While watching yesterday's episode I suddenly thought of a scene that happened months ago between Khushi and Nani. I am talking about the scene when Arnav is kidnapped and Khushi is worried about him and cannot sleep - Nani comes to her room and tells Khushi about stuff from Arnav's childhood. She said that once Arnav got stuck in a brass vessel and he had to be cut out. Arnav got hurt but he wasnt crying for the wound but for for the punishment. That too when he wasnt given any so he gave himself the punishment. If Arnav loves somebody and cannot do anything for them - he starts punishing himself - that is how he is.
I want to see this Arnav in the coming episodes - I want him to realise the hurt and pain he has put Khushi through unconsciously with him forgetting Khushi and spending time with Sheetal and Aarav. I want him to suffer in silence just the way Khushi is currently doing. I want him to fear daily that he might end up losing Khushi if he isnt careful. But most importantly I want him to suffer without Khushi's knowledge as the Khushi we know and fell in love with - will never let someone suffer if she can help it.
You can all say that Arnav has been suffering these past months as well but I beg to differ. Arnav has always known that Khushi will always be there for him at the end of the day. He knew that Khushi would be waiting for him at the alter, he knew that she will move heaven and earth to rescue him from the kidnappers, he knew that she would sacrifice herself to make sure her sister's life doesnt get affected. The only thing I have been able to get from this is that he has taken her for granted and still does - that is the one thing I want to change. I want him to experience the feeling that someday he could end up losing her not from a third party influence but because of him and his behavior only.
Since the words repentance and redemption aren't in the CVs vocabulary - I hope the word guilty-conscious does and we get to see that very soon. I know Arnav supporters are going to be angry with this post but frankly we have suffered Khushi's pain months after months after months so atleast we can also get few weeks of Arnav's pain for once. I dont want the 5 minutes of flashbacks and regret than a 10 minutes apology but more than 2 weeks where we see everything Khushi does with someone else makes him suffer.
PS: special thanks to Nadia who told me which episode the Nani and Khushi scene aired. Nadia you truly are the Iss Pyaar encyclopedia.