Phewww!! FInally done. Extremely sorry for the delay. Got a bit busy.
I had to watch and re-watch DBO episodes to get the flashbacks and the context right. Even after that I couldn't watch few because of storyline😆
Made a small and sincere attempt to write a proper conversation/breakdown between Ri and Kara without fast forwarding anything. Please ignore the mistakes.
Italics - flashback
Green - Conversation
Blue - translation
Long update! Hope the update is worth the wait 😊
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...When you are guilty, it is not your sins you hate but yourself...
Omkara was shattered. He couldn't hear his brothers trying to console him. He couldn't hear his dadi grieve on how cruel the world is. He couldn't hear his father yelling that he wouldn't leave those people who hurt his daughter. He couldn't see his mother rushing to switch off the speaker neither could he see his anika bhabhi slumping to the floor. He was in denial until he heard a voice, her voice.
"Omkara ji yeh ka ho raha hai. Aur aap sab logon ko ka hua. Aap ro kyu rahe hai.
(Omkara ji, what is happening? And what happened to you all? Why are you people crying?)
Omkara stood up. He couldn't even raise his head to face her and he heard her question him again.
Omkara ji khoon? Aapke haath se khoon nikal raha hai. (Omkaraji blood? Your hand is bleeding) She looked petrified.
"Nahiii!! Nahi Gauri paas math aana. Mei gunahgaar hoon (Nooo! No Gauri. Don't come near me. I am a sinner) he bellowed pointing his finger towards her when he saw her coming towards him.
He let out a sarcastic chortle. He finally retreated to his room murmuring the same to himself.
His own words kept haunting him while he stumbled all the way to his room.
Tumhari jaisi ladki se shaadi toh door, tumhare shakal tak nahi dekhna chahtha hoon
Mujhe tumse, tumhari judi har cheez se, yah toh teri shakal se badi nafrat hai
Tum jaise logon ko na jaan ne mein aur na samajh ne mei mein apna wakt barbadh kartha hoon
Tum jo kar rahi ho usse saaf saaf nazar aa raha hai ki tum kitna ghatiya aur giri hui ladki ho
He finally reached his room and hit his injured hand on the table unable to hold his bottled up anger.
Ek ghar toh jala chuki ho...Ab kisi aur ghar ki bhaari hai? Tum jaisi ladki kisi ek ki hokar nahi reh sakthi
Wasn't she loyal to him from the day he married her? He might have misunderstood her but did he give a second thought to it? Wasn't she the one who put him before her self respect and stuck with him through thick and thin?
Aur kisi ko bina jaane uske baare mei galat raai banane waale bhi sahi nahi lagthi
Aap hamari mazboori ko khudgarzi ka naam math dijiye
Aapko lagtha hai aap jo hamare baare mein jaanthe hai woh sab sach hai? Bareilly mein milthe hi humein bina jaane, bina pehchaane, aapne hamare baare mein raai bana li..Tab se aap wohi dekh rahe hai jo aap dekhna chah rahe hai..aur wohi samajh rahe hain jo samajhna chah rahe hain...Agar hum sach mein waise hothe toh aapko chulbul mein bhi wahi burai dikhti
He picked up the vase and threw it in anger.
Rishta agar majbooth ho use koi dhaaga Tod nahi sakthi ..Aur agar kamjor ho use koi rasam jod nahi sakthi
Aap ko kya patha ham kya kar rahe hai kyun kar rahe hai..Aap jaanthe kya hai hamare baare mei
Aap hamare majboori nahi samjhenge
How many times had she pleaded him to see the truth in her words? How many times did she try to tell she was forced to do everything? She even tried making him see sense. Did he listen to her at least once? No. He accused her again of something so worse. He screamed in agony pushing away all the paint bottles.
Tumhari wajah se iss ghar ki asli thakurain apne jaan li thi...Aur tum besharamon ki tarah isi ghar mei thakurain banne ko thayyaar ho gai...Itna zeher toh mei kisi naagin mei bhi nahi dekha
How blinded he was by the demons of his past? But does that justify his words? Absolutely not! He had no right to accuse someone of a murder without knowing the whole truth. Did he think twice before saying something?
Sach bahut shaitan chirota hota hai...ek baath pe haath nahi aatha...Use bahut doondna padtha hai..Aur rahi baath risthe ki...Toh lete hai ki hamara paas sirf ek ristha hai...Wahi hamaari thaakath hai aur wahi hamaari kamjori...Aur hum uske liye kuch bhi kar sakthe hai
Wasn't she right? He always claimed that he knew the truth but never did he think that he might have got hold of the wrong half. Just because he had his problems doesn't give him the rights to destroy other's life does it? He pulled his hair in frustration.
Mein tujh jaise ghatiya logon se ehsaan nahi leta...
Mein tumhe faisla sunane aaya hoon...Kuch bhi karo kaise bhi karo...tumhara naam oberoi khaandhaan ke kul patri mei nahi hona chahiye...
Jo karna hai karo, zeher khaake marjao i don't care...
He threw the bed lamp at the mirror and it broke into pieces.
Sauda karna toh koi tumse seekhe...Log zameen jaydadh maan imaan bhejthe hai..tumne toh khud ko hi bhej diya..
He pushed the drawing stand with his leg with so much rage that the frame fell from it with a loud thud.
Meanwhile in the hall
"Gauri itna sab kuch hogaya aur bathana zaroori nahi samjha? Kya itna paraya hogaye hum log. Mujhe toh tum bade bhai maanthe ho na..Phir bhi kyun nahi bathaya? (Gauri so much has happened and you didn't even feel it important to tell us? Did we become outsiders to you? You consider me your elder brother right? Why didn't you tell me then?) He asked looking at her in disbelief.
"Par hua ka hai bade bhaiyya. Humne aapse ka chupaya? Aap kis ke baare mei baath kar rahe hai? (But what exactly happened bade bhaiyya. What did I hide from you? What is that you are talking about?) she asked him.
"Bhabhi! Jab aap yahan nahi the...Toh bhajan wala gaane sunne ke liye meine aapke phone speaker ko connect kiya aur woh recording play hua jo aap aapke chacha chachi aane ke baadh record kiya (Bhabhi! When you weren't here...I connected your phone to the speaker to listen to the devotional songs and instead of that the recording which you had recorded when your uncle and aunt visited this house got played)
This piece of information from Rudra shook her to the core. She never wanted her ugly past to come out. Now that it was out, she was more scared of how her husband would react.
