Second shotIf anyone asks people what was that phase of their life they had enjoyed a lot or miss them now? I assure you many will say it was their childhood time. And I am no different from them indeed childhood had been the best phase ever that carefree life and fun I miss even now. Those memories were always enough to brought smile on my face Until now cause now all I could do is weep for the pain and loss I'm facing. Cause He has been part of my childhood or if I say starting of my teenage life for 8 long years. Now you see how it is for me! I really don't want to think anything about it now this emotional pain is killing me from inside each second but there's nothing I could do to lessen the pain. Nothing is helping right not my own Mom who keeps talking about him how young he is and now this accident what must his family must be going through.
I don't want to sound selfish but I don't need anymore reminder of what happened it's hurting me and I'm afraid the pain is not going to be in peace until it takes my life away. The worst thing is I can not even express my emotions to anyone can't say how much I am going through what will be the consequences anyway people are going to blame me for having Feelings for him. The difference between both family and the other reason for which I'm guilty myself to have Feelings for him is He's younger than me by one year or so! It's complicated from my side and where I'm fighting with my emotions to keep in check in front of people when I am alone I just keep crying and constantly praying for his recovery but there's no progress. Doctors have done the surgery and has given time if he doesn't get his conscious back They can't do anything and will send him back home which means no way of surviving. Plus the financial issues are so hard for family like his and ours everyday taking loan is not possible either. My heart sank thinking of the worst possibilities.
I want to see him so Badly when was the last time I saw him? Maybe 4 years ago and I heard his voice maybe 5 years ago tears still sliding through my cheeks I don't know how his voice sounds like now. I don't know how he looks like now why life is so difficult and my emotions are making it more worse for me.
Where I am constantly lost in his sorrow I wonder if I was there in his memories even for a moment in last 7 years cause by his behavior towards me in those last couple of meeting we had it was evident he doesn't even care for my presence anymore.
Where has gone my childhood companion? I have never give it a thought what he is to me I didn't Thought him to be childhood friend or anything. He was just there in my every day in those 8 years. We have done so many things together from morning till night we were together doing anything and everything. Now I do realize how precious he has been to me always. Those Moments were so beautiful that we have spent together. Awful thing is I don't even know when I have fallen for him. After knowing about his accident his memories had engulfed me in a deep web I'm just getting lost in it completely and my tears too are just spilling on their own to console me in anyway possible to assure me that they are going to be my companion from now on.
I really can't express my Feelings for him what I feel I really can not bring myself to say it in words it's just this sorrow is making me realize the depth of it. You can never say how this emotional pain doing damage to your soul with each passing moment. Emotional pain leaves invisible scars, yet they can be traced by the most gentle of touch.
What have he done to my heart it's just aching to see him once. Did I said that before in my entire 22 years of life he has been the one male friend that I had ever. My morals and etiquette are different from others I don't like mingling with boys much and I don't believe in any kind of relationship before Marriage who knew then I would fall in love with him.
Am I being ridiculous? I have not even mention what his name is to you people... Anyone interested yet cause It's get boring without knowing his name... I will get there with memories from past slowly. So it starts...
"It was many and many a year ago, okay not that too far precisely 13 years ago we met. When my family moved here in this city 13 years ago and rented an apartment at 'His place' from there it all started The Landlord's Son for whom I have fallen"
After the first day we arrived I found our Landlord to welcome us at our New home with his children and 'He' was there. Sorry for not mentioning his name even now I will just like to describe it later how I got to know it. Our Landlord Chuck it I shall call him uncle so he had a really nice personality a very soft spoken person unlike his son who gives people free attitude and looked Arrogant at first meeting itself. For being a 8 years old boy that little guy had huge ego I thought then. He didn't talk to me and that didn't set well with me cause seeing the nature of mine who likes to mingle with people doesn't understand why others should not possess the same thought. He has two siblings two younger sister the small one was only two years old. Tell you a secret Their whole family package seemed really cool and cute to me.
The 3rd day I was at their door step of course to play with them or what I don't possess egoistic nature like them duh.
There I met his mother she was so beautiful! Like it's soothing Feeling to your eyes when you see her. Well I didn't start playing with those kids it takes time to mingle with them which never happened before to me. Those children are really different from their parents. So what I did indulged myself with Aunty and chat with her that thing continued for years though I still Adore her a lot. You know how I got to know His name?
I was sitting with the baby Mahi the younger child and aunty was working. Then Uncle Came and called 'Babu' that's what is used for babies most of the time or so I thought. But after a while I was surprised to see Uncle was not calling to the baby sitting in my lap nor the baby turned in his direction. I thought what's the case Man whom is Uncle calling! And then through the door that awaited one person Came guess Who???
Yeah It's 'Him'. I was like what and was looking at aunty amused. So aunty Said everyone calls him 'Babu' even after having 3 names stuck on his school register I was wondering why? This egoistic creature doesn't Seems like a baby from any angle despite of being so cute.
Aunty cleared to me while he was baby everyone Used to call him 'that' Though he has grown up now no one could drop the habit of calling him 'Babu'. I could not help a giggle escaping from me and The looks that guy directed through my way it was clear he was not pleased with my response. As if I Care anyway!
But an interesting thing everyone calls him 'Babu' Except for his mother who calls Him 'Priyash'
I uttered Priyash as if tasting how it feels to say cause I have never heard this Name it was unique. And this time his looks were soft so I got to know one thing if I want to tease the hell out of this guy These name will be enough...
I have not known for a very long time what does Priyash means it was the other day my curiosity won and asked him what it meant I remember what he said it meant 'Beloved' indeed he was my beloved.
Even his name means so much to me now I love him with all my heart with all my being. I love him like the nascent leaves of spring love warmth, I love him like the ancients loved the night sky, I love Him like a cool draught of water on a summers day. Love cannot be fireworks for an entire lifetime, though we've had our share in those years still the regret of not able to reach him and open my heart is severe. But still until my last breath my Love for Priyash must flow quietly, peacefully, always remaining strong.
~ Geet
Edited by MariumChoudhary - 7 years ago
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