti's voice. yet, she loves that angry fellow.

aawwweee..👏

back to shyam manohar jha. he was instrumental in crafting the moment that made the episode for me. while warming to his theme of how to handle opposition and manipulate people to achieve one's own end, he told asr:
"saale sab yaad rakhiye... kaman se nikla hua teer, aur zaban se nikla hua shabd kabhi wapis nahin liya ja sakta..."

remember, saale saab, the arrow that's left the bow, and the word that's left the tongue can never be taken back...

asr's attention was arrested. shyam went on,

"aur zindagi koi video player toh hai nahin ki rewind button dabaye aur galti sudhaar li."

and life isn't a video player that you'd press the rewind button, and correct your mistake.

AWESOME dialogues indi.. if i were in a indian movie hall. I would have felt like standing up and clapping & whistling. What writing ! Kyo aise writing wapas nahi dikh rahe hai ?

galati. sahi galat. main sahi hoon. asr's eyes changed tone, he got up slowly from his bed, disengaged in a moment from all around, deep in his fortress, he stood staring at nothing, expression deepening in his eyes, he almost braced himself for what was coming...


and a hand reached a pearl dori on a vulnerable back and snapped it ruthlessly.

a terrified pair of eyes looked at him, tears rolling down tender cheek.

he let go of a hand, and she fell backward, shock seizing her expression... down onto the boxes below.

he pushed her against a drum, holding her wrists tightly that storm tossed night, her eyes welled up, he's cut her wrist, blood oozed out.

he remembered everything he'd done that was galat, not right, toward her. and now she was going away, there she stood telling him to be happy, never again would he see her face. going to lucknow hamesha ke liye.

i realised he did sorely regret these actions of his. and it was this early in the story, not months later. in fact, he was not the sort of man to treat a woman in such a way. yet, with her he seemed to just overstep the limit, he had no idea why. he'd asked himself in the rain the night he saved her from an oncoming car, why is it that for the first time i feel what i'm doing is not right? but then he'd averred, no... main sahi hoon. arnav singh raizada ko kissi ladki se koi faraq nahin padta.

ASR ---> ⭐️ Indi ---> 👏

it was important for asr's own self image to be sahi. but this internal acknowledgment of his being wrong had more to do with her than his idea of himself. he didn't want to be like that with her, he wished perhaps there were indeed a rewind button. he knew there wasn't.

and she was going away. how he regretted it. she, about whom he couldn't stop thinking, just now when he entered with lavanya and di did arati, his mind flew to khushi, there she was doing arati during teej, and now...

How his mind and heart were with her. .. How she was always in his thoughts... how much she made him disturbed .. how he wanted to erase her from his memory.. how he tried to make her leave him alone without this azeeb sa feelings... uska kudh ka man nahi maan raha hai, kya kardhiya khushi thune !!

he stood their motionless, taut, his fists closed tightly...

a swallow as though moved beyond a point, a moistness in his eyes... camera moved in, shallow erratic breathing. saansey hi ruk jayegi.

stunning minutes of emotion, recognition of error, and immersing in a feeling.

Mere saanse rukh jarahe hai... indi... ithna sunder math liko !

if this was the end, at the beginning, another meaningful wordless scene. one with khushi. this time devi maiya played the move herself. payal asked khushi if she'd forgotten to take something? wasn't she bringing dm along? khushi actually had forgotten to put her in her bag. so hassled she was after throwing that made up on the spot, going to lucknow story at him. now it was a reality, but she wasn't sure of her decision.

she sat on the bed, dejected, talking nonstop.
"jiji, pata nahin humne sahi faisla liya hai ki nahin. kash kahin se hume aisa ishara milega jo kahega ki khushi tumne bilkul sahi faisla liya hai."

jiji, don't know if i took the right decision. if only a sign would come from somewhere saying, khushi you've taken absolutely the right decision.

How she wished Payal insisted on staying back with buaji... how she wished buaji scolded her and forced her to cancel the ticket... she needed someone to say no.. we are not leaving ... she was as stubborn as ASR..

sahi faisla... right decision. what's galat, what's sahi. some day, they will cross these limits and realise some things are beyond all that.

not that such signs were given to her usually, she muttered. charming quintessential khushi by sanaya. one part of her all nutty and innocent girl, the other a woman who feels the unease within, a call of someone in her. was going away the right thing to do?

then realising her folly, she jumped up and picked dm up with both hands, full of apology. the goddess's chunari fell off, was this a symbol of uncovering of a truth? a revelation?

and khsuhi saw him leaping to catch and save dm in that store room, the two of them falling, him upon her, their eyes meet, and hold. rabba vey swirled in.


khushi put dm down on the desk. unbearable pain. khushi is silent.

a few other thoughts.

i always felt a funny sort of tenderness toward la. despite her seeming hardness, and shallow demeanour, she was a girl with many possibilities. and she was independent. willing to take risks. capable of true love. even at this moment her love for asr was genuine. and she was smart enough to sense what asr felt for her was nowhere near what she felt for him. but she who'd eat eggs which she was allergic to because he liked eggs, would let her ego take a back seat just to be close to him. how touching that moment when she said in the earlier episode: i know what you're going to tell me, the plan to move in with you is off. she always feared this was not going to work out. sixth sense of a canny girl? and no matter how harsh he was, no complaints. she just needed him more than he needed her. that's how relationships sadly often are, aren't they? the writers seemed to forget she was allergic to eggs... or maybe she made that cake specially for him.

an episode rich in expressions and interaction between family members, its power outlay and the games within that.

mamaji: bhai, kaa khichadi pakaa rahe ho aap dono.
ah, sign of things to come, mamaji was an endearing character, so much potential. but the khichadi that the ph, channel, and creatives pakaaoed was too strong for his tastes i guess.