Do you want to really know, Aisha.. let me tell you.. I was so upset today morning.. seeing all of you cry for Arnav and Khushi. I can't.. I simply can't. This is the same me who cried so much the day Arnav thought he lost Khushi. I haven't felt that emotion ever since then.. I haven't felt it for them at all. And it makes me really really really upset that I can't love them any more.
I loved him so much so so much that I fought with my fiance .. we got into a major fight 'coz of Barun.. 'coz I wanted him to build muscles like Barun.. all my friends still tease me about it.. 😳
I started getting annoyed at him.. when he started looking uninterested and bored.
Look at the display pic.
His look ruined the show for me.. I loved him so much that it made me really really upset when he lost interest in the show and the character..!
You know I cried today.. 'coz I was so depressed.. that I couldn't feel what you guys felt for Arshi.. I feel like I betrayed them.. I don't know.. I cried talking to Avni and Tia.. they were trying to cheer me up on Skype..
I don't hate him.. this is just my way of hating myself.. hating myself for falling so deeply in love with a character and having a deep-rooted crush on an actor at an age of 27.. the bubble burst and now I feel like a fool.. by bashing him I am bashing myself for being a fool .. that's all..
Now you know!
Edited by boreddamsel - 12 years ago
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