A/N thank you for all your love and support. I was really busy but your comments and likes motivated me write and here I'm. Sorry for any grammatical mistakes. I haven't rechecked it. Wrote in a hurry. Please don't forget to like and commentPart 2
I walked back and forth in room at low pace. Tensed.
Everything was a bliss. Why did all this happen so suddenly.? I hope omkara is fine.
I gently placed vyoom in his crib and glanced at ved.
His eyes were closed with long forgotten milk bottle below his chin and thumb in his slightly ajar mouth.
I smiled at his non aware state of world or happenings around him. 'I wished I was a kid always'
I pecked on his forehead, repeated the same with vyoom and glancing back one last time at two little figures sleeping peacefully I closed the door.
I descended the stairs and saw everyone tensed just like me.
Rudy bhaiya came running and hugged me tight.
"Don't worry Bhabhi o will be fine"
I gently removed his hands.
"What happened Rudy bhaiya. Why are you crying. Nothing has happened to om. He is fine I know"
Before rudy bhaiya could answer I walked to dinning table making myself busy in cleaning the already clean table.
I felt bhaujai's hand on shoulder and I glanced at her.
Worry was visible at her face.
"Bhaujai why are you worried. Om is fine I know. He can't forget anything. He can't me. His gauri"
I ignored her worried gaze and moved a little away from her still cleaning.
"His kids. Our kids"
I chuckled
"He can't forget them"
She hugged me tight and I loosened.
I closed my eyes, giving up all the strength I faked, carrying on myself.
Tears made their way out from my closed eyelids with every pain, every grief I felt.
He just can't forget everything. He just can't.
"Gauri"
Anika bhaujai's voice brought me back.
"Everything is going to be fine"
I wiped my tear stained cheeks breaking our hug.
"Yes, it will"
With that I stood infront of idol. Joining my palms together.
'Shankar ji will not let her chiraiya disheartened. He will not. I trust him'
I closed my eyes praying.
I just wasn't ready for this sudden change of situations. Especially when my own husband can't remember me
I felt a light shake at my shoulder.
"Gauri, omkara is here"
I heard bhavya's voice and I turned, walking back near the door.
I stopped and saw omkara staring back at me with a half smile.
"Om you go fresh up and then we will have lunch"
He nodded and with more look at me he left.
"Shivaay what did the doctor said.?"
Anika bhaujai asked and I looked at him expectantly, waiting for his answer.
"Om is suffering from anterograde amnesia"
I heard few gasps in silence but my eyes were fixed at bade bhaiya. Waiting for him to continue.
"It means he cannot remember things that happened recently. He can only remember his past but not what happened recently in his life"
"But how can he forget almost two years of his life"
"I don't know. We still have to find it out"
I took shallow breaths, shocked. He doesn't remember me.
I collapsed unable to bear the pain I felt with my heart squeezing in fear.
It felt like someone just came and stabbed me with a knife twisting it vigorously.
The heartache was more than unbearable.
"Gauri, please don't cry"
I felt myself squeezed in bade bhaiya's embrace with bhaujai kneeling down beside with hand on my shoulder and teary eyes.
"You have to be strong"
He soothed me.
"We have to be strong"
He stated glancing at everyone present there.
"We just cannot sit down here crying. Gauri you have to be strong"
He was right. I have to be strong. That's what I'm supposed to do. That's what I will do.
For omkara and our kids.
I nodded and slowly stood up determined. Ignoring all the pain I felt.
"Yes chulbul bhabhi. We have to be strong"
"First wipe your tears Rudy. Then talk"
"These are the tears of my determination."
He replied with puffing his chest and bade bhaiya rolled his eyes.
"Shivaay.?"
Omkara stood below the stairs with confused look.
"Om you are here. Come let's have breakfast"
He ignored his look and took him to the table.
There was bowl filled with kampat orange candies present on table.
"Kampat"
I yelped in happiness. I quickly picked out flipping it on my knuckles and last I threw it on wall, closing my eyes waiting for it to bounce back in my mouth.
I opened my eyes with joy, savouring the taste of orange.
"What. Was. That.?"
I heard omkara ji gaping shocked at my stunt.
"Kampat"
I replied casually.
"I know. What does this..Whole stunt means"
He waved his hands probably depicting my stunt.
"That's chulbul bhabhi's dabangg style"
"Style.? What style. She can just take one and eat it. Why is it necessary to throw it on wall and wait a second how does it bounce back.?"
Omkara asked with knitting his eyebrows in confusion.
"It does shall I show.?"
I asked picking up one hurriedly.
"No. No need. I don't want to see your illogically weird stunt"
"It's not weird. It gauri sarma's style"
I stated offended.
"First its Sharma not sarma and second it's illogically stupid style.
I gasped at his reply. How could he call my style stupid.
"That's what i said 'SARMA' and in whole bareily I was famous for this style.
"Sharma. Then in your whole bareily you must've been famous for your stupidity"
"Sarma and I was.."
