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Mein aa gai😛
Late latif as usual...but kya karu...Kesuda !! Kesuda1! made me so emotionally drained yesterday, that I could do absolutely nothing,...write nothing, understand nothing and ofcourse thing of nothing else...
So thought should right on a fresh day with a fresh mind...
I really wonder, in what position Neil would be at the end of the shoot...with such variations in one epi...he must be creatively exhausted, his every fibre being drained out with the acting performance he gives...
Okie ...So Shalu me not entering your territory and concentrating on Kesuda not Neil😆
HE starts off where he left yesterday...throwing the spammer in Gulaal's set thoughts and mindset about the definitions of 'Sin'...
You know what I loved...is that Kesar did not like what Gullu's father said about any girl not right, if she stays at her father's house leaving her husband's...
I don't know I might be wrong...but whatever happens between them, Kesar cannot see her being blamed or criticized even by her own father...and the second thing is that he understands that what helpless position she is in...she is not welcome in her own father's house...
I loved the confident Kesar though, the way he said, that she will come back to 'Her' house...He doesnot say my house, he doesnot say with me...He says that she will come back to 'HER' house...Some how that churns out to be so endearing...The man has absolutely no 'MY' concept when it comes to her...it is all hers ...including him...it is only 'She' who needs to be 'HIS' and he is happy with the world...
The scene on the dining table proved fatal, isn't it?? Sudha has obviously gone mad..the way she takes the bite in her hands and curses him was really errriee...had a ominous ring to it...
And even the cottonwool-stuffed-brain wali Paanba felt that and jolted back...
And Kesar!! he had almost the look of a doomed man !!!
You know when he came and faced the torments and trials and brunt from people around him, he never took that into account...somehow the only words penetrated into him, were Gulaal's ...Her words rang in his head all day long and that made him or broke him...
but now with her gone, it is everybody out there who affects him, with her gone, his armour is gone, the protection shield is gone and he is totally vulnerable ...open to any assault..
and when Talli the terrorist stop the mother fidayeen Sudha...I think I saw some kind of resigned look on his face...was it irony that the girl, because of who, he just got cursed was saving him from more curses???
And Talli and Kesar scene...I swear there is some cruel joke going on...they give their scenes the best cinematography and music...
And ofcourse Talli the great has to put the thaali and go back mangoing lots of bhaav...Owww...the way he says 'Sun na'...my heart broke...He is so damned alone...so hankering to tell someone...to share his emotions, his feelings, his fears...there is absolutely no one...
To some extent he is being unfair to expect this from Talli, and to some extent he is right, because she was the one who was closest to Gulaal...somehow he expects that his words would reach Gulaal...
and the way he says 'Tujhe poori duniya mein sirf mein hi mila tha'...
His self esteem is so damn low na...he doesnot even consider himself worthy of Talli's love...
And Talli's words so touch him...they so cannot have the control on whom they fall in love with...For him it was the biggest truth in his life...
Amazingly I dont think either of them could actually say that when they had fallen in love...Talli had this misconception fed by Gulaal and Sudha since she could have thought of falling in love... and Kesar...Kesar has not known any other feeling for Gulaal except Love...
And may be that is why she is stronger...her love had been approved and sealed by everyone...where as his love remained in his heart in form of anguish, hatred, frustration...he doesnot even know what to make of it...
(And even I dont knw what I am writing😕...feeling like Kesuda... proposing random people...😆)
Owww...he so craves for one look from Tallli...I swear that made me so angry and sad at the same time...why the hell does he want her to look at him😡...but then except JK who actually looks at him with love these days..so the bacha is bound to be craving na...
and the way Talli talks in air and not looking at him made me wonder why the hell she came to the terrace...to give us heartburns...I mean I know what Kesar has done cannot be forgiven...but then why dont you just bury yourself somewhere instead of torturing us with Kesuda's random proposals...
And OMG..the way Kesar reels back when she starts lashing out at him physically...I swear this is pure abuse that the women of this house are doing ...
*sigh* and the proposal... I swear I dont know what to do with this guy!!
He is totally lost it...with his anchor gone, he is clutching at straws...
You know what I felt when he said that he would do anything for Talli's friendship??
I felt that he was trying to pacify the lady across the village, sittting at her home, so that she would come back...but ofcourse this time he had to be clear na...He clarified that he would not love Talli because his heart is somewhere else ...but if marrying Talli will bring Gulaal back, so be it...
