Maan stopped at a tree and punched his hand on the tree trunk... and tears started flowing from his eyes...
Geet rushed to him... Maan ...what happened... are you not happy to see him...
he turned around and hugged her... What I have done Geet ... i cannot even ask a sorry for this... ...
Geet pulled him and wiped his tears nodding in a no...
Geet - no.. Maan... I didn't show him to make you cry... I want you to know about him... I know I am at fault for not telling you before about him... but I somehow couldn't Maan... I was angry...
Maan - don't say that Geet ... I am at fault... I should have known... we...
Geet - I know... but you were not in a position to think anything Maan... I am happy... I have you... your son all the time with me...
Maan - how can you be like this Geet ... I have given you so much pain and you are still talking to me... telling me about Sunny...
Geet took him near a bench and made him sit... she sat beside him and said... Maan sometimes it happens and nothing is in our control...I have learnt this... you were never wrong... you yourself didn't want all that... but it happened... I am not blaming you... you had to chose between me and your family... I understand now... I was foolish then... but I am a mother now and I understood your mothers and dadi's concerns to some extent... as they say... some are not made for each other...
Maan sat quietly and tears are continuously flowing from his eyes... Geet gave him a moment... Maan... I just wanted you to know that you have a son... that's it... I am not here to give you pain or guilt...
he didn't respond... she continued... don't you want to know about your son... she knew he wouldn't ask... she continued... as you have seen him... he is an exact replica of you Maan...and that is the thing I like the most in him... but his habits are not yours... I don't understand him some times... I know he is too small... but I feels he is more matured than many of his age kids... he is very curious boy... I must say Maan... he is a walking questionnaire... what ever he sees... a question comes... Mom.. what's that? and it continues... I doubt he will become a scientist one day... Geet laughed at her silly joke... but Maan didn't say anything... he is still processing the truth... that he father a son and he is unaware till today...
Geet felt she has to remove his guilt... she said ... I left India after a week of our last meeting... I knew I was pregnant... but chose to keep quiet as I was angry on you... I didn't want you to know about him... you left me and I thought now I am his only parent... I don't want to give you any right on him... I went to US... I have my visa and my company needed someone to go... I took the opportunity as I want to be away from here... I have no courage left to see you with someone else... if I am here I will always look for you and it will pain me more... so I left... Dad supported me in this decision... he resigned his job and came with me... as a dependent... I settled there and joined the office... you know Sunny didn't bother me at all in my pregnancy.. I, at times wondered whether I was pregnant or not... coz I didn't feel the normal pregnancy symptoms... he is a sweet heart... he never bothered me... one day I was pregnant and with sunrise... I became a mom... Geet said with tears in her eyes and a smile adorning her lips... the first time I took him I'm my hands... I couldn't stop my self saying thank you Maan ... you gave mea reason to live... Maan saw true happiness on her face...
You know dad called him Sunny ... as he spread sunshine in my otherwise dull life...
and with Sunny's arrival... we both became busy... I joined office few days later and Dad looked him after... even after Sunny's birth... I didn't want to inform you... as I said.. I was angry...
As much calm he was in my womb... he became that more naughty after he is born... he always kept dad running ... Geet said smiling remembering all the incidents...
nearly one year back... something ... or say someone brought this change in me... you know Maan... I used to fight with babaji... used to curse you for leaving me... but everything changed .. when I met her...
One year back... Abhinav joined us... in our team... he is married and had a son by then... he was very good in his work but I found him lost and reserved all the time...then one day at a picnic I met his wife... Meera... I found her cute ... she was a new mother... her baby was few months old...
the baby was crying and she was in verge of tears as she was not able to stop him... I went to her and took the baby... I helped her... we talked... you know what... I was shocked to know that Meera is Abhinav's second wife... Abhinav's first wife died in childbirth... Meera was his Sil... she married her jiju so that she can look after her sisters son... I was shocked... she gave up her dreams... studies... her dream job... everything just for the little boy... you knew I saw you in Meera ... she is struggling everyday... I understood why Abhinav is reserved... he'll never do that... Abhinav couldn't digest the fact his wife left him and his family got him married to Meera ... sometimes I feared you would also be like Abhinav... but I know my Maan...
then I thought for days ... and then dad also said... to let go... coz I got Sunny... he said he also did the same ... after mummy's death... he suffered... but he has me... he saw mum in me... he loved me... he never let me feel her absence... and most important thing he is that I have a chance to see you in front of my eyes despite not being together... he didn't have that option too... he showed me Sunny and said... he is a part of you...
so I should be happy that I have something of you... so I should let go of my anger... he said... if I truly loved you then I should be happy seeing you happy and praying for your happiness... and true happiness comes only if we are satisfied... if we feel we lack something... then we cannot find happiness...
and then a shocking revelation came... and I was shocked... to know... my father left his family... my dadi and dadi wanted my dad to marry again... I was very small and they forced him to marry some of their relative... but he left them before the marriage and took me away too... he didn't wanted to marry again... he came to Mumbai and settled there... he never went back to village again... but he said that he is regretting the decision... he left his parents... he can never undo anything... but he told me he somewhere supported you for supporting your family... he said we can bear the pain and live... but cannot live with a regret...
and when Meera can do this and everyone is praising her for that... then why am I still mad at you... you also did the same... you gave a life to save someone... I agree you didn't know about my pregnancy... I was sure if you knew your would never back out... I thought I should let go my anger ... then finally , I made peace... with the fact that... we are never meant to be... I let it go... and you know Maan... I am happy from then...
and that day... I named Sunny... until then he was just Sunny... I actually named him that day... AMAN... means peace... he actually bought peace in my life... but I understood it late... and see it even matches with your name... actually it's a jumbled word of MAAN... I felt he is connect to you in some way...
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