Romance and a beautiful wedding propels you to a high antigravity state, that new feeling of being with the man you love as your husband, with all the Haqs and Perks. This man is Mine.
We women think up stories, plots, progression, melodramatic climax and ending in a myriad of different ways depending on our mood or emotions of the day. If sad, we write emo stories in our head where we suspend our logic and common sense and rip it with the dramatics. Hahaha.. nice troll HS, raised a glass to all overthinking women out there. Cheers. I liked the matter-of-fact way Bhavya unapologetically said it.
Insecurities & the illogical power of it.
True story: my husband and I had a stupid fight about a month after marriage over a colleague of mine (Yeah, no honeymoon, too busy). To this day, I dislike the woman. Strongly. Hahaha.. no I do.
Mine was an arranged marriage, although (cleverly I thought at the time) I had insisted on a year long engagement, I hadn't scratched the surface in understanding the tadibaaz I was marrying. He felt I was testing him, he and his family (wrongly) disagreed vehemently that I had any credentials whatsoever to test their beloved son. I merely wanted to finish the most stressful part of my medical internship before marriage.
My tadibaaz husband does not compliment me. It's just not his style. Throughout the engagement, I waited for flirting and compliments that never came. Oh it was pleasant don't get me wrong, he's a hilarious guy, just not the least sentimental or romantic. But I was a young sentimental girl who's been waiting for her love story to start see, so...
Imagine my ire when one month after our wedding, he comes home singing praises to the heavens over a contemporary of mine.
He is many years my senior, in age and rank and medical training. This &#%@$$$* woman got a new posting to his department ( a far less challenging department as far as medical expertise goes, mind you, dermatology) while I was on my feet all day in the paediatric neonatal ICU. (Yes, I'm being petty like a b*tch.)
But Oh, 'She' is smart, very impressive!
Very well trained with very good presence of mind.
Very soft spoken and deals with patients with grace
'She' will go successfully far in her medical career because of her "great" attitude.
( can you imagine the smoke coming out of my young jawaani ears at the time? All this from a man who had not complimented me even once in the year plus we'd been together? My cooking is yummy doesn't count okay?!)
Yeah, I knew the compliments weren't the slightest bit romantic. But I hadn't got even that?! Suffice to say, solitary tears were shed in the washroom as Mr Tadibaaz blissfully went on like my heart didn't just crack to pieces silently. Boo Hoo.
Coming back to episode ..🤣
What makes it so nice, is that Shivaay SAW how upset she was and tried his best to find out what had upset her so, she was having a hard time getting some alone time to just cry it out. Given time, she'd have cried it out and told herself she's being silly and came out normally again. Happens.
He'd asked her before, to lean on him as an anchor in her life, to share her troubles with him. In other words, to give him a place in her sanctuary, inside the shields. She did, and like all fiercely private people, she's assessing the wisdom of opening up to vulnerability.
Yes, it was a small thing. This man, is more mad at his mother for hurting her than herself. This man, suffered greatly after she broke his heart and left him, but never gave her place to another woman. She was always THE ONE for him. The very idea of Shivaay cheating is just like me and "that woman" ever sitting down for coffee.
But her feelings were hurt and it happens, it's normal. When Bhavya reminded him about her lonely life and how he has that all important No.1 spot in her life and the way his face changed in remembrance. Perfect. Soothed my overthinking female brain.. aah👏
Okay I felt a little mad at Gauri yesterday. Om is trying SO hard and she's put up all these walls to block him that it looks very cruel. He said he loved her and is lost without her. He literally begged her to come back, poor fellow. He said sorry multiple times and expressed so much regret already.
But it makes me think of all the times she stayed put in Oberoi Mansion despite his disdain and haughty tolerance of her. Because she had vishwas, belief that God had sent him into her life for a reason, as her husband, and she was honouring that. Now that belief is broken, she's determined not to look back.
What can he do to fix this? Words are his forte, but nothing is getting through. She craves what Shivaay and Annika have, the mutual respect and equality, as per her words. Let's see what happens.
Rudy is shedding his evil boss avatar like evaporating sweat. He's incapable of holding a grudge for long and it's adorable. But frankly the chemistry is kinda waning between them.
(May I suggest a lot less eye makeup for Mansi pls? She is such a stunningly beautiful woman, yet her features are not being flattered by the make up... )
Can't wait for today..