"Gauri! Kam se kam mujhe batha dethi. Mujhe toh badi behen maana hai na. Itna sab kuch sehna pada upar se un cheapde logon se baath karni padi, ek baath batha dethi. Kya zaroorat thi sab kuch akele sambhalne ki (Gauri! You could have told me atleast. You have considered me your big sister right? You had to face so much and on top of that you had to deal with those cheapsters. You could have told me right? What was the necessity to handle them alone?)
"Bhaujaai, aisi baath nahi hai (Bhaujaai! It is not like that..)
"Toh kaisi baath hai bhabhi! Mujhe toh aap bhaiyya bulaya hai na. Aap hum me se kisi ko bhi batha dethe
(Then what bhabhi! You called me your brother right? You could have told anyone of us)
"Rudy bhaiyya! Bade bhaiyya! Hum aap sab ko paresaan nahi karna chahthe the. Isiliye nahi bataya humne. Aur yeh itna bhi badi baath nahi hai
(Rudy bhaiyya! Bade bhaiyya! I didn't want to trouble you people. So I didn't tell you. And this is not a big issue)
"Tum pagal ho? Itna sab kuch hogaya aur tum keh rahi ho ki yeh badi baath nahi hai?
(Are you mad? So much has happened and you are telling that this is not a big issue?)
"Bhaujaai baath samaj ne ki koshish kiliye...
(Bhaujaai! Try to understand...)
She was trying to make them understand while everyone heard a loud noise from a room. That was when she realised that her husband was no where to be found.
"Omkara ji...
"Maaf kiliye ...Hum aap sab se baadh mei baath karenge.. (I am sorry...I will talk to you people later) she told them and rushed towards their room.
As she entered the room, she found him throwing away the spotlight in anger.
"Omkaraji aap ka kar rahe hai.. (Omkaraji what are you doing?) she tried stopping him but he pushed her away without looking at who the person is. He was not in his senses to even understand anything. He threw another spotlight down.
Suddenly a dreadful memory hit him.
"Tujhe yeh ladki chahiye thi na...leke jaa...
Tu meri dosti kya...Meri dushmani ke liye bhi layak nahi hai...Ab Gauri ho ya chulbul tu mere liye mar chuke hai
He caught hold of the half done sculpture when he felt a petite figure hugging him fiercely.
"Omkara ji please shanth hojayiye. Please Omkara ji, please
(Omkaraji please calm down. Please Omkaraji, please)
She wasn't letting him go even if he tried pushing her. He dropped the sculpture and finally gave in. He hugged her back weeping on her shoulder. He hugged her as if his life depended on her. He wept for all the torture he made her undergo. He cried for every single word he told her in his blind rage. For the n number of times he pointed his finger at her character. For those times when he threw her out of his room.
"Mu..jhe..Mujhe maaf kardo Gauri. Mujhe maaf kardo (Ple..please forgive me Gauri. Please forgive me) he kept chanting between his sobs. "Mei tumhe kya kya nahi kaha, kya kya nahi sunaya..Phir bhi tumne mere saath dhi ...Tere maafi ke layak bhi nahi hoon ..Nahi hoon tere maafi ke laayak (Even after all the things I told you, all the rubbish I spoke to you, you stood by my side...I am not worthy of your forgiveness...I don't deserve your forgiveness at all)he was going hysterical when she tried calming him down. She broke the hug after a long time and made him face her.
"Omkara ji aap pehle hamari baath suniye aur hamare saath aayiye. (Omkaraji, first listen to me and come along with me) She caught hold of his arm and brought him to a place near the bed which was clean while he followed her like a lost kid. "Aap yaha baitiye. Hum abhi aathe hai.(You sit here. I will come in a while) She made him sit on the floor and when she was leaving, she felt a hand hold her wrist. "Mat jao, (Don't go) he whispered. "Hum kahi nahi jaa rahe hai. Aap baite rahiye, hum abhi aathe hai, (I am not going anywhere. You stay here. I'll just come) she cupped his face and made him understand while he finally let her go. After few minutes she came with a first aid box and a glass of water and sat beside him on the floor. He pried his wounded hand away from her when she tried tending to it. "Omkara ji please zid mat kijiye. Haath dijiye hame...hamare liye? (Omkara ji...Please don't be stubborn. Give me your hand...For my sake?) She added the last part knowing his weakness for which he obliged. She started tending to his wound while he kept looking at her with admiration and guilt. She then handed over a glass of water to him which he finished in one go. "Ab aap theek hai? (Are you alright now?) He heard her ask. How can she be so selfless? he thought while watching the worry etched on her face for him. "Gauri, tum itni achi kyun ho? (Gauri, why are you so good?) he questioned her. While she tried to tell something, he signalled her to stop. "Aaj tak mei tumse kitne baar kaha ki mujhe meri galthi ka ehsaas hai lekin yeh toh gunaah hai Gauri, (Till now, I have told you many times that I did realise my mistakes but this is a complete sin Gauri) he told her feeling disgusted at himself.
"Pehle din se meine tumhe kitna galat samjha. Gauri mei..mei itna bewakoof kaise ho saktha hoon. Mujhe toh pehle din hi samajh na chahiye tha ki tum apne aatma samman ko koi tej pahunchathe hue nahi dekh sakthi ho. Toh, meine yeh kaise maan liya ki tum khudko bhe..bhej sakthi ho (I have misunderstood you right from the day one. Gauri Ho..How can I be so foolish? I should have understood on the very first day that you would not tolerate anyone harming you self-respect. Then how could I even think that you so..sold yourself?) he told her while fresh set of tears made their way down his eyes. "Omkara ji.. by then, even she wasn't able to control her tears watching him break down and it wasn't easy for her either to relive her past. He caught hold of her hand in his. "Nahi Gauri, Aaj mujhe bolne do. Tum mujhe kitni baar kehne ki koshish ki ki woh tumhari majboori thi. Tumne mujhe kitni baar samajhaya ki bina kisi ko jaane, unpe galat raai nahi banathe, phir bhi ek..ek nahi suna tha mein tumhari. Patha nahi mei kaise apne dimaag koh baite.(No Gauri. Let me talk today. How many times have you tried telling me that you were under some kind of compulsion? How many times have you tried making me understand that one must not be judgemental about someone without knowing them? Even then, I..I did not listen to a single word of yours. I don't even know how I lost my mind) He said hitting his forehead. "Aur tum..tum apne maa ko bachane ke liye mera phone maang rahi thi hai na..(And you...you asked me for my phone to save your mother right?) when he saw her nod, he continued, " Aur meine kya kiya badle mei..meine uske baare mei usi insaan ko bataaya jo tumhe teen teen logon se shaadhi karne ko majboor kar raha tha. Gauri aise kaise kar saktha hoon mei... Ginn aathi hai mujhe khud par (And what did I do in return? I told that to the same person who forced you to marry not one but three people...Gauri how can I even do that?...I feel so ashamed of myself) he cried.
