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Chap-11
'After having our breakfast together, I took my time from maan . I needed space for my thoughts to gather at one place. And therefore I excused myself and returned back to the garden as nature was the only thing which helped me as always, it felt closer to my heart, my true soothing friend at every moment of my life. Settling down on the grassland I leaned back under a tree with my jumbled thoughts. '
'And just one thought crossed my mind, why did everyone always thought about their guilt and pain, maan thought the same and then maa also did the same, where was I in all this? What about me? The consequences of their guilt trip was concluded by me but why me? What had I done oh God! tell me please. I just wanted a simple life for myself, with my loved ones, instead got their guilty trips. I never blamed anyone or maan for my loss, because loosing him was much more painful than anything else. Both mother and son's ruthless rejection covered in their guilt took my life away forever. And now where am I left, now I have given a chance to take a decision, really I don't know but I felt like pathetic person, a kind of person who has been played like a puppet in their hands. A person without any identity or importance.'
'I felt his pain, but it didn't move me this time, it didn't heal my internal wounds. I loved him, I still love him more than he can ever imagine, I listened to his heart felt reasons and apologies, but what about me, did once he asked me what I had felt all these years. No, he just confessed and confirmed that I should decide this time and give him a chance, really a chance again as if I had any choice. '
Here geet was restless and inside maan was pacing like a mad beast from here and there, geet please give me a chance, what if she denies me, his conscience told him, no maan no don't worry she won't deny you, she too loves you, but she never confessed, no maan relax she loves you insanely. She will confess soon. Yes, I know my geet she will love me, she will heal me, she won't leave me I know.' He was pacifying himself with all the positives.
'He asked me to heal him, just like those dark heroes who dump there heroines at first, behave like a heartless jerk to them in the novels because of their so called dark pasts and then the heroine gladly heals them. And here Mr. Maan singh khurana too expects the same. But I am no healer maan, what about my hurt, my wounds maan, whose gonna heal me? I bet maan you are thinking the same.'
'And yes, she was right, he was thinking the same at that time, just stay with me geet I need you my love to heal me, to take me out of this dark world. And I know you won't leave me no matter what, you love me too much.'
'Yes, I won't leave you maan, what to do now I want to become a selfish person, enough of selflessness, what did I get in return as if I had expected anything more. I just wanted my best friend and love that's all. Infact love was far behind in my mind, but maan you made me loose my best friend forever. First I need my best friend back and then only I will think about giving a chance to you, and I am not sorry for what I am going to say to you because you cannot even imagine what you have turned me into. I am scared of myself. I am simply scared now. And without any expectations I am just gonna wait about the consequences this time again, but not before fighting back.'
'I was so restless, why was geet taking so long, I desperately wanted to know her decision. The wait was killing me.'
'The sudden noise of her cane got my senses on alert as I turned around to witness her walking towards me gradually. And from her determined features I knew the decision was made.'
'She came closer to me, keeping her cane aside and her query astonished me for a moment. '
'Can I touch you maan?'
'She...she wanted to touch me.'
'Gulping hard I turned around and denied her calmly.'
'No geet I...'
'Its ok maan and save your reason I just wanted to know your reaction and I got what I had thought.'
'With that she moved away from me and turned back to her room, but not before telling me that she would convey her decision later.'
'And it didn't sit well with me, what...did I messed up once again? I just didn't want her to feel repulsed by touching me, by keeping her beautiful soft hands on my tainted dark skin. I won't be able to bear it. '
'Turning around I saw her ascending the stairs.'
'I was right once again, he once again judged me and denied me. I wish he could have tried to understand my point of view, my pain, how could I have felt repulsed from him, did he think so low of me. A sudden voice from my inside told me to make him understand what I thought. What ? did I do anything wrong in leaving him alone without any explanation. '
'Both thought what they wanted, but never communicated properly. What if they had discussed the situation would have been different. But then this love story would have been so easy with the lovers uniting at once. But what is a love story without any complications, insecurities or flaws. After all not all love stories are epic, but each one has its speciality in a different manner. And this journey has just begun.'
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