Window to Sai's mind

I can read Virat's mind, his dilemma's through his actions, dreams and eyes (Neil is best at that). I kind of understand what he feels about Sai.But reverse is not true.

Sai rarely opens up about her vulnerabilities. She masks her vulnerabilities with anger and rudeness. E.g.fear of losing Aaba.She opened up about this vulnerability of hers only with Virat during Video call.

She is also a person who cannot easily express her admiration towards a person or even apologize ( Sorry kehene ke liye itani mushkil..said Gabbar)

Regards to Virat: Firstly her Aaba meant world to her with not much place for anyone else in her mind. However she has deep admiration for Virat and belief on his capatibilities since his entry into gadchiroli.

Jagtap said, "Ye sab akad woh naye ACP ki vajah se hai na?" But when she met Virat just few moments later she went blazing on him.

Also, the confident grin 'the saviour has come' when Virat entered her forced wedding scene said lot about her confidence in Virat. But moments later she showed complete indifference to his presence.

She got angry at Virat for leaving GC and blaming him for her kidnapping also showed her confidence in him as ACP.

What I did not get is her calling Virat (Virat Sir!, after Virat-Sai consoling session), thinking of him just before slashing her wrist, showing off that she does not need him post suicide talk, kind of upset that he did not come on her discharge day.

Eventhough she did not give promise to Virat in the hospital, next day she said exactly what Virat said to her the previous day in the hospital in front of Aaba (photograph). So Virat's thoughts do influence her deeply.

Regards to Pakhi: Many a times it is Sai who brought Pakhi discussion with Virat (at Safe house, at hospital ("go back, Pakhi must be waiting for you"), she has given enough attention to Pakhi so as to understand the equation between her and Virat. Why one would if the person (Virat) himself is not important to her?

The way I see it, Virat has become quite important to her even though it is not explicit yet and how much ever she denies/does not express Virat-Pakhi relation matters to her a lot.

Folks help me understand Sai better!