This chapter was - by default - evocative of the nostalgia associated with the show's finale confession. Especially Kesar's reaction... and I guess no Gulaal fan can truly ever get over the cherishing sentiments that flood in with that memory. It's funny how it is one of the Gulaal scenes I have hardly gone back to watch again. It's something pristine - like a real life memory - that cannot happen again, and yet, revisiting it in nostalgic thoughts, it's coming up with instances like the reading of this chapter... they keep it so vivid and alive! I almost think if I saw it once too often, it would become what it is, a scene out of a fictional show - so I just let it be =)) And I know I'm just rambling... but hey, once in a while, right? I don't go silly with Gulaal gushing so much any more! 😆
I'm going to quote what I was only the other day with other friends on an IF CC (that was in another context) but it applies completely to how I feel when I just remember and run scenes of this show in my head...
Memory is never a precise duplicate of the original; it is a continuing act of creation.
Things I've grown up cherishing are like that for me. I grow out to like yet something else every time after liking one thing immensely, but the old ones keep coming back, and tossing them over in my head, remembering them, is like adding to them, every time. Nostalgia has so much to do with glorifying old favorites even more! ☺️
And now I really ramble. But the chapter did bring back the finale in a rush!
I want to add my FAVORITE bit from the chapter was - who was unafraid to admit her biggest fears...
That line was a clincher Aditi. At so many levels - in the chapter's context, with reference to Gulaal as a character here in What If and from the show (since they are the same, fundamentally) ... and I dunno, to general life too. I think I really like that phrase, because just a nanosecond before reading the word "fears" I - erm, how do you say this - I completed the sentence in my own head with the word "desires". Not misreading the word "fears" but like just the nanosecond before my eyes reached it, the obvious word to fill in was "desires" - it's so reflexive, and quick - but then I saw "fears" - and the phrase just stood out for me.
Because my next immediate thought was, the beauty of synonymy between "fears" and "desires" - not the relationship between them, but the synonymous between them, precisely. That space where they come to overlap. One's deepest desires, can be one's deepest fears - from knowing their limitation, their impossibility, the probability of their being rejected. How often not does one live in the fear of their most earnest desire not coming true? And how often does it not keep one from holding back the desire, because it's a fear to let out, or let go...
I don't know if I'm making sense - but I'm guessing since you're the one who wrote it - you will know what I'm trying to say here!
Should I even have to say I loved reading the chapter? What if has been the most beautiful alter journey to the show Gulaal. And given the masterpiece that latter was, you have something to be very proud of! 🤗
ps: Incidentally, my laptop has a mind of its own. The player shuffle started to play "Phir le aya dil" somewhere between reading the chapter - and so many lines of that song just FIT the mood! Uncanny how this machine just knows my heart sometimes 😆
- ... usse mukammal, kar bhi aayo, woh jo adhuri si baat baaki hai... woh jo adhuri si yaad baaki hai..." matches, right?
xx
J.
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Originally posted by: enchanted23
Hi Guys🤗
I am grateful for your support and encouragments throughout this FF, which actually started off as SS, Jzee thanks to you I can also call myself creatively inspired individual😳 whatever that term means...I just like the word...But here's something I would like you guys to tell me...
In my opinion this story should end here as it has now reached it's logical conclusion,what now remains is tying up some loose ends which will make it quite cliche...I am casting my vote for ending it here but if majority feels differently I will carry on and end after tying up all loose ends..
So let me know your view guys...and Thanks you for your wonderful comments,much appreciated
Aww, Aditi, I read this after posting the comment, and just did call you on having something to be proud of! Call yourself a rare creatively inspired person - and that does mean something, if you trust the amateur! 😆
Conclusions are bittersweet - there's no other way to them - at least conclusions to what we come to love - but I agree with you. There's never really an absolute end to any story. Continuance is always a possibility. But for me, What If was about the journey of GK - and I don't not care about the rest, but their fundamental use was to serve the purpose towards the progress in the GK story itself. So even though the Dushyant angle - as in the show - always leaves behind one open end worth exploring, GK being a promoting audience is not this "What If" at least!
Maybe someone (yes, you!) should do a What If looking at the story of the show from Dushyant's POV, and give us a closure to that too... a more complete closure, you know?
Anyway - there's no getting enough of GK. But like I said I agree with you, about this story. Doesn't mean you shouldn't start thinking of writing another one already! =))
Edited by without-fathom - 13 years ago
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