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Disclaimer: I have no idea why I'm making a post today - because I almost wasn't going to đFor obvious reasons. But anyway...
What a let down sequence of events after all the hopes we were (at least I was) pinning on today's episode. I did wonder, with regard to Gulaal's series of flashback memories when she sat in a corner in that room, that maybe the CVs are trying to make a counter point, by not going exactly the way they went with Kesar - cause we, and most viewers are likely to imagine that would happen.
But even if this was a means of being non-cliche - the episode was just too full of dashed hopes.
I don't want to talk about it though. What I am wondering at this point, is what exactly could change this messy situation? I really thought until yesterday, that we could bank on the start of cracks in Gulaal's hard surface today. But I doubt that hope is going anyhow upscale, after today, and more so after the PRECAP. So what are the possibilities?
(I'm putting down my ideas atm - feel free to discuss, reject, add)
1) The last scene between Dushy and Raman was like an indication of the remaining dark chapter to create chaos soon enough. No one knows what Gulaal knows, because even though Kesar knows the fact - he sure isn't privy to every gory detail (including her self justified reasons of forgiving Dushyant) of the matter. I wonder, just wonder, if the resurfacing of this issue can bring back the fire in Kesar, which he had returned with from a decade at the boarding? God knows he can do with some of that avatar just now. I'm so miffed with his giving in left right center to Gulaal - that I can actually imagine the treat it will be to watch him play rough and cold with her again. I suppose the snappy Kesar does after all deal with Gulaal much better (not to mention effectively) than the sappy one.
2) I'm a little worried about this line of thought. I know we all assume its GK in the end. But are we sure? This isn't going to become a Talli-Kesar and Dushyant-Gulaal parallel track series anytime, is it? Sorry for the pessimism - today was just sad :| And every time she jumps at Kesar's throat I wonder when she will relent. Then she goes out and behaves so civilly with Dushyant, it just appalls me! In a single sentence today, she let the man off every hook - aap khud ko doshi mat thehraiye! In the name of devil - this is the man who widowed her - which was the inception of all the chaos we see today; this was the man for who's lusty love she was compelled into the deeyarvattu scenario - so really, her deeyarvattu with Kesar, despite being her own decision was a majburi as she told JK yesterday, and who was responsible?! Not Kesar, but Dushyant; finally, this is the man who gave Panchayat decision in Kesar's favor (yes I know we can all forgive him a thousand sins for that) but how can Gulaal?! This man is single handedly responsible for nearly every twist of fate in her life, and she tells him to not hold himself responsible?! Dude! He could live the life of him in penance and not pay off enough - but the way she's going atm, she could very well join him in Hell's fire đĄ I'm not even taking into account Kesar's misery here - plainly as a matter between Dushyant and Gulaal - what kind of a hypocrite is this woman to forgive this man... and tell Kesar he's unforgivable?!
I honestly no longer think this is about forgiving Kesar - this is purely her fear. With every new drastic step Kesar takes - and wins - Gulaal is mortified of how far he can go to break her precious shell. The funniest part is - or should I say the most ridiculous irony - that the easiest way to tame Kesar, is to simply be docile and civil with him. At this point, all he wants is peaceful co-existence with her. How hard is that? He doesn't chose to be impossible, she's driving him to it - time and again. It's just plain wrong. Phew. I am more than miffed I suppose.
3) Here's one last shot. Anyone think that if Kesar just gave up - in every sense - and told her he had set her free, and she could go back, or live in the house, or be wherever she wanted, however she wanted without feeling obligated to Panchayat's decision, or for him - it would work? Perhaps - just perhaps, he will give up and propose calling the deeyarvattu off. Anyone think that will work? I don't how though. But still - at this point, her life is in a billion tangles because of his one zidd she presumes. If he did set her free - question is, what next for her? She can't be in that house, she might go back to her own - but what's the point .. she won't really know what next. Because last time she left the house - she had an aim - the aim was to avoid Kesar. What now?! It's like the time she told Kesar she had lost, and that she gave up and wo do nothing, and accepted all her decisions and whatnot was wrong, and that he could have his way - she would walk out, and leave his life in peace. Kesar's dilemma had been the same. He realized, he won his debate - but he didn't know what next. He didn't know what he had been fighting the debate for. It's exactly Gulaal's current predicament. She's fighting with Kesar every moment, to prove her point - but if he truly accepts defeat and backs off, does she know what she will do ahead? Does she even know why she's fighting him in the first place? To bring her back to this house? Which btw, is all she has to her life? It's not anybody's but Gulaal's own doing that she has no life or existence outside of this family and the house. Kesar has fought with her, and the world, to give it back to her, with due rights. What will she do when she beats him at it, loses what he gave her in the wake? It's one of the biggest questions she hasn't dealt with - among a billion others. But well.
My side for now. I'm trying to focus on thinking ahead, because just thinking about today is downright sad.
Jump right in to rant - because everyone wants to today - don't you? đł
ps: Changed color. How apt is 'blue'?!
xx
JZee