"Aur jab Khaali ke goondon ne tere piche pade the, tum apni jaan ki firkar karna chodkar meri jaan bachayi. Tab bhi mei tumhe chod kar chala gaya tha...ek baar nahi Gauri, baar baar, har baar mein tumhe un jaanwaron ke paas chod diya tha mei... Arey itna thak toh chod, meine toh tumhe zeher khaake mar jaane ki baath kar raha tha, par zeher tho mere dil mein hai Gauri...dil mein...Mein aise kaise kar saktha hoon?...Yaad hai jab tum chulbul banke ghar aayi thi, mei tumse ek waada kiya tha, yahi na ki mein uss dosthi ko zindagi bhar nibhaunga? Toh mei tumhe aise kaise chod diya us ghatiya insaan ke paas? ...Meine aise kaise maan liya ki jo ladki uske jaan khathre mei daal kar, mujhe, mere maa ka jaan bacha sakthi hai, who itni badi dhoka de sakthi hai...Mein toh bade bade baathein kar raha tha na ki tum mere dil kaise toda hai, ek baar bhi nahi socha ki tumpar kya beeth rahi hogi. Aur jab Bua maa ke iradhonke ke baare mei mujhe tum kitni baar samjhane ki koshish ki..na sunna toh door, mei toh seedha haath utaya tumpar..mei khud ko kabhi maaf nahi karunga Gauri, kabhi nahi( And when Kaali's goons were behind you, instead of saving yourselves, you saved my life. Even then I went away leaving you alone. Not once Gauri, every time, every single time I left you with those animals. Leave all that, I have told you to die eating poison but the venom is in my heart Gauri...It is in my heart. How could I even do all these to you? Remember when you came to my house disguised as chulbul, I promised you that I would be your friend for the whole life? Then how did I even leave you with that pathetic excuse of a man? How did I even think that the girl who put her life at stake for me and my mother, would cheat on me. I used to yell at you for breaking my heart right? I did not even think of the effect it would have on you. And when you alerted me about the intentions of my aunt, instead of listening to you, I directly went to the extent of raising my hand on you. I would never forgive myself, Gauri. Never!) he sobbed hitting his injured hand to the bed. "Omkara ji..please please..woh baath ab yaad karke ka faidha..bhool jayiye na...please aapko hum aisi haalath mei nahi dekh sakthe..Omkara ji aapka haath ghaayal hai..(Omkara ji...please please...what is the use of remembering all those now...forget them no...please I can't see you in this situation...Omkara ji your hand is injured) she sobbed taking his hand in hers.. "Itna hone ke baadh bhi tujhe meri fikar hai? Kaise Gauri? (Even after all the things which I have done to you, how can you care for me) He asked her with a look of disbelief while tears hazed his sight. "Kyunki hum aapse pyaar karthe hai,(That is because I love you) she cried. "Pyaar karthe hai hum aapse. Hum aapko takleef mein nahi dekh sakthe hai Omkara ji. (I love you so much. I can never see you hurt Omkara ji)
Om felt pathetic. How can she love him after what he had put her through? He still had a long way to redeem himself. He took a resolute decision. He would begin his journey from the very moment, his journey towards redemption.
"Gauri, meine pehle din se tumhe sirf takleef diya aur kuch nahi. Mere kartoonton ko mei koi safai nahi de saktha kyun ki who maaf karne laayak nahi hai (Gauri, right from the day one I have given you only pain and nothing else. I can never give any explanation to my actions because they are not worth forgiving)
"Omkara ji..aisi baath nahi...
(Omkaraji..It isn't the way you think...)
"Aisa hi hai Gauri. Itna sab kuch hogaya aur meine tumhare saath nahi diya. Patha bhi nahi hai ki tum sab kuch kaise saamna kiya. Bas ek cheez maangna chahtha hoon, yeh jaankar bhi mujhe koi haq nahi bantha...Phir bhi maangna chahtha hoon...kya dhoge? (It is that way Gauri! So much has happened and I wasn't even there to support you. I don't even know how you were able to manage things alone. I just want to ask you one thing...I know I don't have any right to ask you this but still...I want to ask you...Will you give me?) he pleaded her for which she nodded her head uncertainly.
"Gauri, tum mujhe kitni baar samjhane ki khoshish kiya par meine tumhe baath karne ka mauka hi nahi diya. Aur jab meine baath karne ki khoshish ki, toh sara dard tum apne andhar dabadhi taaki mujhe bura na lag sake. Waise hi meine tumhe uss time saath nahi diya, kya tum apne dil ki baath mujhse share karoge? Kya tum apne saara dard mujhse baantoge? Please Gauri, sab apne andhar dabakar khud ko takleef mat do..please share karo..(Gauri! Even after you tried making me understand, I did not give you a chance to speak. And when I tried talking to you in the past, you kept all the things to yourself just to make sure that I won't feel bad. Either ways I wasn't there with you when you needed me, will you share your feelings with me? Will you share all your pain with me? Please Gauri, don't keep it within you and hurt yourself more...please share it with me) he begged her.
Listening to him pleading that way, her dam broke. All her life, she faced the situations thrown at her feet, all alone. She never had friends. She couldn't even tell her mother. Neither could she let anyone know that even she has her own fears. Because she knew, she knew how cruel the world is and how people would start taking advantage of others weakness. She had always carved for a shoulder to cry on. And when her husband, her everything, was pleading her to share her pain, share her feelings with him, something broke inside her.