I know it is a total idiotic thing to even say!! I had a heart attack and I passed it on to all others, yesterday😆
But the thing is that he is not thinking clearly...and to expect a rational behaviour from him is like expecting the impossible..
He is clutching at the straws...he is at his wits end...he doesnot know what to do...
As I said,...his motives are always right...his method of implementation is sooo damn wrong...that he always lands up in difficulty...
And well...Sudha's curse come ringing back in his ears in the night...and the whole chain of all the fatalistic words said came back and got him up in the night...
It is the time when the demons of memories are so big and if there is no one to comfort you, you are bound to be hounded by them ...
Sudha's words that he will not have a minute's peace were actually what he was facing,...but somehow her words made all this restlessness have a reason...
he doesnot understand why this is happening to him?? Was he so bad that he would never get this happiness that he wants in his life?? was it soo wrong to have that in his life???
The song sequence. as already discussed they could have used another song... but I guess the scenes that were chosen were damn right...the way he sees her everywhere...the scene where she is getting ready ...brought such a pathos to the situation...
I loved how they used her face as the flashbacks..not putting the whole scene which involved his face also...because the whole sequence is set as his memory...Loved how he remembered her happiness, her anger and her embarrassment when he caught hold of her hand during the engagement...
and he is so right...he doesnot know what is happening and he is actually ruining himself...finally he realizes it...this way he cannot survive...
And the precap: owww...finally!! I think he will take her home this time... the way he is determined...He is so right...there is nothing else that would do...she needs to come back...her presence would make everything alright for him..it is her absence that drives him mad...if she is around...whether she is mad, sulky, angry ...anything would do...but not having her won't do...
And the way he says...he cannot think anything else...she might not be wanting to see his face, but what about him...what if he cannot think anything else as her face is always before him...
She is like the balance of his universe...without her it is all topsy turvy... she is the logic in his maths. she is the pivot of his world, she is the heartbeat in his heart, blood in his veins, water to his desert like heart.. without her he is so damned open to everything bad...she is his sheild...As I said...his childhood memories of Gulaal bringing life back in the village...still fresh in his mind...she has that magical touch...that magical presence which would make everything alright...
Late latif as usual...but kya karu...Kesuda !! Kesuda1! made me so emotionally drained yesterday, that I could do absolutely nothing,...write nothing, understand nothing and ofcourse thing of nothing else...
So thought should right on a fresh day with a fresh mind...
I really wonder, in what position Neil would be at the end of the shoot...with such variations in one epi...he must be creatively exhausted, his every fibre being drained out with the acting performance he gives...
Okie ...So Shalu me not entering your territory and concentrating on Kesuda not Neil😆
HE starts off where he left yesterday...throwing the spammer in Gulaal's set thoughts and mindset about the definitions of 'Sin'...
You know what I loved...is that Kesar did not like what Gullu's father said about any girl not right, if she stays at her father's house leaving her husband's...
I don't know I might be wrong...but whatever happens between them, Kesar cannot see her being blamed or criticized even by her own father...and the second thing is that he understands that what helpless position she is in...she is not welcome in her own father's house...
I loved the confident Kesar though, the way he said, that she will come back to 'Her' house...He doesnot say my house, he doesnot say with me...He says that she will come back to 'HER' house...Some how that churns out to be so endearing...The man has absolutely no 'MY' concept when it comes to her...it is all hers ...including him...it is only 'She' who needs to be 'HIS' and he is happy with the world...
The scene on the dining table proved fatal, isn't it?? Sudha has obviously gone mad..the way she takes the bite in her hands and curses him was really errriee...had a ominous ring to it...
And even the cottonwool-stuffed-brain wali Paanba felt that and jolted back...
And Kesar!! he had almost the look of a doomed man !!!
You know when he came and faced the torments and trials and brunt from people around him, he never took that into account...somehow the only words penetrated into him, were Gulaal's ...Her words rang in his head all day long and that made him or broke him...
but now with her gone, it is everybody out there who affects him, with her gone, his armour is gone, the protection shield is gone and he is totally vulnerable ...open to any assault..
and when Talli the terrorist stop the mother fidayeen Sudha...I think I saw some kind of resigned look on his face...was it irony that the girl, because of who, he just got cursed was saving him from more curses???
And Talli and Kesar scene...I swear there is some cruel joke going on...they give their scenes the best cinematography and music...
And ofcourse Talli the great has to put the thaali and go back mangoing lots of bhaav...Owww...the way he says 'Sun na'...my heart broke...He is so damned alone...so hankering to tell someone...to share his emotions, his feelings, his fears...there is absolutely no one...
