Chapter 30
Kesar and Gulaal entered their room. Both of them were surprised to find Talli there wearing Gulaal's clothes. Kesar asked in an irritated tone, "Yeh kya hai Talli?". Talli smiled at him and asked, "Mujh par acche lag rahe hain na?". Kesar twisted his face in frustration and said, "Mujhe samajh mein nahi aa raha ki tu kya saabeet karna chahti hai. Pehle toh mujhse pooche bina humare kamre aayi aur phir...". Gulaal looked at him as he quoted the room as theirs. Talli looked down disappointed. Gulaal immediately defended her, "Woh main Talli ko lehenge mein dekhna chahti thi, isiliye maine diya tha. Tu uspe mat bhadak". Kesar glared at Gulaal, his nostrils flaring. Talli walked off from the room. Kesar rolled his eyes. Gulaal tried to calm Kesar down, "Tu itna gussa mat ho". Kesar asked in an angry tone, "Tu kya karne ki koshish kar rahi hai". Gulaal was intimated by his anger. Kesar said, "Tu jaanti hai main Talli se kabhi pyaar nahi kar sakta phir bhi tu usse badhawa de rahi hai ki...". Gulaal cut in, "Maine aisa kucch bhi nahi kiya, Kesar". "Accha toh woh derr raat ko yahan kya kar rahi thi?", asked Kesar looking into Gulaal's eyes. Gulaal gulped and looked down. "Gulaal, maanta hun ki tu mujhse pyaar nahi karti aur naahi kabhi kar paayegi. Lekin main kisse pyaar karun kum se kum yeh faisla toh mujhe karne ka haq hai. Agar tujhe phir bhi lagta hai ki aisa karne se Talli mere dil mein jagah bana legi toh bas yeh jaan lena ki tune mujhe kabhi jaana hi nahi", said Kesar, sighed in disappointment and left. Kesar's words had pricked Gulaal hard.
"Gulaal, maanta hun ki tu mujhse pyaar nahi karti aur naahi kabhi kar paayegi"
Gulaal had a sinking feeling thinking about it. She just couldn't make out why was she feeling so.
Gulaal knocked at Talli's room door. Talli opened the door, and looked at Gulaal angrily. "Ab kya kehne aayi ho?, asked Talli. Gulaal pursed her lips and asked, "Andar aane k liye nahi kahegi?". Talli rolled her eyes and said, "Apne yeh naatak kisi aur k saamne karna mere saamne nahi. Saaf saaf batao kya baat hai". Gulaal looked at her and said, 'Main tujhse maafi maangne aayi thi". Talli was surprised. "Main tere saath galat kiya hai. Yeh jaante hue bhi ki Kesar k mann mein koi aur hai, maine tujhe jhoothe sapne dikhaye. Kesar k taraf se waada karna meri sabse badi galati thi, pata nahi jasbaaton mein behkar maine kaise soch liya ki uske zindagi ka itna bada faisla mere anusaar hoga. Inn sab mein, tere saath sabse zyaada anyay kiya hai maine. Ho sake toh mujhe maaf kar dena", said Gulaal, tears filling up her eyes. "Rehne do, Gulaal! Kis kis baat ki maafi maango gi mujhse? Mere Kesar ko mujhse chhin ne ki? Ya phir mere saath dhhong karne ki? Ya phir Kesar k saamne mujhe neecha dikhane ki? Aaj wohi kar rahi thi na? Talli ko bachakar Kesar ki aankhon mein aur bhi mahaan ban gayi na? Khush ho?", asked Talli in an angry tone. Gulaal said, "Aisi koi baat nahi hai, main toh bas...". "Ek baat jaan lo, Gulaal. Tumhara yeh naatak zyaada derr nahi chalne waala. Kabhi naa kabhi Kesar ko pata hi chal jayega ki jo uss se pyaar karti hai woh kitni khari hai aur jise woh chahta hai, kitni khokli hai", said Talli and shut the door on Gulaal's face. Gulaal was left stunned by Talli's words.