"Omkara ji.. she let out an anguish cry and lunged herself upon him while he put his arms protectively around her and brought her closer. She cried her heart out. She wept on her ill fate. She wailed over her horrendous childhood. Her cries resonated in the whole room. The more she cried the more he felt her pain. He couldn't see her in that condition but he wanted her to let out everything, he wanted to take away all her pain. Though he couldn't control his tears, he kept hugging her closely, rubbing her shoulder, assuring her that he was there with her, for her.
"Ek wakt tha omkaraji jab hum bahut khus the...Ek hastha keltha parivaar, ek pyaari badi behen. Kitna khus the hum, lekin patha bhi nahi tha ki humari kismat itni phooti hogi. Sab kuch acha chal raha tha. Ek din maa papa ne hame aur hamari jiji ko ghar me chodkar kahi chale gaye the yeh kehkar ki woh log jaldi lautenge...lekin nahi aaye. Phir bhi hum intezaar karthe rahe, ek din dho din beet gaye par tabhi nahi aaye...Phir kuch log aake humse kaha hai ki hamare papa aur maa ek fire accident ke wajah se mar chuke hai...Hum aur hamare jiji tho bahut chote the omkaraji...Hum bahut darr gaye the...Hamare jiji ke alawa hamare liye koi nahi the...Tab se hamari dekh bal sirf hamari jiji ne ki thi...Ek din jab hum baahar gaye the...kuch aurathon ne humare piche pad gaye...Hume patha bhi nahi tha ki woh log kaun the aur humse kya chahthe the...Achanak dho aurat aaye aur hum donon ko alag karke kahi legaye...Aur hamare naseeb tho dekhiye...Humare muh pe patha nahi kounsi patti daal dhi uss aurat ne...jab hosh aaya tho patha chala ki hum anaadh ashram mei the..Kisi anjaan sheher mei...Humari behen kaha hai..kaisi hai..zinda hai ya nahi..Kuch bhi nahi patha..Kuch bhi nahi..Aur hum koshish bhi nahi kar sakthe...Waha ashram mei bahut bura haal tha...Na kuch khaane ke liye miltha tha naa kuch peene ka...Humne bahut koshish ki waha se bhaagne ka...Jab un logon ko patha chala..Tab hume ek kamre mei bandh kar diya...Kuch din beet gaye aur humne bhi bhaag ne koshish karna bandh kar diye the... Waha ke log bahut ajeeb hothe the...Hume waha rehna bilkul bhi pasand nahi tha...Har shaam ko hame ek shankar ji ke mandir ke paas le chalthe the khelne ke liye...Toh hum sirf ek mandir ke khone mei baitkar wakt bithathe the. Aise hi ek din ek pandit ji ne humaare paas aakar poocha ki hum udaas kyun hai...Hume tab bhagwan par viswas nahi tha...Phir panditji ne Humse kaha "Jo bhi tumhari icha hai bhagwan se maang ke dekho, woh zaroor sunenge . Hamari toh sirf ek hi icha thi...Uss ashram se baahar ane ki...Hamare saare doston ko toh koi na koi aakar godh lekar jathe the...hum dheere dheere phir se akele padne lage...Waha ke bade bade log sirf ache hone ke dikhawa karthe the...Asal mei toh bahut bure the...Humare sirf ek khwaish thi...Waha se bhaagne ka...Sirf ek hi cheez maanga tha shankarji se...Aur ek din dekha toh hamare maa baapuji aaye Hume godh lene..
(There was a time Omkara ji, when I was very happy...One happy family and a loving sister. How happy I was! But I didn't know that I would have such an ill fate. Everything was going fine. One day, my parents went out leaving me and sister at home, telling that they would be back soon but did not return. We waited continuously for two days but they did not come back. Then some people came to our house and told that our parents passed away in a fire accident. We both were very young that time Omkara ji...I got very scared...There was no one for me except my sister...From then, it was my sister who took care of me...One day when we both went out, few women were behind us...Suddenly two women came out of no where and took us away from each other...Look at my fate...I don't even know what they placed against my mouth...When I regained my consciousness I got to know that I was in some orphanage...at an unknown place...I don't know where my sister is...I don't even know if she is alive or not...And I couldn't even try searching for her...That orphanage was in a very bad state...There wouldn't be anything to eat neither would there be anything to drink...I tried a lot to escape from that place and when they got to know about this, they locked me up in a room...Few days passed and I stopped planning my escape. People there used to be very weird. I never liked staying at that place. Every evening, they used to take us to a place near Lord Shiva's temple and leave us to play. I used to spend my time sitting at a corner in the temple. One day Pandit ji came and asked me why I was upset. I never had belief on God till then...Then the Panditji said " If you really want something, ask him and see. He would definitely listen I had only one wish...To come out of that orphanage...Someone or the other used to come and take my friends away from me by adopting them...Slowly I started becoming isolated...The authorities over there used to fake their goodness...They were actually very bad in real...I had only one dream...to run away from that place...that was the only thing I asked shankar ji then...Then one day my parents have come to adopt me)
Jab hame maa baapuji ne godh liya..Hum bahut khus the...Tab hame us panditji ke baath yaad aagayi...Tab se hum hamare shankarji par viswas karne lage..Aur aage karthe bhi rahenge...Agar maa baapuji ne godh nahi liya hothe...Hum soch bhi nahi sakthe hamare haal kya hothe...Tab se bareilly hamare ghar ban gaya...Baapuji ke ek chota sa business tha...Hum baapuji aur maa humari choti si duniya mei khus the...Hum bhi adjust karne lage...phirse school jane lage..Par khusiyan meri naseeb mei tho zyada der tak nahi hothi na...Do saal beeth gaye aur ek din baapuji ko hospital le jana pada...Lekin jab hum waha gaye the...Doctor sahab ne keh diya ki hamare baapuji mar chuke hai heart attack ki wajah se...Baapuji se toh hum bahut pyaar karthe the aur woh bhi chale gaye...Tab jab hum poori tarah se tootne lage..Hamari maa ne hume hosla diya...Aage badne ke liye...Usine hume himmat dhi...Woh khud tootne ke bhaavajudh hume samjhaya ki kuch bhi hojay...Hosla nahi tootna chahiye...Tab hi humne tai kar liya ki chaahe kuch bhi hojay...Hum kamzor nahi banenge...Baapuji guzar jaane ke baadh ghar ka haalath bahut kharaab ho gayi thi...Maa ne baapuji ke kapde ka business phirse shuru kiya aur jo bhi paise milthe the usse hum dono ghar ko sambhalne lage...Phir achanak ek din kuch log aaye aur dukaan bandh karvake chale gaye yeh kehkar ki humare baapuji ne un logon se udhaar liya aur waapis nahi kiya...Yeh sab dekhar maa ka sehath bigadne lagi...Hume patha nahi tha ki ka karen..Isiliye hume padayi chodkar uss zimmedhari utani padi...Tab humne silayi ka kaam karna shuru kiye the...aur woh chacha chachi ne hame uss ghar se nikalne ki bahut koshish ki par sirf aur sirf hame un logon ke kaam karwane ke liye sirf naam ke dhamki dhene lage...Un logon ke paas paisa hothe the omkaraji...Par un ko tho hame tadap the hue dekhna bahut shauk tha...Sirf hum hi kyun omkaraji...Hamare saath hi aisa kyun hotha hai..