SS'True betrayal' Thread 4 - Page 33

Originally posted by: anshra

hi all

just about to finish

little bit left

Originally posted by: softly_spoken

?fi9 and yup tummy full. u done with dinner?

Originally posted by: mishtiritu

Lolz... We have habit of interpreting our brain...

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@SOni... Very true yaar...

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Geet Monologue:

I knew he was standing there. He didn't move from his place. May be he was in fight with himself, he wanted to come and soothe me in his embrace but he was unsure if his touch will soothe me or repulse me.

Repulsion..! That was something I could never feel by his touch. As strange as it was, it was true. The hands that killed dev, the very hand that snatched everything I had, still were not repulsive to me. Infact they still possess that soothing capability. I hated myself for being so vulnerable in front of him. But I was helpless. Still my resentment didn't allow me to turn and stop him. Those few steps were too heavy to take.

He was gone. He was infact gone as if he never existed..! He was actually gone and I was more empty and alone than ever.

nothing is more painful than the last good-bye.

These two words would change my life forever,

Can I ever forget him?

Was it possible..? I asked myself.

No..!!!!!!!!!!! My mind and heart screamed at me. How could his memories fade away when he was already part of me?

I wont be able to see him again..!

Can I bear it..? I asked myself again

Never..!!!!!!!!!!! My mind and heart yelled at me again. I was torn between several things and didn't know any way out.

I don't know how much time have passed. But the room was dark than ever because there was no sunlight outside to lit the room with its single ray.

There was no one there except me. Not even my shadow..! Not even his shadow..!

I was only sitting in that room alone dipped in darkness. His agonized voice was still echoing in my ear. His guilt was still haunting me.

I tried to think through my pain and a low whimper came out of my lips as I recalled the first time we met. He didn't utter a single word but there was so much pain. Then I started to recall his words each time we met.

Don't look at me like that..! Don't look at me like that..!

I still remember when he said those words and then I recalled my answer "because I will fall in love with you..?" and his answer was something that didn't make any sense at that time.

No because I will fall in my own eyes..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I couldn't fathom the real meaning of his words then but now I realize it was because the pain in my eyes added to his strife. There was something in my eyes that gave surge to his guilt and he felt more lowered in his own eyes. He couldn't stand the guilt to see so much pain.

YesI don't know. But I know this pain that is visible in your eyes. But trust me pain of remorse is worse than anything, when you don't have anyone to blame nor fate neither people but only yourself

He was burning in his guilt and remorse. The throbbing pain conquered his existence. His quilt was eating him day and night and he could blame no one but himself.

I don't put price tag on people. Not anymore..! I know how precious a human life is..!

Did he really mean that..? I asked myself and I couldn't deny truth in his voice when he spoke those words. Somewhere I knew he meant each word of it.

I know dammit..! I know you don't need any help but I have already told you that I am in dire need of your help. I Maan Singh Khurana need your help..!

Maan Singh Khurana and help are two opposite things that can't exist together. Was he so helpless in his guilt that he needed all this..? Was he truly repenting..? No matter how hard I tried I could no longer hate him.

Was it really in my control..? My mind asked me and my heart ached at those words.

Sorry..? Thank you..? I don't deserve these words geet. Not anymore..!

He didn't take advantage of me that day. He couldn't touch me that day because he thought he didn't deserve my closeness. He couldn't even accept simple thanks from me.

Because I deserve each bit of it..! I never realized until now that even this pain is not right punishment for me.

Punishment..! Was he seeking and hoping for punishment..? But what punishment can be suitable for it..? I tried to reason but I knew that I couldn't punish him without putting myself in pain because his punishment and his anguish will be my suffering only.

Without you in my arms, I feel emptiness in my soul. I find myself searching the crowds for your face. I feel insecure when I see you walking alone from the office.

Yes I was following you..! I follow you each day to make sure you reach your home safely. And believe me it was never because you needed it but only because it was my own need.

His life is a misery just like mine and he is shattered and alone. This didn't give him peace either. Loving him was something that was not in my control but still one thing was in my control and that was not to see him again.

End of Monologue:

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Originally posted by: mishtiritu

@SOni... Very true yaar...

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