To some extent he is being unfair to expect this from Talli, and to some extent he is right, because she was the one who was closest to Gulaal...somehow he expects that his words would reach Gulaal...
and the way he says 'Tujhe poori duniya mein sirf mein hi mila tha'...
His self esteem is so damn low na...he doesnot even consider himself worthy of Talli's love...
And Talli's words so touch him...they so cannot have the control on whom they fall in love with...For him it was the biggest truth in his life...
Amazingly I dont think either of them could actually say that when they had fallen in love...Talli had this misconception fed by Gulaal and Sudha since she could have thought of falling in love... and Kesar...Kesar has not known any other feeling for Gulaal except Love...
And may be that is why she is stronger...her love had been approved and sealed by everyone...where as his love remained in his heart in form of anguish, hatred, frustration...he doesnot even know what to make of it...
(And even I dont knw what I am writing😕...feeling like Kesuda... proposing random people...😆)
Owww...he so craves for one look from Tallli...I swear that made me so angry and sad at the same time...why the hell does he want her to look at him😡...but then except JK who actually looks at him with love these days..so the bacha is bound to be craving na...
and the way Talli talks in air and not looking at him made me wonder why the hell she came to the terrace...to give us heartburns...I mean I know what Kesar has done cannot be forgiven...but then why dont you just bury yourself somewhere instead of torturing us with Kesuda's random proposals...
And OMG..the way Kesar reels back when she starts lashing out at him physically...I swear this is pure abuse that the women of this house are doing ...
*sigh* and the proposal... I swear I dont know what to do with this guy!!
He is totally lost it...with his anchor gone, he is clutching at straws...
You know what I felt when he said that he would do anything for Talli's friendship??
I felt that he was trying to pacify the lady across the village, sittting at her home, so that she would come back...but ofcourse this time he had to be clear na...He clarified that he would not love Talli because his heart is somewhere else ...but if marrying Talli will bring Gulaal back, so be it...
I know it is a total idiotic thing to even say!! I had a heart attack and I passed it on to all others, yesterday😆
But the thing is that he is not thinking clearly...and to expect a rational behaviour from him is like expecting the impossible..
He is clutching at the straws...he is at his wits end...he doesnot know what to do...
As I said,...his motives are always right...his method of implementation is sooo damn wrong...that he always lands up in difficulty...
And well...Sudha's curse come ringing back in his ears in the night...and the whole chain of all the fatalistic words said came back and got him up in the night...
It is the time when the demons of memories are so big and if there is no one to comfort you, you are bound to be hounded by them ...
Sudha's words that he will not have a minute's peace were actually what he was facing,...but somehow her words made all this restlessness have a reason...
he doesnot understand why this is happening to him?? Was he so bad that he would never get this happiness that he wants in his life?? was it soo wrong to have that in his life???
The song sequence. as already discussed they could have used another song... but I guess the scenes that were chosen were damn right...the way he sees her everywhere...the scene where she is getting ready ...brought such a pathos to the situation...
I loved how they used her face as the flashbacks..not putting the whole scene which involved his face also...because the whole sequence is set as his memory...Loved how he remembered her happiness, her anger and her embarrassment when he caught hold of her hand during the engagement...
and he is so right...he doesnot know what is happening and he is actually ruining himself...finally he realizes it...this way he cannot survive...
And the precap: owww...finally!! I think he will take her home this time... the way he is determined...He is so right...there is nothing else that would do...she needs to come back...her presence would make everything alright for him..it is her absence that drives him mad...if she is around...whether she is mad, sulky, angry ...anything would do...but not having her won't do...
And the way he says...he cannot think anything else...she might not be wanting to see his face, but what about him...what if he cannot think anything else as her face is always before him...
She is like the balance of his universe...without her it is all topsy turvy... she is the logic in his maths. she is the pivot of his world, she is the heartbeat in his heart, blood in his veins, water to his desert like heart.. without her he is so damned open to everything bad...she is his sheild...As I said...his childhood memories of Gulaal bringing life back in the village...still fresh in his mind...she has that magical touch...that magical presence which would make everything alright...
...is bomb se udade use..koi case..vase nahhin..hona chahiye...😆
Owww...the way he says 'Sun na'...my heart broke...He is so damned alone...so hankering to tell someone...to share his emotions, his feelings, his fears...there is absolutely no one...mein hoon na...😳