(When my mother and father adopted me, I became very happy. Then I got reminded of those pandit's words...From that time I started believing in my shankar ji...and I would continue doing so...I cannot even imagine my condition if it weren't for them adopting me...Bareilly became my home from then...My father had a small business...All three of us used to be happy in our own little world. I started getting along with them...I started going to school again...But happiness will not stay in my life for long right? Two years passed by and one day we had to take my father to hospital...But when we went there, doctor told us that my father passed away due to a heart attack...I used to love my father so much and he too left me alone...And when I was in the verge of breakdown, my mother was the one who gave me the courage to move on...She was the one who lifted my confidence...That was the time when I decided that I would never fall weak, come what may...Our condition at home worsened after my father passed away...My mother started to continue my father's textile business and we both used to manage the house with whatever we got...Then one day few people barged in suddenly and shut the shop down telling us that my father took some loan from them and that he wasn't able to return it. Due to this turning of events, my mother's health started worsening...I did not know what to do...I had to leave my studies mid way and take up the responsibilty...That was when I started stitching and made that a profession...And my uncle and aunt tried kicking us out of the house but they let us stay at the end just to make me work for them and started threatening me just for namesake...They used to have money omkara ji...But they used to enjoy watching me suffer...Why is it always me Omkara ji? Why does it keep happening only with me?) she questioned him mocking her own fate while he stared at her not knowing what to answer. His heart bled listening to her story, listening to her misery. It pained him to see the strongest woman he knew break down in front of his eyes. "Sirf un logon se meri maa ko bachane ke liye jo jo kaha woh sab kiya humne...Ek taraf humari maa ki tabyath bigadthi jaa rahi thi...doosri taraf woh log toh hum aur hamari maa ke jeena muskil kar diye...Agar ek bhi shabd unke khilaaf kahe toh maarna shuru kar dethe the...daant khaana toh har roz ki baath hothi thi...Aise hi kuch saal beeth gaye aur humne ek dukaan khole the badi muskil se...Phir ache se kamane lage...Bareilly ke saath der saari yaadein judi hui hai omkara ji.. (I did everything to appease them only to save my mother...On one side my Mother's health was worsening...and on the other side they were making it impossible for me and my mother to survive...They used to beat me even if I spoke a single word against them. And listening to their taunts was a daily routine then. Few years passed by like this and I opened a shop with a great difficulty...Then I started earning properly...There are so many memories attached with Bareilly Omkara ji...)She told him reminiscing her fond memories attached with that town while he wondered on how she could feel happy about her memories despite facing all odds. " Waha ke bache toh humare sabse ache dost hai...Jab bhi hum udaas hothe the un logon se khelne chale jaathe the...kyunki sirf wohi log the jo hume dil se apna liye the...Sab kuch acha chal raha tha lekin hum toh badnaseebi hai...Sab kuch acha kaisa ho sakthi hai? Aur woh bhi hamare saath? Tab hume patha chala ki maa ka accident hua...Hospital mei tho das hazaar zama karna tha maa ke ilaaj ke liye...Aur usi din hum donon ki mulakaat hui thi...Agar uss din Kanpur se order nahi aathi toh patha bhi nahi humare kya haal hothe...ilaz hone ke baadh jab hum aur maa ghar gaye the...Chacha chachi ke paas khoob sare paise the...Jab unse poocha patha chala ki woh log paison ki laalach mei aakar hame bhej diya uss kaali ko...Aur jab ham unke khilaaf jane lage toh maa ke jaan jaanboochke khatre mei daaldhiya aur hame zabardasthi maan na pada...Hum toh maa ko lekar waha se bhaagne ka soch rahe the...Jab kaali... kaali khud aakar hamare pairo ko baandh kar utake le gaya...Maa toh chacha chachi ke paas thi...Uske jaan khathre mei thi...Aur jab kaali ne kamre mei bandh kar diya hame..Hame patha nahi tha ki maa ko kaise bachaye...Humare zindagi mei uske alawa koi nahi tha omkaraji...Ek taraf uske jaan thi aur doosri taraf hum khudh phas gaye the...Aur us kaali..(The kids there are very good friends of mine...Whenever I felt low, I used to go play with them...because they were the only ones who welcomed me with open arms...Everything was going fine till then but I am the ill-fated one right? How can everything go right? Especially when it concerns me? That was when I got to know that my mother met with an accident...And I had to deposit 10,000 rupees in the hospital for my mother's treatment...And that was the day when we both met...I can't even imagine what would have happened if I had not got the money from Kanpur for the order...When me and my mother went home after her treatment, my uncle and aunt had so much money with them...and upon enquiring them, we got to know that they sold me to Kaali in greed for money...and when I started speaking against them, they wantedly put my mother's life in danger and I had no other option but to agree with them. I actually thought that I would run away from the place along with my mother..But kaali...kaali himself came to my house and chained my legs taking me away with him...My mother was left with my aunt and uncle...Her life was in danger...And I didn't know how to save her as I was locked up in a room by Kaali...I did not have anyone in my life then except my mother...On one hand was my mother's life and on the other hand, I myself was trapped...And that Khaali..) She took his name with loathing...Woh insaan nahi rakhas tha...hamein tho khilona samaj kar baita tha...Jab chahe paas aatha tha..Aur jab chahe tab hamare pair baandh leta tha..Hame toh insaan nahi gaai ba..bakri ki tarah dekhtha tha...(He was a devil, not a human being...She considered me his toy...He used to come near me and chain me up whenever he wished to...He used to see me as a co..cow and goat) She clenched her fists in anger and disgust while she hiccuped to control her tears. Om could see that she was doing self harm in her distress and caught her palms in his...He had angry tears trickle down his eyes, anger both at himself as well as on the people who were responsible for her state.