"It's SHARMA. You know what forget it. What can I expect from a stupid orange candy stunted person"
I gasped in complete shock, totally offended.
Without a second thought I picked up the glass and splashed water on his face.
He stared at me in anger. With his expression I realized what I did.
'He will kill me'
"Omkara I'm sorry. I was.."
The swash of water forced me to close my eyelids.
I stared back at him with dripping face of horrified. Slowly anger taking over.
I searched for another glass and Rudy bhaiya stood forward offering a bowl.
I took it and threw on his face, emptying it.
His face was white. The layeres of his shirt, face, hair were covered with flour.
I glanced back at Rudy bhaiya and he winked.
He patted on his clothes trying to rub of the flour.
"Omkara I'm sor.."
"Chulbul Bhabhi careful"
I bounced consciously looking back and slammed on his chest.
He grasped me with shoulders. I stared at him with worry but he was was mysteriously grinning.
He inched closer. I could feel his hot breath on my ears.
My heartbeat increased.
He slowly rubbed his stubble cheeks on mine and I felt static current inside my entire body.
I felt his lips sliding close on my cheeks.
I clutched to his shirt at close proximity and sensations I felt with his every touch.
He stopped at corner of my lips and glanced at me. Staring deep in my eyes.
*ahem, ahem*
Within a second he stood away with misconception look on his face. Like he did something wrong.
I freezed at inaccuracy of his state. I could feel the unnoticed shattering pain I felt inside breaking and without a word I left.
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I pressed my thumps smoothly on cheek bones of face sculpture adjusting scalpel between my last two fingers.
I cannot help and glanced back at gauri.
She slept with cloth on her stomach with needle pierced in it.
I quickly got up and slowly picked up the cloth and placed it on table carefully with needle.
I straightened her one folded leg and other hanging down, covering her with blanket I stared at her glowing face.
She snored with her lips twitching at every breath.
I smiled at her enchanting face.
It's been three days since that incident. I still couldn't remember anything but I didn't gave up. I tried my best to remember.
She distanced herself from me after the morning incident though taking care of my all necessities she always checked what i was doing secretly.
She thought it was a secret but it wasn't anymore.
If it wasn't the mirror on wall never would've noticed her.
Since that day atleast three times in a day she checks up on me.
Sometimes while I was reading, she would secretly open the door and glance. My eyes were on book but I could feel her presence.
Or Sometimes standing behind Rudy or Anika she would glance at me.
Her routine infected me and I started doing the same. She kept herself busy and I couldn't see her even when she checks on me because I have to pretend that I didn't know.
It was so difficult plus irritating. She could just come and chat or sit or eat or anything but she didn't.
I think she is scared.
I felt connected to her. I always end up thinking about her. Even if I spend my whole day keeping myself busy, my day couldn't end without her being around me, close to me.
I heard bawl noise coming from beside room. I quickly got up and rushed to the room.
Vyoom sat there bawling in crib. I quickly picked him up before he could wake ved up.
I hurried out in garden instructing khanna in way to bring bottle of milk.
I patted his back trying to calm him but he wasn't ready to calm down or stop crying.
Khanna came back with bottle I took it and he left.
I tried to make him drink but in vain.
Every time I took it to his lips he turned his head to side still crying.
He doesn't want to drink. Why is he crying then.
I patted his back jiggling.
"Vyoom"
I heard gauri's voice.
"Why is he crying.? He isn't even hungry"
"He is not hungry"
"Then why is he crying.?"
"Because he needs a walk"
"Walk.! But he can't.."
"We have to walk with him in arms"
I nodded and she forwarded her hands to take him.
"No it's okay I will manage you are already very tired. You just go and sleep I will manage"
I stepped back and vyoom whined.
"No it's fine"
She replied joining me to the walk slow walk of back and forth in garden.
Few minutes passed but vyoom wasn't ready to calm down.
"You don't need to walk with me you know."
I glanced at her and she grabbed her hair tying it in bun. Revealing her milky bare shoulders.
She wasn't wearing her dupatta like always and I felt like bitting on milky white skin making it red and her moan in pleasure.
"Omkara"
She called breaking my sensual trance of reverie.
I looked at her she raised her eyebrows with hands raised asking me to give vyoom.
"I said I will manage"
I stepped back and vyoom grabbed my nose in his tiny hand pinching it hard. The nails of his fingers piercing in skin.
"Ouch, vyoom stop."
I took his hand removing it from my nose and he cried gritting his non-existing teeth.
His finger scratched the area of my nose while I removed it.
"Vyoom"
Gauri reproached taking him in her arms.
"Vyoom. Behave"
She scolded and within seconds his cry changed into snivel and died.
Now he was comfortably settled nuzzling in her shoulder sucking on his thumb while I stared at him shocked or jealous.
This little guy was for sure smartly sharp at his age.
Edited by sumaiya10 - 8 years ago