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Hey Guys, This is my First OS. I am writing this in celebration of me turning into a Goldie with this post, and this is my first attempt to write anything on a public platform. I hope you guys enjoy reading this. Please let me know if you like it, so I know if I should continue writing or not. 😃
I let it fall, my heart
And as it fell you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me
"Yes I fell for you; I am in love with you. I tried to deny it, but I can't anymore. I am glad you were there when I needed you the most, but I am sorry I was never there. I am still the same man who abused you any chance I got, never apologized for my behaviour, made you sleep outside in the cold, but I love you. You came for me, when nobody did, you saved me, and you brought me out of the dark. You gave my life the meaning it lacked, you gave me the happiness, the hope that I had lost years ago. How can I let you go, Khushi? You are my love, my life!" He told her, when she was planning to leave him, bags all packed, her eyes shone with tears unshed.
My hands they're strong, but my knees were far too weak
To stand in your arms without falling to your feet
But there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew
All the things you'd say, they were never true, never true
And the games you play, you would always win, always win
To stand in your arms without falling to your feet
But there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew
All the things you'd say, they were never true, never true
And the games you play, you would always win, always win
Khushi stood strong, in front of her husband, her husband of 6 months, that she loved, deeply, but she knew she had to do this. For him, for his family, for herself, to get some hold on her life, to finally live like she wants to. She wanted him to stop pleading, stop saying that he loves her. She cannot be weak, and his eyes so full of feelings she had never seen in them were begging her to stay back. She closed her eyes, for the fear of getting weak again. She knew that her heart would always beat for him, but will she ever be able to forgive him or trust him? Will she ever be able to bear the guilt of seeing him unhappy because of her? No, she had made her mind. She was tired of these games, of heart and mind. She was tired of fighting with him and herself. This had to stop.
"I know, Arnavji, that you love me. But I also know that Di is your life. You will never be happy if Di is not happy. I would never want to be the reason you and Di are unhappy. Our contract is over, and I think this is the best for both of us and this family. I wanted a life of respect and love, which I did not get here. I wish to do something of my life now, and for that I need to go. If you love me enough, you will let me go."
But I set fire to the rain
Watched it pour as I touched your face
Let it burn while I cried
Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name
Arnav felt a thousand bricks being hailed at him. He was shocked to see the determination and the fire in her eyes. He knew she is right, he knew she deserves the respect, the love which she has lost here with his family. But how could he let her go? He took her bag out of her hands, and brought her closer to himself. She did not resist, as if she knew it is the last time she will ever be close to him.
"I am sorry, please forgive me", he cupped her face, and whispered. And this time, without giving it a second thought, he brought his lips down on hers. She gasped, and he was surprised to see her responding to his kiss. He nibbled, bit, and played with her lips as if he was sucking all the time he could out of her, for he knew this was all they had. He poured out all the love, the regret, the pain in that one kiss which he knew will still not be enough to show how much he wanted her to be a part of him, of his life. He opened his eyes, to see her face all flushed and pink adorning her cheeks and she looked like a blooming red rose. Her eyes were dazed with desire just like him, but he saw something in those eyes. He saw how her eyes reflected the regret that she had to do this.
When I'm with you I could stay there
Close my eyes, feel you're here forever
You and me together, nothing gets better
Cause there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew
All the things you'd say, they were never true, never true
And the games you play, you would always win, always win
Khushi felt like she was dreaming. The kiss was magical, she had never thought her first kiss could be so beautiful. She never wanted him to stop, she wanted to stay like this. In his arms, in his warmth, that made her body shudder with desire. She knew she belonged here with him, that nobody would give her such immense pleasure just by looking at her with so much love in their eyes. But she had to stop. She broke the kiss and stepped back. She could not look into his eyes. The eyes which would make her weak, the eyes which made her feel wanted.
She took her bag from his hands and started walking towards the door.
But I set fire to the rain
Watched it pour as I touched your face
Let it burn while I cried
Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name
I set fire to the rain
And I threw us into the flames
Where I felt something die
Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time
He knew this was it. He knew he had to stop her, he was desperate to show her what she meant to him. He jerked the bag away from her hand, and brought her flush against him. She gasped when she was twisted to hit him with such force, her soft body pressing into his hard chest.
"Please stay, for me, because I know you love me." He whispered close to her ears, making her close her eyes, as if she was afraid of showing the emotions flowing out of her eyes in the form of tears. But he did not stop, he could not.
"I know, I wronged you, but I will do everything to make it better, please don't leave me." He pleaded more with his eyes than his words. She could not take it anymore. Her cheeks shone with the tears she was trying hard to stop. He could not see her cry, he felt like his breath was caught in his throat. He wanted to take her in his arms, fall asleep holding her waist, resting her head in his chest, revelling in her scent that made his senses dizzy with love. He wanted so much more, for them.
Sometimes I wake up by the door, that heart you caught must be waiting for you
Even now when we're already over
I can't help myself from looking for you
I set fire to the rain
Watched it pour as I touched your face
Let it burn while I cried
Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name
I set fire to the rain
And I threw us into the flames
Where I felt something die
Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time
"Please Arnavji, I cannot see you in pain, but I cannot live here with you anymore. Please try to understand and let me go".
Khushi freed her hands from him; she shoved him to push him away before she lost her senses. After a lot of effort of struggling in his arms, he set her free. She knew she would rather die than look at his eyes now, his eyes that made her want to wipe away his tears, his pain from his eyes. She grabbed her bags and moved towards the door, this time not to look back.
She knew she was leaving her love behind, she was leaving her will to live behind, but she will find it in herself to make it.
She will survive. Without him. Without his love. With him forever in her heart.
But she couldn't stop herself from looking at him. She turned back to find him looking at her, with his eyes that had so much love for her, and their eyes met, for one last time.
One last time, their eyes locked, forgetting the whole world, forgetting the pain that they had caused each other, forgetting that there was anything other than their love for each other.
The above title and the words of the song in between are taken from the song "Set Fire to the rain" by Adele.
I would like to thank all you forum members whom I have interacted with, and made friends with in such a short time. I enjoy being on the forum, and the FF's keep me going when I lose hope from the show.
I would like to make a special mention to all my favorite writers, who inspired me to give a thought into writing. I hope I hear from you guys, saying how I could improve on my writing, or whether I should stop writing altogether...😆.
Thanks for reading this, please comment to let me know how you felt about it.
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