Aur jab uss raakshas hamare paas aatha tha Hume bahut gandha mehsoos hothe the...Phir bhi ham kuch nahi kar sakthe the kyunki maa ke jaan us ke haathon mei the... (And when that devil used to come near me, I used to feel so dirty...I couldn't do anything then because my mother's life was in his hands...)She said digging her fists into his not knowing that she was doing so...Aur jab hum chulbul the kaali phir se waha pahunch gaya humare liye...Hum nahi chahthe the hamari wajah se aapko ya aapke parivaar ko kuch ho...Jab ham waapis gaye the uske saath...Toh woh humein aapke aur bua maa ji ke jaan lene ki dhamki dhiya toh zabardasthi natak karne ke liye maan na pada Omkara ji.. (And when I was in the disguise of Chulbul, Kaali again came searching for me...I did not want your family to suffer because of me...When I went back along with him...he blackmailed me telling that he would kill you and bua maa and that was the reason why I had to agree to act infront of you Omkaraji) She told him in a broken voice...Humare paas aapko bachane ke liye koi aur raastha nahi tha... khareeb aana, jab chahe hamare pair baandh dena...Hum dono ke beech galat fehmiyan badana..Sab kuch ..Sab kuch usi ne kiya hai omkaraji ...Ek baar bhi nahi socha ki hum ek aurat hai khilona nahi...Pure gaav ke saamne khudh ki galathi chupane ke liye hum pe galat ilzaam laga kar sab ko humare khilaaf badka diya... (I did not have any other option to save you. Coming near me, and chaining me whenever he felt like doing so...creating misunderstandings between us...everything...every small thing was done by him Omkaraji...He did not even think once that I am a woman not a toy...In front of whole village...he put a false allegation on me and provoked everyone against me just to hide his mistake and save himself) Her tone was rising along with her anger...Anger at her fate...Aur uss chacha chachi ne hamare khilaaf jaakar uss kaali ne jo bhi ilzaam hum pe lagaya tha...Uski safaai dene lage...Kaun kartha hai aisa? Aur kya kuch nahi kiya humne un logon ke liye? (And my uncle and aunt, they started justifying Kaali's words by going against me...Who would even do that? What did I not do for them right from my childhood?) She vented out her frustration on him and angry tears flew down her eyes.. "Aur usne sab ko humare khilaaf karke hume gadde mei dalwakar paathar maarne laga...Aur wahi tak toh chodiye...Theen theen logon se shaadi karwana chahtha tha...Aap hi batayiye..Yeh kaha ka nyaay hai omkaraji...(And he turned everyone against me and started hitting me with stones after making me drop in a pit...and not just that, he wanted me to marry three people at the same time. You tell me...How can this be even justified..) Her shoulders slumped in defeat while she questioned him. He tried holding her by her shoulders but she wasn't in her senses. She whisked away his hands. "Jab se dekha tab se hamare peeche hi pad gaya...Khareeb aana, bezati karna, badtameezi karna yeh tak tho chodiye...Shaadi shudha hoke bhi suhaag raat ke baare mei baath kartha tha...Aur jab hamari shaadi bhi hogayi phirse bandhi banakar shaadi karna chaaha...Aur sab logon ke saamne humei bezati karke naach...naachvaaya...hamari puri izzat ke saath khilvad kiya...Kya bigada tha humne Uska.. (From the time his eyes fell on me he was behind me, coming near me, insulting me, misbehaving with me, leave all those even after being married he used to talk about spending first night with me and even after I got married, he forced me to marry him by chaining me...And he made me da..dance infront of all the people...he played with my respect...what did I even do to him?) She clutched his collar shaking him. Kya bigada tha humne Omkara ji..Kyun mere piche pada tha..Kyun aapke aur maa ke naam se dhamki diya yeh jaanthe hue bhi aap dono humare sab kuch hai...Kyun Omkara ji...Kyun..Hamaari kya galthi thi..hum ne kuch nahi kiya omkaraji ..Kuch nahi kiya... (What did I even do to him? Why was he behind me? Why did he blackmail me of taking your's and my mother's life even after knowing that you both are my everything...Why Omkaraji...Why?...What was my mistake in this? I did not do anything Omkara ji...I did not do anything...) And she collapsed on his chest while he gathered her in his arms cradling her and kissed her hair trying to calm her down. His demeanor was calm but the thrust for vengeance was burning inside him. This was outrageous and something which he least expected. If those people thought that they could get away after making his wife suffer, they are in for a big shock and there was no escape this time. But at the end, he was ashamed of himself for having been a reason for her misery. Once her cries subdued he spoke in a broken voice "galthi toh mera bhi tha na Gauri. Meine kitna galath kiya tumhare saath. Mujhe aur us kaali mei koi farak nahi hai...Mei bhi toh tumhe waha chod diya tha na..Uske paas
(Wasn't it my fault too Gauri? How much I wronged you in the past...There's no difference between me and Kaali...And I was the one who left you with him right?)
It took few minutes for her to sink in and it made her furious. "Aaj aapne boldhiya, aage hum yeh kabhi nahi sunna chahthe hai(You have said this today. I don't want to listen to you telling this hereafter)
"Par sach toh yahi na Gauri (But isn't this the fact Gauri?)
She understood that he was drowning himself in guilt when he dropped his head looking down.
"Paagal hai aap? Kuch bhi bole jaa rahe hain...Omkara ji ...Aap ki koi galthi nahi hai...haalath aisi thi...Jo bhi hua haalath ke wajah se hua
(Are you mad? What are you even talking?... Omkaraji...You were not at fault...It was the situation...whatever has happened, it was because of the circumstances)
"Ek baar bhi gussa nahi aaya? (Did you not get angry at least once?) He questioned her in disbelief.
"Aaya tha Omkara ji..Gussa tho bahut aaya tha...Aap ye bathayiye, agar aapko pehle se hi patha hotha toh yeh sab karthe?(I was angry omkaraji...Infact I was furious. Tell me one thing, if you had known this earlier, would you have done all these?) she questioned him while he nodded his head in negative.