Kesar was lying on the bed and thinking about Gulaal. He suddenly heard someone's footsteps and he closed his eyes immediately pretending to sleep. Gulaal came into the room and saw Kesar sleeping. "Kesar", she called out in a low tone. Kesar did not stir. Gulaal came to his side, kneeled down and shook him gently and called out, "Kesar". Kesar turned to the other side. Gulaal narrowed her eyes. She came and sat on her side of the bed. "Main jaanti hun tu sab sun sakta hai", Gulaal said. Kesar turned to face the ceiling without opening his eyes. Gulaal sighed and laid on the bed, facing the celing. Gulaal's hand slowly wandered on the pillow, it brushed along Kesar's hand. Kesar reflexively withdrew his hand, but Gulaal caught it. Kesar opened his eyes and looked at Gulaal who was staring at the ceiling. Gulaal said, "Bas tujhse yehi kehna tha ki mujhe apni galati ka ehsaas ho gaya hai. Maine Talli ko jhoothe waade de kar galati ki. Yahaan aake sab ko yeh yakeen dilana ki main yahan humare rishtey ko mauka dene aayi hun, woh meri sabse badi galati thi. Pata nahi iss galati k liye shayyad mein iss pariwaar se apne rishtey ko kho dungi". She squeezed his hand. A chill ran through Kesar's body. "Kya main tujhe bhi kho dungi, Kesar?", asked Gulaal and looked at Kesar. The fear of the future was reflected in Gulaal's face as she desperately searched for an answer trying to read Kesar's face. Kesar felt restless, seeing Gulaal like this. He so wanted to hold her in her arms and say that he would always be there for her. Kesar looked away from her and replied, "Tu mere mann ko mujhse zyaada jaanti hai. Tere sawaal ka jawaab tu khud jaanti hai". Gulaal looked at him, she was feeling drowsy, she dozed off. Kesar didn't let go off her hand this time as he too dozed off.
It was Sunday. Mota Bha had planned a picnic for the whole family at their newly acquired farm house. Giga Kaka, Mota Bha, Paan Baa and Saru Ben sat in one car. Jamna Kaki, Sudha, Raman and Talli sat in Kesar's car. As Kesar was about to enter the car, he said to Gulaal standing there, "Tu baith naa". "Yahan jagah hi nahi hai", said Sudha bluntly. Kesar shut the car door. Talli said, "Tere liye aage jagah hai". "Woh theek hai, main Gulaal ko leke aata hun. Aap logon ko driver chhodh dega", said Kesar. Gulaal said, "Par Kesar..". Kesar cut in, "Tu mujhse jeet toh nahi sakti toh koshish bhi kyun kar rahi hai". He bid them goodbye as the car left. "Chal", Kesar said. "Kahaan? Saari gaadiyaan toh gayi", said Gulaal. Kesar smiled at her mischieviously and said, "Kyun? Meri bike bhi wohi kaam karti hai jo car karta hai!". Gulaal was embarassed a bit as she shook her head and said, "Nahi...main bhool hi gayi".
Kesar took his bike out. Gulaal came and sat on the backseat, holding the back portion of the bike. As Kesar drove through the busy roads and crossing the humps, Gulaal felt difficult to hold on to the back portion of bike, she hesistantly held Kesar's waist. Kesar suddenly applied the breaks feeling her hand. "Kya hua", asked Gulaal. "Woh main raasta yaad karne ki koshish kar raha tha", replied Kesar. "Aise achanak break mar diya toh mujhe laga koi muskil aagayi" , said Gulaal. Kesar glanced towards Gulaal's hands. He closed his eyes and sighed, started off the bike, his mind fully concentrated on her touch. Soon they reached a farm house. Kesar stopped his bike and Gulaal removed her hands from his waist. He opened his helmet, closed his eyes, trying to control his heartbeat. "Yeh kya hai, Kesar", asked Gulaal confused. Kesar snapped out of his thoughts and asked confused, "Matlab?". "Yeh toh puraana farm house hai, Kesar. Sab log naye farm house mein intezaar kar rahe hain", replied Gulaal. Reality hit him as he looked at the farmhouse, his mind had been so pre-occupied that he drove to the old farmhouse. Kesar was embarassed as he said, "Sorry! Woh address confuse ho gaya". It had started raining heavily. "Ab kya karein", asked Gulaal. "Aise toh nahi jaa sakte, baaris rukne ka intezaar kar lete hain, yahn", replied Kesar trying to cover Gulaal's head with his hands, preventing her from getting wet. They walked towards the farm house.
Author's Note: A busy week ahead so I will post the next chappie on Monday! Thanx for bearing wid me. Read and review all ya lovely ppl!