15th June - Tera Mera Rishta Purana (Kes-Gul)

FIRSTLY SORRY FOR THE LONG LONG LONG POST

Writing this bit before seeing the episode (as i didnt want to start a new thread but since i am connecting to the episode might as well put it here) (as i felt it needed to see what exactly Kesar is saying, its not just about Kesar coming out and accepting Gulaal as his wife and so on - but more then that, you know it similarly reminds me of the deeyarvatu episode and Gulaal doing what she did and also standing up and raising questions to all of them, coz it just wasnt about accepting deeyarvatu, it was more as well esp as Gulaal asked all of them and raised certain questions and what she did and why she did it as well)

Ok, lets put aside at this stage that Kesar loves Gulaal, we all know he does - but lets take that away from what is happening right now in the actual wedding, what he is saying (because i also i feel that somewhat Kesar's love/core of his existense is being put aside as to what questions he is raising and the what the episode is trying to show and will show...)

And lets see the questions that he will raise judging by what we saw at the end, in the precap and in today's SBS, Kesar is indeed raising questions and also his own feeling in the 'wife' word for him (am i not saying he accepts her as his wife, but there is alot more then that happening here)

Gulaal is his wife, they did an ritual 10 yrs back, they are bound together whether anyone believes in it or not, but the truth is the ritual still stands and by that she is wife and what he questions at the end, by ritual doesnt that mean he has to stay faithful to Gulaal, his first wife - his only wife as of now. The precap question which i will say goes out to all of them not just Gulaal - imagine yourself in his place, can it be that easy to forget that she is his wife, can it be that easy for them to forget the ritual that happened, that she bound herself to him, and that he has grown up feeling she is wife

If we all go back and look that one thing Kesar has been straightforward about is his feeling that she is his wife - maybe not calling her that outrightly, but feeling it, the way he wants exclusiveness from her, importance from her, be a part of his life, the right she has over him and the right he has over her. Now now importantly what he realised during the pheras, that all the vows he feels is for Gulaal, he wants to do them for Gulaal and in a way has done i guess

(And that was the reason i said lets take away the love bit from Kesar's pov away, coz i dont think it has fully installed in him that he is in love with her - even if the promo that has come out sees him tell her, i am pretty sure that it will be different to how it will be in the episodes coming, he needs to realise it first and at a point tell)

At this point esp after the lakeside confrontation, which i think answered some of Kesar's doubts and question esp is that there is nothing between Gulaal and D, as she was appalled to even see that he could think that and say it and it hurted her, and then what hurted even further is him saying he has no faith/trust in her (it doesnt matter that she doesnt show it entirely in anger or somewhat, she keeps it inside and carries on with her daily/routine life and thats how she's lived and concealed some of herself inside her (just go back and watch the D and Gulaal convo, and she lets you know how she has lived, infact learnt to live like this - i believe she understands Kesar to a point but its hard to just be there for him and how he is half of the time, coz alot has happened), and said not to doubt on her and what confirmed it even more is what Gulaal said the only person who has a right on him and ever did was Vasant. Which also made him question her, doesnt he have a right over her... which we know in anger Gulaal said no.

As we saw SBS, Kesar also questions that if he and Gulaal werent bounded together in ritual then what really has been Kesar-Gulaal's relation, (we all know what Kes-Gul are to one another not in terms of hubby/wifey but beyond that and the bond they have, that you can define, the emotional bond that is so deep and so connected, that i dont think even they realise how deep it is) so imagine ourselves part of the wedding guests or the family members and see what Kesar is saying, what exact answer can we give to that question he asks, there is only one answer 'that Kesar and Gulaal's relation was of hubby/wifey' even if they didnt or no one believed in it, as i said before during the deeyarvatu as well, that to the world and village ppl, Kesar-Gulaal's identity to them is Husband-Wife, but to each other they are Kesar-Gulaal and only they know the feeling and bond of what they mean to each other.

Consequences of what has happened and will happen today, will have to be dealt with and Gulaal again at a crossroads and the impact of what Kesar is saying and how he has viewed her and this relation as such (its not just about Gulaal understanding/accepting Kesar but other things as well, and even more herself along this junction of her life and so on as times goes along), is again at the deeyarvatu stage, a challenge that has come back again - something we all know she had to face 10 yrs ago when it was bestowed on her (and from what i know it was by JK) what will MB say and PB say, other members of the family and so on... and not only that Talli and her well-being, it doesnt matter what we all think of her the fact of the matter is she is there and she is important to Gulaal and they are close, and the family esp now judging by what has happened, and also at this stage to her in the middle of her wedding.. so in a way i think we can imagine her hurt and so on... i do have empathy for that, i think Empathy is the right word for every character in this show, to feel their pov and feelings .

For Gulaal its gonna be long journey in seeing herself or feeling more for Kesar (for Kesar is somewhat comes easy in how he sees Gulaal and so on and accepting her), but i dont want to get ahead of myself but maybe this junction is about this phase as times goes by...