"Toh baath khatam. Agar aap humse shaadi na kiya hothe toh kab tak hum mar chuke hothe
(Issue solved. If you had not married me, I would have died by now)
She told him while he placed a hand on her mouth asking her to stop. "Jab humari shaadi hui thi, hum aapke upar zabardasthi iss risthe ko tonpna nahi chahthe the...humari majboori thi isiliye hume ves badhalkar chirota banna pada...Jab hum pehli baar mumbai aaye the, humare paas jo kuch bhi tha who sab chori ho gaya tha...phir dandi bhaiyya ne hamari madad kiya...jab chulbul banke aaye the aap ke ghar mei, hum yaha kaam nahi karna chahthe the par uss sultana ne theen mahine ke paise pehli hi de chuki thi isiliye rukna pada...jab hum dono dost ban gaye the aur aap ke baare mei patha chala, humare saare sawalon ka jawab mil gaya...ki aap Bareilly mei aisa kyun socha humare baare mei...aur yeh bhi patha chala ki aap kitne ache insaan hai
(When we got married, I never wanted to force this relation on you...I had to disguise myself as a guy because I had no other way out...When I came to Mumbai for the first time, all my things got stolen...Then dandi bhaiyya helped me out...When I came to your house as Chulbul, I did not want to work but Svetlana had given me an advance of 3 months, so I had to stay back. When we both became friends and I got to know about you, I got answers to all my questions...the reason why you misunderstood me in Bareilly..and I also got to know how good you are as a person)
"Phir bhi Gauri, ek baar toh mujhe sochna chahiye tha. Mei itni badi galthi kaise kar saktha hun? (Even then Gauri, I should have thought atleast once. How can I commit such a big mistake?) he questioned her rather more pointed at himself.
"Agar aapne galthi kiya toh hum bhi kya kam the? Hume majboori mei chirota banna pada par who toh galath hai na omkara ji? Aap humko sabse acha dosth mana aur humne wahi bharosa tod diya na? Aur rahi baath humko chodne ki, hume bhi gussa aaya tha par jab humne socha, phir yeh baath samajh mei aaya ki aapka gussa bhi jayaz tha. Humne aapko dhoka dene ke bhaavajudh aapne hum ko safai dhene ka mauka diya na? Toh uss mei aapke koi galathi nahi thi. Bua maa ji un logon ke saath mile hue the iss ka bhala hum kya kar sakthe the. Aur humne pregnant hone ka naatak karne ke bhaavajudh aap ne hume maaf kiya. Toh hum keh rahe hai chod dijiye un sab baaton ko (If you were wrong, I was no less. I had to disguise myself as a guy but wasn't that wrong omkaraji? You considered me as your best friend and I broke that very trust you had on me right? And coming to the point where you left me, even I was angry at you but when I gave it a second thought, I understood that your anger was justified. Even after betraying you, you gave me a chance to justify my actions right? You were not at fault then. What can we do when bua maa herself took their side against us? And even after faking my pregnancy, you forgave me. All I am trying to tell you is to leave all these things) she told him. When he wasn't reacting she shook him to bring him out of his trance.
"Yeh sab chodna tumhare liye itna aasan hai? Meine kya kuch nahi kiya tere saath? Meine tumpe haath utaaya Gauri. Mujhe koi haq nahi tha tum pe. Meine aise kaise...(Is it easy for you to leave all this? what have I not made you go through? I have raised my hand on you Gauri. How can I..) he hit his head.
"Haan patha hai aasan nahi hai. Yeh sab chodna bilkul bhi aasan nahi hai. Kai baar hume bura bhi laga tha. Par ek baath kahen omkaraji? Hume kal se zyaada aaj mayne rakhtha hai. Aaj agar hum khus hai toh aapkke wajah se toh hai (yes I know that it's not easy. It's not at all easy for me to leave all this. And many times I felt bad as well. But shall I tell you one thing Omkaraji? Present holds more importance for me than the past. And if I am happy today, that's because of you alone) she told him with a gentle smile holding his hands.
"Aur haan, rahi baath bua maa ji ki, toh omkara ji uss din tak humne aisa kuch bhi nahi kiya jisse aap hum pe viswas kar sake aur bua maa ji ko toh aap bachpan se jaanthe the, toh agar hum bhi aap ke jagah hothe sayad hume bhi viswas nahi hotha. Isiliye keh rahe hai, jo bhi hua haalath ke wajah se hua, toh hum chod dethe in sab baaton ko (and yes, when it comes to bua maa Ji's matter, Omkaraji I have not done anything till then for which you could have trusted me and you know your aunt right from your childhood, so even if I were at your place, it might have had been difficult for me to believe as well. So the thing I am trying to tell you is that whatever has happened in the past was situational. So we'll leave all these things aside now) she tried convincing him to see beyond his guilt but he still wasn't able to forget what he did to her.
"Gauri, mujhe kam se kam ek mauka dena chahiye tha tumhe. Baar baar tumhari charithr par ungli utaya meine...tum aise kaise maaf kar sakthi ho mujhe..Mei tumhari maafi ki laayak nahi hoon Gauri (Gauri, I should have atleast given you a chance to explain yourself. I pointed my finger on your character repeatedly. How can you even forgive me..I don't deserve your forgiveness Gauri) he said not being able to get over the fact that he misunderstood her to that level.
"Haan Omkara ji, mauka dena chahiye tha aap, sirf aur sirf usi baath ka bura laga. Par aap hi batayiye, jo pal beeth gaya uss se hum badhal thodi sakthe hai. Theek hai aap yeh batayiye, agar hum galat fehmi ki wajah se aap ko galat samaj liya hothe aur hum aap se dil se maafi maangthe toh aap maaf nahi karthe? (Yes Omkara ji, you should have given me a chance. I felt bad only because you never gave me a chance to explain. But tell me one thing, can we go back to the past and change anything? Okay! Answer this for me. If I had misunderstood you for something and if I come with a heartfelt apology, will you not forgive me?) she asked him cupping his face with her tiny hands.
"Haan Gauri. Maaf kar diya hotha kyunki tum se mei zyaada der tak naaraz nahi reh saktha.
(Yes Gauri! I would have forgiven you. Because I can never stay angry at you for long)
"Toh ho gaya na baath. Hum bhi aap se zyada der tak naaraz nahi reh sakthe. Kyunki hamari khusi aap ke saath hai omkara ji. (That's it. That's the same case with me. I can never be angry at you for long. That's because my happiness is with you Omkaraji) She said with slight tears.
He felt overwhelmed and hugged her tight. "I love you Gauri. I love you. "Mei waada kartha hoon tumse Gauri. Mei waada kartha hoon ki yeh galthi kabhi nahi hoga mujhse. Kabhi nahi(I promise you Gauri. I promise you that I would never repeat my mistake. Never again) he dropped a kiss on her hair.
"Hum bhi aapse bahut pyaar karthe hai omkara ji (I love you so much Omkaraji) she hugged him back happily.
After both withdrew from the hug, Gauri looked around to find the room in a mess.
"Waise yeh baath toh sahi hai.
(By the way, this is so true)
"Kya?
(What?)
"Gusse mei aapke theesri aankh khul jaathi hai (that your third eye gets opened when you become angry) There was a silence for a moment and both of them broke into laughter. Suddenly Omkara felt her going stiff for a moment.
"Kya hua Gauri?
(What is it Gauri?)
"Soch rahe hai ki hum itna khush naseeb kaise ban gaye hai. Hume bahut darr lagtha hai omkaraji... kahi hum yeh sab kho nah baite...hum aapko phirse khona nahi chahthe kisi bhi haalath mei. Humse nahi ho paye ga
(I was just thinking how fortunate I became. Infact, I am scared omkaraji...that I might end up loosing everything...I don't want to lose you at any cost...I'll not be able to handle it the next time)
He kissed her forehead. It was a simple gesture but it did convey a lot. It was a kiss of assurance. It was a kiss of promise from a husband to his wife. It was a kiss of love.
"Kabhi nahi Gauri. Mei hamesha tumhare saath hoon.
(Never Gauri. I am always with you)
Meanwhile at night:
"Patha nahi un donon kis haal mei honge. Khaana bhi nahi khaya un donon ne. Dekh ke aa beta, (I don't know in what condition they would be in. They did not even eat anything till now. Just go and check once beta) Dadi told Shivaay.
Infact everyone was tensed seeing Om's outburst. They were scared if Gauri would be able to handle him.
Jhanvi stopped Shivaay while she volunteered to go and check them. She knew in what condition Om would be in as she was slightly aware of Gauri's past and how her son was not ready to believe her daughter-in-law then.
When she slightly opened the door, she found his son sleeping in Gauri's lap peacefully while Gauri slept with her head against the bed. Finally two broken souls found solace amidst the chaos. She prayed to God to keep them happy and left the room closing the door behind her.
Next day morning:
In the hall:
"Bhaiyya! Mujhe lagtha hai Gauri bhabhi ke chacha chachi ko itni aasaani se nahi chodna chahiye (Bhaiyya! I feel we shouldn't let Gauri bhabhi's aunt and uncle get away that easily) Rudra told while facing Shivaay.
"Mujhe bhi wahi lagtha hai Rudy. Mei un donon ko chodunga nahi. Mein unko jail bijwake hi rahunga (Even I feel the same Rudy. I would not leave those two. I would make sure that they would end up in jail) Shivaay said out loud.
"Shivaay mujhe bas ek mauka dijiye. Mein un dono ko aisi sabak sikhaungi ki woh log zindagi bhar nahi bhool payenge. (Shivaay just give me one chance. I would teach them such a lesson that they would never be able to forget throughout their life) Anika intervened.
"Aur mei uss Kaali Thakur pe aisi cases file karunga ki woh zindagi mein kabhi jail se baahar nahi aa payega (And I would file cases on Kaali Thakur in such a way that he would never be able to get out of the jail) Tej Singh Oberoi roared.
That was when everyone heard a loud but composed voice.
"Koi kuch nahi karega (No one will do any such thing) Omkara told as he made his way to the hall.
"Yeh sirf meri ladayi hai aur mei nahi chahtha hoon ki koi bhi...I repeat koi bhi mere raasthe mei aaye. (This is my battle and I don't want any of you...I repeat, any of you to come in my way) His voice held conviction.
"Par Om (But Om..)
"Nahi Shivaay. Iss baar koi nahi. Tum bhi nahi (No Shivaay. No one this time. Not even you) he said with an ultimatum and the message was clearly understood by all.
This time, he wouldn't leave anyone who were responsible for his wife's tormented past. He has few scores to settle with Kaali. Killing him is never an option as he would never let him die that easily. He would make sure that Kaali crumbles bit by bit day by day in front of him. He would beg for death but he would not let him die. Kaali made a very grave mistake by defaming his wife in front of the whole village in the worst possible way and it was time for him to be at the receiving end and face the same wrath. And he chained her, well, soon those chains would find their right place.
And her chacha chachi were still in an illusion that he was a "good damaad. It was high time they get to know how "good he was and what exactly he was capable of. He was no saint like his wife to let them go and they would get their due paid.
That orphanage, where-so-ever it is would be shutting down soon and the authorities there would soon taste their own medicine. Though his wife did not reveal much, he would get to the bottom of this.
What better way to do the justice than bringing back his wife's respect and dignity in front of the same village? What better way to redeem himself than marrying her ritually with all the customs and giving her the proper right, legally declaring her as his wife, at a place where he threw her down on the road after marrying her forcefully? What better way to punish himself than confessing his sins to his mother-in-law who thinks so high of him and asking her forgiveness? What better way to bring her happiness than replacing her every sad memory with a happy one and laying the world at her feet?
Though she didn't have any problem with his past, she has full rights to know and that too from him. He would make sure that there were no secrets between them. Though their relation was strong, he will never tolerate anyone pointing their fingers at his wife for any damn reason. He already was facing the consequence of not knowing the whole truth. He did not want someone from his past to barge into his life again and his wife remaining clueless. She deserved to know every inch of his past and what made him a bitter person. He would put his heart and soul in this marriage all his life. He would fulfill all her wishes. He would ensure that she gets to study to her heart's content. He would do everything he can to re-unite her with her sister. And above all he would stay by her side, always. His love was stronger than her fears and he would never let her fears get in the middle of her happiness.
Deep down, he promised himself that he would never draw conclusions without knowing both sides of a coin.
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Kumkum Bhagya
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